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Jealousy is the fear or apprehension of superiority: envy or uneasiness under it.
- William Shenstone
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To say that Taehyung's simply being jealous right now would be an understatement to what he's actually feeling upon seeing Soo-yun, their homeroom teacher opening the car door for Seo Yeji, their music teacher in front of their school building this morning.
It's not just a crush—sure, it started out that way, but the thing is, he and Soo-hyun goes way back. Soo-hyun is a good neighbor who basically raised Taehyung since his parents are always out of the country due to their work. He grew up looking up to Soo-hyun as a responsible big brother who's always there each and every time Taehyung needed someone in his life.
It was just a crush, until the innocent admiration he felt towards the older man started eating him whole from the inside and out— until Taehyung felt his reluctance to share.
Until he started to catch feelings.
Until he started to lust.
Until he started to be possessed by this damn insatiable monster called possessiveness.
Especially now that the news of Yeji and Soo-hyun being engaged started circulating around their school.
"Fucking bitch." Taehyung mumbled under his breath, still staring at the couple from the open windows of their classroom here on the 3rd floor.
"Pfft, that she is... Are you one of her pets, class prez?" Jeon Jeongguk, a classmate Taehyung doesn't really talk to that much says; staring at the couple as well, standing a foot beside Taehyung, occupying the space of the next window.
"Pet? Me?" Taehyung asks, raising a brow towards the other.
"Oh? So you're not?— Wait... Is it Professor Kim?" Jeongguk asks again, noticing the way Taehyung clenches his jaw upon hearing their homeroom teacher's name. "Pfft, so I'm right?— Class prez, are you gay?" Jeongguk says with an amused grin on his face.
"And if I am? What are you gonna do about it? Start a rumor? Bully me? Get me expelled? Try it, Jeon... Fucking try me." Taehyung says in a tone so low only Jeongguk could hear, staring at the latter with eyes reflecting a serious warning; making Jeongguk comically raise both his hands up, feigning surrender, mouth hanging agape, watching in silence as Taehyung started walking away.
"Oi, oi... Isn't this far too entertaining to ignore?" Jeongguk says to himself, lips twitching on the side as he smirks, glancing down at Soo-hyun and Yeji who's now walking hand in hand down there at the parking lot.
***
Gym class is over and Taehyung found himself here, standing alone inside the locker room with Jeon Jeongguk after he's done taking a shower.
"Say that again?" Taehyung says, scoffing in disbelief, wondering if he heard Jeongguk right or is his mind just playing tricks on him again.
"Yeji and I... We used to fuck.— Here, in the locker room, sometimes in her office, most of the time in the boys bathroom a few minutes before lunch break ends." Jeongguk says, taking the straw of the orange juice packet he's holding, casually taking a sip.
"W-why are you saying this to me?" Taehyung asks, fixing up his round glasses only for Jeongguk to stop him, taking the frame off of him as if to see his face clearly— see if his words were enough to shake him up.
"I don't know... Maybe because we share the same misery? You, towards Kim Soo-hyun and I, towards Yeji... We're one unlucky pair, aren't we?" Jeongguk says, taking a seat on one of the benches in front of Taehyung.
"Pair? You and me? Pfft, don't make me laugh. We haven't spoken since seventh grade and we're seniors now. You're just a stranger to me Jeon Jeongguk, and so am I to you." Taehyung says, aiming to walk away when Jeongguk suddenly grabs him by the hand, stopping him in his tracks.
"What was he like? Did you sleep with him? Was he that good?— Seriously, what does he have that I don't? I wanna know Taehyung... I want to know why she chose him over me, the man she once considered as her favorite." Jeongguk says, eyes fixed on the floor, holding Taehyung's wrist even tighter than earlier.
"Man? You're a kid, Jeongguk. For Yeji and Soo-hyun hyung, we're nothing but kids." Taehyung says, wincing when Jeongguk's nails dig around his wrist.
"Not a kid when she kissed me. Not a kid when she stripped in front of me.— Certainly not a kid when she's been moaning my name on repeat until... Until damn Kim Soo-hyun happened and took her away from me." Jeongguk says, now meeting Taehyung's gaze. Taehyung stood still for a few good seconds, assessing Jeongguk's dark doe eyes, seeing no hint of humor behind it.
Then it hit him.
"Hah... You love her, don't you? The ever so famous jock, Jeon Jeongguk is in love with our music teacher... You're in love with the bitch, and it's killing you now that she's engaged... That's just about it, right?" Taehyung says rather a bit too excitedly, amused at his own discovery.
"Well, It's not like I'm trying to hide it from you, but whatever... And isn't it the same for you too? I've been observing you, class prez. First I thought that you're one of Yeji's pets, and that maybe you're another competition judging from the way you always stare at her during class, but it turns out that you're not. If anything— she's your competition. You're in love with Soo-hyun, am I right?" Jeongguk says as he stands up, still not letting go of Taehyung; taking a step forward, causing Taehyung to step back until his back touched the cold metal locker, with Jeongguk cornering him, both hands laid flat at the sides of his head, leaving Taehyung with no room to escape.
"Mind your own business, Jeon-.."
"Are you, or are you not? Just answer the damn question, Taehyung." Jeongguk says, breathing an inch away from Taehyung's lips, heat touching the latter's skin.
"So what if I am? It's not like we can do anything about it... T-they're already engaged. Last night, she even met Soo-hyun's parents. They... They love her, and the wedding's bound to happen... Hyung— he won't stop it just because some naive highschool kid has a petty crush on him." Taehyung says, chewing on his lower lip as he turns away, averting Jeongguk's gaze.
"Crush? That's it for you? Do you really just have a crush on him? You haven't slept with him?—.."
"For fucks sake, Jeon! What does sex even have to do with this?! Quit bringing it up, will you?!"
"So you did?— I may not look like it, but I got a good intuition, prez... I can read you like an open book." Jeongguk says, tilting his head a bit sideways as he leaned in closer, lips a hair away from Taehyung's cheek, making the latter hold his breath, stiffening on his feet.
"W-we were drunk— he was drunk... We didn't... We didn't go all the way— hyung... Hyung doesn't even remember it. He doesn't like men. He's not gay." Taehyung says, bravely meeting Jeongguk's gaze again, keeping his chin up so their lips won't touch.
"Then how was he? Was he good? Do you think he can satisfy Yeji enough to marry her? She's quite insatiable, y'know? I doubt that boring guy like our homeroom teacher is enough to—.."
"Shut up." Taehyung says, cutting Jeongguk off, disliking the latter's tone towards his Soo-hyun hyung; because if you'd ask him, it's Yeji that isn't deserving for Soo-hyun. She's just a bitch who even dares to fool around with her students during lunch breaks.
"Aren't you curious? I know what she's like... I already have her memorized... I can tell you what you lack, Taehyung. I can tell you why Soo-hyun chose her instead of you." Jeongguk says, unfazed by Taehyung's weak ways of protests.
"A vagina. That's what I lack, Jeon. It's not a big mystery to me, unlike you who's obviously aching to satisfy your curiosity." Taehyung says, deciding to retaliate by flicking Jeongguk's chin while eyeing the latter's lips.
"Pfft, is that so?" Jeongguk says with a soft chuckle, clicking his tongue once as he grabbed Taehyung's arm again, flipping him around so his back's now touching his chest, face pressed flat against the locker. "But you have a hole too, class prez— bet it's even tighter than hers... So why? Why choose her instead of you?" Jeongguk says, whispering right against Taehyung's ear, making the latter gasp, hating how his cock just twitched inside his jeans at being manhandled by this one persistent man behind him.
"T-told you he's not gay, Jeongguk-.."
"But you two kissed, didn't you? Hell, maybe you've done more than just kiss." Jeongguk says, as he boldly pressed his crotch against Taehyung's behind, smirking when he saw how their usually cold and uptight class president bite his lips, eyes rolling back, with a soft moan escaping his mouth.
"T-that meant nothing to him... I— nngh... I'm sure of it." Taehyung whimpers as Jeongguk's arm then circled around his waist, pulling his body closer to him.
"But it meant everything to you... C'mon, prez— indulge me for a moment... Our classmates, our professors— everyone... They just won't shut up about that damn engagement and I'm sick of it... S-she won't even look at me now. I think I'm going mad... Isn't that the same for you too, Taehyung? Aren't you hurting too?" Jeongguk says, breathing heavily this time, letting his head fall over Taehyung's shoulder; sounding so raw, weak— vulnerable, and Taehyung knows...
Deep down, he knows it's true.— He is indeed hurting too.
Taking advantage of the moment, Taehyung then used the display of Jeongguk's momentary weakness to squirm out of the latter's hold— yet he stayed. Turning to face Jeongguk instead of running away.
"Am I pretty, Jeon? You, someone who's crazy for that bitch just like Kim Seo-hyun— Am I pretty for you? Hmm?" Taehyung says, delicate fingers playing piano against Jeongguk's chest.
This man, Jeon Jeongguk. He's someone who belonged to Seo Yeji, just like Soo-hyun: and by looking at Jeongguk right now, Taehyung's certain that nothing has changed— Yeji still owns Jeongguk, but he's here, begging him to do something.
Begging him to ease the pain, his owner has left him with.
"Yes... I've always been curious about you, prez... And yes, I think you're pretty— too pretty for a man, I mean." Jeongguk says, getting swayed by the way Taehyung bats his long lashes, casting its alluring shadows over his face.
"Say that I let you humor me... What is it for you? What are you after, Jeongguk?" Taehyung asks, now willingly leaning in, letting his lips brush against Jeongguk's chin.
"You love him, right? Kim Soo-hyun, I mean... You're his, right?"
"Mm-hmm..." Taehyung hums, lips curling up to sly smirk, thinking that he got Jeongguk now.
"Then I want you. I want to take something away from him too... Just like how he stole Yeji from me— I want to steal from him too." Jeongguk says, feeling no actual need for him to not be honest.
"Good. We're on the same page then... I want to steal something from that bitch too— and that would be you, Jeon Jeongguk... You're fine with that, aren't you?"
"Yeah... Totally."
***
It's been a week, and the news indeed traveled fast. News about how the student council president, Kim Taehyung and Basketball team captain, Jeon Jeongguk are dating now.
It's not like they're trying to hide it anyway, and if anything, they're actually broadcasting it, mainly to overshadow the news of their two professors being engaged, making them the whole school's new hot topic.
"Pfft, did you see his face? I think he's jealous." Jeongguk says, leaning his back against the metal railings here at the rooftop with Taehyung during lunch break; pertaining to Soo-hyun's reaction when Taehyung introduced Jeongguk to him as his boyfriend earlier.
"No? He was worried. You're not exactly the ideal man he had pictured to be my first boyfriend after all." Taehyung says, taking a sip of his strawberry milk.
"Tch, but you have to admit it; our plan worked, right? Finally they stopped gushing about that damn engagement.— Now I can finally breathe." Jeongguk says, reaching for Taehyung's wrist, taking a sip of strawberry milk that the latter's holding.
"Yeah, right... But us 'dating' doesn't change the fact that they're still engaged. The wedding's still gonna happen and all we did was to stop others from talking about it."
"Way to kill the mood, prez... Way to kill the mood." Jeongguk says, rolling his eyes at Taehyung who's about to say something when the school bell suddenly rang; followed by Jeongguk taking his drink away from him, before holding his hand.
"Ready to go, lover?" Jeongguk says, flashing a wink at Taehyung who's now the one rolling his eyes at him.
"*Sigh* Whatever. Let's go, Jeon." Taehyung says, holding Jeongguk's hand as well, intertwining their fingers together as they walk away.
***
"You and Jeon Jeongguk? Well, who would've known? Care to explain, huh?— Best friend." Jimin asks in full sarcasm, a bit upset since Taehyung never even mentioned ever being friends with the infamous basketball team captain.
"C'mon Chim... It's no big deal. It just happened." Taehyung says. It's their free period when Jimin snatched him away from Jeongguk's arms, pulling him here at the library, the latter's chosen spot to finally interrogate him.
"iT jUsT HaPpeNed... Yeah, right. Cut the bullshit, Tae. I know you, and I know that you've been head over heels in love with Kim Soo-hyun since forever. So tell me— when did Jeon Jeongguk happen, huh? Are you two really dating? Are you even aware of that guy's reputation? I can't believe—.."
"He's a good guy, Chim. A bit disturbed, yes— but aren't we all?" Taehyung calmly says, cutting his best friend, Park Jimin, off, raising his brow towards the latter, giving a hint that it's about time for them to end this conversation.
"Tch, fine. If you're not gonna tell me the whole story, then at least tell me that you like the guy for real, and you're not just dating him because professor Kim is now engaged with Seo Yeji." Jimin says in concern, because he knows Taehyung— and he's aware of the latter's self destructive tendencies when it comes to that one great love of his.
"Of course not, Chim... I like him. Jeongguk is nice. Give him a chance yeah?" Taehyung says, an obvious lie of course, but it's not like Jimin could tell the difference. He's a good actor after all.
"*Sigh* Alright, but you better be careful, okay? I know he's hot, but I don't want you to get hurt again, Tae."
"Pfft, I'll be fine, Chim... Don't worry." Taehyung says, smiling at his best friend. Little did he know, he'll be eating his own words a few hours after.
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"I love you."
Soo-hyun's words rang on repeat in Taehyung's head as he stood here outside Soo-hyun's office after class, silently watching while the latter took Yeji by the waist, placing soft tender kisses all over the woman's face.
"Aww... I love you too, baby." Yeji says, and Taehyung feels like he's gonna be sick, stomach churning in disgust, sensing how fake her reply is.
"You okay?" Jeongguk whispers as approaches Taehyung's side, noticing the latter standing stiffly outside Soo-hyun's office while he's passing by.
"No. Are you?" Taehyung asks him back as he looks away, leaning against the wall, with a single tear streaming down his face.
"No, I'm not.— Wanna get out of here? Those two, make me sick." Jeongguk says, catching a glimpse of the couple who's shamelessly making out inside the room.
"Same... Yeah, let's run away, lover. Get me out of here."
***
It's not like Jeongguk is an actual stranger to Taehyung. Of course, they know each other; maybe not that deeply, but they've been in the same class for years now, and even though they've never been close, Taehyung knows that Jeon Jeongguk isn't one to act like a brokenhearted fool— so he's still surprised to see Jeongguk cry silently with him here at their gym's storage room.
"*Sniff* What?" Jeongguk asks, glancing up at Taehyung with his glossy bambi eyes, wiping his tears off with his sleeves.
"N-nothing... I just didn't expect to see you cry like this." Taehyung says, looking away as he wipes his own tears as well.
"Tch, I just saw the love of my life being in love with another man— cut me some slack, okay?"
"Hah, lucky you... Wait till you hear their exchange of their disgusting 'I love you's'." Taehyung says, letting himself plop back on one of the rubber mats here in the storage room.
"D-did they? Before I came? Did Yeji say the 'L' word to him?" Jeongguk asks, scoffing in disbelief, sad face contorting to rage.
"Oh yes they did... Sparkly eyes, love dust and all that shit. T'was disgusting." Taehyung says, closing his eyes hoping it'll get rid of the image that's still playing in his head.
"Fuck! Should we go back? Shit! They must be fucking by now!"
"Soo-hyun hyung? Hah, never... He'll never do those things— not here in school, at least." Taehyung says, knowing full well how disciplined their homeroom teacher is.
"Tch, it's Seo Yeji we're talking about, prez... She'll have him in whatever way she wants him, okay?! Besides, didn't you see how they sucked each other's faces earlier? They're a damn second away from fucking on top of that desk— we should stop them-.."
"And do what? Create a scene? Have 'em lose their jobs for doing the nasty inside the school premises? I'm not gonna go that far, Jeongguk... Please, give me a break and use your fucking head for once, okay?" Taehyung says, elbows pressed down on the mat, pushing himself up a bit to pass another deathly glare towards Jeongguk who has the same look on his face.
"It's not fair... T-that should be me, y'know? It's our thing... Yeji and I— after class sex, is our thing." Jeongguk says as he balled his fists, angry just by the mere thought of him being replaced.
"Well guess what? Not anymore, Jeon... Not anymore..." Taehyung says, not bothering to filter his words.
"Why are you even so cool about this? Don't you feel bad? Aren't you upset?— Aren't you jealous?" Jeongguk asks, baffled at how nonchalant Taehyung is.
"I'm his student. He treats me like a younger brother, and I'm gay... Unlike you, I never stood a chance, Jeongguk. It's not like I'm not affected, because I am. The only difference between us right now is, I know that even if I cause a scene— I won't be able to do anything." Taehyung says, watching as Jeongguk walks towards him, standing behind, hovering over him. "What?" Taehyung asks, glancing up, meeting the unreadable expression on Jeongguk's face as the latter sat behind him, caging him between his parted legs; hands shamelessly massaging Taehyung's shoulders, until the latter collapsed with his back pressed on Jeongguk's chest.
"Aren't you curious, Taehyung?— Maybe not that much, since he already touched you once, right? But right now, aren't you curious at how he's touching her? Holding her?— Don't lie... You're just like me, prez. Right now, you're aching to be in Yeji's place... Just like I'm aching to be in Soo-hyun's place." Jeongguk says, doing that damn thing again; whispering against Taehyung's ear with that sultry honey voice of his— tempting...
Tempting Taehyung to close his eyes and follow his pace.
"He must be touching her breasts by now... God, she loves it whenever I play with her chest... She's so sensitive, y'know?— Bet Soo-hyun loves touching her as well." Jeongguk continues as his hands crawl down to Taehyung's chest, acting on his words, keeping his eyes closed; and Taehyung's not stupid. He knows why Jeongguk is doing this— and the thing is...
He's not actually against it.
"H-he's not as horny as you, though? Nngh..." Taehyung says, breathing out a low moan as he lets his head fall back on Jeongguk's shoulder.
"He's a man, Taehyung... Give us a pair of tits and a hole and we'll go by instinct... You know it, right? After all, he touched you too... Drunk or not— gay or not, he touched you too." Jeongguk says, feeling a bit bolder that he's now placing soft wet kisses all over Taehyung's neck, while his skillful fingers undo the buttons of Taehyung's shirt, sliding it in, caressing the latter's bare skin.
"H-hyung..." Taehyung murmurs with his eyes closed, imagining Soo-hyun's hands on him as he tilted his head on the side, moaning right against Jeongguk's lips.
"Yeji-ah..." Jeongguk did the same, moaning the woman's name, pretending that he's not getting drunk by Taehyung's scent.
"Kiss me... Kiss me, hyung." Taehyung says, sounding so needy that it snapped Jeongguk out of his trance, now staring at Taehyung whose eyes are still closed, looking so fucked already just by having his chest fondled for a few good minutes.
"Fuck." Jeongguk hissed, closing his eyes again— unable to resist, that he found himself claiming Taehyung's lips, keeping one hand on the latter's flat chest, while the other travels down, swiftly unbuckling Taehyung's belt, letting it slip inside his pants; moaning between the kiss upon touching another man's hard cock with his own skin.
This is wrong.
Taehyung knows that all this is wrong— that the man who's touching him right now isn't Kim Soo-hyun. Still, he let himself give in, head spinning in wild circles as Jeongguk continued to pleasure him.
He tastes sweet. Jeon Jeongguk's lips taste sweet, far sweeter than Soo-hyun who tasted like soju and beer two months ago when he guiltily took advantage of the older man's drunken state, and kissed him that night— just a few hours after they're done celebrating his birthday.
Jeongguk's hands and touch are skillful and precise. He knows what he's doing, unlike Soo-hyun who could barely even stand that night when he took him to bed.
It's different. Way too different that Taehyung feels absolutely pathetic to even compare, but still it feels good.
It feels better to have something than nothing, after all.
"Nngh... Hyung... Yes.. Ahh.. 'm near..." Taehyung continued to moan, panting almost out of breath between the kiss, lifting his arms up, grabbing the back of Jeongguk's hair as he chased his nearing release.
"C'mon baby...Yes, just like that... Hmm... Yes, cum for me..." Jeongguk says, eyes shut close, jaws clenched, enduring the tightness he's feeling between his legs as he continued to stroke Taehyung's cock, feeling it throb hotly against him palm; gasping and moaning when Taehyung finally came undone, spilling his cum all over Jeongguk's hand—
Waking him up to the reality of what he has just done.
Gulping and frozen in place, Jeongguk stared at Taehyung's pleasured face, until the latter opened his eyes again, now meeting his gaze.
"J-Jeongguk..." Taehyung says, still catching his breath, heart pounding fast inside his chest.
"Y-you okay?" Jeongguk asks as he quickly zips Taehyung's pants up with his clean hand, before standing up, still unable to look away from the sight of Taehyung's post orgasm state.
"Yeah... A-are you? Uhm... H-how about you?— You're...*cough*" Taehyung suddenly doesn't know what to say, glancing subtly at the obvious bulge between Jeongguk's legs, making him flush so hard that he had to look away.
"Ah— haha... Yeah, I'm cool. Don't mind me... I— I should go... Gotta wash my hands, y'know?" Jeongguk says, feeling the sudden panic take over him.
"Yeah, yeah... Sure... You should go. I— I'll just stay here for a minute." Taehyung says, watching as Jeongguk awkwardly smiles at him before rushing out, shutting the door close behind him.
"*Sigh* I'm so fucked up..." Taehyung mumbled under his breath as collapse on his back again
***
'He's avoiding me.'
Taehyung is sure by now that Jeongguk is shamelessly avoiding him. Well, he did try giving him the benefit of the doubt, but it's been three days and now their classmates and friends are starting to think that they have broken up just like that, because Jeongguk didn't really bother to hide the fact that he's avoiding him like a plague.
'Why?'
'It's not like I'm the one who jumped him, right?'
'The whole thing was his idea in the first place and I just went along with it, because— because..'
"Fuck." Taehyung mumbled under his breath, yet still enough to catch Jimin's attention, head shooting up in concern, putting down the book he's currently reading here in the library with him this free period.
"Sorry?" Jimin asks, wondering if he heard him right, for Taehyung isn't really one to curse out loud.
"N-no... I'm sorry. I— *sigh* Chim, I'm such a mess, really." Taehyung says, dropping his head down the desk, fists balled tightly on his lap.
"Wanna tell me about it?"
The offer itself sounds tempting, because even though Taehyung likes to keep his private life— well, private; Jimin, his best friend has always been an exception. However, Taehyung's not sure if he could take hearing his best friend tell him he's an absolute shithead right now.
Knowing Jimin, he most probably will.
"Naah... Maybe I'm just tired. Finals are coming up and—.."
"Kim Soo-hyun or Jeon Jeongguk?" Jimin asks, totally not buying Taehyung's poor choice of an excuse.
"*Sigh* Both..." Taehyung admits, for there's no use, Jimin was already able to read him like an open book.
"Well, isn't that the price to pay for rushing into things? I know you, Tae... And I know that there's no way you'd forget about Soo-hyun just like that. So what's the deal with Jeon Jeongguk? Why him? How?"
"I didn't lie when I said that it just happened, because it did.— Him and me, it just happened. We just happened to be two people who share the same misery." Taehyung says, breathing out another sigh of defeat.
"Share the same misery? Wait— are you telling me that Jeongguk has the hots for Soo-hyun too? Is that it?" Jimin asks, keeping his voice low despite the obvious shock in his tone.
"No, not Soo-hyun hyung... It's Yeji. Apparently he's that bitch 's toy— or pet, or whatever... You get it, don't you?" Taehyung says, closing the book he's not actually reading, stacking it with the others as he stands up, while Jimin rushed to follow him from behind, leaving Taehyung with no other choice but to tell him everything that has been occupying his mind.
***
"God, Tae! I know you're not the smartest when it comes to love and relationships, but this?!" Jimin asks, still in disbelief after hearing Taehyung's side of the story.
"I told you it wasn't my idea, Chim. It was his... And now— and now he's avoiding me. Why? Was it because-.."
Taehyung wasn't able to finish what he's about to say when he saw Soo-hyun and Yeji together here in the hallways as he and Jimin walked back to their classroom.
They're laughing.
Yeji's shyly tucking her hair behind her ear.
Soo-hyun's blushing.
Their pinky fingers are touching.
Taehyung's heart is breaking.
Hopeless love.
Painful love.
Unrequited love.
Is love really such a beautiful thing?
No.— Taehyung thinks that there's nothing uglier than what he's currently feeling.
"T-Tae..." Taehyung's pretty sure that he heard Jimin call out his name, then again, his ears are muffled, hearing nothing but the sound of Soo-hyun and Yeji laughing, mixed with the sound of his own heart that's currently breaking.
Then, it stopped.
Then, there's a hand covering his eyes, making him see nothing but black; followed by that familiar scent of the man who's probably experiencing the same nightmare with him right now.
"Oi." Jeongguk says, covering Taehyung's eyes from behind.
"You..." Taehyung mumbled under his breath, having no idea how to properly respond.
"Yo, Park... Mind if I borrow 'my lover' for a bit?" Jeongguk says, noticing the other male on Taehyung's side.
"Lover my ass." Jimin says, sassily rolling his eyes while Jeongguk raises a brow, still holding Taehyung from behind.
"Go." Jimin says. Well, after hearing everything, he thinks that Taehyung might want to be just anywhere but here, seeing Kim Soo-hyun flirting with the woman he's about to marry.
"Thanks.— C'mon now... Let's go." Jeongguk says, removing his hand that's covering Taehyung's eyes, turning him around almost immediately after that, holding the latter's wrist as they walk towards the opposite side.
"You're not crying aren't you?" Jeongguk asks, still walking along the busy hallways, pulling Taehyung with him until they both reach the empty staircase.
"No? Are you?" Taehyung asks, internally applauding himself for being able to stay calm.
"No... I'm kinda used to it by now." Jeongguk says, averting Taehyung's gaze as he lets go of the latter's wrist, hand automatically flying up to his nape, scratching the back of his hair rather awkwardly, as if he's just reminded of the fact that he and Taehyung hasn't spoken for the past three days.
"Why were you avoiding me?" Taehyung asks, feeling no need to beat around the bush.
"Pfft I'm not avoiding you now, am I?" Jeongguk says, feigning a soft chuckle, all while still avoiding Taehyung's eyes.
"Yeah, until now?— Well anyway, just to let you know. That's pretty shitty of you, Jeongguk..." Taehyung says, sounding obviously annoyed now.
"Look. I needed to think, okay? Last time I checked I wasn't gay... Then we kissed. Then I touched you— and..."
"And then what? You were disgusted? Is that what it was? Well, you could've just told me about it, y'know? We're not even friends to begin with so I wouldn't really take it against you." Taehyung says, leaning his back against the wall as he lets himself slide down, now sitting on the floor.
"No. That's not it—Let me finish will ya?" Jeongguk said as he sat on the floor as well.
"Fine, go on."
"Tch, as I was saying... Last time I checked, I'm not gay. Then I kissed you, and touched you and I... How do I even say this? I— fuck!" Jeongguk hissed, turning on his side as he grabbed Taehyung by the nape, letting their lips meet once again, full on staring at Taehyung's wide eyes as soon as they parted. "I wasn't repulsed by it." He continues as he pulls away, huffing a lungful of air, leaning his head back against the wall as if nagging himself for acting on impulse again.
"Kissing me wasn't really necessary, y'know?" Taehyung says, sounding unfazed, despite the actual chaos in his head.
"Yeah, I know..." Jeongguk says in a low tone, now turning towards the glass windows, watching the autumn leaves swirl in the wind all while hating how the atmosphere here suddenly feels romantic.
"So what now? Are you gonna chicken out? Should we announce our break up?" Taehyung asks.
"Do you want to?" Jeongguk then throws back the question at the other, not really aware of the right answer.
"Well, you're the one who started this, Jeon. I was just kind enough to humor you... Though if I'd be honest, I would probably feel like a loser if we announce our break up now, especially after seeing how disgustingly in love those two are." Taehyung says, pertaining to Soo-hyun and Yeji earlier.
"Same... She— she asked me about you actually. Yesterday after class. Asked me if I'm seriously dating a guy now." Jeongguk says, recalling the scenes with Yeji yesterday.
"Did she now?" Taehyung asks, sounding bored as usual.
"Yeah... Pfft, told me she feels sorry for me... And that she was actually hoping to meet my future wife and children someday— and how it wouldn't happen now that I just came out gay... Funny right?" Jeongguk says with a bitter smile painted on his face.
"What a bitch." Taehyung says, spitting out his anger in just three words.
"Pfft, true... Well, it was actually entertaining watching her come up with words to spite me— putting up a sweet face like that, but I know deep inside she's horrified to know that one of her pets just found a new owner— a man, at that. Someone she could never compare herself with. It's not like she can grow a dick and a pair of balls, after all. Pfft." Jeongguk says, laughing now, yet Taehyung's not blind. He knows that Jeongguk's still affected by Yeji, just like how he's affected by Soo-hyun still.
"Pfft... Wouldn't it be funny if she does?— Grow dick and balls, I mean... Bet she wouldn't know how to hide 'em under those short skirts she loves wearing." Taehyung says, deciding to just go with the flow. Comforting each other isn't part of the deal anyway. They're just doing this to not appear as pathetic as they actually are in front of the two people who broke their hearts with no regards.
"Hahaha, don't— you're making me imagine it. Pfft. That's dirty, Tae." Jeongguk laughs, genuinely this time.
"Ouch! Now I'm dirty?" Taehyung says, feigning offense, even going as far as dramatically clutching his own chest.
"Tch, not you! Her!— She's the dirty one... N-not you." Jeongguk says, instantly regretting turning towards Taehyung again, gulping all nervous as his eyes locked onto Taehyung's face, meeting the latter's deep gaze.
"Hey... Should we kiss?" Taehyung asks, tone dropping a few octaves lower than usual, eyes falling down on Jeongguk's lips— on that damn mole on his chin.
"Yeah... I think we should." Jeongguk says before he leaned in, claiming Taehyung's lips for a rather heated kiss.
"Hyung..."
"Yeji-ah..."
A foolish thing to do indeed— clinging onto mere substitutes like this.
'I don't like you.'
'But I'll hold on to you... We're the same after all... Pathetic— you and me, we're really pathetic, aren't we?' Taehyung thinks, looking at Jeongguk's eyes as they break the kiss.
***
Jeon Jeongguk; Basketball team captain. Tall, fair and handsome, not to mention that more than half of the school's population is a member of his unofficial fanclub.
Kim Taehyung; Student council president. Tall, tan, smart and handsome; with the other half of the school population (both males and females) crawling to get his attention.
Jeon Jeongguk and Kim Taehyung. They're two of the most popular students of their highschool, and yes— they are dating.
A perfect couple indeed.
If only they're not pretending.
***
"Ah, Jeongguk, that lucky bastard!" Jaehyun, one of Jeongguk's teammates says, staring at Jeongguk and Taehyung outside from their classroom window as the two walk hand in hand on their way home after class.
"Well aren't they the perfect match? I mean, just their visuals alone is already topnotch. You think you could ever compete with that? Pfft." Hobi, Taehyung's friend as well as their classmate says, peeking to look at the couple as well.
"But TaeTae shouldn't even have a boyfriend! I'm supposed to graduate in peace, thinking that my highschool crush is way too unattainable for me to pursue! Tch, Jeon really has to ruin the fantasy for me, huh?" Jaehyun says again, comically clutching his chest as if he's really heart broken.
"Pfft, but you have to admit, they look good together, right?" Hobi says again, earning a nod from their other friends.
"Right, right... Whatever." Jaehyun says, rolling his eyes playfully at the others.
***
"You can let go now." Taehyung coldly says, now that they're a few blocks away from the school building.
"Right.— So, I guess this is the part where we part ways, huh?" Jeongguk asks as he lets go of Taehyung's hand.
"Yup, like always. See you tomorrow, lover. Thanks for today." Taehyung says before he turned his back and walked away, leaving Jeongguk standing there.
...
How many weeks has it been? Has it been a month perhaps? Or maybe even more than that? Taehyung cannot actually tell, and to be honest he has no intention of tracking time as well. He's just braving his way until graduation, then it will be over.
For good, that is.
With a deep breath, he let himself collapse on the bed, staring at the ceiling, embracing the emptiness that's slowly been consuming his whole being.
In two weeks, Soo-hyun and Yeji will get married. In two weeks, Taehyung can finally put an end to it, thinking that maybe this is the damn closure that he needs, yet he can't say that he isn't terrified by it.
For years it has only been Soo-hyun and him. Soo-hyun, who did his utmost best to fulfill the roles of both mom, dad and big brother for him— however, Taehyung never wanted those from him.
He wanted to kiss him. Touch him. To be loved by him.
Love.
What a damn scam, love is; and now he's fooling around with someone who shares the same unfortunate fate as him.
Jeon Jeongguk, with his dark doe eyes and bunny smiles.
Jeon Jeongguk and his warm hands, soft lips, and tender hugs.
Jeon Jeongguk, who looks at him as if they're the only people around.
Jeon Jeongguk, that burns. That sparks. Explodes into million stardust's everytime they touch.
Jeon Jeongguk and the damn lie they made themselves believe.
...
From time to time, Taehyung finds himself thinking about what happened between them inside the cramped storage room after class. That first kiss. That first touch, and how Jeongguk managed to mimic Soo-hyun's touch.— And from time to time, Taehyung finds himself pulling down his own pants, closing his eyes, feeling a little desperate to relive the illusion that Jeongguk had painted inside his mind.
Then, he'll fail every time.
"Nngh... *Sigh* W-why can't I— ugh! Fuck this..." Taehyung hissed as he let go of his now softening cock after pathetically spending the last 15 minutes trying to come, failing again just like last night and maybe even the night before that.
*Bzzt... Bzzt...*
Taehyung almost jumped off his bed when he heard his doorbell buzzing all of a sudden. He's not really expecting any visitors today and if it's his parents then they should've just gone in without any problems— which means the one outside could only be one person.
Kim Soo-hyun.
Great.
...
"TaeTae! Hi! It's been awhile, right? Uhm... Wanna have a drink?" Soo-hyun asks, waving the plastic bag he's holding, filled with chilled cans of beer as soon as answered door for him.
"Hyung, I'm your student, remember? Should you really be asking me to drink?" Taehyung asks, rolling his eyes at Soo-hyun, feigning annoyance despite the obvious flush on his cheeks upon seeing the older man's face.
"Tch, c'mon! It's just us, and besides tomorrow's a weekend so we'll be fine." Soo-hyun says, looking away as he scratches the back of his neck. With just one look Taehyung could already tell that the man isn't okay, and somehow Taehyung feels even shittier now than earlier when he's unable to come using his own hand.
"Why? Did you two fight again?" Taehyung asks, crossing his arms against his chest, leaning against the door frame; still not welcoming Soo-hyun in.
"Y-yeah... Kinda? T'was something about the tie I wore earlier at school, y'know the blue one?" Soo-hyun says, and of course Taehyung knows that. The said tie was his gift after all.
"The one I gifted you for your 27th birthday?" Taehyung asks, even though he already knows the answer to that.
"Yes... Apparently, she thinks it's too old so she wanted to replace it... Said it was a gift, so I can't throw it away— t'was chaos after that, I'm sorry." Soo-hyun says, feeling a bit embarrassed at telling Taehyung all this; but what can he do? Despite his age, Taehyung's his only friend after all.
"*Sigh*Come in." Taehyung says, giving in, for even though he hates to admit it, he kinda feels relieved that Soo-hyun decided to keep his gift, thus the reason why he's letting him in.
Instantly regretting it by the way.
...
"*Sniff* I just don't understand... *Sniff* What's wrong with me? I mean... I'm trying ,Tae. I'm really trying so hard to meet both her wants and needs, but why do we always end up fighting? *Sniff* Pfft, to think that we're not even married yet—.."
"Then don't marry her." The words came out from Taehyung's mouth like a word vomit. Well, they're both tipsy, and he's not really in the mood to console Soo-hyun right now. He doesn't get it; why is Soo-hyun too into that woman when they clearly have nothing in common?
Soo-hyun's the typical good son— probably the common soon to be good husband. He's uptight, simple, disciplined, principled and mature, while Yeji— well, Taehyung doesn't really know much about her, but after hearing Jeongguk's stories about the woman, Taehyung could safely say that she's nothing but trouble. A rather promiscuous woman hiding behind a sweet smile. A vixen. The devil incarnate... Okay, maybe that was too much, but for Taehyung at least, that's what she is, so he just can't fathom the idea of Soo-hyun ending up with a woman like that.
No. It's just absurd.
"Pfft, TaeTae... You're so cute. You love me don't you?" Soo-hyun playfully asks, leaning almost all his weight on Taehyung's side, words slurred from all the drinks they had; completely oblivious of the fact that he just made Taehyung's heart drop.
"Y-yeah... I do love you hyung..." Taehyung says, voice so little it sounded like a whisper, turning his head away from Soo-hyun to hide the tears that are threatening to stream down his eyes.
"Hmm... Then you should know that I'm in love, right? I love her... Even if she could be a— pfft, witch sometimes... I'm gonna marry her. I'm gonna marry that witch of a w-woman...." Soo-hyun drunkenly says before he passed out, head dropping straight onto Taehyung's lap, and from there, Taehyung just couldn't find the strength to hold back. He let his tears fall, crying his lungs out.
"Y-you're so cruel, y'know? I hate you, hyung..." Taehyung says as he stands up, carefully placing Soo-hyun's head down the couch before he grabs his coat and phone, heading straight out the door; seeking solace, warmth...
Jeon Jeongguk.
...
*Ring... Ring...*
'Hello?' Jeongguk says on the other line— and just like that, Taehyung found himself breaking down, hugging his knees in the middle of the empty street, finally feeling no need to hide his tears.
"H-hey, lover... Mind if I crash at your place tonight?"
***
*Bzzt... Bzzt...*
Taehyung counted to three after he pressed the buzzer. He's now here standing right outside Jeongguk's door after the latter texted him his address; located in a fancy building within a fancy neighborhood—surprisingly. Shivering from the cold, Taehyung then hugged himself, staring at the puddles of water on his feet, for it's as if the universe has connived to shit on him more, it rained hard on his way here.
One. Two. Three.
Taehyung continued to count, and just when he's about to press the buzzer again, the door swung open, revealing a freshly showered Jeon Jeongguk, cheeks flushed red with his hair still dripping wet.
"H-hey you." Taehyung says, chewing on his lower lip as he looks away, suddenly feeling embarrassed at his current state.
"God, look at you! You should've just told me to pick you up! Tae, you don't even have an umbrella! Tch, c'mon in, you'll freeze to death at this point." Jeongguk says, immediately pulling Taehyung inside his apartment before rushing to grab a few clean towels.
"Sit." Jeongguk says, while Taehyung just shook his head, making Jeongguk raise a brow at him instead. "And why not?" He says again.
"I— I'll get your couch wet... J-Just show me where the bathroom is, then I'll change there." Taehyung says, still refusing to meet Jeongguk's concerned gaze, feeling a little out of place within this rather expensive space.
"*Sigh* I could just call the cleaning lady tomorrow, y'know? But you're right, you should take a shower first. I'll fix up the bath for you, yeah? For now, dry yourself a bit. I'll be quick." Jeongguk says, handing the towel to Taehyung before going straight to his bathroom.
***
"*Sigh* what the hell am I thinking, really?" Taehyung mumbled under his breath as he dipped down the tub filled with the warm water Jeongguk had prepared for him as the latter went out to get a fresh set of clothes.
Calling Jeongguk was an impulsive decision on his part, and he knows that as soon Soo-hyun wakes up, he'll be bombarding his phone with messages and calls asking where he went in the middle of the night. Though quite frankly, Taehyung doesn't care about that now. All he wanted was to get away and not breathe within the same space with the man who was brutally honest about his feelings towards another person in front of him.
Truth be told, he could've gone to Jimin's place, but he didn't really want to worry his best friend too much so he went to Jeongguk instead. At least here, there'll be no emotions attached.
Or is it?
*Knock... Knock..*
"I brought you clothes. You can wear 'em once you're done, okay?" Jeongguk says, placing the set of his clothes down the sink, watching as Taehyung just nodded in response before thoughtlessly sliding his head down the tub, breathing more bubbles in his bath.
"Tch, I know we're messed up, but no dying on my watch okay?" Jeongguk says as he sits at the side of the tub, pulling Taehyung's head up, letting it rest on his lap.
"Who says I'm dying? I just wanted a quick dip, 's all." Taehyung says, glancing up as the latter hovers over his face, taking a deep sigh before grabbing the bottle of shampoo on his side to wash Taehyung's hair.
"You're really a handful, prez... What happened this time, huh?" Jeongguk asks as he carefully lather the shampoo all over Taehyung's locks, brushing it rather tenderly while Taehyung just hummed in response.
"Not gonna answer? Well, that's a shame... You're missing out on free therapy, then." Jeongguk shrugs, still he proceeds to wash Taehyung's hair, feeling how soft each strand glides between his fingers, creating suds like a cloud over Taehyung's face. 'Cute' He thinks, ignoring the fact that the sweatpants he's wearing are now wet, given the position that they're in.
"Hmm... Soo-hyun's passed out drunk at my place. They fought, and somehow he thought that it's a good idea to get drunk with another man who has feelings for him." Taehyung says, keeping his eyes closed; indulging himself at the comfort of Jeongguk's fingers massaging his scalp and hair.
"Well, it's not like he's aware of your feelings, y'know?"
"Hey, who's side are you on?" Taehyung asks, brows contorting to frown which made Jeongguk chuckle a bit.
"Pfft, as if I'll ever gonna defend that scum."
"Watch your words, Jeon." Taehyung says with a hint of warning this time.
"Why? You call Yeji a bitch every time and you never heard me complain, right? Let me be. Besides, I know a scum when I see one." Jeongguk says, playfully placing a drop of suds at the tip of Taehyung's nose, making the latter wince, eyes shooting a glare at him.
"Tch, aren't we scums as well? We're not really any better, y'see?" Taehyung says with a bitter smile now painted on his face as Jeongguk calmly takes the showerhead, rinsing Taehyung's hair.
"Point taken, I guess... Though, it's been awhile since we started this. How long do you think we could still play this game?" Jeongguk asks, softly brushing the remaining bubbles on Taehyung's head.
"Why? Wanna stop now?"
"No? Well, it's not about us in particular, y'know? *Sigh* What I'm trying to say is, how long are you gonna keep your feelings a secret from Soo-hyun at least? As for me, at least Yeji's well aware about it. She just chose to be a bitch, because that's how she is." Jeongguk says, looking straight into Taehyung's eyes this time.
"Tch, what's the point? He's just gonna reject me anyway, so why bother?" Taehyung says as he sat up, only to be pulled back by Jeongguk, with the back of his head crashing onto the latter's thighs again.
"So what? Are you telling me that you're gonna pass on the opportunity to mess up his head before their long awaited wedding day? Oh wouldn't it be fun to see him waiting at the end of the aisle without a smile but a guilty expression on his face instead?—Taehyung, are you seriously not seeing this as our great opportunity for revenge?" Jeongguk asks, eyes turning rather dark and empty, but with a rather sinister glint on it.— And somehow, Taehyung's not scared. No. He's not even bothered by it.
"Pfft, you're really petty, y'know?" Taehyung says with an amused smirk on his face.
"But you're considering it, right?" Jeongguk asks again, a little more teasing this time.
"Ugh, I don't know... I really don't wanna think about it. -- Now, are you gonna watch me rinse or are you up for helping me with it?" Taehyung asks, raising a brow coyly at Jeongguk, enjoying the sight of the latter's cheeks almost immediately flushing pink.
"Tch, do it on your own, you big baby. I'll be outside." Jeongguk says, turning away in a flash and walking away with a hidden grin on his face.
***
"Uhm... Where's the pants?" Taehyung asks, pulling Jeongguk's oversized hoodie he's now wearing together with a pair of fresh boxer briefs as he stepped out after his bath, while Jeongguk just casually lies on the bed, loudly munching on some chips.
"Well, I don't know about you but I'm not stupid enough to pass on the opportunity of seeing you in my shirt— wearing nothing but my shirt, prez... By the way, I already locked my closet just in case." Jeongguk says, flashing him a wink after eyeing him from head to toe, making Taehyung breathe out an audible scoff.
"Hah! You're really shameless, aren't you?" Taehyung says, pushing Jeongguk on the side so he could sit on the bed as well.
"Shameless and proud, prez... Shameless and proud." Jeongguk says, laughing as he picks up some of the chips he dropped on the bed.
...
Jeongguk then played a random movie for them to watch. Legs tangled up under the sheets; Taehyung found himself snuggling closer to the other man.
"Two TV's, really? You never told me you're loaded Jungkook-ssi." Taehyung says, feeling an involuntary shiver run up his spine as Jeongguk chuckled lowly while pulling him closer in his arms.
"Well, you never asked— but yeah, kinda. I guess?" Jeongguk says, feeling the urge to sniff the top of Taehyung's hair, so he did; humming all satisfied when he smelled his own scent on it.
"Shame on Yeji, then... She might not know it but Soo-hyun's actually broke, so she basically lost the chance of having a young sugar-daddy right here."
"Hahaha, true. I'm young, rich and hot. What more can she ask for, right?" Jeongguk says, not really paying attention to the movie, giving it all to Taehyung instead.
"Was it painful, though? Rejection, I mean." Taehyung asks, making Jeongguk's laughter die down.
"What do you think?" Jeongguk asks, tone deeper this time.
"I don't know... I never confessed, remember?"
"Hmm... When she told me that she's already dating Soo-hyun, I was pissed— angry even, then the pain only came after that. It's quite a process and right now, I'm still feeling a mixture of both... It's not easy watching someone you love be in love with another, y'know?" Jeongguk says, meeting Taehyung's soft gaze as the latter glanced up at him.
"We're really the same, huh? The only difference is, I'm way too much of a coward to face my inevitable rejection once I confess."
"Keeping it in isn't cowardice, Taehyung. If you think about it, you're actually the brave one between us two. Like you said, I'm petty and also quite vengeful; you on the other hand are brave enough to bottle it all in just to save Soo-hyun from the guilt, taking one for the team. Bravery has different forms, so yeah... You're not really a coward if you'd ask me." Jeongguk says, fingers brushing the stray hair away from Taehyung's face.
"Really? Aren't you just saying this out of pity?" Taehyung asks again, tempted to touch Jeongguk's face— so he does, leaning in closer as he caresses Jeongguk's cheek, feeling himself drown in the latter's dark doe eyes staring back at him.
"I'm not one to sympathize, prez... You know me." Jeongguk says, lips brushing against Taehyung as he speaks.
"Do I?" Taehyung asks, eyes now fixed in Jeongguk's lips.
"Do you want to?"
"Do you want me to?" Taehyung asks again, wanting to hear the answer from Jeongguk's mouth instead.
"Hah... I want to 'do you'." Jeongguk says, hissing as he claims Taehyung's lips, letting their mouths collide in one heated kiss; tongues immediately dancing in wild heat as Taehyung crawls on top of him.
"You need to tame that damn mouth of yours, Jeon." Taehyung says in between his heavy takes of breath as soon as they break the kiss.
"Why? Tempted?— Do I tempt you, Taehyung?" Jeongguk asks, hands sliding down past the dip of Taehyung's back, landing on the latter's plump ass before sliding further down towards his inner thighs, spreading it apart, causing Taehyung to gasp, now fully straddling his hips, ass laid on top of his crotch.
"What are you doing to me, really?" Taehyung asks, tone dropping a few octaves lower, eyes drunk as Jeongguk rubs his thighs up and down.
"Helping you forget? Though aside from that, I'm doing nothing yet— unless you want me to, that is." Jeongguk says, hands traveling up to Taehyung's waist, hissing silently upon realizing how it fits perfectly, as if it's meant to be there.
Rather than answering, Taehyung then kissed him instead; letting Jeongguk switch their positions over, pinning him down on the bed.
"You are such a tease, prez..." Jeongguk says, now hovering over Taehyung, eyes locked on his as if memorizing the face under him. His eyes are deep yet it's still bright, as if they're holding thousands of galaxies in it, and somehow that made Taehyung wonder if Jeongguk also looked at Yeji like this... Oh, of course he did, maybe even more lovingly than this and that thought alone opened the lid of the can of worms inside Taehyung's head, pulling out that ugly thing called greed.
"Is it working?" Taehyung asks, heart pounding inside his chest before it skips a beat when that devil-may-care smirk appears on Jeongguk's lips, while pushing a tongue on his cheek.
"What do you think?" Jeongguk asks, pushing down his now hard shaft against Taehyung's crotch, earning an audible gasp from the latter, finally realizing that he's doing no better than him.
"Kiss me, Jeongguk. Just shut up and kiss me again, will ya?" Taehyung says, which left Jeongguk with no other choice but to grant his request, kissing him feverishly hot, tongue roaming on each corner of his mouth. They kissed and kissed until they felt the need to breathe, pulling back only for Jeongguk to latch his lips on Taehyung's neck, painting purple bruises and red bite marks all over the latter's honey skin.
As the hoodie that Taehyung's wearing rides up, Jeongguk's hands then grab Taehyung's bare waist, grunting and moaning as the warmth boils further up as if it's about to burn him— and Jeongguk doesn't mind it.
No, not even one bit— in fact, he's craving more of it.
Taehyung moaned as Jeongguk pressed his lower half harder against his, cheeks flushed pink either due to the alcohol he drank earlier or because of Jeongguk's body heat. He continued mapping kisses all over his neck, leaving none of him untouched— none of him untasted. Jeongguk's low grunts keeps on vibrating against his skin, sending waves of heat turning to cold shivers up his spine, making him arch his back, head pressed down hard on the mattress when Jeongguk's hand found its way between his legs, palming his cock, fingers tracing the shape of his hot hard shaft.
"You're leaking, baby... Turn on much?" Jeongguk smirks, whispering directly in his ear, earning a rather high pitched moan from Taehyung which got them both frozen in place, eyes meeting in the same lustful gaze.
"..'m s-sorry... I didn't— that wasn't-.."
"Shit, Taehyung... Touch me. Fucking touch me please." Jeongguk groans, free hand grabbing Taehyung's wrist, guiding it down and tucking it inside his sweatpants. Taehyung then bit his lips, staying still for a few good seconds, letting the fact that this is really happening sink in, before he decided to move willingly, tugging Jeongguk's pants down, revealing the latter's hard cock, while Jeongguk did the same for him, pulling his boxers down; hissing as they both press their cocks together, finally feeling each other's heat skin to skin, with no bothersome clothes in between.
"You're so fucking pretty, prez... I think I'm going mad now." Jeongguk says as they started stroking each other clumsily, whispering sweet nothings onto Taehyung's ear; until his voice faded to moans when they finally found the right pace, now moving in perfect sync.
"Taehyung... Nngh... Yes, baby... Just like that..."
"Taehyung."
"Taehyung."
"Taehyung."
Taehyung continued to hear his own name rolling out on repeat from Jeongguk's mouth as the latter continued to pleasure both of their cocks in his hand, precum dribbling down from their tip to their shaft, creating more of that damn lewd sound.
Their voices sync in one pleasured melody, echoing all over Jeongguk's room, resonating past their skin, filling up Taehyung's head with no other thoughts but Jeongguk and Jeongguk alone— but wait...
'Taehyung'
'Taehyung'
'Taehyung'
Jeongguk isn't supposed to call him by his name, right? He's supposed to be just a proxy who's just mimicking somebody else's heat. He shouldn't have a name.— No, Taehyung shouldn't have a name while they're doing this.
'Taehyung'
'Taehyung'
'Fuck... Taehyung.'
But his name sounded so good from Jeongguk's mouth. It sounds like a song. A damn good melody that Taehyung wanted to own.
'Yes... I like that.'
'Yes... Call me more... Say my name more...'
Again.
Again.
Again.
"J-Jeongguk... Jeongguk, I'm near... Nngh..." Taehyung moans, making Jeongguk freeze for a bit, eyes fixed on him.
"Say that again." Jeongguk says, voice deep, eyes dark, hot sweat dripping down onto Taehyung's cheek.
"F-fuck... I— I said I'm near... Nngh. D-don't stop now, please." Taehyung says, completely oblivious at how needy he sounded just now.
"No, not that..." Jeongguk says as he continued to move his hand, a smirk curling up his lips when he felt Taehyung thrusting his hips, fucking himself into him. "My name, baby... Say my name." Jeongguk says again, gritting his teeth as he speaks, jaws clenched, feeling his own nearing release.
'No. I shouldn't.... We shouldn't.' Taehyung thinks, but fuck! There's just no way he'll be able to back out from this.
"J-Jeongguk.... Nngh... Jeongguk. Jeongguk— mmph...." Jeongguk then sealed his name in Taehyung's lips, swallowing his voice in another deep and heated kiss, both of them grunting and choking on their own moans as they both reached their peaks, shaking rather violently from their release.
Jeongguk then collapsed on top of Taehyung, staying still while they're catching their breaths. Taehyung’s now staring blankly at the ceiling, feeling Jeongguk's heartbeat against his chest, with a ton of thoughts swimming inside his head.
'That was different, wasn't it?' Taehyung thinks as Jeongguk finally rolled off of him, plopping himself down the bed.
"Jeon, we—.."
"That was nice... Excuse me, I'll just get something to clean us up." Jeongguk says before hopping off the bed, walking straight towards the bathroom instead.
"*Sigh* Am I just overthinking again?" Taehyung asks himself, feeling the exhaustion from earlier's events and his current high take over him, pulling his lids down and heavy, taking a few deep breaths before his thoughts were then silenced as he fell asleep.
***
Standing by the full glass windows of his room, overlooking the city lights below, Jeongguk then takes a sip of his beer, hissing as his throat gets coated with that bitter heat.
*Ring... Ring...*
"Yoongi hyung, why?" Jeongguk says as he picks up his best friend's call.
'Where the fuck are you Guk? You said you'll be coming tonight!' Yoongi says, since the basketball team all agreed to go to Jaehyun's place to drink and play some games tonight.
"Naah... I can't hyung. Something came up, I'm sorry." Jeongguk says in a low voice to not wake Taehyung up from his sleep.
"Let me guess. It's Kim Taehyung again, am I right? *Sigh* Guk, you'll get hurt, I'm telling you! Just stop it while you still can, okay? Just... Just stop fucking lying and just tell him the truth for god's sake..." Yoongi says, sighing in defeat, for he's aware of the game his best friend and their class president has been playing these past few weeks— also the truth Jeon Jeongguk has been hiding behind all the lies he built around their little play.
"Don't worry hyung. I got this. I'll call you later, yeah? Tell the boys I'm sorry. See you on Monday." Jeongguk says, dropping the call before Yoongi speaks again, because honestly speaking, he already knows what Yoongi will say. He'll tell him to stop and run away— but how could he?
'Sorry hyung. He already called me by my name. Me, not that damn Soo-hyun... But me— Jeon Jeongguk. He looked at me. Finally, he can see me. ' Jeongguk says as he turns towards the side of the bed, staring at Taehyung's face.
They say that when you have something you wish for the most, you should say it out loud and repeat it over and over again until your subconscious mind believes it to be true, then once it does, your wish will then manifest naturally in your life.
"Stay." Jeongguk says, as he presses a soft kiss on Taehyung's lips, then repeating the same words again and again.
Stay.
Stay.
Stay with me, Taehyung.
Stay.