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Third person's pov…
“So Denkssss…..Tell us. What was your first relationship like??” Mina asked, stretching her words a little as she giggled a little at the end.
In all honesty, Denki never would have imagined that his little pity party would turn into the bakusquad barging into his room to play 21 questions while high as shit. But I guess this is what life is amounting to now, enjoying the company of his friends so he wouldn’t have to confront his demons at the moment. Currently, they are all sitting in their little circle of trust passing around a joint, Bakugo, and Kirishima decided against smoking tonight so they could take care of the group after they were tired.
Now take in mind that when Denki gets high his filter kinda loses up and his words come out his mouth before he can even think about what he just said. So when he answered Mina’s question in all honesty everyone was speechless.
“It didn’t end well, I mean I guess the guy thought I was too much or something so he broke up with me.” he shrugged taking a hit off the joint and passing it back to Sero
“Are you telling me that asshole just up and left you because you are a little more hyper than most people?” Mina asked looking completely pissed off
“I mean, he was about to go off to college soo…” he looked down at his hands clenched together across his lap
“Wait... College!! Denks, how old was he??” Kirishima asked causing me to look up at his face
“... Eighteen…” Embarrassed he tried looking anywhere but their faces deciding to focus on the wall right next to his bed instead.
There was a collective of gasps around then it went silent and Denki could practically hear the gears churning in their heads
“Wait, that would mean you were what, 14 years old??!!” Sero whispered and yelled eyes wide looking at Denki
“Isn’t that like illegal or something?” Mina asked almost right after Sero
“I was mature for my age and he wasn’t a bad guy.” Denki tried defending himself, finally looking back at the group but flinched back when he saw the pure anger in Bakugo's eyes.
“It doesn’t fuckin matter sparky, you were 14 and he was 18 he should have known it was wrong and illegal to do something like that,” Bakugo said looking at Denki the anger was completely gone from his eyes now only showing concern
“He didn’t do anything to you, right?” Mina asked with a shaky breath not wanting to hear his answer
At that Denki looked to the floor, eyes glazed over as he remembered the soft voice and the caressing hands saying that it was what he wanted. Snapping himself from the memory he looked back up at his friends.
“It was something I wanted, okay? I wanted him to do those things with me. I asked him to sleep with me.” Denki’s voice was sharp as he tucked his knees closer to his chest.
His breathing picked up as locked-up memories started bubbling to the surface. The tugs to his hair, the whispers in his ears saying this is what he wanted, this was what he asked for, saying he had to be a good boyfriend or they wouldn’t be able to be together anymore. The pain between his legs when his virginity was taken from him clouded his mind as Denki started rocking back and forth trying to calm himself down.
His eyes were filled with tears as he kept muttering how it was his choice he wanted, how he didn’t mind the pain he could deal with. Denki’s vision was starting to get dark when he felt someone take one of his hands and place it on their chest. Looking up he could barely see who the person was but the steady beating of the heart beneath his fingertips was calming.
“KI…NKI…DENKI!” Snapping his head up at the loud voice his golden eyes met with crimson red as he got a clearer view of the person in front of him. Bakugo.
When Bakugo noticed Denki looking at him with clearer eyes chest still rising rapidly from the harsh breathing he was doing at the moment.
“Okay good, I need you to try and follow my breathing.” Bakugo took a few deep breaths urging Denki to follow and soon after Denki was following Bakugo's breathing while Kirishima was rubbing soothing circles on the smaller boy's back.
Once Denki calmed down he looked up at the two boys and smiled a small smile with tear-stained cheeks mumbling a small sorry before looking down at the floor, embarrassed he just caused a scene when they were supposed to be having fun.
Denki’s pov…
‘Dammit!! They know and now I ruined the whole little hangout thing’. Staring hard at the floor trying to control the tears that were threatening to start falling once again was the only thing I could do at the moment, too embarrassed to look up at any of the bakusquad. Feeling the steady heartbeat beneath my hand reminds me that Bakugo still has my hand against his chest, and Kiri is still rubbing circles on my back.
“Denks, I’m sorry I brought it up. I didn’t mean for you to freak out like that.” Glancing up at Mina I could see the tears in her eyes.
“It’s all good, sorry for ruining the hangout session and everything, but I think I'm ready to call it a night if you don't mind.” Giving her a tired smile she nods her head and takes Sero’s hand guiding him to the door.
“Denks, babes you didn’t ruin anything, we love you and shouldn't have pushed you into answering anything, we’ll see you tomorrow, and don't push yourself too hard.” Mina smiled one last time before leaving the room and closing the door.
Pulling my hand away from Bakugo’s and standing up to get away from Kiri’s gentle touch made my chest hurt for reasons I didn’t want it to. Signing I walk to my closet trying to find something else to wear feeling too suffocated in the clothes that I was currently wearing. Taking a glance behind me I see Kirishima and Bakugo silently talking to each other and I couldn’t help but laugh a little.
‘Dammit I’m still fucking high’ I mentally groan holding my head in my hands, and pulling at my hair. Why were they so goddamn attractive? Taking a deep breath I look up to see two sets of red eyes staring at me with concern written across their faces.
“I’m fine now thanks to you guys, so ya’ll can leave whenever imma just heading off to sleep. I’m still a little high right now.” I smiled at them hoping to get them out so I could try and keep them out of my head
“Sparky, we are not letting you out of our sight until we know you won’t lock yourself away in your room and suffer alone,” Bakugo stated arms crossed looking over Denki
“Kat’s right Kami, We wanna know you're okay before we leave you alone and if that means we gotta have a sleepover in Bakugo’s room then that's what we’re gonna do.” Kirishimas let out a toothy grin and gave him a thumbs up slinging his arm around Bakugo’s shoulder, and just the closeness of those two made my heart hurt even more.
“Fine, but I'm stealing some big clothes from one of you. All of mine are tight and fit me, I feel suffocated, I need comfy and that's the only way you’ll get me to agree to this.” I gave them one of my signature smiles and before I could get an answer I walked out the door heading to Bakugo’s room.
I could hear Bakugo and Kirishima's footsteps behind me as I went up the stairs to go to Bakugo’s room. My hands were shaking, from what? I don’t know, maybe I was finally sobering up from the weed and the reality of what went down is finally gnawing at my brain. Or it’s the fact that I’m going to be spending the night with two of the hottest boys on campus in one of their clothes. I held my hands together and squeezed them in hopes of stopping some of the shaking. The next thing I knew I was in front of Bakugo’s dorm waiting for Bakugo to open the door while Kirishima went next door to his dorm to get changed I’m guessing.
Right when Bakugo opened the door Kirishima walked out of his dorm in some gray sweatpants and a black muscle shirt which definitely did not leave me staring at his incredible biceps nope my brain did not go there this fine evening. In his hands, he was holding another pair of clothes and held them out towards me. Looking at the clothes for a second I grab them and smile.
“Thanks, man, this is certainly appreciated.” I looked up to Kirishima who was smiling back
“No problem figured you’d prefer mine since Kat’s not one to really share,” Kirishima smirked and looked at Bakugo who scoffed at the remark and walked into his room, following close behind was Kirishima. Walking behind Kiri I closed the door and looked at the two holding up the new set of clothes.
“Where should I change?” I asked looking at Bakugo who then gave me a look and shrugged his shoulders
“Wherever you want sparky, just don't leave your clothes in a heap on my floor.” He scoffed and then went to his own closet to grab a set of clothes. Pulling out a gray muscle shirt he shook off his own shirt and changed into the new one right there and I couldn’t help but stare at the way his back muscles flexed as he pulled the new shirt over his now bare back.
Realizing my own staring and feeling my flushed face I turn around and shrug off my own shirt and pulling Kirishima's one over my head as quickly as I can, doing the same thing with my pants, pulling on the sweatpants and tying the string around my waist as tight as it could go so they wouldn’t accidentally slip off. Once I was fully dressed I sat down crossed-legged and picked up my shirt, folding it the best I could then doing the same with my pants and placing the newly folded clothes in my lap. Hearing a snicker of a laugh from behind me I somehow maneuvered my whole body around carefully so as to not mess up the folded clothes now situated in my lap.
“What?” I asked, looking over at two boys standing near the closet, Bakugo shook his head and walked over grabbing my folded clothes and placing them on his desk.
“Nothin' man, just you’re unexpectedly tiny?” Kirishima smiled, walking closer to me and looking down, making eye contact with me.
“I’m not tiny, I’m funsized and if you two weren’t so fucking tall and jacked you guys would be just as small.” I huffed standing up and crossing my arms looking over Kirishima.
“I highly doubt that Pikachu.” Bakugo scoffed walking to stand right next to Kirishima
They were about the same height with Kirishima running a little taller and more built than Bakugo. With both their arms crossed wearing matching smirks looking down at me, I am not ashamed to say they were hot and I couldn’t keep my face from turning slightly red realizing the situation I was in. With the gray short-sleeved shirt Kirishima gave me sliding off my right shoulder exposing my collarbone along with part of my shoulder and the length of his sweatpants almost covering my feet like an extra pair of socks I felt smaller than usual in front of these two. Be still my bi heart.
“Okay, what are the sleeping arrangements cause if I’m gonna be sharing a bed fair warning I like to cuddle.” I smiled trying to change the topic with how small I was now that I was fully conscious of the two boys in the room
“On the bed, I’m against the wall because I’m not getting kicked off my own fucking bed. Pikachu in the middle since you’re the smallest and Kiri on the other side of the Pikachu.” Bakugo stated, getting on the bed and removing the duvet to get situated.
Wait, we're all sleeping on the same bed, shit my brain can not handle this much in one night. I’m going to be in between both Kirishima and Bakugo while I sleep, it’s gonna be one hell of a comfy sleep and I’ve always imagined being held in those strong arms while I drifted off to sleep. Now that it’s become a reality though my brain and body just froze.
“Kami come on it’s time to get some sleep it’s like 2 hours past Bakugo’s usual bedtime and he’s getting kinda grumpy.” Kiri smiled, already getting himself situated on the corner of the bed leaving me a spot in the middle.
“You sure it’s not gonna get too crowded, I can always sleep on the floor you know.” I smiled rubbing the back of my neck in a nervous tic
“Get in the bed sparky, I'm not gonna say it again, and turn off the light before you do.” Bakugo huffed, sounding annoyed and so I did what I was told and turned off the lights and crawled my way into the middle of the bed with Bakugo throwing the duvet over me and Kirishima.
I sank into the pillows which were surprisingly soft and felt both Kirishima and Bakugo throw their arms over my chest causing me to sink further into the soft pillows. I let out a breath and eventually let myself be lulled to sleep by the slow and steady breaths of the two boys next to me. ‘This feels really nice.’ I thought before finally drifting off to sleep.
Kirishima’s pov…
I woke up confused as to where I was when the memories suddenly came back and I realized I was currently in Bakugo’s room. Glancing at the clock I groaned when it only read 2:30 in the morning. I usually don’t wake up this early so, deciding to go back to sleep, I lay my head back down when I notice Denki shaking and breathing really quickly as a few whimpers escaped his mouth. Shit he was having a nightmare, It was given thanks to all that had happened this past year but to see his usually happy face so scared and his body shaking had me worried. Noticing a few tears escape his closed eyes I gently tried wiping them away only to get a shock to the hand.
I yanked my hand back and held in the small yelp that threatened to escape my throat, not that the shock hurt it was just unexpected. When I was about to try again Kaminari bolted awake, eyes frantically looking around the room trying to register where he was. When he didn’t recognize his surroundings his breathing picked up and his hands went to grab his hair. He was going to drive himself into another panic attack at this rate. How am I supposed to calm him down? Bakugo usually knows what to do in situations like these and I really don't want to wake him up right now.
“Kami, can you hear me?” I questioned looking at his now knuckles that were turning white from gripping his hair so tight, when he made no sign of being able to hear me I reached out my arm and put it on his shoulder. At the sudden contact, he flinched back and his breathing sped up and more tears escaped his eyes.
“Don’t touch me!” Kaminari whimpered trying to be firm but his voice was groggy from crying and just waking up. “Please don’t. I’m sorry. I won’t do it again. I’m sorry.” Kami cried, releasing his hands bringing his knees to his chest, and hugging them.
Before I can move to wake Bakugo up, he’s already sitting up rubbing the sleep from his eyes glancing at Denki and then at me as if to ask what's going on.
“I woke up to him having a nightmare and then when I tried to calm him down he woke up and went straight into a panic attack. I tried talking to him but he didn’t hear me and then when I tried to touch him he flinched back and said not to touch him.” I whispered over hoping not to startle Kaminari, “I think he thinks he’s still dreaming cause he said something about how he won't do it again and stuff. I tried to handle it but you’re way better at this kind of thing.”
“Okay, I get the gist of what's going on and all. But before I can calm him down Ei you need to take some deep breaths of your own. I can’t deal with two panicking people at once.” Bakugo stated, shrugging his shoulders and scooting over to Denki trying to make himself as small as possible. Taking a deep breath I calm myself down and get ready for whatever Bakugo may need me for.
Bakugo’s pov…
“Denki, I need you to nod your head if you can hear me,” I said in the gentlest way I could after a little while I was going to try again when a small nod came from the panicking blonde.
“That's good, you’re doing great Denki, I need you to tell me if you need anything.” He nodded took a shaky breath held it for a few seconds then let it go
“C..can I... I hold.d your hand? Please.” he asked, stuttering and his voice seemed so broken. I could hear Kirishima take in a deep breath
“Yes, you can. You’re doing great, okay Denki.” I smiled lightly trying to get him to calm down some more. He held out a shaky hand and I grasped it on my own. He let out a shaky breath and squeezed my hand as if to ground himself. His hand fit perfectly in mine and it was so small.
“Good, now I need you to focus on your breathing. Can you do that for me Denki?” I asked, looking at his face trying to calm down his speedy breaths. He nodded his head and looked at me, shaky golden eyes met mine and I was mesmerized for a second by how fragile he looked in that moment.
“Okay I need you to breathe in through your nose for 5 seconds and out through your mouth for 5 seconds can you do that for me Denki?” I asked, when he nodded I smiled and then started helping him with his breathing until he had fully calmed down and became more aware of his surroundings.
“Thanks, Bakugo.” Denki looked at me and wiped the tears from his face with his free hand still holding onto mine with the other, “Sorry for waking you guys up.”
“It’s all good, What are friends for Kami, I was already awake before you did so don’t feel bad.” Kirishima smiled, moving closer to Kaminari and putting his arm around the smaller one's shoulders.
“How often does this happen?” I asked in a slightly harsher tone hoping to get a straight answer from him
“I don’t know, it really depends on my stress levels. Like during exam weeks and all it could happen every other night but on a normal day and everything I just get the normal nightmares.” Denki answered leaning more into Kirishima
“Okay can you tell me what the dream was about?” he flinched at the question and started biting his bottom lip, and I hate to admit that it was cute
“I don’t know, just stuff that happened in the past I guess.” He shrugged and crossed his arms hugging himself
“Kami, what kind of stuff was it that caused you to panic so much?” Kirishima asked, rubbing small circles on Kaminari’s arm. He stiffened and after a few seconds let out a long breath and nodded his head.
“Just promise you won’t get mad at me,” Denki asked in what I would say in the smallest voice possible.
“We promise, so long as you tell us the truth we won’t get mad at you.” Kirishima smiled looking at Kaminari hoping to reassure him in any way possible.