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"I wasn't enough for you; you've made that clear time and time again, Dean," Sam says as he desperately fights off tears. Dean just scoffs and says "Well at least I was a good son and didn't leave my family behind just for some sort of "Normal" life! Hunting is what we do, Sam. it's the family business, but you've never wanted that, did you? No, you decided to leave me and Dad behind to go off to college!" Sam looks at Dean with tears rolling down his face."Yes, I did want a normal life, Dean! John was always disappointed in me, and John was the one who told me if I walked out the door to not ever coming back! I wanted to call you Dean, I did, but Dad wouldn't allow it! Das was the one who picked up the first and only time I called you after I left. Do you want to know what he told me? He told me not to bother you again!"
Dean looked shocked; he hadn't seen any calls from Sam in his call logs. Sam is sad and angry at the same time, "and for all you claim to be 'protective' over me, you sure seem to have disregarded me and my emotions on multiple occasions! Especially when you had the Mark of Cain, and don't give me that bullshit excuse that it wasn't you because it was you! The Mark just made it harder for you to hide your emotions and thoughts! So yeah, when you told me that you wished it was me up on that pyre instead of Charlie, I knew you meant it! Especially because it wasn't the first time you wished me dead!" Dean's face fell at Sam's words; he couldn't even deny it, let alone find the words to deny it, because it's the truth.
"Sam-" Dean begins to say but Sam just shakes his head "No Dean, I've had enough, I'm tired Dean, I don't want to hunt anymore, and I have gotten out on multiple occasions but the only thing that keeps on dragging me back in is you and..I'm tired of it...I'm tired of being Lucifer's vessel, I'm tired of constantly getting blamed for things out of my control, tired of being your personal punching bag when you get to stressed or to angry! Just...i don't know if I can keep living anymore Dean" Sam says with an exhausted tone and Dean feels his heart break even more "Sammy, please-" Dean now has tears slowly running down his face "You hurt me but I still trusted you Dean." Sam looks back at his big brother, the one who swore would protect him. "I just think it's easier for you when I'm not around." Sam turned around and left the shady motel room they were staying in
"Sammy, please don't do this," Dean says as tears run down his face. "Why didn't you say how bad it was?!" Dean asked as he went after Sam, his little brother, the one he failed, he thinks about calling for Cas but he immediately shoves that thought to the side, Cas won't be able to help here, Sam needs Dean more than anyone else right now and he's intent on making sure his little brother won't go and do something stupid. "Sammy, I'm sorry for everything I truly am!" Sam glances back at Dean and just sighs "Everything is temporary, this is just one of those things, I'm sorry Dean...but just let me do this, let me do one thing right for once" Sam says his voice bordering on desperate. Dean just shakes his head "No Sammy, just know if you do this then I'm right behind you, because I can't do this without you Sammy" Dean says as he grabs ahold of Sam's arm, Sam just looks back at Dean with tears. "Yes, you can, Dean, you have before; you can do it again." Dean shakes his head and tightens his grip on Sam's arm."No, Sammy, even if I can, I won't."
"Dean please, just let me do this please I'm just so tired of it all" Sam says practically pleading with his brother. "Tell me what I can do to make you stay! What I can say, so you won't leave. I need to know how to fix this!" Dean begs for his little brother to stay so they can work this out, so he can be a better brother. "There's nothing you can say or do to make me stay...maybe in another life we can be better brothers but not in this life I'm sorry just set me free" Sam says as he yanks his arm out of Dean's grasp. "No, please, wait, please. Can we just talk..please? I don't want to live life without you Sammy, please don't make me!" Dean begs his brother to not leave him. Sam just sadly shakes his head and says "I'm sorry but I know you'll be able to, you've always been stronger than me after all"