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AD: sup
KD: not much! uh
KD: i'm just rly tired, i'm kind of sick of school man
AD: i get it
KD: bro i wish i could just run away sometimes, i rly hate this shit
KD: mom's being weirdly overbearing, this group project i'm doin has kinda gone bad so far, and i'm just super stressed from it
KD: like why do i even need to bother with this
KD: i rly do wish i could just
AD: just?
KD: y'kno
AD: i'm not entirely sure i do kris.
KD: just drop off the face of the earth n be alone
KD: maybe not completely alone but just away from this shit y'kno
AD: i think i kind of get that.
KD: i pray to angel daily hoping i can just run off with you to yr dorm n stay with you
KD: on the down low y'kno
Asriel felt... something, hearing this from his sibling. Something he's not entirely sure is good. It feels like there's a knot developing in his stomach, along with a certain warmth. He couldn't really lie, there was a part of him that wanted to keep Kris away from everything that got to them so much. He always had this urge, and its felt as if Kris has been complaining about this kind of thing for weeks, months at this point.
It became a recurring point of conversation. Asriel would message them after they got out of school, Kris would inevitably complain about how stressed they were, mention how badly they didn't want to deal with anything they were forced to, and the conversation would wander to something else shortly after. He felt the need to try distracting Kris, they were family. What good was family if they couldn't help in situations like this? It seemingly hasn't helped them at all though. The stress and desire to get away from everything they were forced into on a near daily basis still kept popping up in their conversations.
Then, there was the part of this topic that would make Asriel feel warm. Overly attached. In a way he knew wasn't any good. Asriel loved Kris, of course he did, how could he not love his younger sibling? Right before he left for college though, it became a very, very intense feeling. Too intense. Accompanying those feelings were thoughts that, if vocalized around anyone, would leave him alone, ostracized from society. Thoughts that wouldn't let him into heaven, especially if he acted out on any of them. Oh Angel, he wanted to act out on them though. Asriel couldn't help himself.
Kris would mention wanting to run off with Asriel a lot, and each time it happened, without fail, Asriel would be confronted with this now familiar feeling enveloping him. Confronted with the thoughts he'd often have on his own, but more viciously. They'd all come to the front of his mind whenever this happened. Each time Kris brought this up, something within him wanted to indulge the kid, and to indulge himself. He wanted to snatch them up so badly, take them to his dormitory or one of his old shared housing, and keep them in his bedroom. All for himself. Kris would be all his, they couldn't do anything about it, even if they wanted to. That's assuming Kris would even want to do anything about it.
With each successive mention of wanting to run away, wanting to hide from this world, wanting to stay with their big brother Azzy and keep out of sight of anyone else, it became harder and harder to keep himself from cracking. Angel, he wanted it more than anything. Asriel would kill for them. He would kill to keep them comfortable, kill to keep them to himself. The thought of being able to cuddle with them nightly again and get his paws on their small, supple frame without having to face any consequences or resistance, oh Angel, it was truly intoxicating. He could feel his cock twitching from the thought of it. Asriel was far past living in denial of his desires by now, and became more accepting of them. It was hard not to bask in the thoughts whenever they came to mind, impossible not to jerk off to the idea of being able to use his sibling however he wanted. While part of him still consciously registered how wrong this was to any sane monster, it didn't stop him or make him slow down the way it used to. He was too far gone.
KD: azzy?
AD: sorry, zoned out. sup
KD: i miss you so much
KD: super badly
Fuck, here it goes again. Such a loving kid. So sweet, so innocent. Kris shouldn't have this effect on him at all. They haven't even got past 9th grade, they're his sibling for Angel's sake. As terrible as it is, both these facts drove him even more insane. Asriel just wants to be the best big brother possible. He was beyond caring about what that entails to most of society. As far as he was concerned, giving them a handjob while they were in his lap, plastering kisses all over their neck was the best way to prove this to Kris. How could you possibly show how much you care without the physicality? That element of love wasn't part of familial love to most, but to Asriel it was. Loving your family was the same as showing love to a romantic partner, right? It was normal to feel this kind of attachment to your younger sibling. It had to be, even if no one wanted to admit it, even if society wouldn't accept it. It's how Asriel feels about Kris, how he's felt about them for ages now, so it had to be normal. Not that he cared if it was or wasn't by this point. It couldn't register as anything other than normal.
AD: i miss you too, dude. so badly.
AD: you have no idea.
KD: i'd like to think i do man
AD: i'm
AD: i'm not sure you do, but i'd like to think you do too. i'd really like to think that.
By now Asriel was idly massaging himself through his boxers, moans exiting him on and off. Breathing getting heavier. Oh Angel, this wasn't even the first time this week he found himself getting off to innocuous conversation with Kris. Just reading their message telling him how badly they missed him drove him up a wall. He noticed himself getting wet after that, the moment he moved towards his crotch. Kris had the ability to say the most innocent, sweet things to him while sending him into a frenzy. Any affection from them felt better than getting drunk, nicer than the best high he'd ever felt in his life. Their words read more genuine and more romantic than any platitudes he'd received during one of his numerous relationships. Nothing aboveground or underground could possibly make him feel as ecstatic as Kris can.
KD: man you kno i love you more than anything right
Fuck. Here they go again. The world's sweetest sibling is back at it, and their freak brother is getting off to it again. Asriel pulled his boxers down, gripped his dick, and started stroking. Lube wasn't even necessary. It had lost its purpose ever since his desire for Kris ramped up in intensity the way it did. Any messages from them like this, any thoughts he would have about their soft body, their tight hole, their warm mouth, they served to lubricate him better than any store bought lube could. The amount of pre that came out of him whenever Kris was on his mind was plenty. No one had ever managed to work him up as much as Kris could, and Angel knows no one else could manage it in the future. Every bit of sexual and romantic desire Asriel formerly had for others had long been poured towards Kris, he had absolutely no desire to be with anyone else, in any capacity.
KD: like i'd probably do anyting for you lmao
AD: are you serious?
KD: yea i rly am
KD: at least i'm p sure i am
They'd do anything for him? Man, Kris had to make things really hard for him. He couldn't help but wonder how true that statement is. Would they get on their knees and take all of him in their mouth without any complaints? Would they let him take their virginity and fuck them senseless? The stroking got faster, thinking of all the possibilities had Asriel on edge. He could cum at any moment, he began shuddering, his moans became more frequent. Would they really let him take them into his dorm? Kris keeps saying they want it, after all, would they let that happen?
KD: angel i rly need to see you again, like super bad
AD: i need to see you again too, kris. i can't wait to.
KD: if you cant wait why dont you take me for yrself lmao
Suddenly, Asriel is stopped dead in his tracks. Kris can't read minds, obviously, but that message sure made him feel like they could. There's no good way for him to respond to this. He could say 'sure' and follow through, but there would be no turning back after that. Could respond 'sure' and play it off like a joke, but Angel knows he wants it too badly. Answering with that and not following through would probably hurt him more than it'd hurt Kris. He could answer the way any normal monster would in this situation too, shooting them down, not giving them a single inch. It wasn't something he was capable of by now, though. Asriel was too detached from normality at this point to do that, whatever normality even was. Gotta give the kid some kind of answer though, couldn't leave them hanging.
AD: you have no idea how bad i want to.
Kris stares at their phone screen. Is Azzy being serious? He couldn't be. There's no way. They were just joking, so his response had to be a joke too. This situation wasn't one they expected to be thrown into, but now they have to deal with it. They sat in silence for a few minutes, staying still. It's as if Kris's mind had shut off. It feels like they've been thrown into autopilot, but the autopilot is malfunctioning. A billion responses come to mind, but none of them feel right. None of them feel like a solid response. The only thing they can think of doing is prodding Asriel to see if there's any seriousness in his response. They typed a few sentences, deleting each one, until they finally settled on a response that, somehow, felt right enough to send.
KD: yr being srs? or are you joking
Damn, Kris is truly a wordsmith, unmatched in their literary skills. No one could ever come up with as solid of a response as they just did. Kris sits up, walks over to Asriel's bed. It's still perfectly made, as if Toriel still expects him to come back home every day after school alongside Kris. They grab the pillow off of it. Mom and Azzy will have to forgive them for this sin, but they need something to hug. Something to hold onto while waiting for whatever message they'll get in return. Slipping back into their bed, they got under the covers and pulled Asriel's pillow into their grasp, hugging it like their life depended on it, eyes locked onto their phone. Unflinching.
AD: uh
AD: yeah, i'm being serious.
AD: i hate seeing how much you bring up missing me and how much you wish you could run away from everything.
AD: and you bring up how much you wish you could just stay with me all the time.
AD: i can't stand it anymore dude, it makes me feel like a bad brother standing by and doing nothing.
AD: it might not be the smartest but, if you really wanted to be with me, i'd let you.
AD: i'd so take you for myself.
AD: if you wanted that anyways, kid.
Oh Angel. They're completely speechless. This has to be an extended bit, right? Asriel will send a message in 2 or 3 minutes talking about how much he just got them with this, about how stupid they were for buying his sincerity. There's no way this is actually happening. It sounds too good to be true, the thought of running off with Azzy really did appeal to them in some way, but it would be a horrible idea. Angel knows what could happen to Kris for doing that, and the thought of what would happen to Asriel if this went down is terrifying.
KD: yr lying
KD: no you can't be srs
KD: i
KD: like dude i'd like that but there's no way yr being srs with this
AD: i am.
AD: kris?
KD: yea
AD: i really do love you. i want you being safe and comfortable.
AD: if
AD: if you really wanted to be with me, away from everything so bad. and if i could make that happen.
AD: i would, no questions asked.
AD: it makes me want you to be here already.
KD: azzy
KD: azzy i'm ngl
KD: this kinda scares me lmao
AD: i'm
AD: i'm sorry, kris.
KD: no no no nonononono
KD: don't apologize
KD: i rly do want that ngl
KD: i've missed you so long yr like the only person i've ever rly felt connected to or safe around n shit
KD: but it scares me thinking abt what might come out of this if we went thru with it
KD: i don't like thinking of shit hitting the fan y'kno
AD: kris?
KD: yea?
AD: lemme worry about that myself if anything happens.
AD: you're gonna be fine no matter what. but if something happens to me, that's not on you.
AD: that's on me, and i can handle it.
KD: you
KD: you mean that?
AD: yeah
AD: if you really want to be with me and away from everything, just tell me. give me a yes or a no.
AD: at any point.
AD: i just want to be there for you. it's what family is for.
Kris is still frozen dead in their tracks. None of this conversation feels real. Even if they tell him yes, nothing could possibly come from this. There's no way. Right? This still had to be a bit. Although the bit was going on a... weirdly long amount of time. There's still no way this is legitimate, though. Asriel can't be serious. This all feels too good to be true, too insane to be believable. They hug Asriel's pillow tighter, thinking of how to proceed. They're really in it now. There's nothing that stops them from saying no, it's within their control. It feels like he's giving them a choice, something they don't often get in life. They've wanted this for so long, this feeling of independence. The feeling of being an adult, who can make their own decisions, and Asriel trusts them enough to give them that.
They could get actual independence if they took him up on this offer, if he really follows through with getting them out of this house... out of this town... It's too empowering to turn down, and Angel, they really are dead serious about missing Azzy. No one had ever made them feel as loved as he did, no one else has ever made them feel like they weren't a freak. They can't connect to Toriel or Asgore the same way. They just can't trust them with the kind of things they've trusted Azzy with...
Their mind is made up.
KD: asriel
KD: please
KD: angel pls get me away from this i miss you
KD: i wanna live with you damnit i wanna be with you
KD: if yr being serious yes pls take me omg
KD: i need out
KD: i need this
KD: i need you bro
AD: well.
AD: i'm gonna have to figure out how to get you over here then.
AD: kris?
KD: yea?
AD: don't be shocked if my messages to you become spotty in the next few days.
AD: and don't be shocked if i pay mom and you a visit soon. promise you won't be?
KD: i won't i promise
KD: i love you azzy
AD: i love you too kris, i love you too.