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Isack Hadjar couldn’t believe the types of situations he got himself into somehow, and maybe- just maybe Liam Lawson being the person he just so happened to develop a painstaking crush on is one of the stupider ones.
Now when Yuki left RB starting his new life long dream at Red Bull, leaving RB behind to go chase something that seemed bigger- he was happy for him, maybe slightly disappointed.
He had grown to like him, and adjusting to a new teammate was always slightly different, but hey! Isack considered himself open enough to not be afraid.
So he shook Liam Lawson’s hand, the kiwi whose eyes seemed dimmer than any human eye should be, his aura emanating pure and heavy grief.
Grief of losing a dream so soon, grief of not proving his worth, grief of not being seen.
Isack saw that yet, and kept seeing- scratch that staring, because after looking at the blonde and spending a reasonable amount of time with him, he felt his chest compress when he was around him.
The brunette wasn’t new to a crush- the word being stupid in his head; whatever he had liked people, dated them- did the whole lot.
But right now looking at Liam Lawson, he couldn’t name a single person who he had ever liked because he consumed him.
Why? Who knows maybe it’s the blonde hair, blue eyes, shitty attitude combination- so attraction he could accept and move on with that though.
Yet he couldn’t deny the feeling of his entire body burning with want when he’s near his teammate, or maybe the urge to giggle like a schoolgirl when he’s around but is it really even worth it?
Because fuck if the revelation wasn’t miserable.
So as he sits here watching Liam speak to a few mechanics- in a slight daze he feels an overwhelming surge of dread.
No matter how funny the situation could be considered, Liam could never like Isack. End of story, no crazy twist it was the cold harsh truth; Liam didn’t look at Isack like he hung the moon or like Isack makes flowers grow as he walks- frankly he treated him with complete unprejudiced behaviour, and that hurts more then distaste.
So the brunette man can’t help but feel more self loathing as he watches the blonde approach him in his pink race suit- Miami had its perks; anticipation filling his veins to hear, “Hey man, we got a quick briefing to attend.”
Now he wasn’t being unpleasant, or even rude but Isack can’t help but feel slightly crushed because he truly doesn’t know why looking at him makes him want to have Liam Lawson with his whole chest, do stupid domestic things with him.
Maybe one day they could sit on the coach and watch stupid movies, making endless commentary- Maybe Isack would convince him to watch Hunter x Hunter while they cuddle and Liam would hold him so gently, like he matters to him
He doesn’t even know why. The brain is funny sometimes, and decides to fuck with you; or maybe the heart.
“Alright, thanks Liam.” The French man smiles standing up from his spot.
So yeah. Isack hadjar has found a way to take day to day interactions, and make them profound and slightly heart clenching. Pathetic.
…
Pathetic is right because as he stands here at the “debrief” which really is just them filming content, he didn’t mind it though it was honestly entertaining.
“Okay, so I’m going to ask you guys a question, nothing serious, just something fun.” she said; their social media manager was funny and she along with the team knows what they’re doing when it comes down to it, so it was never questioned.
“Alright.” Isack affirmed as Liam nodded his head, watching as the camera rolled.
Now here’s the problem being surrounded in pink in Miami, and the word Barbie is present one way or another has to be the reason for the answer he gives to the question “Which actor does Liam most remind you of?”
“Ryan Gosling, in Barbie.” He shoots out, not even thinking about what he was saying.
Liam laughs from shock “Mate Barbie specifically?” He continues smiling in slight disbelief.
“Yeah, you know Ken the vibes…blonde.”
“Alright then.” He snickered.
The video ended shortly after and Isack still felt immense embarrassment- remember the whole I really like Liam Lawson thing making this worse?
So he walked away head down, as pink as his race suit when Liam’s voice hit him. “Isack,” he turns around looking at the blonde still mildly flustered “Hey so Ryan Gosling huh?” He laughs.
Isack started lips parting with a retaliation on his tongue that never came out- all he could focus on were Liam’s very blue eyes, have they always been this blue?
He wasn’t one for poetry, but maybe he would give it a shot, starting writing about oceans and diamonds.
“Dude, are you okay?” Liam’s question hits him yet he still feels slightly reckless, “You’re kind of freaking me out.” He chuckles.
“I think you’re really attractive, and I have a borderline debilitating crush on you!”
“What?” Liam squeaked out looking at him in utter shock, Isack couldn’t even blame him because how does he even start to piece this back together.
“Uh,” Isack defends “Wait no- yes that’s true but it’s not that serious, you know what this never happened.” He finishes.
Defending silence follows, quite enough that Isack’s heart rate is prevented. “Uh, wait are you serious?” The blonde asks, eyes wide and frozen.
Say no say no say no
“Yes.”
“Well, Uhm..” he coughs, looking around awkwardly.
“It’s fine, I’m sorry I’m just going to go.” Isack quickly stutters out getting ready to sprint so fast he might meet the pace of his car.
“WAIT!” Liam screams grabbing the brunettes shirt, “Sorry that was loud but uh, hear me out okay?” He clears his throat a little.
Isack just nods not knowing how he got trapped in a nightmare.
“So…I’m not gay.” He breathes out, still looking a bit disheveled.
Isack scoffs, is this what made him wait and listen after humiliating himself beyond repair.
“No stop,” the brunette nods, rolling his eyes half heartedly “I’m not gay, and I’ve never had a guy like me but..”
“But?”
“But I’m curious.”
What the hell? Is all Isack thought as he stood there, eyes wide, mouth agape. “What are you talking about?” He hisses.
“I’m,” Liam stared at him, gathering his thoughts because frankly he had no idea how to navigate his thought process “I’m open to the idea of us.”
Now Isack hadjar was completely floor struck, he starts looking around feeling suddenly extremely cold from the outbreak of goosebumps across his skin.
“Liam, this isn’t very funny.” He decides on- he will not be the butt of a joke and not know it.
“I’m not joking, I have an idea but you can’t laugh,” he breathes out, mouth open “And, it’s not a joke Isack.”
Isack nods, if he were to input another word into this conversation; which he isn’t even sure is real, he would say something irreversible. He’s already said and done enough.
“Why don’t we try dating for a month?”
“Liam, what the fuck.”
“No listen,” he hurries. “I know- I know it’s corny, but it has benefits in this situation.”
“Like what?” The brunette challenges, his accent becoming even more french if that was possible “We’re not in a movie Liam, and you’re not actually Ryan Gosling!”
“Don’t restate the obvious!”
“Don’t say stupid things, when you don’t know what you’re talking about!”
“You didn’t even fully hear me out.”
Isack breathes out, “Fine, I’m listening.” He crosses his arms.
“Okay, thank you,” he furrowed his eyebrows. “So I've only ever dated women, been with them, hooked up with them.”
“I get it man, keep going.”
“My bad! Just maybe if we try dating for a month I can get experience and explore this, I’ve thought about it a few times- you know with,” Liam stops, his words fading out.
“With men?”
“Yeah that.”
They both stand there, awkward silence once again filling the space. Isack wasn’t sure what he was supposed to do. He’s known he likes guys and girls for the longest time, even had a short fling with a guy but he’s never been in a situation like this.
He wasn’t sure if he was supposed to take the chance, and allow himself to be Liam’s opportunity to explore as well as his to fill the Liam shaped hole in his heart.
It seemed like they were taking advantage of each other? He can’t wrap his head around it.
“Yeah, sure, let's try it out.”
Fuck it. He has nothing to lose, he doesn't think and at the end of the day it was just a month?
“Well then!” The blonde smiles a toothy and big one, making Isaak’s heart squeeze. “If I’m Ken, that makes you Barbie then.” He immediately jokes.
“It’s been 10 seconds!” Isack flushes, frankly he thought it would be way weirder, but he still didn’t feel like this was right. “I think we should set up some rules, or something like that.”
“Rules, why?”
“I don’t know, like what happens when it ends or if something goes wrong” the brunette exclaimed.
“Okay, sure, let's make a list of rules.” He chuckles.
Isack folds his eyes, his blood is boiling from how fond he is of Liam Lawson.
“Shut up,” he rolls his eyes, the brunette's voice coming out more playful than anything “Let’s go to my driver room.”
“Trying to get me alone so soon?”
Isack’s face feels warm after the words, he will be the death of him. “I’m actually going to strangle you.” He groans out.
“You want me so bad.”
He grabs the blonde's wrist, dragging him to his room without another word.
…
By the time Isack had- some would say aggressively dragged Liam through the paddock, into his room he had no real time to come to terms with what he had gotten himself into.
Dating Liam Lawson for a month.
“So, are you going to stand there or are we going to make those rules you were talking about?” He questions breaking Isacks' silence, because he’s annoying.
“Okay yeah, let me get some paper or something.”
As the Frenchman sorts through trying to find something, he hears Liam hum which is slightly infuriating at a time like this.
“This is very official,” the blonde jokes “Are you going to make me sign it too?”
Isack knew it was a joke, he wasn’t that stupid but as he pulled out a slightly crumpled piece of paper and a pen, it didn’t sound like a half bad idea.
“Yeah, why not?” he shrugged.
Liam just raised an eyebrow, with a smile.
“Going to sue me Hadjar?”
“Don’t see why I wouldn't Lawson.”
Was this flirting? He doesn't even know. What he does know is that his hands are getting slightly damp from nervous sweat, which is disgusting.
“Okay fine, start writing.”
“Rude.” He states but writes out the title.
Liam Lawson & Isack Hadjars dating rules
He finishes the titles- it’s simple his handwriting was a little wonky, but it serves its purpose he decides.
He looks up at Liam, to see him already staring at him- quickly shifting his focus to the sheet of paper.
With a small nod of approval he continues, “Alright since it was your idea you should go first.”
Isack frowns, “Actually, from what I recall you came up with this insane idea.”
“You started it!”
“I was willing to move on!”
Liam groans “Fine I’ll go,” he stares at the price of paper like it would speak to him and gives him an answer “I’m assuming like- physical touch, and stuff will be good right?”
God, it was so over for Isack. Now that the words were actually coming out of his mouth, and they were crossing this bridge it was slightly- scratch that really horrific.
“Uh, yeah I mean dating right?” He settles on.
“Yeah.” Liam affirms.
Holy shit Isack Hadjar gets to get touchy feely with Liam Lawson and he is giddy, what is wrong with him.
A pause takes place as Liam continues to ponder what the first rule should be.
“Okay, since we’re like dating- how about we don’t see anyone except each other for the duration of the time?” He proposes.
“So you want us to be exclusive?”
“Basically, I mean we will be dating.”
Isack can only bring himself to nod, he feels so overwhelmed with just talking about dating him.
Liam Lawson & Isack Hadjars dating rules
1. No seeing anyone except each other
After he scribbles down the first point, he looks down scared to look up at the blonde. He thinks about what he wants from this arrangement- other than Liam.
Having him, even if it’s just for a month is a dream; something he couldn’t even hope for. Now that he has the opportunity, he’s scared that by the end of it he won’t be able to let go.
Because this is just temporary.
“I think we shouldn’t tell anyone, this should stay between us.” He finally decides.
Having Liam, and then losing him is one struggle. Having him, losing him, and having to deal with an inflection of people’s thoughts, opinions and feelings is another.
Liam pauses looking at him for a second, “Yeah, sure that’s fine.”
Liam Lawson & Isack Hadjars dating rules
1. No seeing anyone except each other
2. No one must find out about this!!
“I want you all to myself anyway.” Liam adds.
And like an idiot Isack chokes on his own spit, because he shouldn’t be able to just say things like that.
“You’re so cliché.” He mocks, Liam doesn’t need to know anymore than he does; for now.
The blonde grumbles a bit, a win for him!
“You added two exclamation marks, you can’t speak.”
He looks down, somehow forgetting that small- key detail.
He’ll take a half win from this he supposes, flushing slightly.
“Whatever, your turn.”
Liam rolls his eyes, “How about at least 1 date a week?” He stops then continues, “Like obviously like we hang out, but like one official date a week.”
Isack smiles, that actually was a good idea he quickly scribbles it down.
“Reckon you like that one?”
Isack really has nothing to hide, “Yeah, I do.”
For the first real time this night he watches as Liam flushes a shade of red, he decides he loves it.
Liam Lawson & Isack Hadjars dating rules
1. No seeing anyone except each other
2. No one must find out about this!!
3. 1 OFFICIAL date a week
He stares down at the list, “Think I already know what I want to do for my date.”
“What?” Liam hums slightly distracted, picking under his nails.
“Gonna make you watch Hunter x Hunter.”
The blonde laughs, “I forget you’re a nerd Hadjar.”
“You can recite the first Cars movie, dumbass.”
“Touché.”
Isack focuses back on the list.
Liam Lawson & Isack Hadjars dating rules
1. No seeing anyone except each other
2. No one must find out about this!!
3. 1 OFFICIAL date a week
4. Liam has to watch at least 1 season of HxH
“Are you serious?”
“Very.”
He was going to be selfish about this to an extent; more over capitalize of the situation and let himself have this.
“Fine, then we have to watch all three Cars movies.”
“Fine by me.”
Liam Lawson & Isack Hadjars dating rules
1. No seeing anyone except each other
2. No one must find out about this!!
3. 1 OFFICIAL date a week
4. Liam has to watch at least 1 season of HxH
5. Have to watch the entire Cars franchise
They both giggle at the last two rules, they’re stupid.
“Okay, okay one more I think.”
“No PDA?” Isaak gives him a contorted face, “Like- we keep whatever we do to closed doors.”
“Thought we established that.”
He writes it anyway, it’s good enough to remember he supposes.
Liam Lawson & Isack Hadjars dating rules
1. N o seeing anyone except each other
2. No one must find out about this!!
3. 1 OFFICIAL date a week
4. Liam has to watch at least 1 season of HxH
5. Have to watch the entire Cara franchise
6. No PDA
“Okay! I think that’s a solid list” the blonde cheers.
Isack nods, still feeling slightly confused. Something was definitely missing from this list- he was wracking his brain for some hint to what it would be.
Wait, how could he forget.
Liam Lawson & Isack Hadjars dating rules
1. No seeing anyone except each other
2. No one must find out about this!!
3. 1 OFFICIAL date a week
4. Liam has to watch at least 1 season of HxH
5. Have to watch the entire Cars franchise
6. No PDA
7. WHEN THE MONTH ENDS, BAD OR GOOD TERMS WE NEVER SPEAK OF THIS AGAIN.
He writes it out neater then anything else on the list, avoiding Liam’s watchful eyes. Finally capping the pen he looks up.
Liam’s beautiful eyes, were looking down at the list. He looks up making eye contact with the brunette; Isack felt like he couldn’t breathe for those moments.
Liam gave a small nod. That was all the approval he needed.
“Do the honors and sign this.” He says breaking the silence, handing Liam the pen.
Liam chuckles, uncapping it scribbling his signature holding it for a moment longer- handing the pen back as Isack does the same.
Isack looks up at the list taking it all in, it looks good before he notices wait- a small scribbled heart next to the title.
He drags his thumb across it, feeling the ridges where the pen met paper; adoration is all he could call what he was feeling.
“Now, what is this?” He teases- what is he supposed to say? The heart you drew on our month long dating contract, makes me want to kiss you?
Maybe later.
“You know, it felt fitting.” Liam whispers, which confuses Isack.
Then it hits him: Liam’s embarrassed.
This is going to be an interesting month.
He takes out his phone, taking a picture before settling the paper in his small closet.
Liam stands up, takes Isacks phone out his hand as he hides the paper sending himself the photo.
“It’s May 1, the race is on the fourth- should we start the fifth then?”
“Sure that’s fine by me.” He snatches his phone from Liams hand as he laughs.
“Alright,” he looks at Isack, his mouth open to add on to whatever he was about to say.
“Hey Isack! We have a quick meeting before we head out, we can’t find Liam but start heading there anyway!” They pause as they hear the muffled yell through the door, followed by a series of knocks.
“Yeah! I’ll be right there.” He yells back, looking back at Liam as he shrugs.
“Looks like we both have places to be.”
He rolls his eyes, “Looks like everyone’s on a manhunt for you.”
They look at each other, a beat of silence passing before they burst out laughing.
Isack looks at Liam, as he catches his breath because how can he not? Before he pushes him out of his room.
“Hey!” He hears from the outside.
“See you at the meeting Lawson!”
He hears a quiet series of mumbling, “Yeah, see you Hadjar.”
Isack hadjar was so screwed- all because he couldn’t keep his mouth shut. May fifth was going to be the day which starts a month-long sequence of hopeless longing.