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August 1st
I’ve been known for my light, stepping into a room like a gaslit lamp and warming those around me with my hugs, my jokes, my presence.
And like a gaslit lamp i’m running low on fuel.
I lay in my bed, the thick blankets holding me like a grieving family member; the warmest hug I’ve felt since the cockroaches birth.
Slowly, i pulled myself out of the warm embrace of my bed, the sunlight creeping in through my window, illuminating my space of peace.
I went through my drawers, looking for something to cover the crimson handprints staining my most vulnerable pieces.
The sunlight reached its peak beauty at 4, the pink and gold light held me like a mother to her child. The night before i had prepared it, the thing that would bring me peace.
And as i stood on the stool, i carefully pulled my head through the ropes, i looked at the lights with love.
Warm and fuzzy, one last kiss, one last kick,
i got my final hug.
⁃ AK