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Atom is getting drowsy. It's exam week after all, so the past few days he has been extremely busy—staying up late cramming all of the semester’s worth of studies into his goldfish brain to make sure he’s prepared for the final exams, attending classes after classes to sit for the final papers, it has been crazy. It’s not like he’s doing last minute studies, he actually did study from time to time, but he still couldn’t help but be paranoid in case he forgot some of the materials, he had to make sure he had skimmed through all of the materials one last time the night before an exam, or else, it felt like he would jinx himself.
For the past few days he has been living like a zombie, he’s glad that he just sat for his final paper just now, which means he can finally breathe, and enjoy the freedom as much as he can before he starts his third year next semester. He’s only in his second year, but he swears it feels like it has been years since he started attending Chulalongkorn. He understands that since it’s a top university (ranked number one in Thailand what more) the projects they assign every semester must be crazy too. But lord, does he wish that it can be a little easier so that his puny brain can take a rest even for a while.
Because of the fast pace of their style of teaching, it feels like his brain has been deep fried like the pathongko people sell on the street, trying to remember all of the materials and what not. It’s so dizzying, he believes his brain has been double deep fried throughout. At some point, he even wished that he could be a pathongko instead so life would be much easier. Maybe, if he lives as a pathongko in his next life, he can be one half of a pathongko, then Kongthap can be the other half, that way they can live together even as a pair of pathongko. He still can’t imagine a life without Kongthap after all.
He still can’t process how someone as dumb as him could get accepted into Chulalongkorn, as the main reason was only to follow Kongthap. Of course, the other reason would be he was afraid to aim high for something as prestigious as Chulalongkorn. But everyone fully knows the thought would never cross his mind either if it wasn’t for Kongthap. He had the courage to even try because of Kongthap, and thanks to Kongthap too (and his friends, Mudmee and Half,) for helping him study for the national exam, he got to live with Kongthap right now in Krung Thep together. He has come to love Kongthap so much, and being used to his presence everyday, he doesn’t think he would survive a long distance relationship like Mudmee and Half do.
Even for the two, Mudmee sometimes would text him saying that she’s sulking with Half for not calling her, which happens quite a lot. So with that, Atom believes it would be much worse for him and Kongthap, because while Kongthap is not really good with his expressions, Atom is extremely clingy of the former. Growing used to Kongthap always being physically by his side, he couldn't miss a day without a hug and a pat from his boyfriend—It’s like an essential now, he needs Kongthap to shower him physically with attention or else, he would be really grumpy. And speaking of being grumpy, that is what he has been for the past few days (or perhaps weeks now), he is extremely deprived of Kongthap’s attention, it makes him grumpy.
When he woke up that morning, he was expecting to see Kongthap lying on the space next to him on the bed, but there was almost no trace of his boyfriend. Only the perfectly made bed on the other side is proof that his boyfriend shared the same bed, seeing that Kongthap would not leave the bed messy before leaving (what a tidy boyfriend Atom has). Waking up to an empty bed—It has been like this for quite a long while now. It was fine when they were still in their first year, but the moment they got into second year, everything went downhill from there.
While Atom is already struggling a lot studying in Food Business, Kongthap who’s enrolled in Veterinary Medicine has it a million times harder. For obvious reasons that everyone already knows, studying medicine really isn’t for the weak, it’s hardcore. And Kongthap’s schedule only gets tighter the moment they enter their second year. Because of this, Atom can barely see him these days despite the fact that they’re living under the same roof together, sharing the same bed, what more. It feels as if they’re living separately, when in fact that’s totally not the case.
The moment they were finished with their first year, they immediately agreed on renting an apartment together near Chulalongkorn so they can be free from campus residence’s rules. But ever since they started their second year (which was months ago), Atom can’t help but notice that the way they’re living right now, it’s no different from back when they lived in the campus residence, if not worse. They always prioritize their studies, it’s a given, but they also prioritize each other too. But now, it seems that studying is only what occupies Kongthap’s mind these days. It made Atom wonder if he’s still in the other guy’s mind, whether he’s still his priority.
Nowadays, at night, even when Atom himself would spend a few hours studying, Kongthap would spend a few hours more than him (since his course’s workload is a million times heavier). Atom would try waiting for him, lying on the bed as he stared at Kongthap’s wide back, sitting at the desk, doing his report. But every time, Atom would always end up falling asleep to the sight of Kongthap’s back instead. He tried his best to stay awake, but the sight of Kongthap’s tall figure illuminated by night light shone above his head in the dimness, accompanied by the soft clickings of the keyboard as his boyfriend typing on his notebook—it was too lulling. Too lulling, Atom found himself succumbing to sleep every time without fail. And with that, yet again, he keeps failing to spend time with his boyfriend once more.
Atom understands that Kongthap just has too much load on his plate, so he tries to respect that. But he believes that despite the busyness, being boyfriends, and living under the same roof especially, they should still spare some time to share their days as it has been a long time since they had any small talks either. Don’t even get him started with texts. Kongthap is bad at texting, he is also what people call a dry texter too (but Atom loves him so much he looks past that and even sees it as an endearing quality of the latter), so Atom would always prefer to talk to him in person instead. But since it’s hard for him to see Kongthap’s face these days despite living in the same house, conversation really is scarce between them these days.
Not only can he barely see Kongthap’s face during the day. Even at night too, the time where it’s meant for them to rest, Kongthap’s schedule is extremely tight, his busyness even stretched until late into the night. That’s why Atom thought maybe he can still have a sliver of Kongthap’s time in the morning. Perhaps having breakfast together like what they did every morning back when they were still freshmen. But it has been a long time since they sat on the same table together either, Atom actually started to miss the aroma of a bowl of hot porridge and a plate of crispy pathongko they used to share back then. He thinks he almost forgot how pathongko tastes at some point due to how long it has been since he had them with Kongthap. It has only been a year, but a lot has changed. He really misses Kongthap.
The moment Atom was finished with the last paper, he immediately got a ride back home to their shared apartment without second thought. It should be the last day of the final exam for Kongthap too, so he really can’t wait to get home soon and see his boyfriend’s face whom he has been missing like crazy. He swears he misses his boyfriend to death, his ride home is filled with nothing but overflowing excitement. The stress from final exam had already flew out of the window the moment he handed in his last paper, so giddiness is all he feels now as he’s already imagining all of the hugs and kisses he can get from Kongthap later, and all of the praises he will be showered with, his boyfriend telling him how well he had done in the final exams.
Atom is never really one to be a praise-sucker, but the way Kongthap does it, the way he would pat Atom’s head lightly, the way his long fingers would brush gently through Atom’s hair, ruffling his hair while calling him out with a sweet endearment that Atom has come to be so obsessed of hearing— “Baby” oh so fondly with that mellow voice of his, followed by “You’ve done so well, you’re amazing na, baby”, never failed to make Atom’s heart bursting with pure adoration and his cheeks hurt from smiling too wide whenever he hears it coming from his sweet boyfriend. Just thinking about it already made him smile like an idiot, he even forgot to get down the motorcycle when the Phi Win had brought them to his place.
“Nong, aren’t you getting down? I’ve other places to go,” the Phi Win said, which immediately brought Atom out of his imagination, quickly getting off the bike as he smiled sheepishly.
“Sorry na, phi. I’ve been thinking of my boyfriend,” Atom said, chuckling heartily as he got down the motorcycle. He then shoved his hand into the front pocket of his dress shirt, reaching for the bills he had kept in there, he handed it to the rider.
“You can keep the change na, phi. Thank you!” Atom said, already taking a few steps to leave, excited to see his boyfriend soon but immediately stopped by the rider shouting, calling for him.
“I appreciate the tips, but don’t steal my spare helmet, nong. The tips wouldn’t even cover the cost of the helmet,” the rider said, chuckling.
Atom automatically put his hands on his head, touching the headgear he still had on his head to confirm it, he immediately realized that he indeed almost ran off with the Phi Win’s helmet. He was really impatient to get home, occupied with the thoughts of getting praises from his boyfriend, the overflowing excitement really almost turned him into a criminal. Atom immediately mentally scolded himself for letting his excitement win over him, feeling apologetic and embarrassed.
“Hehe sorry na, phi. Here,” Atom said, quickly taking off the helmet and handing it to the guy, to which the guy shook his head with a soft snort came from him, seeming entertained by the sight of a guy making a fool of himself just because he had been thinking of his boyfriend too much. Atom is glad that the guy simply took lightly of him being a scatterbrain though.
“Have a good day, phi!” Atom said cheerfully before he walked off again, but without being stopped this time, so he managed to reach the elevator lobby in no time.
Pushing the button to level 9 where it should be the floor of their unit, Atom’s mind continues to fill up with the thoughts of Kongthap again as he waits for the elevator to move, going up to his chosen floor. Since it’s technically the last day of their second year, it gives Atom an idea for them to go out and have dinner together tonight as a celebration. Just the two of them together, having a dinner date. As it has been so long since they ate out together, it made Atom’s excitement grow more than usual. His head soon fills up with hundreds of different ideas to make the night special, the kinds of delicious food they can order for dinner, the kinds of desserts they can have afterwards, and perhaps they go to a karaoke place too by the end of the night.
Speaking of karaoke, it has been so long since they did karaoke either. Atom still remembers how Kongthap would bring him along to have karaoke with his friends back then. During the two last years of high school, and back in their freshman year too. They used to go to karaoke a lot, it could almost be considered as their second home already. Sometimes they would go to the karaoke with Kongthap’s friends, while other times they would go on their own, just the two of them, in an enclosed space as they sang love songs towards each other. But it has been so long for either of those, Atom isn’t sure if they still remember the lyrics to the song they used to sing so much before they could sing the song with their backs turned to the screen at some point, spending the entire night staring into each other’s eyes lovingly as they sing.
Maybe he can check that tonight, if any of them still remember the lyrics. The thought of having Kongthap singing love songs to him makes Atom grow even more impatient, he really can’t wait to get to his floor soon. It has only been less than two minutes, but Atom swears it feels like it has been two hours since he stepped into the elevator. The elevator is moving too slowly than his impatient self can take, overflowed with excitement, he just realized he has been shaking his knees for quite some time now. The moment he caught himself to stop that bad habit of his, the elevator door immediately parted open as if it had been waiting for him to be a good kid.
If you stop shaking your knees, then I would open the door for you. Is the elevator his mother in disguise, spying on him since he’s living away from her in Krung Thep?
Frowning at the elevator door, Atom shook his head before he immediately walked out of the elevator before it would close on him again. A smile shows up on Atom’s face again, giddiness continues to fill him up once more as he takes delightful steps to his shared unit with Kongthap, where their love abode is. He really can’t wait to see Kongthap’s face, wanting to jump into his arms, where Kongthap would then catch him, supporting his bottom with his strong arms as Atom wrapped himself around him like a koala. Atom badly wants to hug his boyfriend soon, as tight as he can to make up for the times he couldn't before due to Kongthap’s busyness.
Atom’s leather shoes flew in different directions, mindlessly discarded the moment he got the front door unlocked and flung the front door open. He really could care less about storing his shoes properly at the moment as the urge to see his boyfriend overrides that priority now. With the smile still attached on his face, he walked further into the living room.
“Thap!” Atom shouted happily, looking around for his boyfriend in the living room. Receiving no answer, he shouted his boyfriend’s name again and continued to look for him in other rooms.
“Thap!” Still no response. He then checked the bathroom, only to find out it’s vacant.
The smile that was plastered on his face immediately curved to the opposite direction, realizing that his boyfriend is still not home. Kongthap should be home by now, but it seems like he has something coming up for him to not be home still. Kongthap must have forgotten to inform him about his busyness again. As the realization sank in that he had once again slipped out from the thought of his boyfriend, sourness started pooling on Atom’s taste bud, feeling upset, as this is totally not the first time for Kongthap to do this.
This has been happening quite often, it gets Atom feeling a little bit displeased seeing how dense his boyfriend can be sometimes. It always takes forever (if never) for him to realize his wrong doings. Well, he can’t really blame Kongthap, because the guy has always been like this. It’s just Atom who keeps overlooking it because he loves Kongthap so much, he tries to accept that about him. But he guesses, there’s always a limit to everything, and right now, all Atom can think right now is going out and drinking out all of these infuriating emotions all night. Or else, he really might beat Kongthap’s ass the moment he sees him any time now.
Ring—
Hearing the ringing of his phone, Atom immediately pulled out his phone from the front pocket of his slacks. He was half-expecting Kongthap to call him, but to see a friend’s name instead, it only ignited Atom's anger even more. It’s almost dark out, yet his boyfriend really hasn’t realized the important thing he left unattended (which is Atom, Atom should be important to him) all day.
Holding back his anger as he stares at the lit up screen, Atom answers the call eventually. He just remembered that his friend mentioned going to a karaoke bar with the whole class tonight, wanting to celebrate the end of their second year, so he must be calling to ask him if he’s going. Atom really didn’t plan on joining them tonight because he’s more excited to spend time with Kongthap, obviously. But seeing how he couldn’t even see a strand of his boyfriend’s hair at the moment, it made him call the decision to change his mind. Speaks of perfect timing.
“I will be there in 15 minutes,” Atom said on the phone.
Stomping to his room, he tossed his tote bag on the bed, promptly untucked his dress shirt and loosened his tie. The anger boiling inside him made his blood spiked, it feels suffocating to be in the uniform still, he badly wanted to get undressed as quickly as he could. The exasperation makes him fumble with the buttons on his dress shirt, keep failing to unbutton any of the buttons, it only fueled his already burning irritation the more he tried to take the buttons off. The annoyance is getting to his head, he almost had this urge to rip the buttons off.
The urge was strong, but thinking of the hard-earned money his beloved mother must've spent in order to buy him the dress shirt, he tried to slow down his fingers a little. Clenching his jaw, and taking a deep breath to calm down, he eventually managed to get every button off properly before it would be destroyed due to irritation. The moment he got all of the buttons unbuttoned, he immediately discarded the shirt to God knows where, not caring at all where it landed.
Opening the wardrobe, he grabbed the first shirt his eyes laid on, and put it on. Not enough he was fighting with the buttons of his dress shirt, he almost got into a fight with the belt on his slacks too next. As he kept fumbling with it over and over again, failing to unbuckle the belt no matter how many times he tried, he decided to give up, and just leave the black slacks on. He immediately stomped out of the room to leave the house soon after. Forgets about having a dinner date with Kongthap when the latter couldn’t even remember to send him a text, Atom swears he’s going to drink until his kidney bursts tonight.
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It’s completely dark when Kongthap got home. He’s used to the lights being turned on whenever he comes home, so the sight of this pitch blackness really left him stumped for a good minute the moment he swung the front door open only to see nothing. His boyfriend is afraid of darkness, there’s no way he would leave the lights off when it’s already late in the evening, what more when he’s home alone without Kongthap there to keep him company. So Kongthap patently concluded that Atom must not be home. Though, he wonders where Atom is then?
He didn’t remember Atom informing him anything about going somewhere tonight. And talking about which, he just remembered that he forgot to inform Atom about his whereabouts either. He was busy with a lab report that he had to fix at the last minute, he ended up coming home extremely later than planned. He was swamped with school, sitting for the final exams and fixing a lab report throughout the day, everything else slipped out of his mind, he totally forgot to check his phone either. Thinking that he might have accidentally missed any calls or texts from Atom, Kongthap quickly took out his phone, and opened his chat with Atom in hope of seeing a notice from his boyfriend. Instead, the moment he sees his chat history with his boyfriend, he’s only left stumped again when he only sees their old chat that dated back to a few days ago. No recent call log, nor a single text from today either.
Getting a little bit worried, Kongthap decided to call his boyfriend, immediately pressing the call button to know his whereabouts. But to his dismay, no matter how many times he tried calling, every one of them were left unanswered. Even texts too, none of them showed a sign of being read, which greatly baffled him as this is really the first time for Atom to ignore all of his calls and texts like this. Usually it really didn’t take long for his boyfriend to reply at all. All it took was within seconds, perhaps a minute or two at most, but Atom is always quick to answer his calls no matter what he was doing at the time. Be it when he was in the toilet or any of his classes, it would simply take seconds for the guy to reply to Kongthap’s texts.
As much as Kongthap finds that very endearing of Atom, always so excited to reply to his texts, he used to be kind of worried to be a distraction for Atom during his classes. But then again, it’s not like Kongthap often texts or calls Atom either (since he’s extremely bad at it, he doesn’t know how to put his words without having Atom in front of him), so he guesses that must be why Atom gets unexceptionally excited when he is the one to contact him first.
But now, the fact that Atom didn’t answer all of his calls nor reply to any of his texts either, made Kongthap’s anxiety grow. Kongthap had paced around in the living room for at least ten full laps already, wanting to give it some time to wait for Atom to reach back to him eventually. He’s trying to convince himself that perhaps his boyfriend was just extremely occupied like he was, that’s why he couldn’t reach back to him as quickly as usual. But even he feels rather doubtful of himself, since as he said, Atom always gets back to him within seconds. So the fact that it has been at least thirty minutes since his futile attempts of contacting Atom, and there’s still no single news from him, who wouldn’t be worried?
Scratching his head, Kongthap decided to turn on the light in the living room first, as he just realized he had forgotten to do that seeing that his mind was too occupied with the thoughts of Atom’s whereabouts. Once the living room is lit up, and he can see his own limbs, his brain continues to do cartwheels again, thinking of the possibilities of where and what Atom is up to tonight seeing that he really had no idea why his boyfriend couldn’t be seen at this hour. The thoughts of contacting Atom’s friends crossed his mind, but he isn’t sure if he has their contacts saved in his phone. Atom had introduced him to some of his friends before, but he guesses his boyfriend is just a social butterfly, he keeps making new friends every time Kongthap sees him with someone. So he’s not sure to reach out who right now to ask them about Atom.
Scrolling through his contacts, just as he had guessed, he totally doesn’t have a single of Atom’s friends’ numbers saved. He didn’t see the importance of it at the time, but now he kind of regrets it for not saving at least one of Atom’s friend’s number back then, so he’s completely lost now. His thoughts are getting tangled, turning disoriented as worries fill him in. What if Atom is hurt? But since Konghtap couldn’t contact him, will his boyfriend be left helpless?
Trying to calm his thoughts down, Kongthap decides to take a seat on the sofa as he tries to arrange his thoughts. Staring into nothing, the gears in his brain continued to turn to think of something. And as if there’s a light bulb turned on his head, his eyes widened before he pulled out his phone again to check on something.
Atom’s Instagram account. He just remembered that Atom loves to borrow his phone sometimes to use Instagram, saying that he wants to check out his posts from other people’s phones, which Kongthap had no reason to turn down, so he just let Atom do whatever he wants. But the first time, Atom actually logged into his account on Kongthap’s phone, to which Kongthap told him that he still can do that even without logging in. He still remembered how shy Atom got that day for being such a dummy (Atom’s word, not his), and Kongthap patted him on the head, saying that he understands things can be confusing sometimes.
With that memory flashing before his eyes, he wonders if Atom’s account is still logged in on his phone, so he immediately searches for the app on his phone. He rarely uses Instagram, so he didn’t have it on his home screen shortcuts. But when he finally found it through the search bar, he promptly tapped the icon to open it.
A breath of relief left him the moment he sees Atom’s profile shows up on the profile section, meaning that account is still logged in. Now he has access to Atom’s Instagram, then he can try to contact Atom’s friends through his account. He feels extremely guilty of having to ‘snoop’ into his boyfriend’s personal chat, but there’s really nothing else he can do to reach his boyfriend, so he really had no choice but to bite the bullet and push away his conscience for now.
Just as he was about to open one of the recent chats Atom has in his direct message, a new message just popped up, catching Kongthap’s attention right away. Noticing that the text says Atom’s account just got mentioned, Kongthap wasted no time tapping the chat open without any second thoughts. The moment he opened the chat, he saw a story. Atom’s friend just mentioned him in a story that seems to be a video. The thumbnail was dark though, Kongthap could barely make out what it’s about, so he went ahead to tap the story next so he could watch the video properly.
The moment the video played, Kongthap’s furrowed brows immediately softened at the sight of Atom. His boyfriend looks like he’s doing fine, albeit a little bit drunk from the way he’s swaying his body around as he sings his heart out, screaming aloud into the microphone. ‘Someone is heartbroken’, the caption wrote over the video, followed by a tag of Atom’s Instagram username, catommm (which Atom is very proud about, saying that it’s a combination of his name and cat, because the guy loves cats so much, but that’s another different story).
Seeing that his boyfriend is safe and sound, of course relief washes over Kongthap. He was extremely worried just a minute ago, thinking of the well-being of his boyfriend, so of course he’s relieved to see his boyfriend is actually doing fine. Well at least for the most part, he’s relieved, but he also can’t deny that there’s this sour taste rising in his mouth now as he replays the story. He’s not sure why he’s feeling this way though. Is he angry at Atom for not informing that he’s going to hang out with his friends? Or is he upset that Atom leaves him out, and didn’t invite him along when that’s what Kongthap has been doing all this time? Kongthap isn’t entirely sure.
But the moment he saw Atom’s friend posted another story, that sourness only amplified as he’s now seeing his boyfriend in someone’s arms—Well, the other way round actually. His boyfriend is the one who’s clinging onto someone as if his life depends on it, hugging a guy whose face Kongthap didn’t remember seeing before. But whichever that is, to see his boyfriend in such a vulnerable state, drunk out of his mind where he’s completely unguarded to take care of himself, and throwing himself around on strangers in a karaoke bar, it really doesn’t sit right for Konghtap to continue staying here idly watching his boyfriend through these Instagram stories. He knows the guy is definitely one of Atom’s classmates or friends, but since he had never seen this guy with Atom before, he’s still going to call it a stranger nonetheless. He really needs to get to Atom pronto. His boyfriend is too adorable, he’s worried people couldn’t resist kidnapping him.
Making sure he has the important stuff with him: phone, car keys and wallet, he immediately leaves the apartment to get to where his boyfriend is. Fortunately, it didn’t take much for him to figure out where Atom is from the videos he watched. The background is extremely familiar, he recognized it immediately as the same place they used to frequent back in their freshmen year. Almost every week, they would go to that place, be it with Kongthap’s friends or just the two of them together, Kongthap still remembers the address of that place by heart.
Pulling up right in front of the karaoke bar, he immediately slammed the door behind him and rushed into the building, searching for his boyfriend. Asking the staff for the room where a group of students from Chulalongkorn rents, Kongthap once again wasted no time to make his way once he got the room number.
Room 15.
Once he saw it, he immediately swung the door open, didn’t even think of knocking as he could think right now is seeing his boyfriend. The moment the door swung open, he could see all eyes simultaneously turned to him, they must be wondering who he is, except for a few familiar faces that Kongthap believes must be Atom’s friends. He can see his boyfriend sitting on one of the sofas, still clinging onto that stranger like a koala. Atom’s eyes closed, seeming to doze off.
“Kongthap, Atom’s boyfriend, right?” One of them speaks. The massive attention on him only lasted for a few seconds luckily at the clear up of who he is, before their attention immediately fell on the television screen again, continuing what they were doing. At the mention of his name, Kongthap can see Atom’s sleepy closed eyes opened slightly, but his face is scrunched tightly in what seemed to be a mix of confusion and grogginess, still pretty much hammered.
“Just the perfect timing, Atom has been drinking too much,” the guy continued. Kongthap then nodded his head as he walked further into the room, appreciating the guy for leading him to his boyfriend right away. He had braced himself to fight anyone to get his boyfriend home (which might be too much, but he is always ready to throw hands when it comes to protecting Atom).
“Atom, your boyfriend is here,” his friend said, tapping the drunk friend’s shoulder a few times. But Atom only scrunched his face again, his brows furrowed deeply, a deep frown of a soft pout on his lips as he turned his face away, refusing to look at Kongthap. Then Atom wrapped his arms around the friend he’s hugging even tighter.
“Stop clinging onto my boyfriend. Your own boyfriend is here, Ai Atom!” The guy said, seeming annoyed before he tried to unwrap Atom’s arms off his boyfriend.
Feeling bad for Atom’s friend, Kongthap decided to step in.
“Atom, let’s go home,” Kongthap said, touching his boyfriend’s arm gently. But the guy only shook his head, still refusing to look at his face.
Holding back a sigh, Kongthap then got down to squat on the floor so that he can level his face with his boyfriend who’s sitting, albeit with his face turned. Kongthap then put a hand on top of Atom’s thigh, patting it gently.
“Baby, let’s go home, okay?” Kongthap continued to try coaxing his sulking boyfriend. And luckily, this time, it seems that endearment worked because Atom finally spared him a look. But once he did, Kongthap can’t help but notice how shiny his boyfriend’s eyes are, seeming as if he’s in the middle of holding back his tears. Kongthap felt a pang in his heart at the sight. Is he the cause of this sight? Is Atom crying because of him?
“It’s not like you will have time for me if we go home together,” Atom croaked, his voice thick with suppressed sobs. Soft lips puckering into a tiny pout, red cheeks puffed as he sulks.
“You would be busy doing your assignment,” he continued, eyes brimming with tears that threaten to fall anytime soon. Kongthap notices the way Atom’s nose reddens slightly, sniffling as the tears must have clogged his nose to breathe properly. As much as it hurts Kongthap to see Atom crying because of him, he’s also stunned at the same time with how adorable his boyfriend actually looks right now. For his eyes to be this puffy, face tomato red from alcohol and streaked with shiny tears, and his plump lips pouting as his face scrunched tightly, resembling a sulking kitten—It gives Kongthap this urge to hide Atom’s face right there and then so that others can’t see how cute his boyfriend looks right now.
Realizing that his thoughts have been drifting away too far, he immediately got back to the root of the issue and the weight of Atom’s words finally sank into his heart with tremendous guilt. He never knew that this is what Atom has been feeling. He had actually been hurting Atom all this time without realizing. All because of his denseness, he thought since Atom never said anything before, then everything is fine between them. Meanwhile, because of his obliviousness, he has actually been unconsciously hurting Atom’s feelings all this time instead, totally blind to his own boyfriend’s emotions when he should’ve been the one who knows his heart the most. He knows he has an extreme case of obliviousness. Most of the time, he can’t even understand his own feelings, so it made him feel extra remorse for failing to notice how Atom has been feeling these days. He should’ve been more attentive of his boyfriend’s feelings, he should’ve tried harder.
“I’m sorry, baby,” Kongthap apologizes from deep within his heart, he feels extremely guilty. His heart continues to throb in pain when he sees tears cascaded those pink cheeks.
He then held Atom’s hand this time, holding it firmly, but not too much as to not hurt him. Just enough to show him how guilty he is feeling, trying to convey his sincerity in his apology. He really feels bad about what happens.
“I’m really sorry, baby. I never knew that’s what you’re feeling these days,” Kongthap muttered again. The urge to say ‘sorry’ again and over again is strong, wanting to keep apologizing until his boyfriend forgives him. Until this heaviness of guilt leaves his heart, he wishes to make up for all of his wrongdoings. His boyfriend really doesn’t deserve any of this.
“It’s always your assignments, I want your attention too,” Atom replied, his voice cracking again with choked sobs, sniffling like a little baby that made Kongthap’s heart melt with adoration for his boyfriend even amidst all this guilt. He still can’t believe someone this cute belongs to him.
“I will try harder. Forgive me na, baby,” Kongthap said, squeezing the guy’s small hand in his.
There was a short pause, of Atom silently staring at him with those teary puffy eyes, before he finally let go of his poor friend, no longer clinging on him, but took Kongthap by surprise when he threw himself onto Kongthap afterwards this time. Instinctively, being used to Atom always jumping on him, Kongthap caught him with ease. As Atom wrapped his arms around his neck tightly, burying his face in the crook of his neck, Kongthap ruffled Atom’s hair gently as more effort of apologizing, his heart is still heavy with guilt after all. Since Atom didn’t say anything, he hopes this is his sign of accepting Kongthap’s apology.
“Let’s go home tonight, you’re already too drunk,” Kongthap said softly against the guy’s ear that’s pressed up just next to his lips. Playing with Atom’s soft locks in between his fingers as he speaks, he feels Atom’s lips moving against his neck, seeming to mutter something.
“I wanna be your priority.” Atom’s voice was quiet, Kongthap almost missed it if it wasn’t for his boyfriend’s head that’s practically buried against his neck.
Even though he notices a few curious pairs of eyes on them, most of Atom’s classmates actually mind their own business, so their surroundings are still loud, buried by their loud off-pitched singings and the loud booming of speakers in the enclosed padded room. It may be because some of them are hammered drunk like Atom too, but Kongthap lowkey appreciates their lack of attention to them. He might not care about the attention in the slightest, but he knows how shy Atom can get sometimes. He might be drunk now to realize his surroundings, so his focus falls on Kongthap alone. But if he gets sober later, and remembers what happened tonight, he would definitely be embarrassed to have his classmates make fun of him about it later.
“You are, you always are. I’m so sorry that I failed to show that to you all this time. But tonight, my attention definitely is all yours, okay baby?” Kongthap replied, apologizing again.
“I promise I’ll try harder,” he continued. When Atom pulled his head away from burying his head to look at him right in the eyes, Kongthap feels his heart throbbed again with pain to see that tear streaked face up close this time. He really is the cause of those tears.
There was another pause of Atom silently staring at him, looking like there’s something in his mind. Kongthap wipes off the tear stain on his boyfriend’s red cheeks as he waits. The guy’s furrowed brows have smoothen lightly, but the soft pout is still there, with a clenched jaw that only resulted in his red cheeks puffing cutely. Kongthap still has no idea what his boyfriend has in his mind with that silent staring of his, but one thing he knows, he really has a sulky kitten of a boyfriend, and he never knew he could adore someone’s angry face like this before. He never knew he could find a sight of someone crying pretty either until he met Atom. He’s really head over heels for this cute drunk guy sitting in front of him.
“Promise?” Atom asked, a word finally left those pink lips as small sniffles left him, which melted Kongthap’s heart to hear it, cooing at the overloaded cuteness his small boyfriend exudes. He really needs to bring Atom home right at this moment so that he can wrap him in a fluffy blanket and embrace him as tight as he wants, having this urge to smother him with loving kisses.
“Promise,” Kongthap replied, smiling adoringly. He patted Atom’s hair again, watching as the guy leaned into his palm contently, like a kitten melting under soft head rub. The sigh that leaves him, really sounds like a soft purr cats would emit when they’re pleased. He will apologize to Atom again when the guy is sober, but now he’s glad to see that Atom seems to forgive him, and that’s enough for him to sleep comfortably tonight.
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When they got home afterwards, Atom had sobered up a lot. The breezy night air he took in, as his boyfriend drove them home with the windows rolled down managed to sober him up out of his drunk mind. Now that he’s sober, despite how hammered he was, surprisingly he managed to remember everything that happened in the karaoke bar earlier. And the moment that memory flashed before his eyes, he couldn’t help but feel a flooding rush of embarrassment filling him in, his face feeling a little bit hot, realizing he almost created a scene (which he already did, but let’s just pretend he had it controlled to make himself feel better). He prays that his classmates would be too drunk to remember everything from tonight, or else, he would definitely die out of embarrassment if they made fun of him when he sees them again next semester. His classmates already love to tease him to begin with (they said Atom gives out interesting reactions), he can’t afford to be their laughing stock even more.
Once they stepped inside their apartment, Kongthap told him to get a shower first, so he did. He hasn’t showered all day, so he feels extremely sticky, and seeing how he’s completely not sober yet, he guesses he really needs that shower anyway to sober up completely, so he hopped into the bathroom without further thought.
When he got out of the shower, freshly in a bathrobe and a towel over his damp hair, he saw his boyfriend sitting at the desk, typing on his notebook. The sight immediately brings this soft frown on his lips, obviously displeased to see Kongthap nose deep into his work again when he had just promised him that he would try harder. Clenching his jaw, Atom wants to comment on it, but the urge is instantly dismissed when he sees Kongthap shut down his laptop screen. When their eyes met, Atom can see guilt flashes momentarily in those eyes, Kongthap must’ve just realized his presence here hence why he immediately put his work away. The taller guy then stands up, and walks up to his boyfriend who’s still standing at the doorway.
Kongthap pulled him into an embrace afterwards, wrapped his arms around Atom’s back, to which Atom returned the hug in a heartbeat. As he had mentioned, receiving his boyfriend’s physical affection is always essential to him, he needs it to live. The warmth of Kongthap’s much bigger frame engulfed his smaller one with pure comfort, it drew a content sighing out of his chest to feel his lover’s body heat against him. He can’t remember when was the last time for them to be pressed up so close like this (excluding the hug they just had in the bar), it feels like his energy is being recharged again after so long of functioning on low mode, lacking attention from his beloved one. He really misses Kongthap’s warm embrace. So to have him in his arms like this, and to see Kongthap trying to fulfill his words, Atom’s heart melts at the effort. He’s moved.
“I’m sorry, baby,” he heard Kongthap muttered next to his ear. His voice mellow as always, vibrations of the huskiness of his voice made Atom metaphorically purred, content, hearing his boyfriend’s mellow voice saying out the endearment he has for him is always a music to his ears. Kongthap might’ve thought that Atom is too drunk to remember his apology at the bar earlier, but Atom actually remembers each and every of his words clearly. He remembers how Kongthap kept apologizing to him, the clear guilt in his voice, the sincerity of his words. And for Kongthap to apologize to him again right now, to his sober self too, it made Atom fall in love with his boyfriend even more. Kongthap might be dense sometimes, but when he knows what to do, he’s always the sweetest, and Atom loves that about him.
Meanwhile, Kongthap really wishes to say out his apology forever, but he knows it would not mean anything without following actions to prove it. He really can’t explain how guilty he is for deserting his lover all this time, foolishly thinking everything was fine just because Atom didn’t talk about it before. Though, he’s glad that the damage wasn’t much, and they managed to talk it out before it’s too late. He regrets everything he did, but it’s already in the past now, and there’s nothing he can do about it except to move forward and make up for the mistakes he did.
Now, he needs to try harder, to prove Atom that he really means the world to him. He can’t imagine if Atom totally gives up on them, because the guy has really worked hard to keep their relationship alive when Kongthap was too busy to notice the fall out between them. He realizes now that it takes both of them to protect this relationship, he doesn’t want Atom to get tired of him, he still wants to be with Atom until they grow old and wrinkly together. He loves Atom.
“I’m sorry too for not talking about it before,” he heard Atom speak, he could feel the vibrations of his voice against their chests that are pretty much pressed up together. Wanting to see Atom’s face as they talk, Kongthap then leaned back a little, but still had his arms wrapped around his boyfriend.
“I’ve been meaning to talk to you about this, but I just don’t know how to bring it up. And I don’t want to come off as too clingy either. I was kind of worried that it would make you feel uncomfortable,” he continued. Kongthap immediately shook his head in response.
“No, baby,” Kongthap said, frowning slightly. Guilt spreads in his chest again to see his boyfriend blaming himself when in fact it’s never Atom’s fault. Because of his lack of awareness, Atom ended up seeing himself as the problem, and Kongthap badly wanted to punch himself in the face for being the reason his boyfriend even had reached to such a conclusion. Can’t contain his guilt, Kongthap then cupped Atom’s head in his hands this time, holding the guy’s small face as he wants Atom to listen to what he’s about to say.
“It’s me, I always have trouble picking up things. But I can’t use that as an excuse when I’m in a relationship. A relationship goes both ways, and I’ve been absent all this time.”
“I’m extremely thankful for you to not give up on me, even when I’m this oblivious. I’ve been hurting you… I’m so sorry, baby,” Kongthap continued, the frown on his lips only getting deeper with the strong emotion of remorse surge inside him.
“And your physical affections never made me uncomfortable, baby. It’s never too much, and I always love them from you,” Kongthap said, rubbing comforting circles on Atom’s cheeks with his thumbs. He can see a smile of relief forming on his boyfriend’s soft lips, he must be relieved to hear his words.
“It’s a relief to hear that,” Atom replied, his smile getting wider with what seems to be pure relief, as if a huge weight just got lifted off his chest to hear his boyfriend’s words. Kongthap faintly returned that smile, still guilty about everything.
“When I failed to see you when I came home earlier, it feels as if my heart just stopped working. Having no means to contact you, no idea how you are doing, your whereabouts, I almost thought the world was going to end.”
“Always getting to see your face whenever I come home, falling asleep and waking up to your face next to me, it’s such a blessing that I only realized now I always took for granted before. I was so foolish. You’ve always been there for me, but I never realized that until you were gone, even briefly.”
“Coming home to no one, falling asleep in an empty bed, that’s what you’ve gone through all this time, and I was so dense and foolish to only realize it now. It must’ve been so lonely, I’m so sorry, baby. I’m really sorry,” Kongthap apologized again and over again.
“You can always tell me if there’s anything that bothers you, baby. I’ll try harder to be more attentive too, so you do not feel lonely anymore. I don’t want to be the reason for your tears of sorrow again, I will listen if you wish to talk to me, okay?” He added, smiling assuringly.
“I will try my best to make up for everything, for the things I wronged you. I really didn’t mean to hurt you but I know it’s not an excuse for me to be this ignorant. I’m really sorry, baby. Forgive me please,” Kongthap added more, apologizing again for the nth time.
He feels Atom’s small hands on top of his, caressing his that are holding the sides of Atom’s small face. Kongthap’s hands are big, it fits Atom’s head nicely with ease. Like an answer to his apology, Atom leaned in his face close to place a kiss on his lips, to which Kongthap returned in a heart beat, feeling his muscles relaxed under that sweet kiss that he just realized had been so long since their last one. He can’t believe he’s still alive without Atom’s kisses. He must’ve lost his mind then, because Atom definitely is the source of his energy. He has been feeling out of himself these days, but he guesses he only finds out the reason now. Without himself realizing, the reason why he had been feeling disoriented these days, all because he had been missing Atom’s affections, but he was too dense to realize that. He was so dumb.
The kiss was soft, gentle, just massaging their lips together, slow and sweet as they poured their love for each other through the kiss that both have been missing like crazy. When Atom pulled his face away, Kongthap’s heart melted at the sight of a gummy smile beaming on his boyfriend’s face. Not a hint of frown on that pretty face, only rows of pearly white teeth and pink gums in full view, his eyes crinkling slightly from how wide he’s smiling, the skin underneath his eyes even wrinkled too, resembling a pair of cat whiskers which is only more proof how his boyfriend is really a kitten in disguise. Atom’s cheeks are dusting pink too, happiness flooding his emotions.
“It’s okay, Thap. You’ve been apologizing a lot, I already lost count the amount of times you’ve said it since we were in the bar. I’m really glad that we can finally talk about it,” Atom said, still smiling. Seeing how cute his boyfriend is, smiling so beamingly wide like this, with the towel still sitting on top of his head, it made Kongthap’s chest grumble with cute aggression to see his boyfriend being in such a state. He wishes to kiss him more.
“Let's rest tonight okay? It has been a long week,” Atom continued, smiling. He caressed Kongthap’s hands for a moment, before he brought them down to let go of his face. But when he was about to pull his hands away, Kongthap only held it tighter, confusing him on the dot for refusing to let go.
“I’ve promised you that tonight my attention is all yours,” Kongthap said, staring right into Atom’s eyes. The way he can see Kongthap’s eyes dim a shade darker, getting hooded, he realized instantly what his boyfriend meant by his words. It made Atom’s cheeks blared hot, feeling the temperature of his body rising up tremendously to a notch.
Obviously, being together for three years now, living together especially, they’re totally far from being inexperienced when it comes to that stuff. But no matter how many times they have done it, Atom swears he will never get used to it. Always feeling flustered as if it’s his first time all over again whenever his boyfriend makes a move. Even back then, when they had their first time, Kongthap was the first one to make a move too. At the time, kissings still got Atom red in the face, what more for them to go further with each other, so Atom got really shy. But since he actually wants it as much as Kongthap does too, he accepted it even when he was extremely shy.
Since then, they have done it together a lot. Two years have passed, but his boyfriend is just too handsome, so no matter what, Atom really can never get used to this—being on the receiving end of Kongthap’s amorous advances. It always makes him shy. But again, even if he’s feeling shy, it doesn't mean that he doesn’t want it. On the contrary, the way his heart is pumping faster than usual, it’s obvious that Kongthap’s excitement isn’t shared alone, Atom wants this too.
“Thap…” Atom speaks softly, shyness filling him in when Kongthap’s hands that were holding his hands rested on his hips this time, holding his waist. It really didn’t help that Atom is still in a bathrobe too, with nothing else underneath. So with Kongthap’s hands on his waist, where it’s dangerously close to the tie which is the only thing that held his robe together from being stark naked, it made Atom’s heartbeat that’s already beating fast, thump faster out of nervousness. One simple tug, and his robe will unravel completely, and Kongthap will see his everything.
He can feel Kongthap’s gaze grow heavy on his skin, especially the exposed skin on his chest and legs. Since he didn’t put on the robe properly, his chest is quite exposed. And his thighs too. The robe is kind of short, barely covering his body down to his mid thigh only, so the rest of his legs are bare naked for Kongthap’s hungry eyes to eat up the pretty sight. He notices long before that Kongthap really loves to stare at his bare legs, his boyfriend’s hungry gaze on him is so intense, Atom can feel the weight of his gaze on the spot his eyes landed on. It makes him squirm underneath Kongthap’s dark eyes, paired with the touch on his waist where hotness is pooling underneath his boyfriend’s big warm hands, it makes Atom feel extremely exposed even when the robe is still covering his body. His body only gets hotter.
“You always react like it’s your first time,” he heard Kongthap chuckling. Atom frowned. His boyfriend really loves to tease him about his shyness when it comes to intimate stuff. But there’s really nothing he can do about it when Kongthap is just too handsome for his sanity. So if they’re blaming anyone, then Kongthap should be the one who's at fault. How can he be so handsome? Shouldn’t he be arrested for looking this handsome and playing with Atom’s poor heart?
Kongthap has always been so handsome even when he’s in his usual gentle mode, but when he’s acting naughty like this, smirking enticingly as he teases Atom, it makes him a hundred million times more charming than usual, it drives Atom crazy. He swears it feels like he’s going to lose his mind one of these days. How can someone so gentle, always talking to him softly, be this mischievous at the same time?
“Want me to teach you then, baby?” Kongthap teased even more, Atom then hit Kongthap’s arm lightly, feeling shy to be teased. But even if he’s feeling shy, as he mentioned, he actually really loves it when Kongthap treats him like this. He then heard Kongthap chuckled again.
“Should we get to the bed?” Kongthap asked, still smiling that handsome grin, Atom had to nod shyly, gripping on Kongthap’s sleeve as the taller guy brought him to the bed.
It only took a few steps before they reached the bed from the doorway. Atom lets Kongthap sit him down on the edge of the bed, his boyfriend towering over him as he looks at him with those same dark eyes and sly grin again. When his boyfriend leans down to mold their lips together, Atom feels like his heart is going to burst. Yes, they just kissed less than a few minutes ago, but that kiss was nothing compared to this one where he could feel Kongthap’s hot tongue running against his lips. Kongthap’s tongue was hot, wet as it glided against his lips before he felt his boyfriend’s fingers on the side of his face, caressing his jaw as he held his face.
“Open your mouth, baby.” Kongthap’s voice was low, husky against Atom’s sharp hearing. The authority in his voice made Atom moan unconsciously, feeling extremely submissive under his boyfriend’s commands. Obeying as told, he parted his lips open, breath shaky in anticipation. Again, as he had mentioned, no matter how many times they have done this together before, Kongthap always makes it feel like a first time for Atom.
Another soft moan left Atom’s lips when he felt Kongthap’s tongue glided past his parted lips, gasping at the burst of warmth inside his already hot cavern. His boyfriend’s hand is strong, holding his face in place as he tilted his head to kiss him deeper. It didn’t take long before another gasp left Atom’s lips again. His fingers gripping on Kongthap’s arm tightly, as if his life depended solely on it, he could feel Kongthap’s hot tongue brushing against his.
Their tongues dance smoothly against one another, swirling around in pure heat and wetness as they taste each other. It’s messy, Atom could feel saliva trickling down his chin as they continued to suck on each other’s hot tongue. Drools keep dribbling down his chin, but he could care less about the mess when he’s feeling this good from the kiss alone. The clawing grip he has on Kongthap’s arm only gets tighter, fingers desperately digging into his boyfriend’s strong biceps as his boyfriend continues to eat out his lips like no tomorrow. The more they kiss, the dizzier it gets for him, slowly forgetting how to breathe due to how good his boyfriend is kissing him right now. As if his life expectancy is being stripped down, his brain is turning mushy.
“Um,” Atom moaned. His head is getting light headed, as if he’s drunk again, spinning the more his boyfriend kisses him. With Kongthap as his first and only lover, he might not have other comparisons, but good lord, he dare to say that Kongthap is a really good kisser. His usual kisses are gentle and sweet, but when he kisses him with desires like this, it never fails to make Atom feel like he’s on ecstasy, over the moon to feel his boyfriend’s burning carnal desire for him. To feel wanted, needed—Kongthap always makes Atom feel like he is the owner of Kongthap’s world, and Atom is obsessed.
Atom almost sees white from how deep his boyfriend kisses him, he almost suffocated. The obscene sound of their lips smacking, the squelches of their tongues rubbing together, and their spit mixing drowns Atom’s hearing. He could even hear his own loud heartbeat, thumping with excitement as the kiss got deeper, messier. He can never get enough of his boyfriend’s sweet kiss, he needs more. More—
Gasp.
“Breathe, baby.”
Atom panted heavily the moment Kongthap’s husky voice brought him back. He didn’t even notice how blurry his vision was until he tried to look at his boyfriend in the face, his eyes unfocusing. He can feel Kongthap’s fingers on the side of his jaw still, caressing his face as a means to guide him to breathe properly, so Atom followed that rhythm. Breathing in and out to steady himself again. He really almost passed out from suffocation.
Kiss. He needs to kiss Kongthap more.
Grabbing his boyfriend’s face, he immediately pulled it down so that their lips could mold again. His desperation resulted in this burst of energy, pulling his boyfriend down too hard, he came down crashing on him, resulting in him being trapped against the bed with his boyfriend right on top of him. Atom wants to kiss Kongthap more, but is only met with an eruption of chuckles from the man on top of him instead. Kongthap just laughed at him.
“You really love the kiss, don’t you, baby?” Kongthap said, chuckling. Being the subject of his boyfriend’s teasing once more, Atom frowned again. Sulking.
Kongthap, who’s seeing his boyfriend sulking like a kitten again, feels his heart pumps with both adoration and excitement at the sight. Atom really is too adorable for his own good, Kongthap wishes to eat him up all night long.
“We can’t just kiss all night, do we?” Kongthap said, massaging the crinkled spot in between Atom’s deeply furrowed brows as he adored his boyfriend’s cute sulking face. Atom is still sulking, frowning at him, which Kongthap finds adorable more than scary. He must be annoyed that their kiss was cut short. But having his boyfriend pass out over a kiss really is the last thing Kongthap wished to happen tonight. There’s still a long list of things he wants to do with his cute boyfriend, so he can’t let the night end just yet. He wants to taste every inch of him.
Bringing his gaze down, he can’t help himself but admire the pretty legs that belong to his boyfriend. Since Atom is lying down, the sight of his chest is a complete feast to the eye now. The windows are parted, revealing his white chest which now is flushed red with excitement, a rush of blood pumping all over his body. His rosy nipples are fully erected too, twitching prettily as if they’re demanding for company. It made Kongthap clench his jaw at the sight, mouth watering as he wishes to pamper those pretty buds with love soon. But as much as he loves his boyfriend’s chest, there’s another thing that he’s more obsessed with. And that is—Atom’s legs.
The sight of his bare thighs are only exposed even more with the robe had ridden over his body. Kongthap didn’t know when it started, but the next thing he realized, he’s already a worshipper for his boyfriend’s legs. It’s prettier than anyone’s, than any girl’s, he may dare to add. Extremely smooth to the touch, milky white, with slender calves and thick thighs. They easily bruise too, a single shallow dip of his finger against the skin, and the spot would be flushing pink and throbbing. It’s even more beautiful when he sinks his teeth against the plush white skin, even a soft suck is enough to make the canvas skin flushed prettily, adorned with red marks where he is the honored painter of those claim marks. Not only that what gets him obsessed, the cute moans his boyfriend would also let out when he sucks the skin of his inner thighs too, it’s always a sweet treat to Kongthap’s ears.
Can’t contain his urge anymore to have his boyfriend right at this moment, Kongthap put his hands on the side of Atom’s thighs. Gripping them tightly, he enjoyed the way his fingers dug into the plush skin of his boyfriend’s thick thighs. So soft to the touch, it’s already flushing red as he spreads them open confidently with one single push. This resulted in the robe to part open as well, revealing a flushed length curled prettily on his boyfriend’s cute tummy, which brought chuckles out of Kongthap again to see it. God, Atom really is just so fucking adorable. They only kissed, but Atom is already this rock hard from that kiss alone.
Almost immediately, he could only see his boyfriend’s exposed part for a split second before the sight is quickly covered with Atom’s small hands cupping them down, hiding himself. Kongthap snorted in amusement.
God, Atom really is going to drive Kongthap insane . How can he be this adorable?
“How can I teach you if you hide yourself like this, hmm baby?” Kongthap said, chuckling as he smiles teasingly at his boyfriend whose face is as red as a tomato. He even caressed Atom’s thighs too as teasing, feeling the soft skin underneath his rough fingertips. As he runs his fingers against the smooth skin, he can feel Atom twitched underneath his touch, trembling cutely like a newborn fawn. Atom is a blushing mess, his cheeks pretty pink as Kongthap’s big hands continue to feel up his naked thighs. The warmth of his palms made Atom grow more antsy, extremely shy underneath his boyfriend’s bold sensual touch and outward stripping gaze.
Atom really feels like his heart is going to burst. It really has been so long since their last time together, so it made him feel more shy than usual. He’s too shy, his tongue is tied, he’s unable to speak. He could only bite his lower lips as his boyfriend continued to caress his bare skin, staring him down with those sexy eyes, patiently waiting for him to uncover himself. But the way Kongthap is grinning at him, with that handsome grin of his, hovering on top of him with both hands holding his naked thighs, it only makes it harder for Atom to cooperate. His boyfriend really is just too handsome, Atom’s heart feels like it’s going to die out anytime soon.
Without realizing, extremely overwhelmed by the shyness building inside him, droplets of tears escaped his eyes before he could catch himself. With his vision getting blurry, sniffles followed at the back of his nose, he immediately turned into a mess. He’s too shy, overwhelmed with the attention he’s receiving from his boyfriend, he’s a crying mess now.
Seeing his boyfriend crying again, guilt immediately filled Kongthap’s heart. Did he overdo his teasing this time?
Letting go of his boyfriend’s thighs, he wiped off the tears on Atom’s face.
“Did I tease you too much, baby?” Kongthap asked, feeling sorry. His boyfriend’s face continued to be streaked with tears, cheeks flushed pink as he turned into this crying mess. But God, is his boyfriend pretty . Along with the guilt, Kongthap’s heart is also swelling with adoration to see his boyfriend get prettier with the puffy eyes and shiny pink cheeks. The sight is so pretty, it made him feel rather guilty to feel the front of his pants getting tight at the sight. Has he always loved seeing Atom crying before? Is it because he’s the cause of those tears, it gets him excited?
“Should we stop here?” Kongthap asked, wiping off the tears on Atom’s cheeks. His heart swells even more when his cute boyfriend leaned into his touch, eyes red and puffy with tears as he shook his head meekly, followed by a soft noise of disagreement. Kongthap holds back the deep grunts building in his chest, the discomfort in his pants growing as he’s getting more turned on to see his boyfriend being cute like this. God, the urge to throw his conscience out the window and immediately pounce on his boyfriend right now—he feels like he can kill.
“God, baby—You’re really driving me insane ,” Kongthap groaned.
“Can you show me yourself then, baby?” Kongthap asked, gentle as he could. It took a moment before his boyfriend finally loosen up and pulled his hands away slowly. The moment he did, Kongthap groaned again at the sight of Atom’s cute cock twitching prettily on his tummy, flushed pink and leaking wet with precum dribbling at the pink tip. The robe is still hanging loosely on his smaller frame, barely covering anything as the tie had come undone anyway the moment he fell down on the bed. The windows parted open, riding down off the shoulders to reveal everything Konghtap needed to see, his milky white skin flushed prettily, looking pinkish all over. His thighs pressed up close in an attempt to cover himself up again, but Kongthap was fast to put his hand in between them to part them open, not giving a chance for the guy to cover himself again. He heard Atom let out a soft cry, more tears painting down that pretty face.
“Relax, baby. I’m not going to hurt you, okay?” Kongthap said. He pulled Atom closer to him by pulling on his thighs.
“You’re already so wet, baby,” Kongthap commented, groaning again at the sight of his boyfriend’s tummy slicked with precum that keeps dribbling down from the leaking cock. Clenching his jaw, he teased the leaking tip with his fingers, enjoying the way it twitched prettily underneath his fingertips before it spits out more sticky liquid in response. He heard Atom moan quietly, as if holding himself back from letting out audible noises. Seems shy to even make noises.
“So fucking wet for me, baby. So excited for me to pop your cherry?” Kongthap wrapped his fingers around the head this time, he pumped it slowly to draw out more sweet responses from his shy boyfriend. The tip continues to spit out more precum, staining Kongthap’s hand with stickiness.
As pleasure sending electricity all over his body, it didn’t take long before his boyfriend finally moaned out sweetly. His hips buck with pleasure, craving more of that sweet pump around his sensitive tip. Arousal continues to spread all over his body, his back arched uncontrollably, his chest flushed even more. Seeing how cute the rosey nubs look fully erected, Kongthap uses his other hand to play with it too, tweaking on it as he pumped the cock with his other hand. With that, Atom turned into a moaning mess, tears of pleasure continued to roll down his cheeks.
“Look at how you’re moving your hips. Do you like that, baby? Fucking my hand because that’s all your cute cock can fit?” Kongthap said, chuckling as he watched Atom buck his hips desperately to fuck his cute cock into his fist. His baby let out a soft whine this time, more tears rolling down his cheeks, must be desperate for more touch than this.
“Do you want to cum, baby? Do you think you deserve to cum?” Kongthap teased, picking up his pace, he pumped Atom’s cock fully this time, resulting in his cute boyfriend to turn into a writhing mess, moaning nonstop as the pleasure sent his mind haywire. He’s a crying mess, sniffling like a baby, desperate for more pleasure so that he can reach his climax. He’s already so close, the heat pooling in his belly is already so intense, he feels like he’s going to burst soon. He needs to cum.
“Please—Thap—Please—” He finally heard Atom speak for the first time. The desperation in his voice made Kongthap chuckle again.
Atom is so adorable, the way his slender body is flushed pink all over, twitching prettily as he bucks his hips in pure desperation, wanting to orgasm badly, it only made Kongthap wanna tease him more seeing him so anguished like this. So instead of giving what he wanted, he let go of his cock instantly without a single hesitation. Almost immediately, his baby let out a loud cry, whining, face scrunched up in pure irritation to have his pleasure cut short. Kongthap feels his heart getting giddy at the sight of his boyfriend sulking again because of him. So cute—His adorable kitten.
He watched as Atom clenched his jaw tightly, his pink cheeks puffed up as he frowned deeply, a kissable pout forming on his lips. The puffy eyes are producing tears again, but seem to be out of annoyance and frustration this time for getting his orgasm denied. With his pathetic cock still flushed red, Kongthap watched as his baby moved on the bed, looking like he wanted to crawl out of the bed soon. Kongthap ended up bursted into another fit of chuckles, completely amused to see the way his sulky boyfriend wanted to get away from him. If Atom has cat ears and tail, the ears must have flattened on his head, and the tail must have held up stiff already from anger as he crawled away from him. The guy would probably bare his fangs too, hissing at him. Just the thought alone made Kongthap chuckle, because he can definitely imagine his boyfriend doing that. Atom is definitely sulking again, he must be really annoyed by Kongthap’s teasing.
“Okay, okay, I will not tease you anymore na, baby,” Kongthap said, chuckling. But his baby, who’s sulking, looks like he’s still very determined to get off the bed. So Kongthap caught him by his calves, and pulled him to the center of the bed again, and immediately had him pinned down so that he couldn't escape again. When he’s face to face with his boyfriend again, he can see his boyfriend’s deep frown for him, pouting angrily, so he smiles in return. He wiped off the tears on his boyfriend’s face, before he leaned down to kiss the puffy eyelids.
“You’re just too cute, baby. I can’t hold myself from teasing you,” Kongthap said, to which Atom's frown grew deeper, the spot in between his thick eyebrows scrunched tighter. A grumpy kitten. Kongthap chuckled at the sight. He massaged the wrinkle spot with his thumb.
“I’ll not tease you anymore, but will you listen to me?” Kongthap asked, caressing the soft pink cheeks in pure adoration. His boyfriend really is too cute. He can see curiosity peered in those shiny eyes now. It really doesn’t take much to steer his boyfriend’s attention away. One minute he was sulking, now he looks very much eager to play with him again.
“I’ll make you feel good, more than you could ever feel before. But let me take full control of you, would you baby?” Kongthap asked, his voice husky, persuasive, it made Atom squirm to hear it, feeling his cock leaking again at the dominance his boyfriend shows.
There’s a short moment of silence, just the two of them staring into each other’s eyes in pure silence for a second or two, only the quiet sound of their breathing and excited heartbeat could be heard for that short moment, before Kongthap finally receives an answer from his boyfriend.
A shy nod.
Kongthap grinned at the cute answer.
“You’re really shy, acting like this is really your first,” Kongthap said, admiring how pink his boyfriend’s face is.
His fingers that were previously on Atom’s cheeks then moved downwards to hold his hips this time. Instantly, he earned himself a cute gasp from his boyfriend, he must be a little surprised to have the warmth spreading there out of the blue.
Kongthap caressed Atom’s hips, enjoying the way his boyfriend would tremble under his gentle teasing touch, and the way his soft tummy would suck in involuntarily every a few seconds or so with Kongthap’s fingers dancing on his hot bare skin. His breath is getting shaky too, soft whines escaping those pink lips, in desperate need of being touched properly soon.
“Do you want me to take your first then, baby?” Kongthap knows he just said that he wouldn’t tease Atom anymore. But how can he not tease him when his boyfriend is acting so adorable like this? Acting like an inexperienced chaste, being so sensitive to the tiniest touch on his bare skin, acting like he had never experienced any of this. When in fact, they’ve done this over a hundred couple of times already, so inexperienced is totally far from what they are. He does agree that because of his busyness these days, they indeed haven’t done it for quite a while. But if Atom can actually get pregnant, from the amount of times they have done it before (raw if he may add), they would have long formed a family of four already.
“Want me to fuck your tight virgin hole, baby?” Kongthap continued, Atom let out a whine. The boy sounds like he’s irritated again, but the fact that his cock is twitching right now, with precum continuing to dribble out the pink bulbous tip, it’s proof that he actually enjoys this as much as Kongthap does. Atom enjoys the dirty talk his boyfriend is doing.
“Do you want me to?” Kongthap asked, his long fingers trailed to Atom’s inner thighs this time, caressing the sensitive skin there next. His boyfriend continues to jolt underneath him, looking extremely sensitive to the hot touch his boyfriend imprints on his skin.
Atom whined softly, brows furrowed in desperation for more bolder contact. His cock is already rock hard, feeling like it’s going to burst anytime now. And even his behind is clenching nonstop too, desperate for something to fill him soon.
“I need to hear you answer, baby. Do you want me to take you?” Kongthap asked, caressing the soft inner thighs more, his fingers dancing too close against Atom’s sensitive region, resulting in him to earn himself another cute whine from his cute boyfriend.
Smirking, Kongthap then leaned down this time, he settled for the spot in between Atom’s legs, he spread the milky white thighs apart. Wanting to force out a verbal answer from his boyfriend, Kongthap then started to pepper kisses on the milky surface of Atom’s inner thighs. He knows how sensitive Atom is right now, seeing how close he is to reaching his orgasm soon, so it really wouldn’t take long before he turned into a putty mess. For now, Kongthap is taking all his time in the world to enjoy himself with his boyfriend’s gorgeous slender body, admiring his boyfriend’s pretty legs that he has always been obsessed with—a complete devotee for.
He sucks on the soft skin, grazing his teeth against the canvas skin, and smirking when he pulls out to admire the red mark he left bruising the delicate pinkish skin. He trails the kisses on the front of the soft thighs this time, leaving similar claim marks, managing to earn himself more pretty moans from his boyfriend. He sank his teeth on the plush skin this time, and Atom immediately let out a gasp of pain. But the pain is immediately replaced with pleasure the moment Kongthap laps on the bruise with his tongue next, sucking on the skin as if to make up for the pain he had just inflicted. Atom moaned out of pleasure this time.
Kongthap continued to pepper more kisses down along Atom’s pretty legs, sucking on each thigh interchangeably from one to another to make sure both are covered with similar red claim marks. Sucking the thigh once more, he pulled out momentarily again to admire the red strokes he had left on his living white canvas . Red marks scattered all over the white skin, flushed pink with blood gushing all over his slender body with sexual excitement. His canvas starts to look extremely beautiful, worthy of hundreds of billion dollars to be filled with no one else’s but his confident painting strokes— proof of ownership, as Atom belongs to no one, but him, Kongthap alone. This beautiful being, Atom really belongs to him.
Travelling even downwards, he leaves kisses on Atom’s pretty knees too, the slender shins and the perfectly shaped half-moon calves. When he reached the calves, he made sure to bite on the skin there, especially a little bit hard to make more prominent visible marks. Next time, when his boyfriend puts on a pair of shorts, people can see that such beautiful legs have an owner already, so his boyfriend will be safe from pests . He can hear Atom’s moan of pain again as he sunk his teeth deep into the plush of fat, so he did what he does before, licking and sucking on the wound as his way of apologizing, the guy immediately melted underneath his kisses again.
Moving downward, he shifted on his knees on the bed to reach further down his boyfriend’s legs. Wrapping his fingers around the slender ankle that belongs to his boyfriend, he lifted up so he could kiss the ankle with ease. He can feel Atom’s eyes on him, staring with amazement; he must still be in disbelief at how much of a devotee Kongthap is for his beautiful legs. Wanting to put on a show for his curious boyfriend, Kongthap smirked as he peppered the kisses along the length of Atom’s feet, the heel, the instep, the arch. He can feel Atom’s foot jerking in his hand, must be ticklish from the kisses on his foot. But from the way his boyfriend is quiet, silently staring at him with those curious eyes, Kongthap simply continues what he is doing. He kisses the toes this time, every tip, every nail lovingly. And when he stuck out his tongue to suck on one of them, he heard his boyfriend gasp softly, eyes wide, itching to take his foot away out of surprise, but Kongthap didn’t budge, he held it even tighter as he sucked on it, smirking.
“Thap—” Atom croaked out timidly, shyness filling him again to have his boyfriend sucking on an unusual part of his body. He has always known that Kongthap loves his legs, but he didn’t know that he actually loves them this much for him to go to such a length. It made Atom really shy to be on the receiving end, also feeling ticklish the more his boyfriend’s tongue moved against his toe, sucking on it devotedly. It feels so obscene, the hotness of his boyfriend’s warm spit and hot breath really didn’t make it feel any better.
“You have such pretty legs, baby. Pretty thighs, pretty calves, pretty feet.” Kongthap then pulled the toe out of his mouth, a thick string of saliva connecting his lips with the tip of Atom’s toe that he just sucked, it made Atom’s ears buzzing hot to see it.
Then his boyfriend brought down his feet to another place that he didn’t expect his foot would reach. Atom’s eyes widened again, jolting in surprise when his boyfriend placed his foot at the front of his pants this time, right on top of his bulge. Atom feels his face getting hot, extremely shy to feel the bulge throbbing underneath him as his boyfriend seems to rock his hips against the sole of his foot. He feels like he can die out of embarrassment now, Kongthap is insane . But what crazier is, Atom feels like he can’t look away. As much as he feels like he could die from overwhelming shyness, to be desired by his boyfriend like this—For Kongthap to do such an unconventional thing on him, it made Atom grow excited for inexplicable reasons. He didn’t even know where the confidence came from, but to see his boyfriend being so dirty, he had already pressed his foot against Kongthap’s bulge before he realized it, earning himself a deep moan from his boyfriend as he stepped on his crotch.
“Fuck,” a soft curse left Kongthap’s lips. Atom felt his cock leaking again, extremely turned on to see the kind of expression his boyfriend is making. It must’ve felt good for him when Atom did that, because his handsome face is scrunched up sexily now, tight jaw with a soft dent on the side, furrowed thick brows on top of dark hooded eyes. He looks like he almost lets his desires let loose, but still holding himself back from jumping on Atom anytime now, a gentleman he is. But Atom is desperately in need of that, for Kongthap to jump on him. He needs Kongthap to take him right now, he’s already so fucking desperate for a release. He still hasn't cummed yet after all from the orgasm denial he had earlier. He needs to have a release. He needs to cum.
Atom watched with shallow breath as his boyfriend undressed in front of him. Unbuttoning the buttons on the front of his dress shirt hastily due to impatience, but luckily managed to get all them untangled within no time before he took it off of his body and threw it down on the floor. His boyfriend might be a veterinary student, but he’s also a member of Chulalongkorn basketball official team too, so his body really is to die for. More of a reason why it always makes Atom a blushing mess whenever his boyfriend makes a move on him, wanting to have him intimately. Because along with the handsome face that always makes everyone turn to look at him twice, his body really looks like it’s just meant for the museum. Handsome face, defined muscles, sexy brain. Tell him, how can such a fine specimen want to rail him this desperately? Did he serve the nation in his past life to win himself such a hot boyfriend? A loving gentle one too at that?
Atom is nothing but a ball of mochi, his muscles are undefined, soft all over. Even climbing the stairs when the elevator in their apartment broke down is enough to make him breathless, the ‘exercise’ would last him days of sore muscles. Even when he tried to help Kongthap with his basketball team back in M5, he could only be of help by being their temporary manager. Not only is he unathletic, he’s also dumb and whiny too, it’s still a wonder how such an amazing person can belong to him. But as much as it's still kind of unbelievable, he believes that they’re meant for each other. Kongthap wants him as much as he does, so even though they might be polar opposites in a lot of aspects, he can’t imagine being with anyone else other than Kongthap now. He believes Kongthap thinks the same too. Being each other’s first in a lot of things, Kongthap holds a dear place in his heart. He is Atom’s past, present and future (which he prays for everyday). They might fight once in a while, but leaving Kongthap would totally be the last thing he wishes to do in this life. He can’t imagine his life without Kongthap anymore.
Blood continued to pump in his body with rushes of excitement as he watched his hot boyfriend continue to undress in front of him. His fingers are moving impatiently, unbuckling the belt that held his slacks together, and the moment he managed to get it off his waist, it too joined the shirt on the floor, being discarded without any second thought. With the belt off, he wasted no time to unbutton his slacks next, unzipping it before he, again, threw it on the floor along with the other article of clothes lying on the floor. Now he’s only in nothing but a pair of tight boxers, Atom feels his mouth watered at the sight of a wet patch on the front of his boyfriend’s big bulge. Kongthap is all bricked up, leaking that badly just from playing with Atom’s body alone, it made Atom’s heart throb with pride to have such an effect on his hot boyfriend. Licking his lips, he watched as his boyfriend unraveled that last piece of clothing off his hips next.
In a blink of an eye, Atom is met with a sight of his boyfriend’s monstrous length, springing out of the tight constriction, it twitches prettily as it meets the cold air, the swollen red tip leaking delicious precum that made Atom’s mouth water again to see it, having this strong urge to suck on the tip.
A gasp left Atom’s lips when he felt his boyfriend’s long fingers wrapped around his ankle again. This time, he brought the sole of his foot to rest on his naked bulge. Atom moaned softly at the dirty sight, his own cock twitching to feel the hotness of his boyfriend’s hard-on touching bare on his skin, throbbing hot underneath his foot. Another moan left his lips when his boyfriend started to move, bucking his hips to rub his leaking cock against the flat of Atom’s foot. It’s extremely sexy how his boyfriend is clenching his jaw tightly, heavy snort leaving him as he gets off with Atom’s foot. Kongthap has always been shameless , but for it to be something obscene like this, it makes Atom feel dirty, his body feeling a million times hotter, shy, to have his boyfriend rutting his cock against his foot, rolling his hips as if his life depended on it, deep moans and heavy grunts left him.
To see how much his boyfriend is enjoying himself, it affected Atom to feel his boyfriend’s excitement, so he wrapped his fingers around his own flushing cock, getting off to the sight of his boyfriend enjoying himself on his body.
Kongthap’s pace gets rough, rubbing his cock against the smooth skin, he made sure to rub his tip against Atom’s cute toes too, enjoying the way it would dig against his slit as he moved up and down against his foot. His slicks would taint the cute toes, making them shiny pretty with his precum. Not only the sight of his boyfriend’s toes covered up with his slicks makes him harder, he’s only getting even more turned on now to see his boyfriend jerking off in front of him too. To see Atom touching himself, he’s extremely proud to see his cute boyfriend is enjoying the dirty show he’s presenting specially for him.
Feeling that familiar hotness building up in bim, he picks up his pace, rolling his hips even harder, faster. Sweat is rolling down his face and neck, more deep pleasurable moans leave his lips unheld to please himself on his boyfriend’s cute foot. Atom looks so fucking sexy playing with his own cock too, his face scrunched with desperation for a release.
So while he’s still rubbing his cock on Atom’s foot, he leaned down a little so he can wrap his own fingers around Atom’s cute cock. His boyfriend looks so desperate for a release, he knows Atom would cum faster with his hand, so he decided to help him while he’s reaching for his own orgasm, fucking the foot nonstop.
A few more harsh thrusts against the soft surface of Atom’s pretty foot, and a few quick pumps on his boyfriend’s cute cock, it didn’t take long before both of them got breathless. The two gasped heavily, before the muscles on their lower half contracted tightly for a split second, and the two immediately spurted out thick loads of cum, simultaneously hitting their climax with a loud shameless moan.
Kongthap groaned aloud, snorted heavily as he rubbed himself against Atom’s foot to milk himself spent, making sure every droplet was caught on Atom’s cute toes, painting them with his seeds. He can see his boyfriend’s soft tummy is covered with white specks too, along with his own fingers since his boyfriend practically cummed with his fingers wrapped around him. Atom looks like he’s on cloud nine, his eyes extremely hazy, cheeks blaring hot from the pleasure of post-orgasm riding his body like waves. His bangs matted on his forehead, sticky with sweat. His milky white body is extremely flushed all over too, slightly shaky with the pleasure leaving his body weak for a moment. Atom looks so pretty.
“Does that feel good, baby?” Kongthap asked, rubbing his cock against the foot one last time, he pulled away only to suck on the toes again, but licking up the cum off his toes this time. He can hear Atom moaning softly as an answer, he must be really exhausted from the orgasm still.
Finished off sucking all of the cum off his boyfriend’s cute toes, he finally put the legs down to lean down against his boyfriend’s soft tummy next, wanting to lick off the cum there. Atom moaned quietly, his body still weak, gone ply as Kongthap ran his tongue against his soft abdomen. He made sure to lick them clean, even tonguing deep into the navel too, he chuckled when the cute stomach sucked in underneath him, Atom moaning cutely. Atom is so ticklish, it’s another thing that made him so adorable in Kongthap’s eyes too.
Then he moved upward to catch Atom’s lips this time, kissing his boyfriend on the mouth, he ate up the cute moans his boyfriend would let out when he tasted the saltiness of his own cum and Kongthap’s bitter one on his tongue. Their tongues moved messily, swirling around as they enjoyed each other’s taste. At this point, Atom seems like he has forgotten to breathe again, so Kongthap be the one to pull out first. Despite how much he wishes to keep kissing his cute boyfriend, he can’t let Atom pass out now, the night is still long after all.
The moment he pulled out, like before, his boyfriend would be eager to chase after his lips again, to which Kongthap chuckled in response. He held the side of Atom’s face to calm him down. When Atom finally stopped trying to desperately chase after his lips, Kongthap rewarded him by leaving a short peck on the swollen pouty red lips, rewarding him for being a good boy. He can hear soft whines at the back of Atom’s throat too, he must still want the kiss. As much as Kongthap loves to pamper Atom, he’s not going to give what Atom wants every time he wants it, or else he would be too spoiled, so he simply caressed Atom’s red cheeks instead.
“Ready for the main course, baby?” Kongthap asked, still caressing Atom’s soft cheeks. He also brushed away the few strands getting in the way of Atom’s pretty face, wanting to look at his boyfriend’s cute pink face clearly. He leaned down to kiss the two moles on his nose and right cheek respectively. Atom really is just too adorable, even his moles are cute too, Kongthap is always drawn to kiss them.
Shyness shows up on his boyfriend’s again, he watches as Atom squirm underneath him again, his thighs pressing together as if he’s trying to hide his behind. So Kongthap put his hand in between them again to spread them apart, then shamelessly run his long fingers against the pink rim, smirking when he feels it twitch prettily against his fingertips, clenching and unclenching around nothing, seems to be desperate for something to fill it soon.
“You won’t give your answer, but your virgin hole is already giving me an answer, baby.”
“Your cock is already leaking wet again. You can already feel it yourself, don’t you? How hot your inside is, so desperate for something to fill it up soon. It can’t stop twitching here,” Kongthap commented lewdly, chuckling as he pressed his hot fingers on the tight pink rim harder. It almost pushed through, but just as the long digits were about to sink past the tightness, he immediately drew his fingers away to tease his boyfriend, totally enjoying the way Atom would whine on the spot, sulking cutely whenever he’s teased like this.
“Thap—” Atom whined again, tears started to pool in the brim of those pretty eyes again. The sight made Kongthap’s heart thump with excitement again to see his boyfriend crying again because of him.
Kongthap chuckled as he continued to rub the pink hole again, simply teasing it by running his fingertips across the twitching rim, but never actually protruding its inside.
“I need to hear your voice, baby. Let me hear your cute voice. Say that you want me to take your virginity, baby,” Kongthap said, smirking attractively. He pressed his fingers harder on Atom’s behind again, this time one of the digits actually made it past through, but just as quick as it came in, the quick it left him too, so Atom couldn’t help but let out another desperate whine, turning into a crying mess.
“Say that you want my cock inside you, baby,” Kongthap added, which resulted in Atom to only cry harder, fat tears rolling down his pink cheeks so pathetically in extreme anguish for his boyfriend’s fingers to protrude his inside.
He badly needs Kongthap’s long fingers in his hot inside, his fat cock too especially, but he feels like he would die out of embarrassment first if he’s going to say what Kongthap wanted to hear from him. Atom is so shy, so to be saying such dirty things, he feels like he would rather die of blue balls rather than saying it aloud. Kongthap has promised to not tease him anymore, but he has also agreed to let Kongthap take control of him, so Atom’s mind really is a mess right now.
Ai Kongthap—
“Um—” A moan left Atom’s lips when he felt Kongthap’s finger pushed past through his tight behind.
His eyes widened, feeling that single digit buried deep inside him, rocking along his inner walls, he could feel it brushing against his prostate so sweetly, it made him buck his hips uncontrollably with pure pleasure, totally caught off guard with the sudden intrusion, but he’s quick to enjoy the digit inside him. It’s what he wanted after all, but he needs more, more of Kongthap’s fingers inside him.
“My shy baby,” Kongthap said, chuckling with adoration. With the way Kongthap’s finger moved inside him, Atom realized now that Kongthap had finally dropped his teasing, so there’s no need for Atom to say out the embarrassing words.
Kongthap then leaned down to lick off the tears of Atom’s face. When he pulled his face away, Atom watched as Kongthap reached for the bedside table next, taking out what seemed to be a bottle of lube from the first drawer, he brought it close in between Atom’s legs. When he pulled out his finger out of his behind, it resulted in Atom whining softly as an immediate response from the emptiness leaving him all of a sudden. But his chest instantly heaving with excitement afterwards the moment he sees Kongthap uncapped the bottle of lube and drenched his fingers down with it, making sure every digit is slicked up.
In no time, Kongthap’s fingers find its way on Atom’s behind again, but sticky this time, wet as it glides against Atom’s puckering behind. A content moan left Atom’s lips when he felt the wet digit slip past through his tightness, comforting his inside as it fills up his inside with more ease this time. Atom’s hips can’t stop jerking, toes curling as his boyfriend’s long finger rocked inside him gently. For every pump he made, pulling his long thick finger in and out of Atom’s behind, it rubbed against the pleasurable bump inside him so nicely, pampered so delectably, it made Atom moan sweetly out of pleasure every time. And when his boyfriend added another digit, scissoring his behind to stretch it open, more moans escaped Atom’s lips at the sweet pain of being stretched open, delightful burn tingling around his tight rim the more his boyfriend’s fingers stretched his inside.
It has been so long since they did it, so Atom gets extremely tight. Kongthap might only want to tease him, saying he’s acting like a virgin due to how shy he is acting, but it definitely feels like the first time for him due to how tight he has gotten now. Since it has been so long for him to be touched sexually this way by Kongthap, Atom is unsure how to calm himself down from the crazy excitement of being full with his boyfriend’s thick fingers stuffed inside him. It feels so intimate, for his boyfriend’s fingers to be buried so deeply inside him—he can feel every twitch of his fingers, every curl, every scratch of his nail. Atom is rock hard, he feels like he can cum from Kongthap’s fingers alone any time now.
“Enjoying my fingers inside you, baby?”
Noticing how lost his boyfriend is in his own world of pleasure, Kongthap decided to talk. Atom has been extremely quiet aside from the occasional moans that would slip out his lips whenever Kongthap would brush against that sweet bump inside him, so he tries to bring his boyfriend’s attention on him again. He also notices how Atom’s cock is flushed hard too, looks like it’s going to burst soon anytime now as if he just haven’t had his release a few minutes ago. Kongthap is only fingering him, but it looks like Atom really is enjoying this like crazy, as if it’s the first time for him to feel such sweet pleasure. It made Kongthap snort, chuckling amusedly at how real sensitive his boyfriend has become as it has been so long since they did it together.
Doesn’t want his boyfriend to cum without him, Kongthap immediately pulled out his fingers without warning, immediately earning himself a loud disapproval whine from his cute boyfriend. Atom’s face is scrunched with annoyance again, glaring at him with his cat eyes, to which Kongthap kisses his eyelids again, noticing the tears that rolled down again. His boyfriend really is a mess tonight. One moment he’s crying, another he would moan, then he would whine—all within a short span of time, which Kongthap finds extremely interesting, yet adorable at the same time. His heart really melts for this cute sulky kitten of a boyfriend he has. His cute kitten— Atom .
“Thap!” Atom shouted, almost kicking his feet to throw tantrums, but Kongthap immediately held them down and kissed his knees with chuckles leaving him.
“A moment baby, don’t want you to enjoy yourself too much without me,” Kongthap said. He then spread Atom’s legs again to get in between them, he pulled Atom down by the thighs to pull him closer to him. Picking up the same bottle of lube from before, he uncapped it open to dribble the sticky lube down his own cock this time. He can feel Atom’s impatient eyes burning a hole on him, so he wrapped his fingers around his cock to coat himself fully, making sure it’s covered thoroughly with lube before he brought his attention back to his adorable sulking kitten.
Atom is glaring at him, but the moment Kongthap aligned the tip of his cock to meet the rim of his behind, he can see immediate change on his boyfriend’s face, replaced with pleasure as Kongthap rubbed the bulbous tip against his twitching behind. Atom turned into a whining mess, moaning desperately for his boyfriend to fill him up soon. Kongthap held Atom’s hip with one hand, while guided his cock with another to rub the tip against Atom’s stretched behind for a while more, wanting to tease him first as he really enjoyed the way Atom is rubbing his ass against him, so desperate to have it protruding his inside, it made Kongthap smirk at the sight.
Atom is even sniffling cutely too, frowning as his puckering behind continued to clench and unclenching around nothing. Kongthap can feel the rim try to catch him inside it, wanting to clench around him the moment his cock rubbed against him, but of course Kongthap moved just in time before he would be buried inside his boyfriend’s sweet tightness too soon. And whenever he did this, Atom would let out a cute whine almost instantly, more streak of tears rolling down his red cheeks out of desperation. Resulting in his eyes to get even more puffy and red.
Oh, his pretty-crier of a boyfriend, Kongthap is obsessed .
Feeling that he has gotten his fill of teasing his cute boyfriend, Kongthap then stopped moving his cock teasingly along the crack of Atom’s behind eventually, and pushed inside this time for real. The moment he did, he can feel Atom’s body freezing underneath him for a split second, going rigid for a split second as he takes him in. Both of them moaned out simultaneously, deep grunt grumbling on Kongthap’s chest as he pushed in his cock deeper inside the tight heat of his boyfriend, groaning at the extreme tightness his boyfriend offers. Once he's hips deep, he stays like that for a moment to let his boyfriend get used to his girth stretching his inside. His boyfriend looks like he’s in so much pain, tears continuously rolling down that pretty face again as he bites on his lower lips to suppress his pain of being stretched open. Doesn’t want his boyfriend to hurt himself more when he’s already in so much pain, Kongthap offers his fingers inside for Atom to bite down, nestling his fingers deep past Atom’s parted lips so that he can bite down instead rather than his poor lips. The moment Kongthap offers his fingers, pushing the digits down into his boyfriend’s mouth, his boyfriend immediately understands his sign, and chomps down his fingers instantly.
While waiting for Atom to take his time, Kongthap takes that time to admire his boyfriend’s pretty appearance again, taking in how gorgeous his boyfriend looks right now. Atom has always been beautiful, but right now, he’s looking unexceptionally more beautiful than ever. Pretty face, red, streaked with tears. Eyes hazy with lust and arousal. Plump lips swollen red, bruised and filled up with Kongthap’s fingers shoved deep down inside his mouth, he’s even drooling around his fingers and down his chin. Down to his neck and the rest of his body, his skin that’s usually milky white is now flushed pinkish all over with arousal, and the way red marks are scattered all over his spreaded thighs, leading to his behind where it’s connected prettily to Kongthap’s cock that’s buried deeply inside him, it really creates this pretty sight for him to admire. His hips are pretty much pressed up against Atom’s soft cheeks due to how deep he actually is inside him. The sight of their bodies connected together, it made Kongthap groan deeply with satisfaction to see such a gorgeous being is one with him now.
Atom is so fucking tight, Kongthap can see how the rim stretched so tightly around the base of his cock, so tight that the rim that was pink is turning red now, and no single wrinkle can be seen either, completely stretched to take in every inch of Kongthap’s girth inside him fully—Like a really fucking good boy . Atom’s body is shaky all over too, his back arching, toes curled tightly with his cute cock flushing red against his abdomen, precum spitting out the tip and wetting his tummy obscenely. Atom looks so fucking pretty .
When he feels his boyfriend finally starts to relax around him, feeling the muscles of his inner walls aren’t as rigid as before, he takes it as a sign for him to move soon. Holding his boyfriend’s thick thighs, he lifted them up to press them up against his boyfriend’s abdomen, folding him in half so that he could slide easily inside him. Atom might not be as athletic, but one thing that Kongthap really loves about him is—he’s extremely flexible , so Kongthap can always bend him as he pleases like what he’s doing now.
Supporting himself by propping his arms straight on the bed, he let Atom’s calves rest over his shoulders as he started to pull out. As he pulls out, both of them moan out simultaneously again as Kongthap’s cock moves along inside Atom’s velvety walls of heat tightness, brushing against that sweet bump inside him along the way, Atom is shaky all over. And when only the tip is left inside, Kongthap takes in a deep breath, clenching his jaw tightly as if to prepare himself from the waves of pleasure that he would feel soon when he slams in.
Moving again, he slams into his boyfriend again without warning— hard , taking Atom by a complete surprise as a gasped moan leaves his lips as proof, it leaves his body to bounce underneath Kongthap, writhing with pleasure to have the sweet bump inside him being hit so harshly. He feels his head almost spin from the pleasure electrifying his body all over, extremely pleasured by the harsh thrust filling up his inside, and pampering the sweet bump in him. Not only does Atom almost lose his mind from the pleasure, even Kongthap feels his mind almost leave him for a split second from the crazy tightness of his boyfriend’s inner walls cocooning him. The immense heat engulfing his own throbbing length, the slicks of the lube wetting Atom’s inside that made it easier for him to slide along him, it feels so fucking good to be inside Atom’s velvety tightness, it didn’t take long for Kongthap to move his hips again, continuing to fuck his boyfriend to his heart content.
Atom is turning into a moaning mess, his slender body bouncing violently underneath Kongthap as his boyfriend slams into him like he had lost his mind every time. Kongthap might be gentle in person, but when in bed, he’s always so fucking rough like this—A heavenly gap that everyone could only dream to have. Atom is definitely seeing stars, it feels as if his body is electrified all over, feeling extremely hot with a rush of arousal as his boyfriend continues to pound into him. For every thrust, it hits his prostate so deliciously hard, it makes his toes curl every time out of pleasure. The pleasure is so intense, riding on his skin, it makes him feel overwhelmed, he ends up crying again.
His boyfriend seems to notice his cry, he can feel him slow down, so Atom only gripped his arm, fingernails dug deep in his boyfriend’s strong triceps, Atom urged him to continue, telling him to fuck him harder.
“Harder—” Atom gasped in between his choked moans, his vision getting blurry again from the pleasure made his head spin. Kongthap then groaned deeply before he picked up his pace even more, feeling his desperation getting the best of him, now he’s fucking Atom with such an animalistic pace, every vigorous thrust resulted in Atom’s body to bounce wildly underneath him. The crazy pleasure from how rough his boyfriend fucking him made Atom’s brain slowly melt into a puddle like popsicle in the summer, feeling his intelligence being stripped away. He can’t think of anything else but the way his boyfriend’s hot cock is moving so roughly inside him, hitting his prostate dead on that blanks his mind out every time. It feels so fucking good , Atom really is turning stupid.
“Baby, you’re so fucking tight—” Kongthap groaned with a clenched jaw, rolling his hips nonstop to fuck that velvety tightness as deep as he could, making sure to hit that sweet bump inside his boyfriend extra hard for every thrust, knowing how much his boyfriend loves the roughness. He loves how his boyfriend is turning into a crying mess now, sniffling so prettily like a baby, but can’t stop moaning sweetly either. Sweet moans after moans as Kongthap pounds into him, slamming into him so fucking hard that their skin are slapping together, resounding the room with obscene sounds of their skin meeting harshly, bruising red, but none care about the pain, as the pleasure is what occupying their mind now, dumbing their mind down to think about else.
“Good—It feels good—” Atom moaned, his small hands finding Kongthap’s face for him to pull his boyfriend’s face down so that they could mold their lips together. Atom is kissing him so messily, but with so much desperation as if his life depended on it. Their tongues entangled into a hot mess again, wrestling together as they suck on each other. With their lips molded together, Kongthap still moved his hips like crazy. He totally eats up every decibel of Atom’s moan into his lips, that cute soft gasp, and the vibration of his voice as he murmured inaudibly against his lips, he must be electrified with pleasure again for him to utter out intelligible words.
The kiss lasted for quite a while, messy with saliva drooling both of their chins, so when he can feel Atom’s breath getting shallow and erratic, Kongthap knows that it’s a sign for him to break the kiss soon. He pulled his head away immediately, latching his lips off his boyfriend's, whose lips were already bruised and swollen red, shiny with spit. His boyfriend whines as usual, desperately chasing for his lips like a baby searching for a pacifier, so Kongthap bites his baby’s top lip instead.
“No more kisses for you, baby,” Kongthap said, which made his whiny boyfriend, whose emotion is already a wreck, sensitive from the pleasures electrifying his weak body, cry once hearing it. Kongthap slowed down his hips a little so he could focus on his crying boyfriend. He held his boyfriend’s face, and parted his lips open by the tug of his thumb on his lower lip. When Atom’s tongue instinctively stuck out in response from his lips being forcefully parted open, Kongthap then leaned down to lick his tongue as a means to pacify his crying baby. It seems to work as Atom managed to calm down from throwing tantrums, he seems to want to flick their tongues together again, so Kongthap did that a few times until his baby is satisfied before he continued to pick up his pace again, fucking his boyfriend’s tight behind again nonstop, fast. Atom once again turned into a moaning mess, tears of pleasure rolling down his cheeks this time, his face flushed extremely red, looking like a tomato.
“My crybaby,” Kongthap utters, he still has Atom’s lips parted open, fingers holding tight the side of his baby’s face, thumb pressing on the button lip to keep the bruised lips open. He leaned down to spit in his boyfriend’s open mouth this time.
“Swallow,” Kongthap ordered, enjoying the way his shiny spit pooled on Atom’s pink tongue, his baby obeyed his order without resistance, swallowing his spit so obediently in a matter of seconds. Kongthap smirked at the sight before he shoved his thumb inside Atom’s mouth this time, caressing the crook inside his baby’s pretty cavern.
“Should I fit my cock inside here next time? Would you like that, baby? My cock in your pretty little mouth here, deep in your throat?” Kongthap suggested, smirking. He can feel Atom’s walls clenching tightly around him, must be extremely turned on by the idea, but is too shy to give him any verbal reply, so Kongthap chuckled.
“How does it feel to have your virginity taken away, hmm?” Kongthap is back at teasing his boyfriend, can’t resist it after all when he sees his boyfriend lost in pleasure like this. Atom looks like he’s close to hitting his climax too from the way his thighs are jerking against his chest, and the way his breathing is getting heavier too, extremely erratic and breathless. It’s obvious that he’s already so close.
With Kongthap’s questions continued to be left unanswered, seeing that other than his boyfriend is too shy to give him an answer, he’s also too occupied with the crazy sweet pleasure that strips away his ability to think. Seeing how his boyfriend is so focused on cumming, the devil inside him is chuckling again as he’s thinking of teasing his boyfriend again, wanting to force an answer out of his boyfriend who’s always too shy to play along with his dirty talk. He wanted to see Atom break into a sobbing mess, so Kongthap immediately stopped moving his hips. The moment he did, he can see confusion written all over his boyfriend’s pretty face, baffled as to why he’s stopping all of a sudden when he’s already so close to reaching his orgasm. A whine is already drawn out of the guy’s pretty lips, so Kongthap only ran his fingers against the guy’s leaking cock, enjoying the way his boyfriend would jerk uncontrollably underneath him.
“Thap—” Atom whined, frustrated that he’s once again being denied from getting his orgasm.
“Feeling this good, and yet you still haven’t answered a single of my questions, baby,” Kongthap said, teasingly playing with the leaking tip, forcing another whine to escape his boyfriend’s lips.
Kongthap then moved his hips shallowly this time, purposefully only uses the tip to fuck his boyfriend’s behind, which immediately draw more desperate whines and moans from his cute crying mess of a boyfriend. Fat rolls of tears are rolling down those pink cheeks just as what he had wished to see. But he still wants Atom to beg him.
“Answer me and I would let you cum, baby,” Kongthap commanded, moving his hips so dangerously slowly, it drives Atom insane to have only the tip teasingly move and out past his loosened rim when his inside already feels burning hot, he feels like he’s going to fucking combust any second now.
“Tell me how much you love my cock inside you, baby.” Atom feels like he’s going to explode any time now, both out of shyness and frustration. His boyfriend is so evil for denying his orgasm for the second time, and now he’s forcing him to say dirty things that Atom wished he could jump out the window rather than say. But he’s extremely desperate , he’s already so close , just a little bit more and he can have his sweet orgasm soon, so he really has no choice but to give in to his boyfriend’s devilish teasing.
With trembling lips, he glares at his boyfriend piercingly, before he parted his lips open to utter an answer his boyfriend has been dying wanting to hear.
“I love it,” Atom replied, tears rolling down his cheeks out of pure frustration, jaw clenching tightly. He can see amusement beaming on his boyfriend’s handsome face.
His boyfriend slides his cock a little bit deeper inside him, Atom feels desperation flooding him in even more. Fuck , he really needs his boyfriend’s cock to cum soon.
“Love what, hmm baby?” Kongthap asked, chuckling devilishly. Atom whined, trying to slam his hips down against his boyfriend’s cock, but was only stopped as his boyfriend held his waist tightly, holding him down in place. With the pleasure being cut off once more, Atom is turning into a sobbing mess now. He’s crying so hard, he can feel snots building at the back of his nose. Fuck —his boyfriend really is a fucking devil .
“Cock—I love your cock inside me, daddy,” Atom eventually uttered out quietly. He felt his face and ears feel extremely hot, burning with shyness, as he really couldn’t believe his own ears, for hearing himself just say something so obscene. The word that followed wasn’t even intentional in the slightest, but he did call Kongthap daddy in bed sometimes before (which is Kongthap’s doing too, the one who taught him to call him that when in bed), so he guessed it naturally rolled down his tongue when he was saying something so naughty. And it seems that his boyfriend really enjoyed it because he can feel his length twitching inside him now. Kongthap is smirking at him, satisfaction clear in his face.
Kongthap then kissed the tears on his face before he wiped it off with his fingers.
“I feel like I can’t hear you, what did you just say, baby?” Kongthap said, pushing his cock deep inside Atom again’s ass again, but didn’t move this time. Atom moaned at the fullness filling him up again, stuffing him up, he felt that familiar hotness pooling at the pit of his tummy now. He’s so fucking close .
“I love your cock inside me, daddy!” Atom repeated aloud, totally not caring about his shyness anymore, as all he can think about right now is cumming . His boyfriend looks extremely satisfied now, so he finally moved his hips again. Though there’s no gradual in his pace at all, as the moment he started moving again, he’s back to the animalistic pace where he last left off, fucking Atom’s behind so crazy rough, pouncing on top of him, Atom is turning into a screaming mess.
“Daddy!” Atom screamed out of pleasure, feeling so fucking stuffed with Kongthap’s monstrosity. Kongthap is so fucking thick and long, he fills up Atom’s inside so stuffingly full that whenever he slams inside him, Atom feels like every remains of oxygen is being decompressed out of his lungs so harshly. He can even feel Kongthap’s fat cock hitting the deepest part inside him too, almost as if he’s fucking inside his belly too, Atom swears he can feel Kongthap’s cock bulging on the front of his tummy. Full—He’s so fucking full.
“Your cock—Your cock is so deep inside me, daddy—” Atom gasped out, breathless. He heard Kongthap groaning on top of him, must be even more turned on to hear such filthy words coming out of his baby’s mouth, so it only encouraged Atom to speak more.
“I can feel you in my tummy, daddy. Your cock, it feels so hot—” Atom said his thoughts aloud. Kongthap groaned again as he picked up his pace even more. For his cute boyfriend to be spewing dirty things just like he had wished, it’s turning him even crazier, he can’t stop fucking him like mad.
Soon, Atom’s mind started to spin on him, white filling in his vision, the hotness in his belly got intense, spreading all over his body, it made his breathing heavier and heavier. One last harsh bump against his prostate, with his boyfriend’s fat cock buried so fucking deep inside his ass, Atom’s vision whitened completely on him, his chest grew heavy with suffocation as he reached his orgasm. The muscles on his lower body spasm tightly, trembling all over as his cock spurted out thick loads of cum, painting his tummy with white as his body flushed prettily red, moaning breathlessly out loud from the sweet pleasure of orgasm riding his body down, even his nipples are twitching on his chest too, rosy nubs fully erected from the crazy pleasure that just crashed over him like a big wave. Atom panted heavily, taking in his scattered breath again, feeling his head spinning from the crazy heat that just washed his body. It feels extremely hot, his body is burning with desires even when he has cummed.
Kongthap feels his own orgasm drawing close to see such a pretty sight of his boyfriend reaching his climax so blissfully. The way Atom’s soft body turned red all over, pretty face red and streaked with tears, body shaky with post-orgasm, and his hips bucking out of sensitivity—it made Kongthap want to pounce on his boyfriend again.
Grunting, he turned his boyfriend around to have him on all four this time, getting him on his knees as he supported his behind by holding his hips. Atom, who’s already so sensitive from the post-orgasm, ended up sobbing again, his weak body trembling all over as he tried to hold himself up, arms shaky with his elbows propped up on the soft mattress, his knees are shaky too as his boyfriend continued to pound against his behind. With the new position, his boyfriend managed to hit even deeper inside him. Atom moaned out again, moans kept slipping out of his lips out of bodily response even when he’s pretty much sore already. It feels good—too fucking good, but he’s still sensitive from the orgasm he just had, the overstimulation is driving him insane.
“Daddy!” Atom cried out, sobbing as he’s really overstimulated now, he can’t take the pleasure of his prostate being abused no more. It feels too much, everything is too much, he feels like he’s going to pass out. Tears can’t stop streaming down his cheeks like a river. He has been crying too much tonight, his head gets extremely dizzy, and he swears he feels like puking.
“A little bit more, baby. Daddy is close,” Kongthap replied, scrunched his nose tightly with a deep grunt. He rolled his hips faster, harder. He gripped on his boyfriend’s hips tighter, fingers digging deep into the narrow hips, he pounded into his boyfriend vigorously with so much desperation, badly wanting to cum. A few more thrusts, and he can feel that familiar fervent hotness getting intense inside him—Close, he’s so fucking close .
“Inside—Cum inside—Fill me up with your seeds, daddy—” Even with a spinning head and shaky body that’s extremely sensitive with overstimulation, it doesn’t stop Atom from spewing out more filthy words. He might’ve started to understand why Kongthap loves to talk dirty with him all this time, because he really came to love it when his words made his boyfriend grow even randier, desperate.
Leaning down slightly, Kongthap grabbed his boyfriend’s face and turned it to his way so that he could mold their lips together. Atom is a crying mess right now, so Kongthap can feel the saltiness of his tears on his tongue as he kisses him deeply. He can hear Atom whining into his lips, he feels a little bad for his boyfriend, but he’s really so fucking close, he can’t stop now. Just a little bit more—
“Um!” Atom moaned in pain when Kongthap bit down his lip. A harsh snort left Kongthap’s nose as he finally reached his orgasm. He bucked his hips hard against his boyfriend’s last time, making sure he’s buried as deep as he could, and reaching the deepest of his boyfriend's sweet inside, before he released inside him. Harsh air forcefully emptied out of his chest, feeling extremely suffocated as his hips buck with loud stutters. A loud groan left Kongthap’s lips as he rode down his orgasm, enjoying the way the pleasure electrified his skin, he continued to spill his hot seeds in the deepest part of his boyfriend, wanting to stuff him up with his cum. Gripping his boyfriend’s hips hard, he rolled his hips to milk himself inside his boyfriend’s tightness, making sure that he shot every last drop of cum inside his boyfriend, groaning again as he did.
“Fuck—Baby, that feels so fucking good—” Kongthap groaned, breathless. He bucked his hips a few more times, still wanting to enjoy the tightness his boyfriend offers. It just feels so fucking good for him to stop now.
“Daddy!” He heard Atom scream again.
Soon, he feels Atom’s body twitching against him, clenching tightly around his spent cock, to which he realized Atom just came again underneath him, for the third time. He hears Atom sobs underneath him, so he leans down to kiss his boyfriend on the lips as a means of apology. He pulls his boyfriend into a hug, peppering kisses all over his streaked face, and saying out his apologies all over again.
“I’m so sorry, baby,” Kongthap said, wiping off the tears off his boyfriend’s red face. Atom is obviously sulking again, glaring daggers at him, which Kongthap once again can’t take seriously. But he still feels bad for forcing himself on him, so he continued to apologize to his angry boyfriend, playing with his hair too because he knows how much Atom loves it when he does. And as he expected, it really didn’t take long before his boyfriend melted underneath his soft patting. Like a kitten, his head leaned against his palm for more head rubs, eyes closing with comfort as he sighs with content, as if purring in delight. Kongthap kisses the top of his boyfriend’s head.
“Should we get cleaned up, baby?” Kongthap asked, playing with his boyfriend’s hair. He heard his boyfriend’s soft hum.
Getting out of the bed first, he lifted his Atom off the bed by doing a bridal carry, lifting his boyfriend up with ease. The moment his boyfriend is settled in his arms, he can feel Atom melting against his chest, like a cold kitten seeking warmth, Atom snuggled up closer against his chest, enjoying his warmth as he even buried his face deep into the crook of Kongthap’s neck too, taking in his comforting scent and calming heartbeat.
When they got to the bathroom, Kongthap gently put his boyfriend down on the edge of the bathtub as he turned on the tap open. His boyfriend watches him attentively in silence, like a curious kitten following every single of his owner’s moves. Kongthap smiles at him before he pats his boyfriend’s head again.
“Anything on your mind, baby?” Now that they are no longer in bed, the gentle Kongthap is back again, Atom feels his stomach flutter to the sight of his gentle loving boyfriend again.
“I was actually planning for us to have dinner together tonight,” Atom replied. The moment he said out his mind, he can see guilt flashes in his boyfriend’s eyes.
“I’m so sorry…” Kongthap immediately apologized.
“There was this lab report that I had to fix at the last minute, so I got home later than I originally planned. I should’ve tried to get home faster,” he explained, guilt filling him up. Atom then shook his head.
“No, I should’ve told you about the plan too. I mean, how else could’ve you known if I didn’t tell you right?” Atom said, chuckling heartily. His boyfriend smiles faintly. He pats Atom’s head again, ruffling his hair gently.
“How about tomorrow? Since the exams are over, and semester break starts tomorrow, we can have the entire day for us to hang out,” Kongthap suggested, still patting Atom’s hair. The guy then nodded, smiling wide with his cheeks flushed pink.
“We can go watch movies, have lunch, have ice cream, do merits together,” Kongthap lists out the things they can do tomorrow.
“We can do karaoke too,” Atom added. Kongthap smiles.
“Right, it has been so long since we did that together,” Kongthap said, trying to remember again when was the last time they went to the karaoke bar together. Be it with their friends or alone just the two of them. Excluding what happened tonight of course, it definitely has been months since they spent their Friday night together in a karaoke room.
Looking at the tub, he noticed that it had been filled up with water, it almost overflowed. So he immediately turned the tap off, and lifted up his boyfriend to settle him down in the bathtub. Kongthap squeezed himself in too, resting his back against the tub, he let Atom rest against his chest, enjoying the warm water soothing their worn out body.
“Do you think you still remember the lyrics of the songs we used to sing before?” Atom asked out the question that popped up in his mind that evening.
“The lyrics?” Kongthap exclaimed. He looks like he’s thinking deeply for a moment before he opens his lips again to give an answer.
“I’m not sure about other songs, but I do particularly remember this one,” he replied.
“Nothing is impossible with me. You might meet people you didn’t expect to, they might stand in front of you and tell you they love you, like in your dreams,” Kongthap sings, which Atom quickly recognized the melody, as he in fact still remembers the lyrics of that particular song very well too. It’s a song that holds important memories for them after all. It’s their love song—The song that helped them go through their high school days, to be where they are today. The days they were so afraid of being seen in front of others, they found the courage to come out and be proud of their love for each other.
They have fought so hard for this love, going through thick and thin just so that they can be together today without having to hide, nor feeling guilty. So it’s really foolish for their love to end tonight just because of some lack of communication. Atom is glad that they finally managed to clear up that issue that they have been let off in the air for quite a while now. Any longer, and it will definitely create a heavy dent onto their relationship.
“You might meet your someone someday. The one who stops your heart from shivering in the cold. Like me, who’s still telling myself every day that I’ll find them,” Atom continued singing the second verse of the chorus, grinning contently at his boyfriend who’s smiling at him as well.
Kongthap reached for his hand under the water, interlocking their fingers together as they stared at each other’s eyes lovingly for a moment of comfortable silence. They don’t even have to say it, but their eyes already can tell a lot, of how deeply in love they are for one another. Getting used to one another’s presence in their day-to-day lives, they really can no longer imagine a life without another now. Their individual lives had intersected the day Atom dropped that eraser and Kongthap picked it up for him off the floor. Their world revolves around one another now. Always having each other by their side, they were each other's past, present now, and hopefully future, where they would belong to no one but themselves, their each other’s— truly.
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