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Phainon tightened the thick dark blue coat he was now wearing as a strong wind hit his body as he entered the minimarket. As if he was very familiar with the layout of the minimarket, his feet immediately walked towards the instant bento stall sold there.
Without choosing the bento menu, his hand immediately grabbed a bento box containing chicken fillet rice doused in teriyaki sauce. And took one of the energy drinks to accompany his dinner.
After paying for what he bought, he immediately left the minimarket in a hurry as if he couldn't stand it anymore and wanted to go home to his apartment.
His right index finger slightly lifted the clear glasses he was wearing, then got into the taxi he had stopped earlier. During the trip home, his two empty blue eyes looked out through the car window. There were several people who were busy taking pictures on the side of the road with their friends and lovers while wearing unique and interesting costumes.
'Oh, so tonight is Halloween night?' he asked himself in his heart. Anyone who saw and understood Phainon's gaze at them could know that the office worker missed the feeling of happiness that made his heart flutter.
Arriving at his apartment, Phainon looked at the living room area and then his bedroom for a moment. He felt that this apartment was making him more and more bored and disgusted, but this was the only place he could pour out what he had been feeling and the heavy burden he had been carrying on his shoulders.
The white-haired man threw his work bag on his bed which was already filled with used clothes that he had not had time to wash, then walked over to his desk which was filled with piles of unused papers. He sat himself down on a chair and put a bag of bento that he had just bought on his desk.
Phainon massaged his temples, "I should take a bath and have dinner soon, but why does it feel so hard to do it?"
He let out a harsh breath and reached into his pocket to take out his cell phone. He found a message from his boss at work informing him that his overtime compensation money had been sent to his account. And that was it, there were no other messages.
Phainon thought that the middle-aged man who was his boss might be worried about his performance which had been declining lately, besides that he often couldn't focus while working. Therefore, to cover up his shortcomings at work, Phainon decided to work overtime almost every day. Of course this was not a healthy work life.
Once he found out about this, his boss gave him 4 days off to rest and compensation money for his overtime work.
"3..2..1." he muttered then took off his glasses and put them on the desk and stood up. With an annoyed feeling he walked towards the bathroom while taking off his clothes one by one and throwing them in any direction.
Phainon turned on the shower and adjusted the water temperature to warm, slowly his entire body that initially felt stiff because of the cold and tiredness became relaxed because of the warmth of the water. He turned to the left and saw his reflection in the mirror, and he realized that as the days went by his collarbones became more prominent as a result of his thin body.
Dark eye bags made his handsome face look pathetic, he thought that his cheekbones would also stand out. That made his face look even more pathetic.
Phainon realized that there was something wrong with him, but he felt that he was unable to overcome this. For years, his life felt monotonous, the fatigue he felt was getting more and more rooted and growing out through his body.
For a long time he had longed for the passion and ambition that would make him race in adrenaline until he enjoyed this limited life with a feeling of calm and happiness, but until now he had not found it.
"I want to be like them, surrounded by people they love and can taste the happiness that can keep me awake all night. Not endless sadness and suffering because of loneliness! I don't want this in my life!" He said angrily and hit the wall with his fist. The tears that dripped down his cheeks were now mixed with the warm water from the shower.
He wondered what made his once cheerful and carefree self become this boring and pathetic adult man, one of the reasons that crossed his mind was because he did not fully enjoy his youth.
After separating from the most important person in his life and finishing his school years, Phainon focused on continuing his studies to college level and pursuing his career in order to gain economic stability.
At that time, young people his age had already experienced dating and enjoying normal sexual relationships. But Phainon until now at the age of 29, still had not had that experience. At first he was not ashamed of it, until finally he realized that his long-unfulfilled sexual desire was disturbing his psychology and physicality.
Stress, excessive anxiety, and frustration have become his daily feelings. As if it were not disturbing his life any further, his sleep hours were also disturbed and irregular, making his body often feel weak.
To overcome his sexual desire, Phainon had tried to go to a bar and play with several people, both men and women. Phainon thought he was a straight man, so he tried playing with women first. However, for some reason his penis was very difficult to get erect and it made him embarrassed to death in front of his partner.
'Am I a gay man?' he asked himself.
Not wanting to linger on his own questions, the next night Phainon tried a one night stand with a man as a top. He was quite relieved because this time he could get an erection, and thought that this time it would go smoothly. Instead of feeling good, he got insults and critical looks from his partner.
"Are you really a top man? I doubt it because you feel incompetent. How dare you want to put your penis directly into my hole without foreplay!"
Phainon looked at his partner in confusion and smiled awkwardly, "Oh, so foreplay is that important when having sex with a man? I thought condoms and lubricants were enough-"
He immediately got a sharp glare, "Forget it! I don't want to have sex with a newbie!" His partner interrupted. The man quickly put on his clothes and left Phainon who was stunned in the dim room.
Phainon clicked his tongue in annoyance and closed his eyes for a moment before continuing his shower. After he finished, he wiped his body with a towel, put on his boxers, and lay down on the bed.
"I'm so tired, where's my phone?" He muttered, then glanced at his phone on his desk. Phainon clicked his tongue again in annoyance then stood up to get his phone, then lay back down on his messy bed.
He checked the notification, and found nothing there. Again, he let out a rough sigh in annoyance. His fingers moved to open the online shopping application, looking at the items that made him curious and immediately buying them.
"When will the item arrive..? Tomorrow? Oh thank goodness." Phainon muttered while staring at his cellphone screen. The feeling of shame and curiosity made him not sure he could sleep well tonight, he couldn't wait to try the small dildo that he had just ordered.
Since the man doubted Phainon's ability as a top man, Phainon also doubted himself. After studying sex between men through the internet, Phainon thought that maybe he was a bottom man. Therefore, he intended to try it by masturbating with a dildo.
Phainon turned off his phone then stretched his body and kicked his work bag to the floor because it interfered with his leg stretching. He took a blanket, then changed his lying position to his side while covering his body with the blanket.
Tears flowed again, wetting his cheeks as he looked at the bag containing a bento box and an energy drink that he had bought earlier. "I don't even have the energy to heat up the food and eat it, how pathetic." He said.
Phainon tightened his blanket as he curled up his body, "If you were here, you would be looking at me with disappointment because the cheerful princess you knew since childhood has grown into a pathetic adult man with no spirit of life. I'm sorry."
The white-haired man fell asleep while sobbing until he dreamed of a young man with reddish-blond hair who smiled gently at him while wiping Phainon's tears with his hand.
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"Sir, please sign here." Said the courier who delivered the package then handed him a pen and book. Phainon took the pen that was offered then gave his signature and took the package.
"Thank you, have a nice day!"
"You're welcome, you too." Phainon said flatly then closed the door tightly without forgetting to lock it.
Phainon walked into his bedroom and unwrapped the package. His blue eyes widened staring at the object that was so foreign to him, namely a small dildo that had a plain white color.
The white-haired man crawled onto the bed and took the lubricant he had put on the nightstand, and began to practice what he had learned through the internet.
After cleaning the dildo, taking off his clothes, and smearing his two fingers with lubricant, Phainon finally spread his legs. Slowly and carefully, he inserted the tips of his two fingers into his hole. "Ahh.. that feels strange.." he muttered and continued to insert his two fingers deeper.
A feeling of discomfort immediately enveloped him, but Phainon thought it was normal because this was his first experience. So, he forced himself and inserted his two fingers even deeper.
His lower lip was bitten as the discomfort was replaced by pain, but he felt he could still bear it. "Is it because it's not wet enough?" He asked then added lubricant to his two fingers and the area of his hole. The pain faded a little.
Because Phainon's curiosity was unstoppable, he removed his two fingers and took the dildo and smeared it with lubricant.
Phainon's breath immediately hitched as the foreign object entered him, the pain he now felt exceeded what he had felt before. He controlled his breathing by inhaling and exhaling slowly. "It will be good later.. Yes, it will be good..." he muttered to himself trying to strengthen himself while jerking his penis with his other hand.
The more he forced himself to insert the dildo fully, all he got was a slowly unbearable pain. Phainon clicked his tongue in annoyance, "Bastard!" He cursed. With a huff, Phainon removed the dildo and threw it against the wall.
He took two wet tissues from a box of tissues he had placed on the nightstand and wiped his hands, 'Now I understand what it's like to be that man, penetration without proper and comfortable foreplay is a painful thing.' he thought to himself.
Frustration that seemed to behead him, made Phainon cry while wailing and pulling his own hair with both hands. After being tired of crying, Phainon limply lay down his body to curl up and hug his own legs.
"I just want to feel good even for a while, is that not allowed?" he asked in a sad tone.
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His eyes opened wide in surprise when he heard the doorbell ring, he slowly sat up and looked at the clock on the wall. The clock showed 4 pm. Good, he had missed his breakfast and lunch at the same time.
Hearing the doorbell ring again, Phainon clicked his tongue in annoyance as he hurriedly dressed and walked unsteadily towards the main door to open it.
"Who...?" He asked in a hoarse voice. When he focused his eyes on the person now standing in front of him, his body suddenly froze with his mouth gaping.
His eyes showed his surprise at the figure wearing training pants and a black short-sleeved shirt, "My- Mydei...?" How could he not be surprised to find the most important person in his life who had been separated from him for 9 years now standing in the doorway of his apartment?
The adult man with shoulder-length reddish-blonde hair looked at the surprised expression on Phainon's face. Mydei smiled slightly, "It seems I managed to surprise you with my visit, sorry I didn't tell you first. Because I wanted this to be a surprise."
Phainon blinked his eyes several times to make sure what he was seeing now was really real and not a dream. He missed this man so much, when was the last time they had direct contact like now? Phainon really didn't remember it.
Mydei frowned before reaching out to gently wipe away the dried tears on Phainon's cheeks, "What happened to you?" he asked in a worried tone.
Phainon quickly pushed Mydei's hand away from his cheek, he didn't expect his slap to feel harder than he expected. Seeing Mydei's face that was shocked by his cold attitude made Phainon stutter in speaking.
"I-I'm sorry, My-Mydei. I'm glad you finally took the time to come visit me, h-how are you? You must be tired from your journey here, right? Come in, I'll make you some warm tea." Phainon said trying to change the subject then turned his body.
Mydei paused for a moment then entered Phainon's apartment and closed the door, his eyes looking around the living room area which was quite messy. There were used clothes scattered, there were food packages on the table, and the atmosphere of the room felt dark and stuffy because the windows were tightly closed by curtains.
Phainon glanced at Mydei who was silently observing his apartment room before speaking, "Sorry, my apartment is so messy. If I knew you were coming, I would have prepared and tidied up my apartment to welcome you." Phainon said then laughed awkwardly while picking up the food packages that were dirtying the table.
"Please sit down, I'll go to the kitchen for a moment to make you tea." Phainon said. After getting a nod from Mydei, he walked towards the kitchen area.
Mydei placed a bag containing a box of donuts on the table before sitting down on the sofa that was meant for two people. There was the sound of a spoon falling to the floor followed by curses that were held back in volume from the kitchen.
'What happened to Phainon? He doesn't look okay, what triggered him to be like this?' Mydei asked himself with concern.
Not long after, Phainon walked over to him while carrying two glasses of warm tea and sat down beside Mydei.
"I brought donuts for you, eat them." Mydei said while handing the bag to Phainon.
Phainon's stomach growled immediately, he just realized he was very hungry now. In his heart, Phainon sighed in relief because it seemed like Mydei didn't hear his stomach growl. "You don't have to bother, Mydei. But, thank you very much for the donuts."
Phainon took a box of donuts from the bag and opened the box, his eyes swept over the dozen donuts that had various flavors. His choice fell on the vanilla donut sprinkled with almonds, he slowly bit the donut and chewed it. The moan from tasting the delicious food could not be held back from his lips.
Mydei who was silent watching Phainon eat while sipping his tea smiled. He put his glass on the table, "You seem to like it, is it good?"
Phainon nodded, "It's been a long time since I've eaten donuts and similar sweet foods, all I've eaten so far are bentos and energy drinks that I bought at the convenience store. I didn't realize, all this time I've been craving them."
The smile that was previously etched on Mydei's lips disappeared, 'So, all this time Phainon has only been eating fast food?' After witnessing food packages on the table, Mydei knew that Phainon was not living a healthy life.
Not only from his food, it seemed that his sleep was also disturbed because of the dark eye bags that adorned both of his eyes, besides that Phainon's body also looked thin. Mydei was really curious about what happened to Phainon, until his childhood friend became like this.
Mydei bent his left hand on his knee to support his chin while still looking at Phainon who was sitting on his right side, "It seems like being an office worker is quite tough, take your time to buy healthy food and have fun, Phainon."
Phainon stopped eating his donuts and put some of them in the box, "Have fun...? What activities can make me have fun? Besides... isn't this a normal adult life? Wake up, take a shower, go to work, work until night, go home, sleep, and so on until death comes." He said in a bitter tone.
Mydei's eyes widened hearing Phainon's words, he could only stare at the man from the side because Phainon refused to face Mydei. But Mydei could feel the turmoil of emotions that were as strong as death being suppressed by Phainon.
Before Mydei could respond, Phainon immediately interrupted him. Phainon turned to his left to look at Mydei, "By the way, how is your life in that country Mydei? Is everything going smoothly?" he asked with a faint smile.
Mydei decided not to press and probe Phainon for now, and chose to answer his question. "More or less, some of it went smoothly. I managed to win the middle-distance race that I told you about over the phone a few months ago."
"Oh really? Thank goodness, I'm glad to hear that."
"Seeing my success in winning the competition, my coach and friend who live in that country offered me to try out for a bigger competition that will be held 5 months from now. However, I am still not sure about taking the offer and chose to return to this country to visit you." Mydei explained.
'Mydei is living his best life, and I am happy about his success as a track athlete. Meanwhile, I am busy struggling with endless negative thoughts and monotonous routines that erode my physical and mental health...'
'I envy him, I really envy him. Why can't my life be like him? Aren't we both childhood friends who were initially on the same starting line?!'
Seeing Phainon daydreaming made Mydei frown in confusion and feel even more worried, "Phainon, please tell me. What happened to you? You made me worried."
"Mydei, you shouldn't worry about your childhood friend who is jealous of your life!" He said loudly while staring at Mydei angrily.
"And please think a hundred or maybe a thousand times before asking about what happened to me. Because once you find out, you will definitely regret it. I don't want to get a disappointed look from you, Mydei." Phainon said but this time his voice sounded trembling and weak.
Mydei straightened his sitting posture, "Regret? Disappointed? I promise I will not act or behave like what you think of me. Right now I purely want to know how you are because I love and care about you, Phainon."
Phainon's eyes narrowed at Mydei, "If you really love me, you should have taken the time to visit me a long time ago! Not just contacting me a maximum of only 2 times a year! And it's because I asked for it, not you!"
Mydei was silent, because what Phainon said was indeed the truth.
"But forget it, it doesn't matter anymore, because we are both just childhood friends whose time has passed." Phainon continued then shook his head with a bitter smile.
Phainon turned his head away before lowering his head, "It feels heavy and embarrassing to express these negative feelings that have taken root in my heart to others, especially you Mydei." He said and soon tears fell down his cheeks.
"Everything in my life feels like a heavy burden that I have to carry every day on my shoulders, plus this monotonous routine that brings stress and frustration that slowly feels like it's killing me and brainwashing me so that I am unable to think more healthily and do my activities easily as I should." Phainon continued.
Phainon wiped his tears with the back of his hand trying to erase the traces of his sadness, but his efforts were in vain because his two swollen eyes did not want to stop shedding tears.
"Anger, irritability, and envy felt inevitable as I fell into the deepest pit of misery with the dream of a long happiness like in fairy tales. I dreamed of a pleasant life like everyone else, but I felt like I couldn't reach it because I always didn't get the chance to in my life." The more Phainon opened up and revealed his wounds, the more Mydei's heart ached to hear it.
"I just want to be happy, Mydei. Why am I the only one who can't feel it? Isn't this completely unfair? I need happiness so much so that my life doesn't feel so painful." Phainon whispered.
'I can't take it anymore.' Mydei thought.
Mydei pulled Phainon's nape and hugged his childhood friend's body tightly with both hands, his right hand caressing the back of Phainon's head while his left hand rubbed his back. Phainon just stood there stiffly in his arms.
"Tell me everything you've felt so far, Phainon. You shouldn't have kept it to yourself and endured everything alone. I'm sorry for leaving you here for 9 years with your loneliness." Mydei said then kissed the top of Phainon's head.
"I promise. From now on I will always be by your side to accompany and color your days, heal every wound in your heart, and warm your cold but longing for affection with my hug. I will be happy to do so if you accept and allow me." Mydei continued.
Mydei loosened his hug a little to cup Phainon's cheek while wiping his tears with the thumb of his right hand and stared at Phainon closely, "Do you want me, Phainon?"
Phainon stared at Mydei's pair of semi-orange golden eyes for a moment, making sure Mydei was serious and sincere towards him. But it was not only a gaze that implied sincerity that he found there, but also a gaze that conveyed a sense of security and comfort. Just like what Phainon had felt since childhood to adolescence, before Mydei left him to pursue his dream of becoming an athlete.
"I want you, Mydei." The moment he said that, Mydei's face slowly approached his face, making Phainon's heart beat faster. Unconsciously, Phainon wet his lips before Mydei pressed their lips together.
After so many years since their last kiss, their lips finally met. Phainon's passion and love for Mydei that had been buried for a long time but always kept in his heart blossomed again. A soft moan escaped Phainon's lips as Mydei stuck out his tongue to stimulate the ticklish but pleasurable feeling on his tongue and deepened their kiss, Phainon's hands crept up to Mydei's chest and nape to stroke the area alternately.
Their faces flushed, their breaths quickened, soft moans sounded like they were responding to each other, and both of their eyes were closed enjoying the intimate moment that happened between them. While kissing, both of them remembered the beautiful memories that happened when they were still in high school.
At exactly 3 pm after P.E. class, Mydei and Phainon kissed in the school equipment storage room. Both of them ignored the sweat pouring down their foreheads and arms caused by the hot and stuffy air in the room, because the room did not have air conditioning.
The only thing they cared about was their lips touching which delivered a feeling that they thought was foreign but exciting. They continued to kiss innocently until finally they both accidentally bit each other's lips, showing how amateur they were at kissing.
Mydei winced in pain while holding his lower lip, "Did I hurt you?"
"I know you didn't mean to, besides I also bit your lip quite hard without realizing it." Phainon said. The two of them stared at each other before laughing together.
"We're both really bad at kissing." Mydei said and Phainon nodded in agreement.
Mydei stole a glance at Phainon before turning his body to face the window, "Back then you said I was a strong man, were you serious about that?"
Phainon stared at Mydei's back from behind and nodded enthusiastically, "Of course, I meant it. You're so good at sports and have had talent since we were little, I bet there's no male student here who's stronger than you." He said.
The white-haired boy scratched the back of his neck shyly and chuckled, "Sometimes I imagine that when you grow up, you will be able to defeat everyone easily with your strength and agility. And I will stand by your side while smiling proudly at you. You will always have my support, Mydei."
Mydei was stunned to hear that before turning his body to face Phainon and smiling softly at him, "Thank you Phainon, now I have found my dream."
That was their first kiss experience which was initially triggered by high curiosity, besides that because both of them did not feel comfortable with anyone so they chose each other.
At that time they thought that intimate things were not serious and both of them did not dare to take the risk to talk about it because they were quite young, so there was no certainty about their relationship until they finally graduated from school and Mydei went abroad to join a running athlete club and pursue his dreams. While Phainon was busy studying at a local university and pursuing his career.
But without them both realizing, at that moment the seeds of love arose that could only be buried. Then grew and developed when the two of them met again and felt ready to start a serious romantic relationship.
Their kiss finally ended with a string of saliva connecting from their lips. Mydei reached into his pants pocket to take a handkerchief and wipe the tears that were almost dry on Phainon's cheeks, after he finished he put the handkerchief on the table.
Mydei reached out with one of his hands to tuck Phainon's hair behind his ear, "My handsome princess..."
'Princess. It's been a long time since Mydei called me that. I have to listen to his words with focus like before.' Phainon thought with a straight body as he stared at Mydei closely.
"Thank you for accepting and entrusting yourself to me, I will try with all my ability to make you happy and pull you out of your hole of suffering with my own two hands." Mydei said.
The blond-reddish haired man kissed Phainon's forehead gently, "After 9 years apart, my handsome princess is still the same as before. Soft-hearted, kissing my lips that can shake my soul, and easily giving me a touch that ignites my passion. My only darling, Phainon." Praised Mydei in a soft tone.
Every word Mydei said to him made his heart bloom, until he couldn't help but squeeze the shorts he was wearing and bite his lower lip. Unconsciously, Phainon moved his legs to rub against each other. Showing his interest in the intimate situation like now.
"Mydei..." Phainon whined. He was silent, but no one could misinterpret his gaze towards Mydei at this time. It was a gaze that longed for Mydei's touch, kisses, and hugs.
In response, Mydei hugged Phainon again and massaged his nape gently. "I'm back in your arms, Phainon." Phainon returned the hug and enjoyed the warmth of Mydei's body that wrapped around his body in a comfortable silence.
For Phainon, only Mydei was able to make him blush and feel happy when the man called him princess. At first, the title was given to him by a group of boys in his class when they were still in kindergarten with the intention of making fun of him.
When he first got the title, Phainon felt extremely annoyed and embarrassed because he was not like the boys his age who should be called prince instead of princess.
However, Mydei changed Phainon's perspective on the title. Because the blond-reddish-haired boy thought that Phainon was indeed worthy of being called a princess. Not because Phainon was feminine or weak, but because Mydei wanted to always hold his hand to lead Phainon to exciting places and kiss the back of his hand.
"Mydei, wait for me! You're running too fast, I'm not sure I can catch up with you!" Little Phainon shouted as he ran to a boy his age who was currently running quite far ahead of him.
"Instead of screaming, you'd better speed up and catch me!" Mydei taunted him then laughed loudly.
Phainon snorted in annoyance then sped up his run but unfortunately, his feet tripped over gravel and the white-haired boy fell to the ground. One of his knees was scratched by the rough ground, the intense pain and burning sensation made little Phainon cry loudly.
"My knee is bleeding..." Phainon whined. His face turned red while tears continued to flow. When he realized Mydei was running towards him, Phainon who was sitting staring at his wound raised his head to look at Mydei. "Mydei..."
Mydei crouched down and reached into the pocket of his red shorts, and took out a plaster. Carefully, he cleaned the grains of sand that had dirtied the side of the wound and then put the plaster on Phainon's wound.
The blond-reddish haired boy reached out to wipe Phainon's tears with his small fingers, "Please, don't cry anymore. I'm sure your wound will heal soon after this."
Phainon fell silent then looked at his wound while sobbing, "No wonder the boys in class tease me by calling me a princess, I'm really so useless and not cool at all."
Mydei's eyebrows knitted together, "Never mind what those bunch of kids who act cool and are only brave in groups say, they're just jealous of you."
Phainon turned to Mydei and looked at him in confusion, "Jealousy? What could make them jealous of me?"
"In my opinion, it's because you're so handsome, I'm sure the girls in class agree with me. You're also so smart in class, and that makes the teachers like you. And lastly, your cheerfulness makes many people feel happy to be by your side." Mydei explained seriously.
Hearing that, Phainon was stunned as he continued to stare at Mydei with his doe eyes. Mydei's hands moved to take each of Phainon's hands in his to clean them that were dirty with dirt, "So that's the reason they're jealous of you. But for me, that's the reason why you deserve to be called a princess."
"Is it okay if I call you 'my handsome princess' once in a while?" Mydei asked with an innocent look.
At that time, little Phainon felt very flattered and happy to receive praise and a nickname from Mydei, to the point that he was speechless and could only smile broadly and nod his head.
Mydei smiled while holding Phainon's right hand then pulling it to his lips and kissing the back of his hand gently, "My handsome princess, Phainon."
Since then, the term 'princess' no longer had a negative connotation for him. And when Mydei called him that, Phainon would enter focus mode-- sharpening his five senses in anticipation of getting the praise he craved.
Phainon nuzzled his face in the crook of Mydei's neck, 'I feel like the happiest and most wanted person in the world when Mydei praises me.' he thought.
After hugging Mydei to his heart's content, Phainon loosened his embrace. "Would you like to spend the night in my apartment, Mydei?" Hearing that, Mydei immediately raised his eyebrows.
Phainon scratched the back of his neck, "The condition of my apartment is indeed very uncomfortable right now, but I will tidy up and clean it now. I want to welcome you well."
Mydei shook his head, "You've welcomed me well, and just a cup of hot tea would be enough. But if you want to clean your apartment now, I'd like to help you."
Phainon frowned, "A guest should relax and enjoy. If you do that, then I'm a bad host."
Mydei chuckled and stood up, "Who cares about manners like that? I do want to help you." Seeing Phainon who could only sigh in defeat made Mydei smile, "Tell me where the broom and trash can are, and which room is the messiest. I'll clean it up."
Phainon quickly stood up, "You just clean this part of the room, I'll do the rest. And please don't go near my bedroom area, okay?" If Mydei accidentally saw the dildo, Phainon felt it would be better for him to just throw himself into the sea because he couldn't bear the shame.
Phainon's gaze seemed to beg Mydei to agree to his request, it made Mydei confused but he could only nod his head and shrug his shoulders. He smiled, "Thank you so much for your help, Mydei. Come with me, I'll tell you where the broom is."
In the end, Mydei cleaned the living room, kitchen area, and foyer used to store shoe racks. Meanwhile, Phainon cleaned his bedroom and bathroom as best he could.
After Phainon came out of his bedroom and found Mydei who had just finished cleaning the kitchen with his hair tied up, he immediately got a worried look from Mydei who realized something.
"Phainon, your face is so pale. Enough, you don't need to push yourself anymore. Come on, go back to your room to rest. I'll wait for you in the living room if you need anything." Mydei said.
Weakly, Phainon pulled Mydei's wrist. "I've finished cleaning my bedroom, you can come in now." Mydei nodded.
Mydei sat on the edge of the bed, while Phainon lay down on the right side of the bed without releasing his grip on Mydei's wrist.
"I didn't know that skipping my mealtime made me feel even more helpless than before." Phainon said and closed his eyes.
Mydei frowned, "No wonder you look tired and powerless, why did you skip your mealtime?" Seeing Phainon who chose to remain silent made Mydei shake his head before asking again, "Please answer my question honestly. When was the last time you ate, Phainon?"
"Yesterday, during lunch time at the office." Phainon answered without opening his eyes.
Hearing that made Mydei wipe his own face and take his cellphone from his pants pocket, "I'll order you porridge, promise me to eat it immediately when the food arrives."
Phainon opened his eyes and nodded his head slowly, his gaze implied the tiredness he was feeling now. Seeing that, Mydei felt sorry and couldn't help but kiss his forehead.
"I want to bring you some warm water. Wait a moment, I'll be right back." Mydei said then stroked Phainon's head and stood up to walk out of the room.
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Phainon slowly opened his eyes when he heard Mydei's soft voice and the gentle caress on his cheek from his rough hands.
"The porridge has arrived, I know it's hard to wake up now. But, you have to eat soon. I don't want you to miss your mealtime again." Mydei said as he sat on the edge of the bed. Phainon nodded his head.
"Here, let me help you sit up." Mydei said patiently. He hugged Phainon's upper body with his left hand intending to lift his body, while his right hand arranged pillows as a base so that Phainon could sit comfortably leaning on the bed frame.
Mydei took the bowl that he had previously placed on the nightstand and spooned a spoonful of porridge and directed it to Phainon's mouth, "I'll feed you, tell me if I'm feeding you too fast." Obediently, Phainon nodded and opened his mouth to receive the first spoonful from Mydei.
The man who wore one earring in his left ear smiled softly at Phainon before asking, "Is it good?" His question earned a smile from Phainon who was now chewing his food.
Mydei took a tissue and wiped the corner of Phainon's lips before feeding another spoonful of porridge into the white-haired man's mouth.
During the meal, Phainon's heart that usually felt empty now warmed. Mydei's care and attention for him made him want to shed tears, he still couldn't believe that after so many years of not seeing each other, Mydei's attitude and treatment had not changed at all. He still treated him gently, like his precious item.
"You shouldn't have bothered doing all this for me, Mydei. Right now I can only say sorry and thank you." Phainon said with tears welling up in his eyes, as soon as he finished eating.
"What are you talking about? I don't want to get an apology or thank you from you, all I want is for you to feel good and healthy." Mydei said while brushing Phainon's bangs to the side with a small smile on his lips, then he handed Phainon a glass of warm water for him to drink. Phainon drank it.
Mydei checked the time on his phone and turned off the night light, while Phainon put the glass on the nightstand. "It's late, let's go to bed." He said then put his phone on the nightstand and helped Phainon to lie back down.
"Mydei, you go to bed too. Here, lie on my left side." Phainon asked then patted his empty left side.
"Okay." Mydei said then walked to the left side of the bed and lay his body sideways facing Phainon who was lying on his back.
Phainon turned his head to the left to look at Mydei for a moment with a smile etched on his thin lips then pulled Mydei's left hand, held it, and brought their hands to his chest. Not long after, drowsiness attacked him, he closed his eyes and began to fall asleep.
Mydei enjoyed the silence in silence while looking at Phainon's handsome face and his chest that rose and fell steadily. He sighed, 'I hope he gets better soon.' he thought. The thumb of Mydei's left hand moved to stroke Phainon's fingers that were holding his hand gently, while reminiscing about the past.
Phainon is one of the main reasons why Mydei decided to become a track athlete, and his childhood friend probably didn't know about this until now. Indeed, Mydei was aware that he was good at physical activities and sports, especially running. However, Phainon's impression that he was the strongest man and able to defeat everyone with his strength really strengthened his determination.
Therefore, after getting the opportunity to join a reputable running athlete club abroad, with a heavy heart Mydei parted ways with Phainon to pursue his dream. Actually, his dream in life was only one, namely, 'Winning a big competition, then getting a proud smile from Phainon.' To pursue his dream, of course Mydei had to work hard and focus.
Regarding what Phainon said about their distant interaction which could be said to be very minimal, Mydei was unable to deny it. Mydei himself reasoned that because, listening to Phainon's voice and seeing his face directly through video calls made Mydei lose focus.
Every time he interacted with Phainon even though it was long distance, he felt like he wanted to book a plane ticket and go back to his home country and meet Phainon right away. Even though at that time, he was not yet a superior athlete, who able to win many matches.
"Phainon, let's end our video call." Mydei said.
At that time, through his cellphone screen, Mydei could see Phainon's facial expression which implied his disappointment. "But, we've only been chatting for 15 minutes. Isn't this too short?"
"I'm sorry, but my coach has called me because the training is about to start." He lied.
Phainon sighed, "Let me know when you can call me again next time, okay?" Mydei nodded. Phainon waved his hand with a forced smile and hung up.
Mydei brought the phone to his lips and kissed it, "He looks so gorgeous today in that loose white shirt! I really like it. If I were there, I would kiss every inch of his neck and hug him tightly!'
The small smile on his lips then disappeared when he remembered what his main goal was now, "I'm sorry, Phainon. I promise to make you smile proudly at me."
Mydei never thought that what happened to Phainon while they were apart would make him like this. Just by looking at his expression and listening to his confession, Mydei knew that the poor man had been harboring a lot of sadness because of loneliness and emptiness. And at that time, Mydei was not with him either near or far. That made Mydei curse himself.
After knowing about all this, could he still consider himself the person who loved Phainon the most since childhood? Mydei had no idea at all.
Speaking of love, Mydei felt that they both already knew the feelings of affection and love that they had and kept hidden for each other. But none of them dared to take the first step to express their feelings and clarify their relationship. Who knows, until when this will continue.
Suddenly Mydei remembered the beautiful memories when they went to the shopping center when they were both children. At that time, Mydei's mother-- Gorgo, and Phainon's mother-- Audata, took their children to visit a children's clothing store to buy new clothes.
"Is there a particular clothes you want, Phainon?" Audata asked her son.
Little Phainon lifted his head to look at his mother and gently tugged on the dress she was wearing, "I want a clothes that matches the one Mydei chose!" he said enthusiastically.
Little Mydei who was standing in front of him raised an eyebrow in confusion, "I haven't even chosen the clothes I want." Gorgo laughed along with Audata after seeing their child's behavior.
Gorgo patted Mydei's head before speaking, "Then, come on son. Choose the clothes you want." Mydei nodded.
The blond-reddish haired boy went here and there from one room to another while being followed by Phainon behind him, of course also under the supervision of their mom.
He kept pacing back and forth until finally his golden semi-orange eyes widened, finding clothes that caught his attention-- a children's suit consisting of a short-sleeved shirt and plain red knee-length shorts. The front of the shirt was decorated with a picture of the head of an animal that he liked, a lion.
Mydei took the suit that was hanging and showed it to his mother, "I like this shirt."
Seeing that, Phainon exclaimed, "I want one like that too!"
Audata chuckled, "Why does it have to be the same as Mydei? Phainon can look for other clothes, who knows there are other interesting clothes that Phainon might like."
"What Mydei likes, I definitely like!" said the white-haired boy then grinned. He spoke again, "I want to find the same clothes as Mydei." he said firmly and walked towards the clothes hangers in the same place as Mydei.
Audata just shook her head in defeat, while Gorgo just chuckled rubbing her friend's shoulder. Mydei who was holding the clothes just stared at Phainon who looked ambitious.
Phainon's beautiful blue eyes seemed to shine when he saw a suit that was the same as the clothes Mydei had chosen. The clothes were almost exactly the same as Mydei's, but their clothes had differences in color and the picture of an animal's head that decorated the front of the clothes. The clothes Phainon chose had a picture of an oryx's head, which he thought was nice.
"Found it!!" Phainon said happily. He walked over to Mydei and showed him the clothes with a smile etched on his lips, "Mydei, what do you think? Does this suit me?" he asked.
Mydei glanced at the clothes and then looked at Phainon's cheerful face, "Hm, the clothes are nice and suit you. You must look adorable after wearing them later." Hearing Mydei's compliment, Phainon's face turned red.
"Since when did my little son become good at flirting, huh?" Gorgo joked.
Mydei just turned his face away because he was embarrassed to be caught, while Phainon became even redder like a boiled crab. Audata laughed quite loudly because she felt very entertained.
Mydei's daydream about the past was shattered when Phainon, who had been sleeping soundly for a long time, changed his sleeping position to his side facing Mydei and curled up his body so that his face was now buried in Mydei's chest.
He kissed the top of Phainon's head and closed his eyes, taking himself to dreamland.
-
"I saw that there were no groceries in your fridge, so I went to the convenience store to buy some simple groceries for breakfast, and this is the pancake we're eating now." Mydei explained, then put the piece of pancake drizzled with apple syrup into his mouth.
Before Phainon could say anything, Mydei immediately put cherry that was the pancake topping into Phainon's mouth-- making the man only able to chew the food in his mouth.
"I don't want to hear those words anymore, because I don't feel burdened at all to do all this for you. Now, finish your breakfast." Mydei said, Phainon nodded obediently. Seeing that, Mydei chuckled.
They ate their breakfast in silence until Phainon finally finished his meal and spoke, "Mydei, what made you come back and visit me?" When that question was asked, the atmosphere at the dining table that had previously felt relaxed turned serious.
Mydei's hand movements that were currently cutting pancakes stopped, "The big competition offered by my coach made me interested in participating. But after thinking about it, what's the point if you don't watch my match live? Therefore, I needed some time to think about it and came to see you to talk about this with you." He replied.
Phainon raised his eyebrows, "You want me to come? Why should I come to watch you compete? Usually you only tell me that you are competing after the competition is over." He said. His tone sounded casual but Mydei could feel a sense of disappointment.
"I know you are disappointed with what I did to you while we were apart, and I regret it very much. But you need to know that being apart from you was also so hard for me. I felt not confident enough to achieve my dreams and did not deserve your proud smile, but then I remembered your words that believed in my strength." Mydei said seriously.
His tone made Phainon fall silent listening to his explanation in full. Therefore, Mydei spoke again.
"While I was there, I used your impression of me as my motivation to continue to focus on increasing my self-confidence and abilities until I felt that I was worthy." Mydei put his cutlery on the plate then took one of Phainon's hands with both of his hands to hold.
With a serious and deep gaze, Mydei said, "Trust me, making you smile proudly at me is one of my main dreams in life."
Phainon's heart was beating fast when he heard what Mydei said, each word held the same warm feeling as him. After searching for warmth in others for so long, it turned out that the warmth he had longed for so long was still in Mydei. No wonder, his efforts so far were in vain.
"Is my smile that precious to you?"
"No need to ask, you already know my feelings for you. I kissed your lips for a reason that you know very well what it is."
Phainon brought their hands to his chest like last night when he wanted to go to sleep, he wanted Mydei to know that right now his heart was beating so fast and it was all because of him. "So do you, you should also know my feelings for you. You can feel it, right?"
Mydei nodded, "I can feel it very clearly, just like your gaze on me. Those blue eyes look even more beautiful and sparkling looking at me, when I called you princess yesterday."
Phainon laughed out loud while rubbing the soles of his feet on of Mydei's feet, "Mydei, you never change."
Mydei smiled hearing Phainon's laughter then released his grip on Phainon's hand and continued eating his breakfast, "By the way, are you on leave today like yesterday? It seems like you're late for work now, sorry for not waking you up earlier."
"Oh, you don't need to apologize Mydei. These past few months, I've been working beyond my limits and often working overtime. Seeing my declining health and work motivation, my boss gave me 4 days off." Phainon explained.
Mydei frowned, "Working overtime? That's really bad, please don't do it again. Your body and mind need rest."
Phainon nodded, "You're right, and I realize my lifestyle is not healthy at all. However, working keeps me busy and prevents me from overthinking."
"But working continuously makes you tired, and gradually makes you not feel happy with what you do. Even fatigue can interfere with your other activities." Mydei's opinion. What Mydei said was true, and it made Phainon only nod in agreement.
Mydei was silent for a moment before saying something that made Phainon excited, "How about we go on vacation to the countryside not far from the city? Do you want to?" He offered.
"A vacation? I haven't been on vacation for a long time, so I agree!" Phainon shouted enthusiastically.
Seeing Phainon's enthusiasm, Mydei chuckled softly. "If you agree, let's go there tomorrow by train. But before that..." Mydei moved his face forward slightly to observe Phainon's face, "Are you feeling better?"
"I feel much better and healthier than before. Of course this is thanks to your help in taking care of me, Mydei." In response, Mydei only raised one of his eyebrows and stared at Phainon with a look of disbelief.
To prove what he said, Phainon stood up and posed like a bodybuilder that Mydei usually saw on posters stuck in the Gym where he worked out. Without Phainon realizing it, the white t-shirt he was wearing was lifted up showing his navel and v line which Mydei thought was very sexy.
"Look at me, Mydei! I'm healthy!" He shouted then stretched his arms up. The white-haired man was completely unaware of the effect he had on Mydei, and at this time Mydei could only swallow his saliva.
Mydei waved his right hand to stop Phainon's action, "Enough, okay I believe you." Phainon smiled in satisfaction.
The man with one earring stood up and tidied up their plates, "Meet me tomorrow morning at the train station in the city center, I'll wait for you there. I think I have to take my leave now, because I haven't gone home and visited my mother."
Phainon grabbed the plates that Mydei was holding, "I'll wash them later, thank you so much for breakfast Mydei." He said then put the plates into the sink. He walked back to Mydei, "Seriously, you haven't visited your mother?"
"Yes. After arriving at the airport, I rented a hotel to put my suitcase and rest for a while. After that, I went to your apartment to see you."
Phainon's eyes widened, "Why did you come to see me first? I feel bad for your mother, because without her knowing I've taken her son's attention."
A small chuckle escaped Mydei's mouth, "Don't feel bad, because it was my own will from the start. I missed you so much, Phainon."
Getting an intense stare from Mydei made Phainon unable to resist wanting to hug Mydei and take the man to his room to make out. However, Phainon didn't want to take up any more of Mydei's time.
'Besides, we'll meet again tomorrow for the holiday.' Phainon thought, trying to comfort himself.
Phainon let out a small fake laugh as he put each of his hands on Mydei's shoulders, "Stop, staring at me like that. I missed you so much too Mydei."
The moment he said that, Mydei kissed his forehead. 'He's making this feel so heavy.' Phainon thought again.
"Come on, don't make your mother wait any longer. I'll take you to the door." Phainon said then pulled one of Mydei's hands and took him with him walking towards the main door of the apartment.
Arriving at the doorway, Mydei just stood still looking at Phainon who was looking down. "What are you waiting for? Your mother must be waiting for you to come home now." He said with a trembling voice.
Mydei who realized that hugged him trying to strengthen Phainon, "My handsome princess, your beautiful eyes will get even more swollen. You don't need to worry, I promise I will contact you tonight."
What Phainon felt now was sadness and fear overshadowed by the loneliness he felt before Mydei came to his apartment, and he didn't want to fall into that feeling a second time. With unavoidable tears, he returned Mydei's hug tightly.
Mydei rubbed Phainon's back gently for a while until Phainon finally loosened their embrace and kissed Mydei's lips, "Be careful on the road, let me know when you get home."
The blond-reddish haired man nodded his head, "Of course. Come visit my house sometime, my mother misses you so much."
Phainon chuckled, "Okay, I'll visit your mother sometime."
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A small smile immediately appeared on Mydei's rather thick lips when he saw Phainon running towards him while pulling his suitcase. His semi-orange golden eyes stared at Phainon's appearance which looked charming, wearing a light blue polo shirt with the ends of the shirt tucked into long cutbray jeans.
Phainon bent his body with a gasp. "Sorry, I'm a little late. I had trouble sleeping last night because I was too excited for today."
Mydei chuckled then patted Phainon's head gently, "It's okay, you're only 5 minutes late. Come on, the train will be leaving soon." He said then turned his body and walked into the station to meet the officer.
"Huh? But I haven't bought a ticket yet?" He asked confusedly as he chased after Mydei and walked beside him.
"The train ticket is done, I bought it online last night. All you need to do is enjoy the trip." Mydei said coolly.
Phainon gaped for a moment, staring at Mydei-- the bottom of his reddish-blonde hair that wasn't covered by the black hat moved with the wind, making the man look even cooler. "You spoil me too much, Mydei."
"Hm... I haven't had breakfast this morning, and I plan to order food on the executive train. So I'll leave that to you, okay?"
Phainon immediately laughed loudly and nodded his head repeatedly, "Okay, that's easy, your handsome princess will take care of our meals during the trip." Mydei smiled at him then put his arm around Phainon's shoulder as they walked side by side.
During the trip to the village that was their holiday destination, Phainon enjoyed the scenery outside through the window while being accompanied by ballad music that was heard from the earphones installed in his right ear, his legs that he straightened in the spacious foot space moved in rhythm with the beat of the song.
"Luckily, today the weather is so bright, it really supports the activities that we will do there later." Said Mydei who sat beside him and bit the bread in his right hand.
Phainon turned his head to Mydei and adjusted the earphone in the man's left ear, "Yes. Do you have any plans, Mydei?"
"Of course, do you think we're just going to sleep all day in the cottage I rented?" Mydei replied and took a sip of his coffee.
Phainon's eyes widened as soon as he heard that, "Huh?! Y-you've rented a cottage for us to stay in?"
He immediately gave Phainon a firm nod, "Yeah. I'm the one who invited you on vacation, right? No need to worry about the cost, I have more than enough money."
Phainon blinked several times before saying, "Then, I'll pay for the train tickets when we get home and the food!"
Mydei smiled, "Then it's even." He didn't mind at all if Phainon wanted to do something for him too, because wouldn't that mean their affection for each other was balanced and equal?
Phainon's mouth opened as Mydei took a spoonful of chocolate pudding for him and chewed it, "What are your plans when we get there, Mydei?" He asked after swallowing his food.
"I have a few interesting activities in mind, but the one I want to do the most there is horse riding. What do you think? Are you interested?" He offered. If Phainon didn't look interested, Mydei was ready to cross it off his list even though he wanted to ride. Because he thought, 'What's the point of this vacation if it can't make Phainon happy?'
"Horse riding? I've never ridden a horse before, can a beginner like me do it easily?" Phainon asked curiously.
Seeing Phainon's interest in wanting to try horse riding made Mydei feel satisfied with the activity he chose, "You can definitely do it, so don't worry. I can teach you, but it's not just me, there's also a horse trainer there who's ready to teach you."
"Then, in the cottage where we'll be staying later, there's also a garden in the front yard. So if you want, you can freely pick fruits and harvest some vegetables because the cost is included in the rented cottage." He continued.
Phainon brought his face closer to Mydei and narrowed his eyes, "Are you really going abroad? Why do you know more about everything there than I do?"
Mydei chuckled as he leaned forward to rub the tips of their noses briefly, "Why don't you trust me? This vacation trip was sudden, but that doesn't mean it can be careless. I will try to make our vacation as good and smooth as possible, so that you feel happy and comfortable."
Phainon put both of his arms around Mydei's neck from the side to hug him tightly. He kissed Mydei's jaw gently before speaking, "Even without you planning anything and trying, I already feel so happy when you invite me to go on vacation with you. You're so sweet, Mydei."
"You're so good at flirting." Mydei said then kissed Phainon's lips. At that moment, a pair of hands stroked his reddish-blonde hair gently as the owner returned the kiss from him.
"Your lips taste sweet, but the coffee you drink tastes bitter on my tongue." Phainon joked after their kiss ended.
Mydei laughed loudly while looking at Phainon who was slightly pouting, "In fact, that's where the pleasure of espresso coffee lies. Do you want to try my coffee? If you want, I'll add milk, so it tastes delicious for you."
"Yes, but I want to drink it straight from your mouth." Phainon said then grinned while winking at him. Mydei just snorted then muttered the sentence 'So silly, stop teasing me', as a response. Phainon laughed.
Their journey took about 3 hours on the train, and 15 minutes in a taxi which was quite rare in the countryside. Luckily, they didn't have to take public transportation to get to the cottage.
Phainon looked at the cottage yard filled with several types of plants while walking side by side with Mydei to the entrance, a small smile etched on his lips when he saw a butterfly perched on one of the two bicycles parked neatly near the garden.
Mydei unlocked the door, and opened the door wide to show the contents of the cottage to himself and Phainon. He invited Phainon to enter first, "What do you think? The cottage feels comfortable, right?" He asked after taking off his dark brown boots, and putting them next to Phainon's loafers in the shoe cabinet.
The white-haired man looked at the living room for a moment. The cottage which was predominantly made of wood felt warm with sofas that looked soft, a small fireplace opposite the sofa, large windows equipped with floral curtains so that the living room felt more alive, and warm lights.
Phainon put his suitcase next to the sofa and sat down on the sofa, "Very comfortable. As I thought, the sofa feels so soft."
"You'll definitely like the bedroom too. I've seen it online, the bed looks really big, perfect for two people." Mydei said, standing in the doorway of the still-closed bedroom.
Phainon put his right elbow on the armrest of the sofa to rest his chin, a smirked appeared on his lips. "So you booked a cottage that only has one bed? I understand what you mean, Mydei." Mydei's face turned red and became even redder as Phainon's smirked grew wider, the man who was teased clicked his tongue in annoyance.
"I-I didn't have any intention of going there." Phainon remained silent with a smile that Mydei thought was so ridiculous.
Mydei cleared his throat, "Who was it that invited me to sleep with him 2 days ago? That person held my hand so tightly that I had trouble moving from my sleeping position? Did that person forget?" He asked.
Phainon stood up and ran to Mydei and hugged him. He chuckled softly into the crook of Mydei's neck, "How could I forget? My body has always remembered and desired your presence and touch." He said as he walked forward, making Mydei walk backwards until his back touched the closed bedroom door.
Without taking his eyes off Phainon, Mydei put his left hand on the doorknob to open the bedroom door. They entered the bedroom walking like that until Mydei's feet touched the bed and made him fall down lying on the bed. Phainon lay his body beside Mydei's left side, making Mydei change his lying position to face Phainon.
One of Phainon's hands reached out to remove the hat Mydei was wearing, then stroked his nape gently. "No one has been able to make me feel so alive because you have been able to shake my heart and soul again which have long felt empty of loneliness, and feel the happiness that I have longed for in 9 years." He said seriously. Mydei listened silently.
"For me, you are still irreplaceable, Mydei. You are my childhood friend and the only person I love with all my heart. Forgive me for having tried to find warmth with feelings of despair in others, but know that my efforts have never succeeded. No matter how hard I try, the warmth that I have always longed for has never been in anyone else, but only in you." He continued.
Seeing the unreadable expression on Mydei's face made Phainon feel even more guilty, before he could curse himself further, Mydei finally spoke up.
"You don't need to feel guilty, and afraid that I'll feel disappointed in you. Because I have no right to feel that way, and I never dared to take an earlier step to clarify our relationship even though I had the same feelings as you." He said then took Phainon's hand that was on the back of his neck and held it.
"You have every right to explore your feelings and desires intimately with someone else, because from the start we weren't even a couple." He continued.
There was a silence that lasted for a few seconds between them until finally Phainon dared to ask, "What if I end up having a romantic relationship with someone else?"
"I will definitely feel so sad and disappointed in myself, for wasting the time and opportunity I had to make you my lover. However, I will still support you as your childhood friend. Because your happiness is the most important thing to me." The moment he said that, his mouth was immediately covered by Phainon's other hand.
"Don't ever say something like that again, because I only want to be yours completely."
He slowly removed Phainon's hand from his mouth and stared at Phainon intensely, "Then, will you be my lover? Phainon."
With a pounding heart, Phainon chuckled, "I have shown my affection and love for you openly through words and actions, is there still a need for this kind of formality? Of course, I want to be your lover. Mydei."
A small smile etched on his lips, Mydei embraced Phainon's hips and brought the body of his childhood friend who was now his lover, closer to him. "After parting with a heavy heart, in the end my handsome princess became my lover. How lucky I am."
Hearing that, Phainon smiled widely and pulled Mydei's body closer to him and kissed his lips. His hands immediately gripped Mydei's gray turtleneck shirt tightly, as his lover bit and licked his lower lip sensually.
'I want to be closer to him.' He thought. Following what he wanted, Phainon wrapped his left leg around Mydei's hips while continuing to kiss his lover.
Feeling the kiss between them felt more intense and hot because of the love and lust they both had, making Mydei's rough hands that were previously on Phainon's hips move down to his butt along with Phainon who shyly rubbed their penises that were still wrapped in their pants.
A chuckle that sounded like a sneer came out of Mydei's lips, "My handsome princess seems so eager, am I right?" Mydei asked softly in a baritone voice. Now his hands moved to the gap between their lower bodies and rubbed Phainon's crotch.
Initially Phainon chose to remain silent because he knew that if he opened his mouth, what would come out would be a soft moan that he thought sounded very obscene. However, it seemed that Mydei wanted to hear his moan.
Slowly, Mydei's fingers stroked the most sensitive part which was already tense inside his jeans with an up and down motion. Then, his movements continued down until his fingers stopped 'there'. The hair on Phainon's neck stood up and the moan he had been desperately holding back came out of his lips when Mydei thrust his fingers right where his hole was hiding.
Mydei really liked what he saw and heard, his lover's eyes were closed with a red tinge appearing on his cotton-white skin. "I thought you were going to punch me in the face, for touching you like this." Mydei joked.
Phainon opened his eyes showing his pupils dilated, "You can do anything to my body, and I will ask for it again and again." As soon as he said that, he received Mydei's gentle caress on his head.
"Again? Shouldn't we have lunch and go to the horse farm to ride? You said you wanted to try riding a horse earlier."
The white-haired man hugged Mydei spoiledly while burying his face in the crook of his lover's neck shyly, "I only want Mydei now, and I only want to ride your penis."
Mydei was shocked to hear Phainon's blunt words and then rubbed his own face to wake himself up from his lust, "Your seduction didn't work this time. C'mon, get up. I'll make us lunch, you need to eat." He said then patted Phainon's back to release his hug.
A sigh was heard before Phainon released his hug on his body. Mydei got out of bed and stood up. "Let me sleep for a few minutes, I feel a little tired." Phainon asked after taking Mydei's hat and hugging it to his chest.
Mydei bent his body slightly then rubbed Phainon's head, "Okay, I'll wake you up later when the food is cooked." Phainon nodded and closed his eyes.
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"Riding a bike in the afternoon like now makes me nostalgic for the moment when we just got home from school." Phainon said while pedaling the bike he was riding. He turned his gaze to the right for a moment to look at the calming sunset.
Mydei, who was also pedaling his bike on Phainon's left side, chuckled, "That's right, at that time we were both soaked because of the heavy rain that wouldn't stop. Then, the next day you were absent from school because you were sick."
"Mydei, you remember it very clearly. I also remember, after that you came to my house to tell me about homework from school, then we did the homework at my house while eating instant noodles." Phainon said while reminiscing about the past.
"It was really an exciting past." Mydei's statement immediately got a nod of agreement from Phainon.
"Mydei, is the horse farm still far away?"
The blond-reddish haired man glanced at his cellphone screen that he had placed on the cellphone holder that he had attached to the bicycle handlebars. "We'll be there in about 5 minutes."
When they arrived there, Phainon stared at the horses that were eating and playing with wide eyes, while Mydei chatted with the horse trainer.
This place made his boredom life that had felt monotonous for a long time disappear, he had just arrived but he was already comfortable looking around.
After feeling amazed by the natural scenery that entertained him for a long time, Phainon was surprised when he realized that a horse had suddenly appeared from behind his body. He turned around and found Mydei and the bearded man beside him who was holding the reins of the white-furred horse.
"Phainon, let me introduce you to this man. This horse trainer's name is Mr. Marco. And Mr. Marco, this man is my lover-- his name is Phainon. Riding is something very new to him, so please teach him slowly and carefully." Mydei said.
'D-did.. My-Mydei just introduce me as his l-lover to someone else...?'
With a face that was red with shyness, Phainon shook the hand that Marco extended. "Nice to meet you."
Marco smiled at him in a friendly manner, "Nice to meet you too, Mr. Phainon. You don't need to be afraid to ride a horse. Besides because I will teach you well, this horse is also well-trained."
Phainon nodded, "Thank you. Can I try to stroke its head?" he asked referring to the horse.
"Of course." After getting permission from the horse trainer, Phainon slowly stroked the horse's head. A sweet smile immediately appeared on his lips when the horse did not reject his touch.
Without Phainon realizing it, Mydei was busy taking pictures of him with his cellphone. 'Thank God, he smiled a lot today.' He thought.
While Phainon was being taught by Marco, Mydei rode the black horse that Marco had chosen for him. The blond-reddish haired man really liked sports and other physical activities, so it was no wonder for him to be able to and used to do this. In addition to being healthy for the body, Mydei himself considered physical activity to bring many positive benefits for mental health.
Not only Phainon, during the separation from him, Mydei also felt stressed and had a little disturbance in his sleep. But his hobby and job as a track athlete helped him to keep moving and improve his mood, preventing him from getting stuck in those negative feelings. In addition, his coach was also ready to give him support. But Phainon?
His strong lover had long been covered in sadness that made him forget his own strength. Mydei knew Phainon was aware that he needed support from others, but Phainon had always preferred to isolate himself because he believed that happiness would come by itself. In fact, happiness should be sought.
Mydei promised himself that he would always be there for Phainon and would not get tired of reminding his lover that he is so strong beyond what he thought in his head.
"Ah! It turns out I can ride a horse too!" Phainon shouted happily.
Hearing that, Mydei, who had been riding his horse around the field, stopped his horse and turned to approach Phainon. A proud smile was etched on his lips, "My handsome princess riding a white horse is indeed great, you are said to be very fast at learning it." He praised.
A cheerful smile appeared on Phainon's lips, "I was confused at first but finally I can do it, riding feels so exciting."
"Come on, let's ride a horse around this field 3 times together." Mydei invited.
"Okay. But please go slowly, okay? And don't leave me behind."
"Of course."
They enjoyed their horse riding with a happy feeling and a very good mood, until they both realized that the day had started to turn into night. Mydei and Phainon got off their horses and tied their reins in the horse parking area, after that they decided to sit in a small hut not far from there to rest.
"Although it felt tiring, that was really exciting. Now I feel full of joy and happiness." Phainon said.
"If you are really interested in horse riding, I suggest you join a horse riding club. You will get a lot more exciting experiences if you join together with the others." Mydei said as he sat leaning on his arms.
"Isn't it too late to do it now? I'm almost 30 years old." Phainon replied with a hint of doubt.
The man would not let Phainon think badly of himself, "So do I, we're the same age. I think it's never too late to explore and do things that make us happy."
Before Phainon could say anything, the sound of a horse neighing was heard not far from where they were. Mydei and Phainon turned their gazes to the source of the sound, the sound came from the horses they had previously ridden.
The black horse was riding the white horse from behind by wrapping its front legs around the middle (neck) of the white horse, while the white horse showed signs of acceptance by raising its tail to tease the black horse.
Realizing what the horses were doing, Mydei and Phainon simultaneously turned their gazes away awkwardly.
'Could it be that Mydei is thinking the same thing as me? E-eh w-wait, what am I thinking..?' Phainon thought. A blush appeared on his cheeks as he remembered what he had said to Mydei in that room earlier that day.
Mydei cleared his throat before saying, "It's getting late, let's go back to the cottage." Phainon nodded in agreement and stood up.
On their way back to the cottage, Mydei and Phainon decided to stop for a while at a local food stall for dinner. During the meal, they just chatted and enjoyed their dinner. After finishing their meal, the two of them got back on their bikes and headed home.
At around 8 pm, they arrived at the cottage. After arriving, Mydei immediately went to the bathroom to clean himself. And Phainon entered the room when Mydei was finished. Mydei sat on the bed leaning on the bed frame that he had put a pillow under.
While Phainon was taking a shower, he checked his cellphone and found a message from his coach who lived in that country. The message contained a question from his coach about Mydei's decision regarding the offer to participate in the running competition.
'Phainon hasn't given me an answer about my invitation to watch me compete, I'll wait until he's ready to give me an answer.' He thought. Mydei then typed a reply message to his coach that he still needed about a month to think about the offer.
As he put his phone on the nightstand beside the bed, Phainon came out of the bathroom and walked leisurely to the front of the wardrobe equipped with a long mirror to look in with a towel on his head. "I really like that liquid soap, the scent is really refreshing." Phainon said while drying his hair with a towel.
Unconsciously, Mydei swallowed his saliva when he saw the sight in front of him. Because the wardrobe was opposite the bed and Phainon was standing facing the wardrobe, Mydei could clearly see Phainon's long legs and half of his thighs that were not covered by the loose white nightgown from behind.
His lover who was wearing a loose shirt was really his favorite! He was very grateful for the day when he could see Phainon wearing those clothes in person, because he thought Phainon looked so sexy and hot when wearing those clothes.
Mydei's semi-orange golden eyes stared at Phainon's slightly parted thighs, 'He can strangle my neck with those thighs, and I will express my gratitude to him.' He thought.
Inwardly, Mydei slapped himself as he realized something. 'Damn, I'm erect.' He cursed inwardly. Before Phainon could figure this out, he hurriedly grabbed one of the pillows to cover his lower body.
Not getting any response from Mydei, made Phainon turn his body to face his lover. He was a little surprised when he realized Mydei was staring at him, his gaze made him shiver because he felt as if Mydei was trying to strip him with just a look.
When he realized Phainon caught what he was doing, Mydei turned his face away and pretended to be patting the pillow on his lap.
Clumsily, Phainon put his towel in the closet then walked to the left side of the bed and climbed onto it. Clearly, he heard Mydei's gasping breath as the nightshirt he was wearing was opened showing his tight and short black boxers as he tried to lie down.
The atmosphere felt awkward and too quiet to the point of making both of them feel awkward with their hearts pounding, it went on for quite a while until finally Mydei said something. "You look so pretty and amazing tonight."
Slowly, Phainon turned his face to Mydei who was currently looking at him. The man's gaze darkened, showing his lust for Phainon. He thought Mydei must have seen the same thing in his eyes.
As Mydei's gaze moved to his legs that he had bent upwards, Phainon opened his previously tightly closed legs and spread them slightly-- revealing his smooth thighs to pamper Mydei's hungry eyes. Seeing this movement, both of them knew that they wanted the same thing.
Phainon felt the hair on the back of his thighs stand up as Mydei's left hand stroked his right thigh gently and slowly, Mydei's rough knuckles delivering a sensation that made Phainon bite his lower lip in arousal and comfort.
Not seeing any rejection from Phainon, Mydei put the pillow on his lap somewhere else then crawled on his knees and positioned his head between Phainon's thighs. Both of his hands lifted the bottom of Phainon's shirt slightly up to his lover's stomach then slipped his hands into Phainon's boxers to stroke each of his thighs up to his knees.
"Is there anyone who impressed you when you tried sleeping with someone else?" Mydei asked without looking up to look at Phainon.
"No one at all, they said I was really bad at sex and I wasn't suitable to be the 'top'. However, I think I'm also bad as the 'bottom', because even a dildo doesn't bring me comfort." Phainon answered honestly while looking at Mydei who was still comfortable with his position.
Mydei frowned then chuckled softly looking at something bulging from behind Phainon's boxers, "Bad, huh? Maybe you just don't know which areas you like to be touched. I'll explore your body with you."
The blond-reddish haired man spread Phainon's legs and pulled his lover's hips closer to his mouth then held them tightly with both hands, making Phainon shiver with lust.
Mydei pressed his lips to Phainon's inner thigh to kiss and inhale his scent, 'This is heaven.' He said to himself after inhaling the scent that almost made his saliva drip.
A soft moan was heard, making Mydei bravely bite his lover's inner thigh and decorate the area with several reddish kiss marks. "My-Mydei..." Phainon moaned while gently pulling Mydei's hair.
Mydei mumbled in response before rubbing the tip of his nose on Phainon's crotch, his right hand moving to roll up Phainon's boxers until his lover's crotch skin was visible. He stuck out his tongue and licked the sensitive area.
"Look, just me licking your crotch makes your body squirm and your penis erect. Do you really believe that you are bad at sex and bad as a bottom? I totally disagree." As Mydei said that, the warm breath that blew on his bare thighs made Phainon shudder and the soles of his feet bent.
With his legs and thighs trembling from Mydei's touch, Phainon lifted the bottom of his shirt further up to his chest-- revealing small light brown nipples that had never been touched sensually by anyone. "My reaction is because of your touch, Mydei. All this time, I have been craving your touch on my body."
After focusing on staring at Phainon's thighs for a long time, Mydei raised his head to look at his lover for a moment. Slowly, Mydei moved his lips that were initially on Phainon's crotch up to his stomach, chest, neck, until finally his face faced Phainon's.
"From now on you don't need to crave anymore. Because my touch, kiss, and caress will always be for you alone." He whispered in Phainon's ear then bit his left earlobe and sucked it.
With both eyes closed for a moment, Phainon put both his hands around him and lifted his neck to give Mydei full access as the man began to touch his neck. Not long after, his beautiful eyes opened staring at the bedroom ceiling along with a loud moan that escaped his lips, when Mydei bit the hollow of his neck quite hard.
"I think you will definitely look even more charming if you wear a choker to decorate your arousing neck. Would you wear it if one day I give you that as a gift?"
Phainon stared closely at Mydei who was now pressing their foreheads together, "If you give me that and put it around my neck, I will never take it off and guard the choker you gave me with all my heart and soul."
Hearing Phainon's words that felt so serious, made Mydei chuckle a little. "Why did you say it like that? You are not playing around." He said while putting both of his hands on the rubber of Phainon's boxers and whispered something again, "Help me take off your boxers."
Obediently, Phainon raised his lower body so that Mydei could take off the boxers he was wearing. "What about the shirt?" Phainon asked while looking in amazement at Mydei who was currently taking off his own t-shirt.
"Please, I want the white shirt to stay on. You have no idea how turned on I am seeing you wearing that." Mydei said then got out of bed and walked towards his suitcase in a hurry.
Phainon was stunned looking at where Mydei went. Seeing his lover rummaging through his own suitcase made Phainon decide to ask, "Mydei, what are you looking for?"
"I want to get a bottle of my aloe vera gel. Thankfully, the bottle I usually use to heal wounds is useful for conditions like this." Mydei replied. A satisfied smile appeared on his lips when he found what he was looking for, he turned his body to walk to the side of the bed then fell silent after realizing something.
"But I don't have a condom."
"You don't need to worry, I have condoms in my small bag." Phainon said then took his bag that he put on the nightstand, and took a box of condoms from it.
Mydei immediately looked at Phainon and the box of condoms in his hand with a surprised look alternately, "W-what?"
"After we had dinner at the stall, I took the time to visit the small shop next to the stall to buy condoms while you waited for me in the parking lot." Phainon explained.
A blush appeared on Phainon's cheeks when he himself said, "I wasn't sure if we would make love on this vacation, but after seeing your reaction at the horse farm made me want to buy them."
"My handsome princess made the most of the opportunity he had. Since he was little, my princess has been handsome and also so intelligent." Mydei said with a grin on his lips then moved up to the bed and hovered over Phainon's body.
Mydei kissed Phainon's left shoulder that was sticking out of his loose shirt whose top 3 buttons were deliberately left unbuttoned gently, while opening the cap of the aloe vera gel bottle and pouring a pinch of gel into his right hand. He repositioned his head between Phainon's thighs to look at his lover's crotch area which was now no longer covered by boxers. He landed his right hand on Phainon's penis which had been erect for a long time then stroked it with his wet hand.
Getting stimulation in his sensitive area immediately made his lover moan. Mydei observed Phainon's increasingly red face before saying, "Masturbating with your hands doesn't immediately feel good, if you don't know where your sensitivity is. Therefore, you need to know your sensitive points."
The thumb and index finger of Mydei's right hand circled Phainon's penis frenulum and rubbed it in a circle at a fairly fast tempo, making his lover gasp and moan.
Phainon put his right hand on Mydei's hand that was giving him stimulation while moaning because of the pleasure he felt, "Mydei... Your touch feels so good.. hnghh.."
"Do you like it?" Actually, he could clearly see Phainon's response just by his lover's body gestures, but he wanted to hear Phainon's words accompanied by his lewd moans.
Phainon nodded his head with tears welling up in his eyes, "Mmh.. like it, ahhnn.. really like it."
'So sweet.' He thought. Feeling excited, Mydei moved his face forward to Phainon's chest area and sucked one of the small but tempting nipples while still stroking his penis this time faster.
Every little suck and bite from Mydei on his chest made Phainon's lust increase because of the more stimulation. He puffed out his chest while stroking Mydei's head, "D-don't suck my chest like that.. mmhh.. or I'll.." he moaned while continuing to move his hips in time with Mydei's hand movements to pursue his release.
"Why the rush? We haven't reached the main part yet. My handsome princess, please open your beautiful legs wide." Mydei said after stopping his touch on Phainon's penis.
Phainon opened his legs even wider with high enthusiasm, making Mydei smile in satisfaction. Once wide open, Mydei buried his face and nuzzled the tip of his lips into his lover's hole, and Phainon couldn't help but moan again.
Mydei smeared two of his fingers with gel and rubbed them on Phainon's twitching hole, wetting the sensitive area slowly until he felt Phainon was ready for penetration from his fingers.
The coldness of the gel and Mydei's touch were a very good combo for Phainon, both of his hands could now only squeeze the bed sheets as Mydei prepared to insert his fingers into him. A long moan escaped his lips when Mydei inserted it inside, the sensation was foreign just like his experience in the apartment. However, the difference was that this time it didn't feel painful.
Not seeing any signs of Phainon feeling pain, Mydei increased the speed of his finger movements inside. His favorite sound was heard this time getting louder. "Ahhn... Why.. it doesn't feel hurts at all.. if you touch me..? Hnghh.."
Mydei kissed Phainon's left knee and added his finger inside, "That means I'm touching you properly, stimulation shouldn't be rushed or you'll feel uncomfortable and sore." He said then twisted one of Phainon's nipples that he hadn't touched yet.
"My-Mydei... I think I'm ready now mmh..." Phainon moaned while puffing out his chest again.
"Oh yeah?" Phainon nodded immediately. Mydei kissed his forehead, "Punch my face if I'm too rough on you and make you hurt." Hearing his words, Phainon just chuckled.
The blond-reddish haired man took off his training shorts and boxers that he was wearing at once, then put a condom on his penis, and poured a gel to stroked his erect penis.
Slowly, Mydei carefully inserted his penis into Phainon. Both of them moaned simultaneously enjoying the union of their bodies for the first time. Phainon put both his hands around Mydei's neck to get closer and kiss his lips as his lover thrust his hips forward and backward in a slow tempo-- giving Phainon time to adjust.
"How does it feel?" Mydei whispered.
"Strange, like.. ahhn.. when I tried a dildo for the first time. But this time.. hngghh.. it doesn't hurt at all, but feels intense and warm." Phainon said accompanied by moans in between his words.
"Good, I really want our first lovemaking experience feels good for both of us." Mydei said then cupped Phainon's cheek with his left hand and kissed his lips passionately.
They continued to kiss until finally Mydei's penis touched the soft spot inside Phainon, making the white-haired man's body writhe accompanied by a loud moan that came out of his lips. Their kiss broke apart. "Mydei, it f-feels so-so good there mmhh.. Please, I want more."
"Okay, I'll fuck you until you feel satisfied." Mydei accelerated the thrust of his hips while kissing Phainon's slightly muscular stomach gently.
Phainon's hands moved to bury them in Mydei's hair and pulled it gently as he felt the abundant stimulation.
'Good, it's so good.' That was the only thought in Mydei's head right now. His penis was gripped by Phainon's soft walls so well, making Mydei want to climax immediately at the same time as Phainon. He stared at Phainon's face which now looked lewd but adorable for a moment, to admire the beauty of his lover's face.
'I really love him.' Mydei thought. He brought his face closer to Phainon's to kiss his lips again and speed up his thrusts right on his lover's soft spot repeatedly. When he felt Phainon's legs wrap around his hips to deepen Mydei's penetration, a small smile appeared on his lips while still kissing Phainon's lips.
Phainon returned Mydei's kisses again and again while hugging his lover tightly, 'So, this is how it feels to making love with the person I love the most? After this, I'm sure I will want Mydei more and more completely. Letting him give his mark inside me until I always remember the sensation he caused.' He thought.
His loud moans were swallowed by their kisses every time Mydei slammed his penis inside, Phainon clenched his lover's penis with his soft walls from the inside.
The intense lovemaking made both of them finally climax simultaneously with moans that seemed to fill the room. The two of them hugged each other while breaking their kiss, when both of them really needed air.
"Are you satisfied?" Mydei asked as Phainon wiped the sweat from his forehead with his hands.
"Very satisfied, and it feels so good. But, I don't know if I can walk tomorrow." Phainon said then chuckled.
Mydei shrugged, "I don't mind at all if I have to carry you bridal style to the waterfall tomorrow."
Phainon's blue eyes shone, "We want to go to the waterfall?!" He shouted.
"Yes, you agree, right? The distance between the cottage and the waterfall is actually not too far, but it is a bit far from the horse farm. However, we can still use a bicycle to get there. If you are still tired tomorrow, I will give you a ride on the bicycle." He said and slowly removed his penis from Phainon.
Phainon winced a little before saying, "Okay, of course I agree! The waterfall here I come!" He said then chuckled.
Mydei got out of bed then stood up and took off the condom, and tied it, then threw it into a small trash can not far from the bed. Seeing that his lover was off guard, Mydei took the opportunity to suddenly lift and carry Phainon in his arms.
Phainon, who was shocked, patted Mydei's chest softly, "My-Mydei! My heart almost jumped out!" His eyes widened while his cheeks and neck turned red.
Mydei laughed out loud, "I really like that adorable expression on your face, let's take a second bath. But, this time with warm water." He invited.
Phainon glanced at the bottom of his shirt that was dirty because of his sperm before burying his face in the crook of Mydei's neck, "Thanks to you, I need to change out of this shirt that I haven't worn for a long time."
"Don't blame me, how can I hold myself back when you look so pretty and charming in that outfit?" Phainon just sighed in defeat.
Mydei smiled, "How about next time you sit on my face?"
Mydei's sudden wild idea made Phainon's eyes rounded stare at him, while Mydei just chuckled and started walking towards the bathroom.
"Sounds strange... but fun, I want to try." Phainon said before Mydei closed the bathroom door.
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When Mydei woke up, he immediately frowned when he didn't find Phainon beside him. He sat up and stretched his body, then went to the bathroom to wash his face and brush his teeth. After he finished, he got dressed and walked back and forth from one room to another to look for his lover. However, he still couldn't find him.
Before he could panic, Mydei heard someone groaning from outside the cottage-- to be precise, the garden in the front yard of the cottage. He opened the door, and immediately laughed out loud to find Phainon who had fallen backwards because he was trying to pull out one of the carrot plants.
"Are you okay? And are you harvesting?"
Phainon got up to crouch down and put the carrots he had pulled out and put them in the basket beside him. "Yes, it feels so good to harvest fruits and vegetables in the morning. I didn't know this carrot plant was hard to pull out."
"Wait for me, I'll accompany you." Mydei said before turning around to get the basket inside the cottage.
While Mydei was gone, Phainon stared at some tempting tomatoes with a look of admiration. He stood up to approach them to pick some. "These tomatoes are so red and quite big." Phainon muttered while looking at one of the tomatoes in his right hand.
"You're right, it seems like this garden has been very well maintained because the quality looks good. All the fruits and vegetables look fresh, especially some lettuce and cucumbers over there." Mydei said who had just arrived standing next to Phainon while pointing in another direction with his hand.
"How about we make a salad for breakfast?" Phainon suggested.
Mydei smiled, "That sounds great, I'll pick some cucumbers, cabbage, and lettuce over there. In the meantime, please pick some strawberries, okay? I want to make a smoothie."
Phainon nodded, "I can't wait!" He exclaimed enthusiastically.
They did their respective tasks until they both felt satisfied, and decided to go back into the cottage to take a shower and make salad. Phainon washed the fruits and vegetables they had harvested, while Mydei boiled some eggs and cut the fruits and vegetables into pieces.
"Do you want our salad spicy, Mydei?" Phainon asked, standing in front of the kitchen counter, looking at his cellphone screen showing the instructions for making salad dressing.
Mydei, who was standing next to him, grating carrots, replied, "Because this is for breakfast, so I think it should be medium spicy."
Phainon nodded, then poured a tablespoon of hot sauce into a small bowl and mixed it with mayonnaise, ketchup, condensed milk, and lime juice.
After putting the grated carrots into a large bowl with the other chopped vegetables, Mydei looked at Phainon who was focused on stirring the salad dressing for a moment. Then, he grabbed his lover's hips with one hand from behind and kissed his left cheek. "Good job, you make me very captivated. I'll make us a smoothie from strawberries." He said softly then walked over to the refrigerator to get milk, ice cubes, and yogurt.
Phainon's hand movement stopped as he felt his face heat up and his heart beat fast, he put his left hand close to his lips and bit his nails while blushing. 'I love Mydei so much.' he thought.
After their homemade salad and smoothie were ready to eat, the two decided to take the dish to the living room and eat together while sitting on the soft sofa.
"Is my salad dressing good?" Phainon asked, sitting with his legs up and bent on the sofa after feeding a spoonful of salad to Mydei's mouth.
Mydei nodded his head while stroking Phainon's thigh, "My handsome princess, you are indeed the champion." He said after swallowing his food.
Phainon purred happily, proud of the praise he received. He took the long lettuce and put it between his lips while bringing it closer to Mydei's mouth, signaling the man to bite the other part.
Knowing what Phainon meant, Mydei chuckled and bit the part of the lettuce that Phainon hadn't bitten, then moved his mouth forward along with Phainon's mouth until finally their lips met. The two kissed softly for a moment before Phainon broke their kiss and laughed in satisfaction.
Seeing Phainon's very good mood made Mydei smile widely and then kissed his lover's temple, "Come on, eat some more. I see, you haven't eaten the boiled egg." He said then fed half a boiled egg to Phainon's mouth using the spoon he was holding.
The white-haired man nodded and opened his mouth, then chewed it happily. "The two of us will go to the waterfall this afternoon, right?" Phainon asked.
Mydei nodded then took a glass of smoothie and drank it, "Yeah, because they say the waterfall is too crowded from morning to afternoon. Wouldn't it be more free for us to swim if there aren't too many visitors?"
Phainon giggled, "Oh, you want the two of us to be there alone? Tell me what's on your mind this time, Mydei." Phainon giggled even louder when Mydei chose to remain silent and continued eating his salad with a red face.
Phainon's beautiful blue eyes glanced at Mydei's left hand that was still stroking his thigh, "You need to know, that I will always agree to your wild ideas, Mydei."
Hearing that, Mydei was silent for a moment before taking the salad bowl from Phainon's hand and placing it next to their glass of smoothie on the table. He turned to Phainon to stare at him closely, "Enough, you really like teasing and making me feel awkward."
Phainon grabbed Mydei's hand that was on his thigh and brought it to the inside of his thigh, then pressed his thighs together to lock Mydei's hand. "I'm not teasing you, but seducing you. What about your wild idea last night? Don't you want to put it into practice now?" He said suggestively.
The reddish-blond haired man took both of Phainon's legs and put them on each of his shoulders. He kissed one of Phainon's thighs, "Stop, or you'll make me addicted to you."
A smirked was etched on Phainon's lips as the man kept his balance sitting with both hands resting on the armrest of the sofa, "No way, I changed my clothes to the same shirt as last night for a reason, right?"
Instantly, Phainon yelped in surprise when Mydei lay down on the sofa while pulling Phainon's body with him, so that now Phainon was sitting on Mydei's chest with both of his legs bent on either side of Mydei's body. This position can also be called the cowgirl position.
Mydei looked up at Phainon, "My handsome princess, how beautiful you are." He praised. Both of his hands slipped into Phainon's loose light blue nightgown and squeezed his chest gently.
Just hearing Mydei's praise, Phainon felt his penis erect and his thighs tremble. Trying to find stimulation, he rubbed his crotch against Mydei's chest as his lover played with his nipples. "Ahhnn.. My-Mydei.."
When Mydei managed to remove Phainon's tight boxers with Phainon's help, like last night he pushed Phainon's crotch forward by pulling his hips closer. He kissed every inch of the inside of Phainon's thighs with high passion.
Phainon who was moaning softly looking at Mydei who was devouring him by kissing him there finally said something that made him curious, "Mmhh.. Mydei, w-why do you look like you like m-my thighs so much? Hnggh.."
"I like all parts of your body, but your thighs have a special place in my heart. Those smooth and beautiful thighs look so arousing, to the point that I can't help but touch or caress it." Mydei answered seriously then continued to kiss Phainon's thighs.
Phainon held the bottom of his shirt with both hands as the cloth covered Mydei's face, so that he could give full access to his lover and he could see Mydei's facial expression clearly.
"If you want and feel ready, please sit on my face."
"I'm ready, but are you sure? I don't want to hurt you, Mydei."
"You won't hurt me, trust me."
Slowly, Phainon sat on Mydei's face. His whole body immediately shivered when Mydei's hands hugged his hips, while Mydei's tongue entered right into his hole. The wet and flexible organ confidently poked his soft walls and made the sensitive area wet, Phainon put both hands on the armrest of the sofa and squeezed it-- enjoying the stimulation he received.
'The sensation is so amazing, why does this feel so good?' Phainon thought. He put one of his hands to stroke his penis and moved his hips slowly in rhythm with the movement of Mydei's tongue.
Mydei's hands crept and went back into Phainon's shirt to give his broad but slightly soft chest some attention, without permission he immediately pinched each of Phainon's nipples quite hard.
"AHHNN!! Mmh... Hyaahh.. My-Mydei.." Phainon moaned as he accelerated his stroked on his own penis. Not long after, his eyes widened when Mydei's tongue not only moved quickly, but also felt deep. Something familiar greeted him, he wanted to ejaculate.
"Aughh.. mmhh.. Mydei. S-stop, or I'll come out soon and dirtying your face." Phainon said softly. In response to his words, Mydei took his right hand out from inside Phainon's shirt to give him a thumbs up and then accelerated the movement of his tongue.
Feeling unable to hold it anymore, Phainon climaxed. When he felt Mydei's tongue had stopped, he immediately moved his body back a little-- so that he was no longer sitting on Mydei's face to see the mess he had made.
His semen stained the bottom of his shirt and some of it stained Mydei's face. As soon as he realized that, Phainon wiped the liquid that stained his lover's handsome face with his shirt sleeve.
"That was amazing, are you okay?" Mydei asked.
Phainon changed his position to lie face down on Mydei's body and chuckled, "I'm not the one who should be asked that, because it wasn't my face that was sat on. But, that felt really good to me."
"Good, if you like it. Honestly, I've been wanting to do that with you for a long time." Mydei said while tucking Phainon's hair behind his ear.
The white-haired man who was now resting his chin on Mydei's chest was stunned for a moment before saying, "How long? Have you had such a desire for me since before you came back?"
Mydei just realized that he had just let slip that embarrassing confession in front of Phainon, he turned his gaze away before clearing his throat. "Um... Yes, because all this time I only like you. So if I want to express my desire, I just imagine you being beside me and us doing many things that we might like. That's why, I know how to make love properly."
Not getting any response from Phainon, made Mydei look back at Phainon who was just staring at him silently. "After knowing this, maybe you think that I'm a pervert. Do I make you feel disgusted and scared?"
Phainon tilted his head slightly, "How is that possible? After hearing your confession, it makes me fall in love with you even more. Because all this time you always remember me and your feelings of affection for me that you have kept for years."
"But, your confession also makes me curse myself for being unfaithful to my own feelings. Like a fool, I betrayed you by playing around with someone else when my heart only beats fast for you." Phainon said with a sad look.
Mydei cupped Phainon's jaw with both hands, "Shh.. didn't I tell you? That you have full rights to do something with someone else, because before we were not bound by relationship status. But now..."
"Because you have become my lover, I will not let you escape from my embrace." Mydei continued in a serious tone.
Phainon hugged Mydei with his left hand while nuzzling his face into Mydei's left ear that had the earring, "I'll always be yours, Mydei."
After that according to plan, Mydei and Phainon went to the waterfall around 3 pm by bike. Remembering what he had done to Phainon in the morning, Mydei decided to give Phainon a ride on his bike.
During the trip, Phainon looked at the rice barn and several plantations owned by local residents while hugging Mydei's waist who was riding a bicycle. His mind wandered remembering what had happened during the past 4 days, successfully making him feel that he deserved happiness and an unforgettable interesting experience.
Phainon himself considered that since Mydei returned to his life and accompanied him, his life felt more colorful as if the man had brought his love as high as the sky. He thought that Mydei was the puzzle piece that he had been looking for to perfect his life, a spring that nourished his heart that had been dry for a long time, and a bright light that illuminated his life that felt pitch black.
"As I said before, look at that. This waterfall seems like it's deserted of visitors." Mydei said then got off the bicycle that he had just parked to Phainon-- who had gotten off the bicycle and was standing facing him.
"We only need to walk a few meters to get to the waterfall directly." Mydei continued, then took Phainon's right hand and walked together. Phainon nodded in understanding.
When they arrived there, Phainon was amazed by the natural beauty that he had never seen in his life. His eyes looked straight at the fairly large waterfall that made a loud splash of water. The shady trees on the side of the waterfall made the place look even more beautiful.
As Mydei said, there were only about 7 people there who were busy taking pictures and swimming. His lover was indeed a calculative person.
Mydei walked on the rocks slowly to get closer to the edge of the waterfall, then scooped water in his hand to check the water temperature. "Come here, the water feels so fresh on the skin. Very suitable for soaking in this sunny weather." Mydei said after turning back to see Phainon who was standing behind his body.
Phainon nodded then walked carefully towards Mydei and crouched beside him, he also put both of his hands into the water. "You're right, this water also looks so clear."
The blond-reddish haired man straightened his body and took off the short-sleeved shirt he was wearing, "What are you waiting for? Come on, let's swim and soak now." He continued to take off his clothes and put them on a large rock until he was left with only his swimming trunks.
Phainon followed what Mydei did and the two of them soaked their bodies into the water, their entire bodies were wet by the freshness of the waterfall. The white-haired man washed his face before saying, "Wow, I feel like I'm one with nature."
Mydei chuckled, "Let's try the sensation of the waterfall raining down on our heads directly, there." He invited while moving his head back-- where the waterfall was. "But, please swim carefully. It doesn't seem like that part is shallow." He warned.
"Okay." The two of them swam closer to the waterfall.
Phainon immediately laughed out loud when he saw Mydei posing as if meditating under the waterfall, "Your bangs are covering both of your eyes, Mydei." He said then swam closer to Mydei and helped him to brush his hair back.
Mydei pulled one of Phainon's hands and brought his lover to his side so that they were now both right under the waterfall, he immediately laughed out loud looking at Phainon who was rubbing both of his upper arms with each of his own hands.
"It's so cold!!" Phainon shouted.
"I'll warm you up." Mydei said then hugged Phainon tightly for a moment. Phainon chuckled in his embrace.
"Mydei, I want us to soak while leaning on that big rock." Phainon said while pointing to a large rock not far from where they were, the water there looked calmer and shallower. Mydei nodded in agreement, then they swam towards it. And as expected, the area near the large rock was shallower and the water level only reached their stomachs.
"Oh, people are starting to leave this place." Phainon commented after seeing the seven visitors who were packing up.
Mydei's golden semi-orange eyes stared at the visitors from a distance for a moment before washing his face, "That's good."
"You haven't told me what was on your mind when we arrived at the waterfall, come on tell me now." Phainon said in a joking tone as well as coercion there.
"We haven't been here for long, why the rush? Could it be... you're not satisfied yet? Even though I just touched your body sensually this morning." Mydei teased.
Feeling embarrassed and caught red-handed because he was too eager, Phainon splashed water on Mydei's face, "I-I didn't say that, y-you misunderstood."
Mydei wiped his face before looking at Phainon who turned his gaze away. He smirked before walking closer to him slowly, "Huh...? If I misunderstood, try looking at me closely and tell me that you don't want me to rub my penis between your sexy thighs at all."
"... My-Mydei, but there's still someone in here." Phainon moaned softly with dark pupils.
Mydei grinned as he pressed his body against Phainon, so that now his lover was squeezed between him and the large rock that covered their bodies. He glanced at the seven visitors who were walking away, then sniffed the crook of Phainon's neck and kissed it softly. "They're all gone, and it's just the two of us here."
"Okay." Phainon said then leaned his body that felt pliant because of Mydei's touch against the large rock behind his body-- showing a gesture of acceptance and giving Mydei access to kiss him.
"My handsome princess really likes to spoil me by agreeing to what I want, tell me what you want my dear?" Mydei whispered while stroking Phainon's left shoulder with his right hand.
With a blush on his cheeks and a straight gaze Phainon said, "I want what you want to do to me, Mydei."
"You successfully made me crazy about you." He said then kissed Phainon's lips while putting both of his hands on the elastic of Phainon's swimming trunks and lowered them to his knees. After succeeding, each of his hands gently squeezed Phainon's butt.
Phainon moaned while returning Mydei's kiss, his breath quickened and his heart beat fast because of the enthusiasm he felt for what Mydei did.
Mydei took his erect penis out of his swimming trunks and put it between Phainon's thighs, "Please close your thighs, and tell me if you feel uncomfortable." He instructed after breaking their kiss.
The office worker followed his lover's instructions then put both of his hands around Mydei's neck, and immediately moaned when he got stimulation from the friction of his hole and Mydei's penis skin.
Phainon's hair stood on end as soon as he heard Mydei's heavy groans hugging his hips while moving his hips back and forth to continue slamming his penis between his thighs. Then, he also hugged Mydei's body to bring their bodies closer together.
"Ughh.. ahh... Phai.. non.." Mydei groaned while speeding up his thrusts. According to him, the pleasure of being between Phainon's thighs was not much different from him inserting his penis into his lover's hole. He bit and sucked the hollow of Phainon's neck as he felt his lover's hole twitching, craving his penis.
Feeling the warmth of Mydei's penis between his thighs while his whole body felt the cold water and the tickling friction in his hole, made Phainon want Mydei's penis to enter his hole which was hungry for his thrusts in his most sensitive spot. Over time his desire turned into a need, Phainon whined something in Mydei's ear.
"My-Mydei.. I want you inside me, please put your penis in my hole." Phainon begged.
Listening to Phainon's sweet plea made Mydei stop his thrusts and looked at his lover, "The condom is in your little bag, wait a minute I'll get it."
Before Mydei could move, Phainon stopped him by grabbing one of his wrists. He took off his swimming trunks and put them on the rock, then looked at Mydei with a pleading gaze and his right leg raised up as if offering himself for Mydei to immediately make love with him, "It's okay, you don't need to wear a condom. Please, put your penis in."
Mydei chuckled softly, "You don't need to beg me that much, okay my love. Wrap your legs around my hips." Phainon happily obeyed.
A moment later Phainon had wrapped both of his legs around his hips, the athlete put his right hand on the back of Phainon's head and put his left hand on his back-- preventing any abrasions on Phainon's body that was in direct contact with the rock surface. Slowly, Mydei inserted his penis into Phainon's hole that was already a little loose due to their sexual activity this morning.
Phainon's eyes rolled back with his mouth open letting out a loud obscene moan, and at the same time his trembling body felt like it was melting from receiving stimulation and warmth from Mydei's penis. "Nghh.. ahhnn.."
Getting warmth directly from Phainon's soft walls made Mydei go crazy because of the increasing lust, he accelerated his hip thrusts until his lovers were only able to moan in pleasure.
"Ahh.. so warm, your hole wraps my cock so well, my handsome princess. I want to slam my cock into your weak spot again and again, until you can only moan my name and climax without me having to touch your cock." Mydei said. True to his words, his thrusts became faster and rougher, his penis piercing Phainon's hole deeper.
Phainon nodded his head, "My-Mydei... p-please... Ahhnn!" Phainon's view of Mydei's face became blurry because of tears that pooled in his eyelids then fell dripping down his cheeks, while moans after moans kept coming out of his lips every time Mydei thrust his cock into him so deep that he felt like the man had penetrated his heart.
"Mydei... Please climax inside me, I want to feel the warmth of your love."
"As you wish, my lover." Mydei whispered.
Mydei's thrusts became faster and more demanding, and they couldn't hold back anymore to climax together.
'Mydei's love for me feels so warm inside, this sensation will be unforgettable.' Phainon thought as he clenched his hole on Mydei's penis that was squirting his sperm into him.
"Phainon, I can't imagine my life without you. You are truly so precious to me." Mydei said before kissing Phainon's lips so gently while stroking his head lovingly.
The white-haired man smiled happily as he returned Mydei's kiss and played with his lover's earrings, 'Just like you, you have also completed my life. Mydei, the only person I love the most in my entire life.' he thought.
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Phainon's booming laughter was heard from the living room which was dimly lit by the lights and the fireplace. Two cups of hot chocolate and a pack of marshmallows accompanied Mydei and Phainon's warm and intimate night.
"Don't be so tense, just relax and smile. Come on, let's try another selfie." Said Phainon who was sitting on the sofa with his knees bent on Mydei's lap. He pulled Mydei's nape so that the sides of their heads touched while directing their faces to his cellphone screen. Phainon took their pictures about 5 times with different facial expressions and styles.
"I'm not used to taking selfies, does my face look weird in the photo?" Mydei asked Phainon who was now staring at his cellphone screen to see the results of their photo.
Phainon shook his head, "No, you look cool and so cute! But, my favorite is this photo." He said then showed their photo on his phone screen to Mydei. "You look cute with your eyebrows furrowed and your lips crooked, so I'll make this photo my phone's wallpaper and print it later."
Mydei hugged Phainon's knees to his chest with his left hand, "You look cute in this photo too, your eyes are round and your cheeks are puffed up like a hamster." Phainon nodded in agreement while chuckling.
After finishing installing his favorite photo as his phone's wallpaper, Phainon put his phone on the table. "By the way, about your invitation 3 days ago. My answer is yes, join the competition Mydei. I promise, I will come and watch your match live."
A bright smile appeared on Mydei's lips, "Really? Thank you, my handsome princess. I also want to promise, that I will win the match as the first champion." His right hand took Phainon's right hand and kissed the back of his hand softly, "I will not disappoint you."
Phainon brought his face closer to Mydei's right cheek and kissed it there, "I really look forward to it, good luck my lover." He said while flashing his warm smile.
Mydei's right hand moved to stroke Phainon's back which was wrapped in a sweater as he said, "I have told my coach that I will be in this country for a month, after that I will return there to practice and register for the competition."
"Does that mean you will be there for the next 4 months?"
"Yeah." The reddish-blond haired man stared at Phainon for a moment before kissing his lover's forehead and pressing their foreheads together.
His semi-orange golden eyes met Phainon's beautiful bright blue eyes. "I'm sorry for leaving you again. But while I'm there, I promise to contact you at all times and wait for your messages every day. So, please let me know all your activities while I'm gone. You are my only motivation, Phainon."
"Of course. I will definitely fill your chat with my messages and selfies, Mydei." Phainon said then chuckled. "You don't need to worry about me, I'll be fine. For the past 4 days, I've been so happy since you came back and accompanied my days until I forgot that I ever felt lonely." He continued.
Phainon shook his head without removing his forehead from Mydei's, "Those negative feelings are over now. When you go there later, I will definitely miss you very much. But unlike before, now I feel calm and confident that you and your love will always be there for me and accompany me even though you are far away from me." He said and accepted a warm hug from Mydei.
"Time flies quickly, and our exciting vacation is over. But since the next two days are still the weekend, would you like to come visit my house and meet my mother on Sunday? She keeps sending me messages and asking me about you."
Phainon loosened his hug and laughed, "Okay, actually I miss your mother too. Because I was too focused on work, I haven't visited my mother for a long time either."
"How about the four of us eat together at my house? I really want to show you three my cooking skills." Mydei suggested.
"Sounds fun, I'll tell my mother later."
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During that 1 month, Mydei decided to spend a lot of time with his lover in between his own activities such as working out at the gym. In addition, he also routinely picked up Phainon who came home from work using his motorbike that he had left at his family's house for a long time. The blonde-reddish haired man realized that since that vacation, Phainon looked more cheerful and enthusiastic.
"Mydei, I want a kebab that is sold not far from my apartment. Later, let's stop by that stall, okay?" Phainon asked as Mydei put the helmet on his head.
"As you wish, my handsome princess." Mydei said after he finished putting on the helmet and then pinched Phainon's chin affectionately. "I'll treat you, do you want to order a large or jumbo size?" He asked then patted the back seat of his motorbike-- signaling Phainon to sit there.
Phainon got on his motorbike and hugged Mydei's body from behind while chuckling, "Jumbo...? How can I finish it alone? You have to help me finish it later, or just order a medium-sized kebab."
"I want you to feel satisfied eating it." Mydei said while smiling at Phainon through the rearview mirror of his motorbike before stepping on the gas and the motorbike sped off.
But the day when they had to separate temporarily arrived and was inevitable. Phainon felt so touched when Mydei told him that he had deliberately rescheduled his departure time from 11 am to 6 pm-- adjusting to Phainon's return time from the office. His lover also told him that he wanted to see Phainon before he left.
Phainon hugged Mydei's body tightly to the point that both of his hands squeezed the tracktop that Mydei was wearing, he inhaled the scent of his lover's perfume from his clothes for a moment. "I will definitely miss you Mydei, please call me often."
"Yes, I promised you." Mydei said while rubbing Phainon's back which was still wrapped in his work clothes. "You can beat me up right away if I break my promise to you."
Phainon loosened his hug then wiped his tears with the back of his own hand while chuckling softly, "Stop talking like that, I trust you." Mydei chuckled with him.
"Before I go, I want to give you something." Mydei said while taking out a small box from the pocket of the black jogger pants he was wearing and giving it to Phainon.
The white-haired man accepted and immediately opened the small box, his eyes widened looking at the choker made of red leather. "This looks really nice, I like it."
Mydei smiled happily and said, "Want me to put it on your neck?"
"Please." Phainon said after nodding his head. Mydei took off Phainon's long tie and unbuttoned 3 buttons on his shirt, he gently put his gift on his lover's beautiful neck.
"As I expected, you look even more charming." Mydei said then stretched out his right hand to caress Phainon's left cheek. Phainon's hands held his lover's outstretched wrist, "Thank you so much, Mydei."
After Mydei left, Phainon went about his daily life as usual. However, this time he did not feel lonely. Because every time he wanted to tell a story and express what he felt, Mydei was happy to listen to his story.
Not infrequently, they exchanged stories about their respective activities and sent each other selfies. Because of that, both of them realized that they were both displaying each other's photos as their profile photos on instant messaging applications. Although both of them felt happy and blushed like teenagers who had just hit puberty, their behavior confused other people.
For example, one day Phainon's mother--Audata, sent the wrong message that should have been intended for his son, but instead she sent it to Mydei because the blonde-reddish haired man had put Phainon's photo as his profile photo. Mydei then told Audata via message, and Phainon via phone about it. When Phainon found out, he giggled with Mydei.
And thanks to Mydei, Phainon adopted a healthier lifestyle. Mydei never tired of reminding his lover to get enough rest, eat on time, and take his vitamins regularly through voice messages or phone calls.
When the time for Mydei's long-awaited competition finally arrived, Phainon decided to take a few days off from work and go to the country by boarding a plane that Mydei had booked a ticket for. As soon as he arrived at the destination airport, Mydei, who had been waiting for his arrival, immediately hugged him tightly for a moment.
"Thank God, you arrived safely. Here, I'll carry your suitcase." Mydei said after he was satisfied hugging Phainon and then walked side by side with him with his right hand pulling the suitcase, while his left hand held his lover's right hand.
"You must be hungry. I plan to cook some local dishes for you, I hope you'll like them." Mydei said enthusiastically.
"Oh yeah? Then, I have to wear the best clothes possible to eat your cooking that tastes and looks like food served in a five-star restaurant!" Phainon said cheerfully. Hearing that, Mydei chuckled.
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The roar of the cheerleaders in the fairly large stadium was immediately heard as soon as Phainon entered the stands and sat down in the seat that Mydei had reserved. His lover gave him the best seat position, because Phainon's seat was quite close to the running track so he could watch the competition clearly.
He looked around at the other spectators who were cheering with banners in their hands, to encourage the athletes who were taking part in this prestigious running competition. 'Ah, I didn't bring anything to encourage Mydei.' he thought.
Actually, before he left for the stadium with Mydei in the early morning, he wanted to buy a bouquet of flowers for his lover. But Mydei told him that, "You being there and watching me compete is enough to motivate me, so there's no need to bother buying something for me."
After taking pictures of the stadium with his cellphone, Phainon focused on watching the competition as the host's voice was heard on the microphone, starting the event. During the session where the host introduced the participants, Phainon's eyes immediately widened as he stared at Mydei who was now being introduced by the host.
According to him, his lover looked so cool wearing a red singlet, and sports shorts of the same color, a dark red headband on his head, and black spike shoes. 'He's so cool and handsome.' he thought while squeezing the dark brown striped pants he was wearing.
After the host moved to another participant, Mydei exhaled. His gaze shifted to the stands, as soon as his sense of sight found Phainon who was staring at him from a distance, the nervousness he was feeling disappeared. 'Time to make him proud of me.' He thought.
As soon as their gazes met, Phainon immediately blushed like a teenager who had just fallen in love who finally got the attention of his crush. He then flashed a wide smile at Mydei before the blond-reddish haired man returned to focus on the competition.
Not long after, the match finally began. Each participant used all their strength and ability in running a short distance on the 400 meter running track. According to Phainon, all the participants impressed him because they were all strong enough to run a fairly long distance, he thought that if he were there, he would prefer to give up because he felt he couldn't.
The short-distance running competition that was participated by 20 participants had three rounds, namely the preliminary round, the semifinal round, and the final round. Seeing Mydei go through round after round very well, made Phainon even more convinced that his lover could win the match easily.
After the break was over, the final round that Phainon and the other spectators had been waiting for arrived. When the round began, Phainon watched it with great focus, but in his heart he continued to pray that Mydei would have a smooth run and become the champion.
Nervousness enveloped Phainon when he saw Mydei and the other participants almost reaching the finish line, and not long after that he felt overflowing happiness when Mydei reached the finish line two seconds before the other participants who were his rivals could reach it.
Phainon immediately stood up from his seat and shouted, "YEAHHH MYDEI WON! MY LOVER IS THE CHAMPION!!" He shouted while clapping his hands.
Surprised by his voice, the other spectators nearby glanced at him and whispered. Phainon realized what he had just done and sat back down, scratching the back of his neck with an awkward smile on his lips.
'Ah, I feel embarrassed, but I don't care. The important thing is that my lover won this match, and I'm so proud of him.' Phainon thought.
After the competition was over and each winner had been given a prize, Phainon received a message from Mydei.
From: Mydei
Phainon, meet me at the edge of the track. I have already asked permission from the organizers, so you are allowed to enter.
With hands shaking with a mixture of joy and enthusiasm, Phainon typed a reply.
To: Mydei
Okay, wait for me.
After Phainon entered the edge of the track, he immediately ran into Mydei's arms. He hugged his lover's body tightly while saying, "Mydei, I am so proud of you! Congratulations, my love."
Mydei hugged and stroked the back of Phainon's head with one hand-- because his left hand was holding the trophy, "Thank you love, thanks to your presence I was able to win this competition." He said then loosened their hug. He gave the trophy to Phainon, "Please, help me hold this for a moment."
Phainon held the gold trophy that was shaped like a cup, and stared at the object in his right hand in awe. Then he frowned in confusion when Mydei put the gold medal necklace that his lover had been wearing around his neck. Not long after, his heart immediately beat fast when Mydei knelt down and took out a small red box and opened it in front of him. The red box contained a beautiful silver ring.
With a feeling of nervousness enveloping him, Mydei raised his head to look straight at his lover and said, "Phainon, will you marry me?"
The cheers from the others who witnessed this were heard but felt faint to Phainon's ears, because for him at this moment, Mydei was the only person he cared about.
Phainon burst into tears of joy, the white-haired man nodded his head repeatedly before giving his answer to Mydei's proposal. "Yes. I want to marry you, Mydei."
Mydei smiled happily after getting the answer, he took Phainon's left hand and put the ring on his ring finger. He stood up and hugged Phainon who was crying happily in his arms.
"You are a man full of surprises, Mydei."
Mydei immediately chuckled hearing it, "Your surprised expression is one of my favorites, thank you so much again my dear." He said then kissed Phainon's forehead softly.
Suddenly a clearing sound was heard from someone, making Mydei and Phainon turn to the source of the sound. The bald-headed man smiled kindly at them before speaking to Mydei in a language that Phainon did not understand.
Mydei nodded in agreement to his coach before speaking to Phainon, "My coach wants to help us capture this moment."
"Oh, please just use my phone." Phainon said then took his phone out of his pants pocket and gave it to Mydei. His lover then gave it to his coach.
They took pictures to capture this happy and precious moment, a warm feeling enveloped Phainon. A few months ago, he could only watch other people experience good things like this with an empty feeling from the taxi he was riding. He used to think that he would never be able to feel happiness like them. But in fact, the happiness he longed for was now being felt and he was grateful for every second of it.
Mydei's Coach returned Phainon's phone before saying, "Congratulations! Don't forget to invite me to your wedding later."
Mydei grinned and bowed his head slightly to salute, "Sure, thank you so much, coach." His coach patted Mydei's shoulder and smiled kindly at Phainon before leaving.
"Mydei, what color suit do you want to wear for our wedding? Black or white?" Phainon asked suddenly.
Another chuckle escaped Mydei's lips, he felt very happy now. He embraced Phainon's hips with both of his hands before kissing his cheek, "How about we wear the same color wedding suit? Since white looks so good and beautiful on you, so how about we wear a white wedding suit?" Mydei suggested.
Phainon smiled, "I agree. You just proposed to me, but I can't wait to marry you." He chuckled as he rubbed the tip of his nose against Mydei's and said, "You are my everything, Mydei." He said then pulled Mydei's nape and kissed his lips softly.
The End 🍷 ☀️