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Alec has been walking to and from the institute to Magnus' loft for several months before he noticed the park he passed everyday. He was not so surprised really, Magnus did that to him. He left Magnus in a daze of warm butterflies in his stomach and with skin tingling in all the place Magnus touched him, which is every inch of his body to be honest. He blushed at this thought every time. Even after all this time he was still amazed by their love, the magnitude of it knocking him on his ass.
He looked at the children playing screaming in joy, their parents watching them play with serene look in there faces. Alec longed for this. He gasped involuntarily when one little boy tripped and fell. The child's mother rushed to her baby and picked him up. Alec watched as the child threw his little chubby arms around his mother and his his face in her shoulder. Alec's vision blurred as his eyes filled with tears. He wanted this, he wanted it to be him and Magnus with a little child hugging them, needing them and making them whole.
This became his routine, watching the kids playing as he walked pass the park, thinking about it every single minute he had. The sadness brought along with the impossibility of this feeling bringing him to the verge of breaking down every time.
"Magnus!!" he rushed to the bathroom as soon as he heard the shouting. It was Alec, ' of course it is Alec, if it isn't me then it has to be him'
"Are you alright Alexander?"he asked as he peered in to the exuberant bathroom. He found Alec kneeling at the toilet bawl. He looked up as Magnus stepped in to the room and just that look has Magnus running to his boyfriend in a frenzy. "Darling what's the matter" Alec's face was glistening with sweat and his beautiful eyes were filled with tears a few escaped and made their way down flushed cheeks. He sniffled pitifully.
"Stomach cramps. I don't know why. Nauseous and head hurts too." He looked at Magnus and his lip quivered. Few more tears escaped the thick lashes. "I've never been sick." Magnus crouched next to the young nephilim and rubbed his back in soothing circles.
"Let's get you to bed OK darling. Come on" Magnus got up and helped Alec to stand. "Come on baby" he said as he led the boy to their bedroom. Alec leaned on to Magnus and moaned softly.
They sat on the bed and Magnus got down on his knees to remove Alec's boots.
"Magnus?.." Alec called and as Magnus looked up to find the young shadowhunter figeting and wringing his hands.
"Yes sweetheart, what is it?"Magnus asked.
"D..do you think nephilim, men, can get pregnant?" He was looking at Magnus as he held the moon and sun in his hands.
"What?" Magnus was shocked he did not expect that ever.
"God I'm an idiot. Please don't laugh" new flood of tears filled Alec's eyes.
"No, no, it's not that I have never come across that question. So I don't know my darling. Why do you ask?" Magnus hurried to assure him.
"If I was a girl all these symptoms would not be a surprise or anything. But the thing is we are not a normal couple. I'm nephilim and you a warlock. So I was thinking maybe.. It would be possible" Alec was blushing furiously but looked so hopeful.
"Do you want children Alexander? You are just 19" Magnus said his heart beating out of his ribcage.
"Yes... I want children. Not just children, Magnus. I want our children. You and me to have children. I need to have our family" he was crying now and the sincerity of his words hitting Magnus like a ton of bricks.
"You want children with me?" He knew he sounded incredulous and Alec most probably will take it the wrong way.
"You don't want kids." The absolute broken tone Alec said this killed Magnus all over again. Alec covered his face with his hands and started weeping. He fell back on the bed and folded himself into fetal position.
"Baby. It's not that. For centuries I met so many people who adored me and loved me even. But they never gave up their lives for me like you did. And definitely no one ever wanted to start a family with me. I'm surprised and touched my darling. I love you and maybe for the first time in my existence I have my love returned in equal measure or even more." Magnus said and laid down besides Alec hugging him from behind whispering sweet nothings. Alec turned in his arms and burrowed into his chest and continued to cry softly.
"I can't bare children nor give you a child even if you could get pregnant, baby. Warlocks are incapable of reproduction. We are barren." Magnus said in finality.
"Maybe we can creat a miracle. Please find out find out for me. Ask maybe there is a way" Alec's voice was muffled against Magnus' shirt.
"I will, I'll call Catarina and ask her. She knows or she can find out for us. But baby please don't have high hopes. I don't wanna break your heart over this." Magnus said kissing the soft dark locks. He felt mor than heard the quite little sobs that wracked the young man's body.
"Catarina, I need your help." Magnus said over the phone. He looked over at alec standing by the picture window looking down at the streets seeing nothing. He had one hand on the window and the other hovered over his flat stomach."I want to know can I have kids, can we, warlocks have children?" He asked and his heart hurt looking at his boyfriend.
"Magnus you know it's not possible. Why do you want to know anyway?" Cat said and he heard her moving around.
"Alec wants to have babies, he in fact thinks that he might be pregnant with my baby. But it is not possible. I know it but I wanted to make sure. For his sake Cat, he is gonna be so heartbroken. I can't watch him this sad and hopeless" Magnus was pleading with Cat.
"You have never been this way Magnus. I'm happy and worried at the same time. I will be there and check on him. Give me an hour." She said. Catarina was surprised to here Magnus talking this seriously. This was the first time since they met nearly 300 years ago, throughout that time he had never been this way with anyone. She hoped Alec loved him as much as Magnus did.
"Alec,sweetheart, do you want to try and eat something? Maybe a bit of soup?"he asked walking close to Alec and hugging him from behind. Alec leaned back into Magnus and sighed happily.
"Did you ever want children Magnus?" He asked still looking at the streets.
"No. Never. I never felt the need to have the stability of a family. I had a bad childhood darling. I'm an unstable character myself. All these things made me loath children" Magnus was surprising himself with the honesty of his answer.
"If I did get pregnant or if we ever get a child, would you be uncomfortable with us?" Alec was shaking. Magnus held the boy tighter.
"You are the only person I ever wanted to start a family with. I would never be uncomfortable with anything you want to do baby" Magnus kissed his head and held him close. "I have never felt love like yours. No one have ever loved me the way you do" he assured the young man.
Alec turned in Magnus arms and hugged him close.
Magnus took Alec by hand and lead him to the kitchen and sat him at the kitchen island. Magnus took a soda out of the fridge "This will settle your stomach." He said as he got busy with the soup.
Alec was looking at Magnus affectionately as he rushed around in the kitchen gathering ingredients and prepping.
"Can I lie down for a while Mags" Alec asked.
"Yes of course baby." Magnus said. "Do you want me to take you there? Can you go on your own?"Magnus asked as he walked around the island.
Alec smiled and that smile warmed his whole body with the love radiating from the young nephilim. "No, I can go" he walked to Magnus and kissed him and touched his face.
Magnus stood there like a fool smiling sadly worry maring his features.
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"So where is he?" Catarina asked as she stepped out of the portal.
"Thank you so much for coming" Magnus said walking towards her and hugging her. "He wanted to lie down for a bit." He walked towards their room and found Alec sleeping on Magnus' side of the bed with cuddling his pillow close and seeing this the warlock's eyes stung with tears.
"Aww that is so adorable. He is precious Mags. Take care of him darling" Cat said.
"I intend to
Cat, with everything I have" Magnus said and he meant it too.
He walked to their bed and brushed Alec's hair back from his forehead. "Hey sleepy head, Cat is here." Magnus sat on the side of the bed and took Alec's hand.
Alec stretched and moved towards Magnus opening his eyes slowly. He looked first at Magnus and then turned to look t Cat.
"Hey Cat. Sorry to bother you." Chairman meow crawled out of the duvet making Alec smile sweetly and Magnus felt his throat constrict with emotion.
"Oh sweetie it's no bother, I'd do anything for you. " as she said this she felt her stomach drop coz there is no way in heaven or hell that this young shadowhunter is pregnant. But she checked him thoroughly and weight in her stomach increasing every second. Cat knew he would be devastated with the news but lying would hurt him more. "Alec dear I'm so sorry, but there is no sign of you being... Pregnant!" She said softly touching Alec's hand.
Alec nodded his head smiling sadly. He felt as if someone squeeze his heart it was almost physical pain. He looked up and met Cat's eyes briefly and looked down in an effort to hide tears that had filled them.
"Thanks Cat" he managed before turning his back to the warlock.
Cat slowly left the room closing the door behind her. Magnus was waiting for her outside with a knowing but still hopeful look in his eyes. She shook her head at him and saw her friend's heart break.
Magnus felt his eyes sting and all he wanted was to get to Alec, because he knew he was devastated.
When Magnus went to their room Alec was lying with his back to the door. He was folded into himself hugging a pillow so hard.
"Alec, sweetheart?" Magnus said softly not wanting to startle the young shadowhunter. He slowly climbed on to the bed and laid behind Alec.
Alec turns around suddenly letting go of the pillow and grabbing on to Magnus' shirt front crumpling it to absolution.
Alec was crying quietly, soft sobs shaking his strong shoulders. "I'm so sorry Magnus, I can't give you what you want" he snuggled into the warlock's chest and Magnus wrapped his arms around the boy and crushed him to his body.
"No no.. Don't think like that my sweet sweet darling. We are going to do this together. I want you, I LOVE you, you are my everything. What I want my precious angel, is for you to be with me. For us to be happy and sad together. All I WANT in my life Alexander, all I ever WANTED in my life, is you... You are my today, my tomorrow, and my forever" he said kissing the sobbing boys hair that smelled like citrus and water. So pure and clean, just like his heart and soul.
Alec smiles sadly but affectionately and snuggled into Magnus' chest. He was still sniffling softly but he was strong and knew Magnus loved him.
"You know babe, we could always adopt. There are plenty of children who needs loving parents and you my beautiful archer boy, are the best parent a kid could wish for." Magnus said kissing Alec's soft locks.
Alec giggled burrowing closer "Your biased, your my boyfriend and you love me, you have to say nice things about me"
Magnus smiled and hugged Alec even closer as they both drifted off to the slumber land.
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"Hello dad" Alec made a face at Magnus as he answered his father's call.
'What does he want?' Magnus asked without sound. Alec shook his head and gestured 'No idea'
"No we are not doing anything special. Magnus is supposed to be at the institute in two days but other than that, nothing pressing" Alec looked at Magnus for confirmation and Magnus wiggled his eyebrows pointing down his body. Alec rolled his eyes and smiled affectionately. "Yes I think so. Let me get back to you on that OK dad? I'll talk to Magnus and call you back" he hung up the phone and turned to face his boyfriend.
"So what's the pressing matter and how can I help?" He asked walking towards Magnus slowly. The word Magnus would have used is prowl but who's asking. Alec walked into him and rested his body on Magnus' long lean body full length and turned his fave up puckering his lips asking for a kiss. Magnus smiled put his arms around the young shadowhunter and kissed him softly.
"Dad wants us to come to Alicante." Alec said looking up at Magnus the look was something in between pleading and hopeful.
"Oh? Wonder why so suddenly?" Magnus was not very fond of the newly appointed inquisitor who happened to be Alec's father. He had a very delicate relationship with his boyfriend's parents and didn't want to be around them long enough to aggrivate it. But he was a sucker for hazel eyes and long ebony locks. So he sighed giving up. "When is he expecting us?" He asked and scoled him in his head ' you are a fool and a pushover. How did you even survive this s long'.
Alec smiled like the sunshine and kissed him softly.
'Oh it's so worth getting your head chewed off.' He mentally patted himself for Alec's reaction. He lived to see his boy smile happily.
"Day after tomorrow. He wants us to stay for lunch and Izzy too will be there. You will nor be bored" he was saying and Magnus was nodding his head. Alec didn't have to say anything more because he would go to hell and back for Alec.
"OK love. Make plans I will portale us there." He smirked at Alec like a fox. "Now about my pressing matter" he wrapped his arms around pushed his hands underneath the waistband of Alec's boxers making him giggle.
Magnus lifted the boy off the floor and Alec threw his head back and laughed. He wrapped his arms and legs around the warlock hanging for dear life. Magnus' heart swelled with love at the carefree plees of laughter.
Magnus dumped Alec unceremoniously on the bed and stepped back to admire the view in front of him. Black locks on burgundy pillows and miles and miles of pale limbs almost covered in threadbare T-shirt and silk pajama bottoms hazel eyes clouded with passion, he swallowed against the lump in his throat. He felt lightheaded and thought to voice it.
"I feel lightheaded obviously, because all my blood is pooling below waist" he winked at Alec and watched as the young shadowhunter blushing furiously. "Perfect! That's what was missing, you blushing turns me on to no end" he said and pounced on the other man.