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Emma Frost would have preferred a helicopter. Or a teleporter, or a well-timed natural disaster, or even, if pressed, a first-class train with a private cabin and imported sheets. Anything—anything—other than this creaking, rattling yellow monstrosity, its windows fogged from teenage breath, its speakers hissing out a radio channel lost to the wilds the moment they passed the last gas station two hours ago.
“Are you comfortable?” Jean Grey’s voice was too gentle, far too gentle for the sharpened pain in Emma’s temples. She had the audacity to say it with a smile, tucked into the corner of her mouth, the kind that made Emma’s traitorous, lonely heart do a quiet, unsanctioned somersault.
“No,” Emma said shortly, crossing her arms in her immaculate white blazer. The bus lurched over a pothole. She lifted herself a fraction from the sticky seat with a sigh of profound suffering. “And I don’t know how you convinced me to come on this… public school field trip.”
“There was no other seat,” Jean said, ignoring Emma’s glare as she brushed her red hair behind her ear, the strands catching the weak light of the cloudy morning like copper wire. “And you’re the only one who doesn’t make me want to claw my way out the emergency exit.”
“How flattering,” Emma muttered, turning her gaze to the window, where fog-drenched pine trees blurred past in dark green waves. No reception. She had checked seventeen times. She had even checked the roof of the bus for a signal booster when they had stopped for gas.
Jean’s laugh was soft, but it was the only warmth in the entire miserable metal box, and Emma hated her for that, for how her voice settled something restless in Emma’s chest. The psychic hum of the children’s minds, buzzing with excitement and fear and noise, rattled at the edges of her shields.
Behind them, Logan snorted. She could smell him. She would rather die.
“Could you not,” Emma said, twisting in her seat to give him a glare icy enough to freeze the sweat on his forehead.
“Don’t flatter yourself, Frost,” Logan muttered, adjusting his seat beside Laura Kinney, who was currently cleaning her nails with a combat knife and ignoring everyone.
Scott Summers, driving the bus like a man heroically enduring a migraine, said nothing, but his posture was stiff, his shoulders locked like a wound that wouldn’t close. Beside him in the front seat, Betsy Braddock leaned forward, giving instructions about the next turn with the calm confidence of a woman who had never been left for another and had never had to pick up her pieces in the middle of a mutant uprising.
Jean didn’t look at them, but Emma noticed how her fingers tightened around the water bottle in her lap, knuckles pale, the tiny movement that gave away more than Jean would ever say aloud. Emma hated Scott Summers with an acid purity she found refreshing.
“Careful, Grey,” Emma drawled, forcing her voice into casual ice. “Your hold on that plastic might break.”
Jean blinked, startled, then huffed a laugh, eyes bright green, tired. “Thanks for your concern.”
“I wasn’t concerned. I simply don’t wish to see your emotional breakdown in the middle of a pine-infested highway.”
“Oh, I’m sure you’d handle it with so much more dignity.”
Emma tilted her head, lips curving. “Don’t forget it.”
A silence. Then Jean’s mouth twitched again, and her shoulders lowered as if something heavy had loosened. She turned to Emma fully, the seat squeaking. Her eyes, for a moment, held something raw, a flicker of how hard she was trying.
“Thank you for coming, Emma,” Jean said softly, so quietly that the rattle of the window almost swallowed it. “I needed a… kind mind to keep me stable on this trip. And there’s no one who can control a group like you can.”
Emma lifted an eyebrow. “Didn't know I can restrain you, Grey.”
The blush was immediate, hot, blooming across Jean’s freckled cheeks. She looked out the window, biting down on a smile she couldn’t hide. Emma leaned back, crossing her legs, and allowed herself the smallest, most private smile. This might be fun, after all.
They stopped for lunch at a rest area somewhere in the shifting nowhere of British Columbia, pine trees thick and dark around them, clouds heavy overhead. The children piled out of the bus in an explosion of limbs and laughter and power spikes, Hellion nearly blew over a trash can when his telekinesis surged, Pixie accidentally glittered the air with pink dust, Armor rolled her eyes, and Surge muttered about everyone being idiots.
Emma refused to leave the paved path near the bus. The dirt was wet. The air was cold. The pine smell was overwhelming.
Jean stood at the overlook, arms folded, the wind pulling at her red hair as she watched the distant line of mountains cut sharp against the sky, their peaks lost in low clouds, endless forests rolling down to lakes so blue they looked unnatural.
“Don’t even think of asking me to say it’s beautiful,” Emma called out, her voice carrying on the breeze.
Jean turned, eyes laughing even as her smile was quiet, tired. “Wouldn’t dream of it.”
“Good,” Emma said, refusing to step any closer, refusing to let herself feel the hush of the wild around them. The soft hush that reminded her she didn’t belong here, that she was a child of glass towers and city lights, not the slow quiet of the forest.
It was Becca, Calico, though Emma loathed code names and refused to use them, who finally coaxed Emma to leave the pavement. The girl’s hair was nearly white in the light, gold strands catching like threads of candlelight in the cold air, her eyes bright with excitement as she scrambled up the slope in soft leather boots, dirt smudging her jeans.
Becca found Emma just off the path, where the gravel ended and pine needles thickened in soft carpets underfoot. She was picking at the moss on a fallen log, blonde hair spilling over her shoulders, her boots soaked dark from the wet grass. When she looked up, her smile was quick and bright, like a match struck in the gray light.
“Miss Frost!” Becca called, her voice soft but certain.
Emma sighed but stepped closer, careful where she placed her shoes, unwilling to let mud claim them. “Becca, you’re going to ruin those boots.”
Becca looked down, scrunching her nose, then laughed, a small, warm sound that made Emma’s chest ache in a place she never let herself acknowledge. “It’s worth it,” Becca said, glancing at the trees with the kind of wonder only the young, or the newly freed, could manage.
Emma tilted her head, observing her. “And how are you finding it, this… wilderness life, compared to your family’s estate?”
Becca’s gaze dropped, a small shadow passing over her features before she pushed her hair behind her ear. “It’s… different. Quieter, but also not. Sometimes I hear everything, the wind, the trees, the animals. It’s like… like it all wants to talk to me.” She swallowed. “Sometimes, that’s easier than hearing people.”
Emma softened despite herself. “I know the feeling.”
Becca looked up, startled. “You do?”
Emma let her eyes roam over the mountains, the thick forest, the distant hush that felt so loud when you were alone with it. She folded her arms, protecting herself from the memory as she spoke. “My family was… much the same. It is difficult, learning to live without the noise of their hate. Difficult, but not impossible.” She glanced down at Becca, her voice softening further. “You are not alone anymore.”
Becca’s lip trembled just slightly before she steadied herself, the resilience that Emma both admired and mourned flashing in her pale blue eyes. “Thank you,” she whispered.
A warmth stirred in Emma’s chest, unwelcome in its softness, but she allowed it.
“Miss Frost?” Becca said, voice lowering, glancing around to make sure the others weren’t listening. “I… I have a secret.”
Emma felt it before she saw it: Jean’s gaze, warm and constant, watching from where she stood by the overlook. Jean’s eyes softened as she watched Emma with Becca, a small, knowing smile tugging at her lips, like she saw something there Emma had spent her entire life hiding.
Emma’s jaw tightened, but she did not look away from Becca. “That will have to wait until tonight, dear,” Emma said, carefully, gently, her voice carrying the promise she would never dare say outright. “When no one can overhear us.”
Becca’s eyes brightened with relief. “Okay.”
“Tonight,” Emma repeated, brushing a strand of Becca’s hair from her face with surprising tenderness. “Now go back to the others before they do something foolish.”
Becca nodded, giving her a small, grateful smile before running back toward Pixie and Armor, who were laughing over a burst of pink glitter in the air. Emma stood there for a moment longer, letting the cold air clear her head, ignoring the way Jean’s gaze felt like the sun on a winter morning, warm and patient, waiting for her to turn around. Emma didn’t. But she allowed herself one breath, deep and unguarded, before following Becca back toward the others.
Back on the bus, the energy shifted as the children dozed off, heads pressed against windows, breath fogging the glass. Pixie had curled up on Armor’s shoulder, Hellion was snoring softly with his head tilted back, Surge was pretending not to care about anything as she pressed music into her ears, and Laura sat like a statue next to Logan, her eyes flickering open and shut, always alert.
Betsy and Scott spoke quietly in the front, their words a soft murmur Emma refused to reach for. Jean leaned against the window, her eyes half-closed, red hair spilling over her shoulders like a living flame, the slow, gentle pulse of her thoughts brushing against Emma’s shields like rain against glass.
Emma closed her eyes, tilting her head back, letting the hum of the bus fill the spaces she would never admit were empty. She could feel the soft flicker of Jean’s sadness, the tight hold she kept on herself, the constant balancing act of leading, of mothering, of trying so desperately to be everything for everyone while she bled quietly behind her smiles.
It was infuriating. It was admirable. It was everything Emma had always loathed and wanted. She opened her eyes, just enough to see Jean watching her, green eyes warm, tired, questioning.
Emma lifted a brow, a small, sharp smile playing at the corner of her lips. Jean’s lips curved, and she looked away, back out the window, but Emma saw the way her shoulders eased, the small tension slipping from her frame. This, Emma thought, might be worth the mud. The cold. The lack of reception.
Because if she was going to be forced to endure the Canadian wilderness, to listen to Logan’s grumbling and Scott’s pitiful attempts at leadership, to hear teenagers bicker and laugh and cry for days... She would, at the very least, take pleasure in watching Jean Grey blush when she flirted with her.