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“What do we live for, if it is not to make life less difficult for each other?”
— George Eliot, Middlemarch
“I’m telling you, if you keep staring at that plant, it’s going to die from the pressure,” Giyuu said, his voice dissolving into a soft, teasing laugh.
Sanemi didn’t move his gaze from the small, struggling succulent on the windowsill. He had been staring at it for a full minute, trying to decide whether it needed water or simply more sunlight.
For the first time in three weeks, the phone on the coffee table remained silent. His badge could wait by the door.
Sanemi finally tore his eyes away from the plant. The floorboards groaned as he crossed the room and wrapped his arms around Giyuu from behind, hauling him flush against his chest.
The suddenness of the movement made Giyuu let out a small, startled huff, but he immediately leaned back into the heat of Sanemi’s body, his shoulders relaxing.
“You’re obsessed,” Giyuu murmured. “It’s a succulent, Sanemi. It’s designed to be ignored. Unlike me, apparently, since you’ve spent the last ten minutes analyzing its hydration levels.”
Sanemi laughed, the sound low against Giyuu’s back. He tightened his grip and buried his face in the crook of Giyuu’s neck, breathing in laundry detergent and old textbooks.
“I’m just making sure everything in this house is thriving,” Sanemi murmured, his voice low and warm. “Including you.”
Giyuu tilted his head back, a small, knowing smile playing on his lips.
“Is that so? Because for a sergeant, your observation skills seem limited to botany.” He shifted slightly in Sanemi’s arms, turning his head just enough to catch his attention. “You’re actually here. No phone calls, no ‘quick trips’ back to the precinct. I almost forgot what your face looks like without a frown of concentration.”
“Shut up,” Sanemi replied, though there was no heat in the words.
He pressed a firm, lingering kiss to the side of Giyuu’s neck, his stubble grazing the skin.
“I’m off. Completely off. Which means I have a full forty-eight hours to make up for being a ghost this past month.”
Sanemi’s smile faded. His hands remained where they were.
He turned Giyuu around in his arms, lifting him slightly so their eyes met. His thumb traced the line of Giyuu’s jaw, his expression turning uncharacteristically serious.
“You’re too quiet,” Sanemi whispered, his thumb brushing once beneath Giyuu’s cheekbone. “Whenever you get that look in your eye, you’re usually thinking of something to roast me with. What is it this time?”
Giyuu didn’t answer immediately. Instead, he reached up, his fingers tangling in the unruly hairs at the nape of Sanemi’s neck.
He pulled him just an inch closer, enough that their breath mingled.
“I was thinking that the promotion looks good on you,” Giyuu murmured, a flicker of mischief crossing his face. “More authority at the precinct, more control over your schedule. It makes you almost tolerable.”
Sanemi let out a short, sharp huff of a laugh and closed the gap, pressing his lips to Giyuu’s in a kiss that tasted of homecoming.
Giyuu sighed into the contact, settling into the familiar warmth of him.
When they finally broke apart, Sanemi didn’t let go. He kept Giyuu tucked against him, his chin resting atop Giyuu’s head.
For a long moment, they just stood there, swaying slightly in the dim light of the living room.
“You’re thinking about it again, aren’t you?” Sanemi murmured, his voice vibrating against the crown of Giyuu’s head.
He didn’t need to specify what it was. They had been circling the conversation for months, a quiet agreement that existed in the spaces between their arguments and their laughter.
Giyuu pulled back just enough to look up at him, his blue eyes shimmering with a mixture of apprehension and longing.
“Is it that obvious?”
“You get this specific look,” Sanemi replied, a small, genuine smile tugging at the corners of his mouth.
He shifted his grip, his large hands sliding down to rest firmly on Giyuu’s waist.
“Like you’re trying to solve a math problem in your head. Which is ironic, considering you’re the teacher.”
Giyuu let out a soft, breathy laugh and leaned his forehead against Sanemi’s chest.
“It’s just... the timing. Now that you got promoted, you aren’t disappearing for seventy-two hours at a time. We actually have a rhythm. It feels like we could actually do it.”
Sanemi’s grip tightened, grounding Giyuu to him. He let out a long, slow exhale.
He leaned down, pressing his forehead against Giyuu’s, their noses brushing.
“We can do it.” Sanemi let out a quiet breath. “I’m tired of just imagining what a kid would look like with your stubbornness and my temper. We’d probably drive the whole neighborhood crazy, but... yeah.”
He looked at Giyuu.
“I want this. I want us.”
Giyuu closed his eyes and held him a little tighter. He slid his arms around Sanemi’s neck and pulled him closer.
“You’re going to be the overprotective father,” Giyuu teased, his voice barely a whisper. “You’ll probably put the nursery on lockdown with a security system and a perimeter check.”
Sanemi chuckled, the sound deep in his chest.
“Damn right. Nobody’s getting near my kids without a full background check and a handwritten invitation. I’ll have the precinct on standby for diaper emergencies
Three months later, Giyuu sat on an examination table with one hand resting absently over his stomach. Beside him, Sanemi was practically vibrating. He was currently gripping Giyuu’s hand with a strength that could have crushed a soda can, his eyes wide and fixed on the ultrasound screen.
When the technician finally pointed out the distinct shapes of two separate heartbeats, Sanemi let out a sound that was half-sob, half-laugh, leaning in so close to the monitor he almost blocked the doctor’s view.
“Two,” Sanemi breathed, staring at the screen. “Giyuu, there are two of them.”
Giyuu looked up at him, a soft, genuine smile finally breaking through his composure. He felt a strange sense of victory, though he’d never admit it aloud.
“I told you we were efficient,” he teased, though his voice trembled slightly. He reached up to brush a stray lock of hair from Sanemi’s forehead, grounding them both in the moment.
The fear of the unknown was still there, but it was being rapidly overtaken by a fierce, protective warmth.
Within a week, Sanemi had the apartment filling with crib mattresses, cabinet locks, outlet covers, and enough baby supplies to make anyone wonder if they were preparing for twins or an invasion.
Giyuu, meanwhile, spent most of his time perched on the sofa, amused by Sanemi’s sudden obsession with child-proofing every square inch of their home.
“They’re not going to be ninjas, Sanemi,” Giyuu pointed out one afternoon, watching as his husband meticulously padded the sharp corners of the coffee table. “They aren’t going to spontaneously launch themselves at the furniture.”
Sanemi stopped, a roll of heavy-duty foam in one hand, and looked at Giyuu with a dead-serious expression.
“You don’t know that. With two of them, statistically speaking, at least one is going to be a menace. I’m just preparing for the inevitable.”
He paused, his gaze softening as he took in Giyuu’s rounded silhouette. He dropped the tape and crossed the room in two long strides, sinking to his knees to press a lingering kiss to the curve of Giyuu’s stomach.
“Right, kids? Your mother is a menace, but I’ve got you covered.”
Giyuu smiled, running his fingers through Sanemi’s hair.
The physical toll of carrying twins was becoming apparent. As the pregnancy progressed, Sanemi became quietly attentive.
Water appeared beside Giyuu before he asked for it. Pillows were rearranged without comment. Dinner was already waiting whenever Giyuu came home tired.
Somewhere along the way, the apartment stopped feeling big enough.
They started looking at houses almost by accident. One listing over dinner, another before bed, then several more the following weekend.
They found the house on a rainy November afternoon.
It was a two-story house with a wraparound porch and a backyard that opened into a stretch of quiet woods. For Sanemi, the draw wasn’t just the extra bedrooms or the safety of the gated community. It was the sight of Giyuu standing in the center of a sun-drenched living room, looking small and soft in an oversized sweater, imagining where the dining table would go.
“It’s too big,” Giyuu had murmured, though he could already picture a coffee table by the windows and a reading nook somewhere near the stairs.
“It’s exactly the right size,” Sanemi countered, his arm draped firmly around Giyuu’s shoulders to steer him away from a particularly steep set of stairs. “We need room for the chaos. And a proper garden. I’m not letting my children grow up thinking a balcony planter is the extent of nature.”
The final weeks were a study in slow motion and sudden, sharp urgency.
Giyuu had reached a stage where the twins kicked whenever they pleased, apparently unconcerned with whether their mother was trying to sleep.
By then, Sanemi noticed every small discomfort before Giyuu could hide it.
“I am not an invalid, husband,” Giyuu sighed one evening, though he didn’t resist as Sanemi gently eased him into the oversized recliner they’d bought specifically for this period.
“You’re carrying two tiny humans,” Sanemi said. “That makes you a high-priority asset.”
His voice softened as he knelt to rub Giyuu’s swollen ankles.
“Just let me take care of you. It’s the only time I’m actually in charge of something that doesn’t involve a police report.”
It began on a Saturday. The same day of the week on which they had first decided they wanted this life.
It started as a dull ache in Giyuu’s lower back, something he’d dismissed as the usual weight of the twins. By midnight, the rhythm of the contractions had become a demanding pattern of pain and discomfort.
The calm of their new home was replaced by a flurry of activity. Sanemi checked the hospital bag twice, then a third time, his movements frantic yet careful as he helped Giyuu into the car.
The drive to the hospital was a blur as Sanemi drove with a level of precision that bordered on manic, glancing every few seconds at Giyuu, who was breathing through a contraction with a stubborn, quiet intensity.
Giyuu didn’t scream. He simply squeezed the door handle and stared straight ahead, his face pale but determined.
“We’re five minutes out,” Sanemi announced, his voice sounding strained, as if he were the one in labor. “Just five more minutes, my love. Hang in there.”
Giyuu managed a small, strained smile.
“You’re... hovering... even in the car,” he gasped, the words punctuated by a sharp intake of breath.
Their arrival at the hospital was a whirlwind of hallways and corridors. Sanemi, usually the one giving orders, found himself blindly following the instructions of a triage nurse.
He didn’t leave Giyuu’s side for a second, his large hand anchored to Giyuu’s shoulder, providing a physical grounding as the world narrowed down to the rhythmic beeping of monitors and the sterile scent of antiseptic.
The hours that followed were a blur of fluorescent lights and the steady, rhythmic counting of breaths.
He didn’t know where to put himself. He hovered, alternating between squeezing Giyuu’s shoulders and whispering desperate, encouraging nonsense into his ear.
He was a man of action. Here, there was nothing to do but wait.
“You’re doing great, Giyuu. Just keep breathing. Just like that,” Sanemi urged, his voice thick with an emotion he couldn’t quite name.
He leaned in, pressing his forehead against Giyuu’s damp temple, his presence a warm, solid anchor in the sterile chaos of the delivery room.
Giyuu, usually so composed, let out a sharp, ragged exhale. He turned his head, his eyes locking onto Sanemi’s with a sudden, piercing intensity.
“If you... tell me to breathe... one more time,” Giyuu gasped, his voice strained but still carrying that hint of playful defiance, “I am going to... kick you out of this room.”
Sanemi let out a wet, shaky laugh, kissing Giyuu’s sweaty brow.
“Understood. Loud and clear. Just get them out of there.”
The room seemed to narrow around them. Sanemi didn’t let go, his hand a vice-grip of support.
The air in the room grew thick with effort and anticipation.
Then came the first cry.
A thin, piercing sound that sliced through the tension of the room. Their son arrived first, dark-haired and furious enough to announce his arrival to the entire floor.
Sanemi froze, his breath hitching in his chest, his eyes shimmering as he watched the nurse quickly clean the tiny, wriggling baby.
He didn’t move, barely daring to breathe, terrified that the sheer intensity of his emotion might shatter the moment.
But the relief was only a prelude. Their daughter followed soon after, silver-haired and wide-eyed, her blue eyes blinking up at the world.
As the two infants were placed, swaddled and warm, against Giyuu’s chest, the room seemed to expand. Everything faded into the background, leaving only the four of them in a bubble of exhausted, overwhelming love.
Giyuu looked down at the twins, pale and exhausted, but peaceful.
“They’re so small,” Giyuu whispered, his voice a fragile thread. “Sanemi, look at them.”
Sanemi tried to answer. Nothing came.
He was too busy staring at the two tiny, wrinkled faces that looked, in his estimation, exactly like Giyuu. He leaned over, his large hand shielding both babies as he pressed a lingering kiss to Giyuu’s forehead.
“They’re perfect,” Sanemi choked out, his voice sounding like it had been dragged over gravel. “God, Giyuu... they’re actually here.”
For the next few days, the hospital room became their own private universe. Sanemi had apparently decided that Giyuu’s recovery was now his full-time assignment.
Giyuu, despite his exhaustion, found a renewed sense of sass.
“If you adjust that pillow one more time, Sanemi, I’m telling the nurse,” he murmured one afternoon, though he leaned gratefully into Sanemi’s touch.
“I’m optimizing your recovery angle,” Sanemi countered, though he didn’t stop meticulously fluffing the pillows.
He paused, his gaze softening as he looked at the two bundles of cloth resting in the bassinet beside the bed.
Back home, Sanemi approached baby-proofing with renewed determination.
When they finally crossed the threshold of their home, Giyuu felt something inside him settle.
Time became measured in feedings and naps rather than hours.
Visitors came and went, but Sanemi became increasingly selective about who crossed their threshold. Sanemi became the one who decided when the outside world was allowed in.
"You're hovering again," Giyuu whispered one rainy afternoon.
He was curled up on the sofa, his baby girl fast asleep against his chest, while his other baby slumbered in a swing nearby. Sanemi was standing exactly three feet away, arms crossed, staring at the children as if expecting them to spontaneously combust if he looked away for a second.
"I'm not hovering," Sanemi countered, though he didn't move an inch. "I'm maintaining a tactical perimeter. There is a difference."
Giyuu let out a soft, tired chuckle, shifting the sleeping girl in his arms.
"The perimeter is the living room, Sanemi. You're essentially just staring at us."
Sanemi finally broke his vigil, crossing the room with a heavy but careful gait. He sank onto the sofa beside Giyuu, the cushions protesting under his weight.
The man who could silence a room with a look was sitting beside them, speaking softly enough not to wake the baby. He reached down and brushed a finger gently over the baby's cheek.
"They're so quiet when they're asleep," Sanemi murmured, his voice dropping to a low rumble. "It's suspicious. I bet they're plotting something."
"They're babies, dear. Their only plot is to see how loudly they can scream at three in the morning," Giyuu countered.
He leaned his head on Sanemi's shoulder, closing his eyes.
As the weeks bled into months, the twins began to develop distinct personalities. Emi watched everything with solemn curiosity. Kazuo, meanwhile, seemed determined to move before anyone had given him permission.
“He’s got your temper,” Giyuu noted one afternoon, watching the baby boy indignantly toss a plush toy across the nursery.
“He doesn't want the toy. He wants the world to know he's displeased with the toy.”
“Don't put that on me,” Sanemi grumbled, though he was already moving to intercept the toy before it could hit the wall.
He scooped up the boy, hoisting him high into the air. Kazuo responded with a delighted, screeching laugh that echoed through the spacious living room of their home.
“He’s just passionate. There’s a difference between a temper and a strong will.”
Giyuu looked up from the book he was reading, a small, knowing smile tugging at his lips.
“Passionate. Right. That’s what we’re calling it when he throws his food at the wall because he wants more.”
“He’s an officer in training,” Sanemi countered, pulling the baby close to his chest.
Kazuo responded by grabbing Sanemi’s shirt and attempting to eat his shoulder.
Sanemi didn't flinch. He simply shifted his hold, his expression melting into that rare, unguarded softness that only Giyuu ever saw.
Their house morphed into shapes and colors. Colorful rubber mats covered the hardwood, a stray binkie was permanently lodged beneath the sofa cushion, and Sanemi had turned one corner of the kitchen into a command center for bottles and pacifiers.
Parenthood shifted into thriving somewhere around the twins' first birthday, marked by a cake-smashing disaster that left the living room looking like a battlefield of vanilla frosting and blue icing.
Sanemi had approached the celebration with the precision of a gala event, but the moment the cakes touched the babies' hands, all their planning vanished. Kazuo dove headfirst into his frosting, and Emi had methodically smeared hers across Sanemi’s clean white t-shirt with a look of profound satisfaction.
"They've breached the perimeter," Sanemi had remarked, staring down at his ruined shirt while Giyuu dissolved into a fit of laughter.
"I told you the 'clean zone' was a myth," Giyuu replied, still laughing. He looked healthier now, the pallor of the final trimester replaced by a soft, contented glow.
Sanemi cleaned the icing from Emi’s face with the resignation of a man who had accepted defeat.
As the children grew, the house evolved with them. The once pristine living room disappeared beneath building blocks and picture books. Sanemi’s "command center" in the kitchen expanded to include a dedicated art station, where he encouraged the twins' creativity with the same intensity he used to train new recruits. He was the father who read bedtime stories with dramatic voice acting, turning simple tales of animals into epic sagas that left the twins wide-eyed and giggling.
“If you keep reading the dialogue in that voice, they’re never going to fall asleep,” Giyuu whispered, leaning against the doorframe of the twins' bedroom.
Sanemi, currently perched on the edge of Kazuo's bed, didn’t miss a beat. He shifted his voice into a gravelly, mysterious narrator's tone that made Emi giggle in her bed. “That’s because they’re captivated by the storytelling, Giyuu. It’s called engagement. You should try it with your middle schoolers.”
Giyuu rolled his eyes, but the expression was fond. He stepped into the room, the soft glow of the nightlight casting long shadows across the colorful wallpaper. He watched as Sanemi carefully tucked the blanket around Kazuo’s chin, his large, scarred hand looking absurdly oversized against the toddler’s small frame.
Once the room was finally quiet, the two of them retreated to the hallway, leaning their backs against the wall in a shared exhale of exhaustion.
The house felt full.
"We're going to need a bigger table," Giyuu murmured, his voice still laced with the remnants of a yawn. He leaned his head back against the wallpaper, looking up at Sanemi. "And probably a fence that actually keeps people out instead of just marking the boundary. Kazuo is already trying to scale the porch railing."
Sanemi let out a low, rumbling chuckle, reaching over to pull Giyuu into the crook of his arm. They lingered there for a while, listening to the house.
"He's a climber, my love. Can't blame a kid for wanting to see the world from a higher vantage point. Besides, if he can scale the porch, he can definitely handle a backyard with a proper oak tree."
In the aftermath of another good day, it was easy to forget how different their lives had once been.
"Do you think we're doing it right?" Giyuu asked softly, his eyes drifting toward the closed bedroom door. "I don't want them to grow up thinking a police precinct is a playground, or that a teacher's home is just a place for grading papers."
“Who cares about ‘right’?” Sanemi replied, his voice dropping to that rough, honest register that always managed to settle Giyuu’s nerves.
He shifted his weight, pulling Giyuu tighter against him. “As long as they’re fed, loved, and not currently setting the curtains on fire, I’d say we’re killing it. Besides, they’ve got a cop for a dad and a teacher for a mother. They’re basically genetically predisposed to be well-behaved rebels.”
Giyuu huffed a small laugh and let himself settle against Sanemi.
For a few minutes, they simply existed in the dim hallway, the only sound being the distant, rhythmic hum of the refrigerator and the faint, comforting stirrings of the twins in the next room.
By the time the twins were toddling, the conversation about a bigger table had turned into a genuine search for a new home. The house was a wonderful starting point, but Sanemi had started sketching out ideas for a place with a proper garden and a dedicated playroom that could withstand a category five toddler storm.
“Look at this one,” Sanemi murmured one evening, sliding a tablet across the coffee table. He pointed to a listing for a farmhouse-style home on the edge of town, boasting a porch and a backyard that looked like a meadow. “It’s got a fence that actually works, a mudroom for those boots we’re going to need, and a kitchen island big enough for you to grade papers on while I make breakfast.”
Giyuu leaned in, squinting at the screen. The house was sprawling and warm, with wide windows that promised floods of morning light and a distance from the neighbors that appealed to his need for quiet. He could almost see the twins running through that meadow, their laughter echoing in the open air.
“It’s beautiful, Sanemi. But are you sure? It’s farther from the precinct. Your commute will be longer.”
Sanemi scoffed, though he pulled Giyuu closer, his arm looping around his waist.
“I'll be fine. I can handle a twenty-minute drive if it means I get to come home to this,” he gestured vaguely toward the screen and then to the toddlers currently engaged in a silent, high-stakes war over a single plastic dinosaur on the rug.
“Besides, the kids need space to breathe. I don't want them growing up in a house where they have to whisper just to not wake us up.”
The process of moving into the new home happened in a flurry. It was a chaotic but joyful migration. Sanemi measured the new house against the life they were already living: two growing children, muddy shoes, school bags, toys, and eventually, if Giyuu had his way, a garden.
The first night in the farmhouse was quiet. After the twins had finally been wrestled into their new beds, both parents collapsed onto theirs. The room was dim, and somewhere down the hall, one of the twins stirred before settling again.
In the dark, Sanemi reached across the bed until his hand found Giyuu’s.
Their fingers intertwined.