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if god had meant to love me, he'd have sent you softer by boxcar182
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)
15 Dec 2025
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dan squeezed his eyes shut, hard, but the air didn’t shift. the presence didn’t disappear. he felt it like pressure, like weight, like a second gravity.
eventually, phil’s voice came again, low.
“i’m not here to make you better, dan. i’m just here to keep you alive.”
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phil is dans guardian angel
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walk it off by lesbiancrossing (pinklilfairy)
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
09 Dec 2025
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Overwhelmed under the pressure of hiding the nature of their relationship from their fans, Dan decides to break up with Phil, hoping to leave it all behind once and for all.
His determination lasts for about a half-hour walk.
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dan howell, a trans girl who, after a fight between her parents, could no longer find refuge anywhere else, until she met a church that took her in and made her its beautiful new nun; sister daniel.
as time passed, sister daniel realized that she started spending a lot of time with the new father; father philip... why is she having sexual desires for him?
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! MASSIVE TRIGGER WARNING FOR SELF HARM ! THIS GETS VERY GRAPHIC !
Dan starts cutting himself again during We're All Doomed. Phil tries to help him stop, but it isn't enough.
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What if - Anger makes you stupid by Darkkiness
Fandoms: 징크스 - 밍과 | Jinx - Mingwa (Webcomic)
01 Dec 2025
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Jaekyung tossed Dan out of the old man's truck. he was now bleeding from the ear, mouth, and had one blown pupil. head trauma. Jaekyung instantly regrets what he just did.
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- Part 15 of what if
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don't you realise where two of a kind? by madtalk
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
22 Nov 2025
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of all the things that could happen, phil lester, the heart of the school, had to fall in love with the outcast and bullied dan howell. he's been keeping it a secret for months, until his friends discover it.
"phil lester, i dare you to call this number and say anything stupid." and phil loved challenges.
but that number was linked to the howell residence.
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By Definition by obscuringmirror
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
13 Nov 2025
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By definition, Dan Howell is not mentally well. He’s slowly losing hope and realizing that he’s not capable of having a ‘normal’ life with the list of mental disorders that suffocate his will to live.
Honestly, Dan isn’t sure if it’s really worth it to try and survive.
Until Phil Lester involuntarily steps into Dan’s life and by Phil’s definition, Dan’s more than worth it.
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Dan is done and grandma is gone. He has nothing and no will to try. He makes a dark plan and the wait period on the life insurance is over. it's time.
“It’s okay grandma.” He had a few things to do now. one final tear worked its way out of Dan’s eye and down his smiling face. “I’ll be with you soon.”
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- Part 14 of what if
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wait, is this fucking book about us? by noxhsw for sunbeambisexual
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)
10 Aug 2025
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Dan is a depressed lawyer, Phil is a sad romance author. They meet when they're stranded at an airport, thinking they'll never see each other again. But when Phil writes a book about their encounter, Dan wants to meet him once more.
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Keep Calm and Carry On by niamh_writes_things
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)
08 Aug 2025
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Phil, an ordinary 15-year-old from Manchester, is being evacuated to some tiny place down south to avoid getting blown up by a German bomb.
Dan works on his dad’s farm down south and is not too happy that he is going to have to share his room with a northern evacuee. That's only until he meets the boy though.
(fun fact: the keep calm and carry on poster was never actually released during the war. they tried to get rid of every copy but then some guy just found one and it became the face of 'blitz spirit' in england)
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Do I remember you? by ibuprofenfan
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
01 Aug 2025
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Dan is a lawyer specialising in providing legal advice for internet stars. Phil is a skilled bartender at a quirky bar attended mostly by obnoxious millennials. They're both jaded and far beyond the point of believing in true love. They both once dreamed of internet fame, and as both their dreams fizzled out they ended up in dead-end jobs.
They meet for the first time on a night out, a night Dan can't remember and Phil would rather forget. One question doesn't let them rest: do I remember you? -
Self-Deprecation and Blind Optimism. by frankiesteinnn
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)
20 Jul 2025
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What happens when you have an arch enemy? Someone who exists to irritate you. Someone so petty and annoying every time you see them you want to knock their teeth out.
What happens when you have a friend so close to you that no one else gets it? Someone who was put on this earth for you. Someone so fun to talk to you think about them all the time.
What happens when it's the same person?
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Forgive Yourself First by anne2005
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)
25 Apr 2025
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Dan Howell is a defense attorney and doesn’t remember why. Not since a case from five years ago, where he let a killer walk free.
After five years, the case still haunts him. Until, one day a man named Phil Lester walks into his office.
Will Phil be able to help Dan in his journey of self-forgiveness? Or will Dan always be haunted by his past?
And what happens when the Lester case is much bigger than either of them thought?
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Dan was ignoring him harder now. He just needed his help to get body back so he could fight at his best. to be the best is what makes him happy, right? Let's make a new deal.
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Do you ever feel lost? Do you ever feel like you don't quite fit in?
- Language:
- English
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- 1,877
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Kudos:
- 3
- Hits:
- 115
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Fame is suffocating Dan, pulling him away from the person who means the most to him. But Phil isn’t about to let him walk away without a fight.
Inspired by “I Don’t Love You” by My Chemical Romance, contains heavy emotional conflict, breakup attempts, and lots of tears.
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Stay with me still, I missed you so by emmibug
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)
16 May 2024
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Depressed Daniel Howell is stuck in a never ending routine. He find sadness in every surface, in every being. Until he meets Phil Lester, a café owner who seems to have gotten himself in a sticky situation - a manslaughter case. With him being the manslaughter-er. Lawyer Daniel must suit up to keep Phil out of jail and in his life.
An AU where Dan is a Lawyer and Phil is an accidental killer!
This idea came from Twitter user - Hesaidgnu !! I thought it was silly and cute and it made me wanna write again <3
Title comes from 'Don't Let Me Go' - Cigarettes After Sex.
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There was suddenly a tightness in Phil’s chest, put there by guilt and fear, and he couldn’t find the words to respond. The gravity of Dan’s depression was creeping up on him, like a realization he didn’t want to admit.
Or; Dan is depressed and Phil cant help but feel that the sickness in his best friend is a mystery to them both. Hurt/comfort and angst
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I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim by voltronlegendarydefenders
Fandoms: Dan Howell - Fandom, Phil Lester - Fandom, youtube - Fandom, Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF), Phandom, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles - All Media Types
02 Sep 2023
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After a horrible attack from y/n, Phil Lester is left comatose in the hospital, with Dan Howell left to wait at his bedside. Will Phil, Dan's lover, ever wake up? Will Dan waste away at his bedside without ever seeing Phil's beautiful blue eyes full of life, ever again? Little does Dan know, that this was just the beginning of the rest of his life.
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Dan is an uninspired musician, Phil is a photographer and artist with ADHD.