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    Heat spread across Ilya's face. His mouth fell open slightly. He let out a short, stuttered laugh of disbelief. This couldn't- he was straight, he wasn't-

    “Finally got you at your own game.” Shane's smirk widened to a smile, his hand clapping down on Ilya's shoulder to squeeze it slightly. For once in his life, Ilya was unable to find his voice.

    “Damn.” Shane laughed, jostling him a bit. “If I had known this was all it took to get you to shut the fuck up, I would have started flirting back years ago.”

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    When old college friends Ilya and Shane show up to their mutual best friend's wedding, they are ready to fulfill their duties as bridesmen. Even after years of not seeing each other, they fall right back into their usual banter.

    Ilya loves to flirt with Shane. Shane loves to tell him to fuck off. It's a running a bit. Nothing more than a joke between two friends; because Shane is gay and Ilya is straight and it doesn't actually mean anything…until Shane finally decides to flirt back, and Ilya's world suddenly tilts on its axis.

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    14 Aug 2026

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    “Just one more question, Mr. Rozanov.”

    “How were you able to stay focused tonight after learning of your father's passing?”

    Ilya stood frozen, eyes glued to the camera. Jaw locked. On the screen, his chest barely moved, each breath turning dangerously shallow.

    Shane didn't realize what he was doing until he was already shoving the heavy conference room doors open.

    Or: Ilya Rozanov learns of his father's death during a live press conference and has a panic attack. Shane goes to him. In front of everyone.

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    13 Aug 2026

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    What would have happened in *Wolfbird* starting from Chapter 14 if I had written it.

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    God, why now? Ilya sat on the floor, a broken toy, his crutches leaning against the wall, an exhausted dog lying on his leg, and he had absolutely no emotional strength left to answer Hollander. Because his chest had been cut open, and inside it beat his heart, drenched in blood and laid bare for all to see. If he started to reply, he would write something foolish, something too candid or too tender or too bitter - most likely, all of those things at once. And then Hollander would have to deal with a human wreck and an avalanche of his - Ilya’s, not Rozanov’s - feelings. And Hollander would be kind and understanding, would pity him, and it would be unbearable.

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    «A safe space, somewhere he could breathe. I know things didn’t end well between the two of you - but did they actually end at all? I’m not supposed to tell you this - I know I’m not - but he asked me to, so… I’m just trying so hard to be a good friend: when they asked him what he’d miss the most, he said ginger ale. Hollander - Shane, I have never seen my man Roz drink a ginger ale.»

    The room spins around him at full speed and Shane needs to hold on to the kitchen counter not to fall flat on his face.

    “That better just be ginger ale, rook.”
    “There’s ginger ale in the fridge.”
    “Ginger ale cold enough?”

    Fuck, Rozanov.

    or: Shane comes out to Ilya in Tampa, but terrified of what loving him would mean, Ilya walks away.
    After Grigori Rozanov’s death, the loneliness Ilya has carried his whole life becomes too heavy to survive alone. Months later, he attempts suicide.
    While hiding away at his cottage in Québec, Shane receives a phone call from Hayden Pike.
    This story begins eight minutes later.

     

    TW: mental health issues - depression - suicide attempt

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