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    “He’s drunk,” Hayden shoots back. “And I’m taking him home.”

    “No.”

    The word is sharp. Final. Hayden’s eyes flash. “You don’t get to make that call.”

    Ilya’s voice drops, dangerous. “You think I will let him leave with someone else when he can barely stand?”

    “Someone else?” Hayden scoffs. “I’ve known him for ten years. I'm his best friend. Who the hell are you to him, Rozanov?”

    Shane is drunk. Hayden and Ilya both want to take care of him.

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    “I’ve…seen you around campus and it’s good to finally meet you. Like, properly.” He fumbled over the words, his tongue feeling thick and heavy and entirely too big for his mouth. Whether it was from the weed or the nerves from Ilya's presence, Shane couldn't tell.

    “I’ve seen you, too.” Ilya grabbed the cigarette from behind his ear, bringing it to his mouth before lighting it.

    “Really?” He watched as Ilya took a long inhale from the cigarette. Shane wanted to say something in that moment, something about how mixing alcohol, weed, and nicotine was probably a bad idea, but the words died in his throat as Ilya blew out smoke from the corner of his mouth and grinned at him. He looked so fucking good.

    Da, Shane Hollander.” Shane fought back a shiver as his name fell from Ilya’s lips. He loved how Ilya’s voice had wrapped around the vowels, long drawn out and quiet. He wanted to hear it again and again.

    or, Shane Hollander has had a crush on Ilya Rozanov from afar for the past three years. They finally meet at a party.

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    At last, Ilya arrives at Shane’s cottage.

    After barely surviving the worst year of his life, the only thing that got him through was thinking about getting back to Shane, touching him again, finally getting those two weeks that Shane promised him all those months ago.

    But, blyat, why is Shane acting so weird?

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    Ilya makes comments about Shane talking too much.

    Shane takes him seriously and attempts to stop talking.

    It doesn’t go well.

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    Shane Hollander arrives in Vegas with a question he hasn’t spoken out loud.

    It isn’t complicated, exactly. It’s just the kind of question that requires honesty he isn’t sure he’s ready for - about what he and Ilya Rozanov have been doing for the past few years, about what six months of silence after Sochi actually meant, and about whether any of it is worth staying close to or whether he finally needs to go.

    He gets his answer in a locked bathroom at the NHL Awards.

    Ilya spends the summer convinced that Shane is fine. Upset? Yes. Angry? Definitely. But Shane always felt things fiercely despite what everyone said about him when he had his back turned. He’d calm down over the summer and then he’d be there like he always had been. He fills the silence with discipline and routine and the comfortable certainty that later is still available to him.

    He’s wrong.

    By the time Ilya understands what he actually lost, Shane is already gone; and Ilya is left trying to find a way back to someone who closed the door long before Ilya had ever thought to just walk through it.

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