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  1. Public Bookmark 42

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    Shane sees how much Ilya has been struggling with his depression, but Ilya refuses to talk to him. He thinks it's time to finally suggest therapy; specifically cognitive behavioral therapy, or CBT.

    Unfortunately, Ilya thinks CBT stands for something very different (hint: he learned it from pornhub).

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    June 2010. Ilya Rozanov is delayed after the CCM shoot. By the time he gets to the locker room, Shane Hollander is out of the showers and Ilya’s entire plan is ruined.
    Only not quite fully ruined. Hollander invites him to dinner with his parents as a thank you for arranging the shoot and Ilya, in a burst of insanity, agrees. He hits it off with Yuna and David. They all exchange numbers. He and Hollander become friends.
    At no point does Ilya stop wanting more from him.

    June 2016. Ilya Rozanov is a superstar. A Cup winner. An MVP. Women want him, men want to be him. He’s fucking miserable.
    He’s in love with his best friend. He can’t deny it anymore. Only now Shane is dating a movie star and happier than Ilya’s ever seen him. Ilya can’t ruin that for him, can’t ruin their friendship by asking for what he knows Shane can’t give. No matter how much it kills him.

    A charity event in San Francisco. A catastrophic computer failure. A fateful decision to drive, not fly. Two days in a car, just the two of them. Alone. Together.
    Ilya’s sick with excitement and with dread, because how can he keep his secrets with Shane so close for so long?

    What he doesn’t know is that Shane has secrets too.

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    19 Jul 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 7

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    Shane wakes up on Tuesday at 5:26 AM on game day in Boston, four minutes before his alarm goes off. Shane wants it to be Wednesday. But no matter what, Shane wakes up on Tuesday at 5:26 AM on game day in Boston, four minutes before his alarm goes off.

    ”Fuck,” he croaks. “Fuck, fuck, fuck.”

    Chapter 1: Shane wakes up on the same Tuesday over and over again after leaving Rozanov in a rush. Tuesday is his second least favourite day of the week, so he's not really happy about it.

    Chapter 2: Ilya notices Shane acts strangely. He just never remembers.:

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    21 Jun 2026

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    “Okay, look. I promise I won’t interfere in any way, but he really wants to meet you. Come to the party, chat a bit, and maybe you’ll hit it off.” J.J. shrugged. “Why not?”

    The sound of the glass slamming down on the nightstand startled J.J., but it didn’t even make Hayden twitch in his sleep. Neither did Shane’s next outburst.

    “Maybe because I have a fucking boyfriend!”

    J.J. just wanted the best for his Capitaine. He’d thought that meant helping him find a man to be in a happy and fulfilling relationship with. His plans, however, abruptly changed when he found out about Shane’s secret long-term boyfriend – and about who that boyfriend actually was.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Yuna doesn't like him.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    A little part of Ilya has been prepared for Shane to end things between them from the moment they started. So you'd think this moment would hurt less?

    How, in the course of a single year, Ilya's worst fears are proven true, then completely false, and how Shane chooses Ilya over hockey in a big way.

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    02 Jun 2026

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  7. Public Bookmark 82

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    The Hollanders visit David's family for his mother's 100th birthday. It goes about as well as you'd expect.

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    And now was time for a sacred Hollander family (well, really Shane and Yuna) tradition: the debrief.

    “So, how was that for your first Hollander family function?” Yuna asked Ilya.

    He shrugged. “I can see why you do not visit often.”

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    28 May 2026

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    They may not have any idea how to do it, but there’s no way in hell the Montreal Metros are going to risk losing their Captain to a more accepting team. Full of determination, grit, open hearts, and absolutely no savvy, this team is going to learn how to be allies, come hell or high water.


    Hayden: did anyone do the optional inclusivity training last season?
    J.J. Boizeau: no
    Lawrence Olsson: no
    Gilbert Comeau: no
    Petro Andropov: no
    Matty Wilson: no
    Cam Stedlund: no
    Albert Schneider: no
    Aleks Miitka: no
    Georges Gagnon: no
    Patrice Drapeau: no
    Hayden: excellent, we’re nailing this so far

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    26 May 2026

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    Please take the tags seriously. This is a pretty indepth fic when it comes to some of the more triggering topic.

    Ilya has bad days. Or maybe bad days have Ilya.
    And when bad days strike, there's the dreaded Safety Plan. The thing he is determined not to need.
    Until he does.

    Or: Shane Hollander is determined to make depression his bitch. Weapon of choice? Unconditional love.

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    25 May 2026

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    Shane could not force himself to be fully in his body after the tuna melt fiasco in Boston. He had always been able to come back to himself at some point when his brain and body decided to ex-communicate each other. Something about this time with Rozanov, had made it impossible for him to fully reconnect the two.

    When they caught each other's eyes in a Montreal club two months later, Shane's mind was so far away from his body he was sure they weren't even in the same time zones.

    When Ilya hurts too much to be careful with himself, his vulnerability might cost him more than his pride--finding himself disconnected from his own body in an insidious way.
    Shane did his best to focus on watching out for himself when it came to their relationship, Ilya never seemed to need help building up walls for his own protection.
    --But when Ilya is lying unconscious in the vile arms of a man who means to hurt him, will Shane's mind and body be able to work together long enough to finally be what Ilya needs him to be? Or will his body betray him and leave Ilya vulnerable, hurt and alone...again.

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    25 May 2026

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    There is a strong scent of antiseptic in the air, the kind that always haunts hospitals and morgues. Ilya thinks it is fitting. He thinks, perhaps, that some vital organ of his is failing irreparably, and he is only waiting for a doctor to call out his time of death.

    “You have lost your memories.” It’s not a question. Ilya’s burning hand drops from Shane’s cheek.

    “Yeah,” Shane says easily. “Wait, shit, did no one tell you?”

    “Is it temporary.” Ilya’s voice is hoarse, pleading. “This memory loss, is it… tell me that it is temporary.” Please, please, God. I know I promised to give anything up, but-

    Shane looks at Ilya with wide eyes. “They don’t know,” he says gently. He seems to be catching onto Ilya’s distress despite the drugs in his system.

    Ilya feels cold all over. Yes, any moment now, they will cover him with a white sheet and take him away.

    Shane's concussion in S01E05 leaves him missing his memories from the last decade. Ilya is now the only person in the world who knows the truth about him and Shane, and is forced to question whether to burden Shane with their complicated relationship or to walk away.

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    20 May 2026

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    The universe had decided Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov were perfect for each other, so it sent them an unmistakable sign. Unfortunately, the two of them have a lot of practice in mistaking things. So the universe tries again, and again.

    Or: how many soulmate tropes does it take to get two oblivious hockey boys together?

    “Dude, did you get a tattoo?”
    Shane looked over. Shelly, who had the stall next to his at the CN Sports Complex locker room, was staring at Shane’s left arm.
    “Uh, no?”
    “What the fuck is it, then? Looks gnarly as hell.”
    Shane looked down at the dark squiggly shape on his delt, an irregular blob slightly bigger than a loonie. Its edges were a series of indentations and protrusions, kind of like a jigsaw puzzle piece. If he’d seen this on anyone else, he would’ve assumed it was a tattoo, too. A shitty one that should be lasered off ASAP.
    “I don’t know,” he said. “It kinda showed up out of nowhere, like, last night.”

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    19 May 2026

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  13. Public Bookmark 81

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    “No!” She says, because one parent seeing her like this is bad enough, and then she’s finally moving, stumbling back off Owen’s lap and awkwardly landing on her feet, “Papa, I can explain…”

    “Hm,” he says, eyes flicking back over to Owen, “I think you can explain to me and Dad, da?”

    And then, because this moment can’t possibly get any worse, Owen blinks like he’s suddenly figured something out and says “Holy shit, you’re Ilya Rozanov.”

    OR: shane and ilya catch their daughter secretly making out with her boyfriend in the basement. they're not at all chill about it.

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    17 May 2026

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    When Troy finds his captain drugged and limp in the bathroom of a local dive, his only concern is getting Ilya home safe and sound. And he will, even if he has to fight off a weirdly determined Shane Hollander to do it.

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    Shane’s romantic weekend plans go awry when he finds his husband unconscious and thrown over Troy Barrett’s shoulder. He doesn’t know where Dallas Kent’s former lapdog thinks he’s taking Shane’s boyfriend, but he’ll be damned if he lets Ilya go without a fight.

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    Or; Ilya gets roofied. Somehow, he’s still not the one having that bad of a night, all things considered.

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    16 May 2026

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    "And is like I said, very easy to do. You just lay back and let someone else do work. Could do it in my sleep, would not be problem at all for me to come hands-free.”

    Hollander scowled, full competitive personality shining through. “Prove it.”

    “Fine, I will,” Ilya snapped back.

    Hollander's eyes went wide, and so did Ilya's when he realized what he had promised. His words hung in the air between them, suddenly heavy with implication.

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    Ilya doesn't think switching with Hollander one time for the sake of settling a bet will change anything about their arrangement, and it certainly wouldn't make him discover anything about himself. Afterall, it would only be one time, right?

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    10 May 2026

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    LeClaire’s hand is still on his shoulder, and Ilya knows that it doesn’t look like anything. A coach speaking to one of his players. LeClaire’s heat seeps through his suit jacket, and his breath is a warm, damp wash of air against Ilya’s ear.

    “They’ve finished up with the awards,” he murmurs. “You look like you’re ready to get out of here.”

    Ilya nods tightly and sets his drink down on the table.

    OR:

    Gregori Rozanov was bad in many ways, but Coach LeClaire might have him beat.

    Shane Hollander has something to say about that. It turns out a lot of people do.

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    07 May 2026

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    “Did you want a letter? Should I have sent you a formal invitation? What the fuck else was I supposed to do?” Shane asked, exasperated.

    “Oh, I don’t know you could maybe have said that your ‘friend’ Harry who was coming for dinner was the Duke-of-Fucking-Sussex, Shane!” Ilya said, bringing his hands up in frustration. He could feel a dull aching throb behind his eyes and if not for the fact that it would only antagonise Shane more he would have turned around and gone home.

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    Or; Shane Hollander is far more famous than anyone in his life ever realised

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    05 May 2026

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    “And you’re sure there’s nothing for you?” David says suddenly. “You’re not—you’re feeling okay? You’re not sick? Shane wouldn’t have any reason to think that you’re sick?”

    Ilya blinks and turns to him. “I am fine. Totally fine. Better than fine, even, before today.”

    “It’s just—Shane’s acting like you’re dying, Ilya.”

    “Not as far as I’m aware,” says Ilya. “And I do not think he would learn this before me.”

    The summer before Ilya joins the Centaurs, Shane wakes up nervous. It doesn't stop from there.

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    03 May 2026

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    Ilya makes a post on Twitter. It results in a surge in interest as Twitter tries to figure out the Hollanov timeline. Ilya fans the flames, Shane tries to salvage things, and Harris just wants one day of peace.

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    02 May 2026

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    Roz couldn’t take three hours off when he was in Boston to see Cliff, but somehow managed to kick off a whole ass friendship with his worst enemy when the guy lived two hours away? Make that make sense! As far as Cliff knew, Hollander didn’t even like any of the things that Roz liked – partying or clubbing or drinking. What did Hollander have that Cliff didn’t? Besides a second Cup? And several MVP awards? And multiple broken records?

    Oh god. Had Roz picked Hollander as his new best friend because he was better than Cliff at hockey?

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    Cliff is very proud to be Ilya Rozanov's best friend (or at least his best male friend). But then Ilya moves to Ottawa, dodges Cliff's attempts to hang out and, oh yeah, suddenly announces a close friendship with a guy he's hated for most of a decade. This would be much simpler to deal with if Cliff had any idea how to talk to Roz about feelings. Or how to talk about feelings at all.

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    01 May 2026

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