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    Tony has just found out he’s autistic in his 40’s… how will his life change with this new information? How will it stay the same? What things should’ve made people realize sooner? Find it all out here :-))

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    An old roleplay turned fan fiction series that I no longer update as the roleplay partner I had and I ended on bad terms

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  1. Public Bookmark 16

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    “Do you consider yourself Canadian?”

    “Of course” 

    How could he not, at this point. He’s the world’s top athlete in the most Canadian sport on earth. He grew up in Ottawa, and learnt French in school and says sorry at least six times in a conversation as a rule. 

    “Do you consider yourself Japanese?” Ilya asks after a beat.

    Shane frowns.

    “I have a mirror”

    “So?” 

    “So? It’s pretty hard to miss, if you haven’t noticed.”

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    A study on identity and culture as Ilya and Shane take their first ever couple's holiday to Japan, and learn a few things about each other along the way.

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    31 Aug 2026

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    “Can I tell you a secret?” Mom asks.

    Shane nods immediately. He likes secrets. Especially from his mother. She knows everything about everything.

    “It doesn’t matter what they say or do,” she tells him. “The only thing that matters is what you do on the ice.”

    “Score lots of goals?” Shane clarifies, since eleven-year-old boys do all kinds of things on the ice.

    “Score lots of goals.” Mom nods with a grin. “The ice doesn’t care who you are, Shane. So, you go out there and give it your everything. Then nothing else matters.”

    “You promise?” Shane whispers.

    “I promise,” Mom tells him firmly. “If you’re good on the ice, they won’t care who you are off it.”

    OR: An ode to the many layers of Shane Hollander.

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    15 Aug 2026

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    Shane thinks he's got life under control, despite how precarious that control is, until Ilya wants to have the talk. The talk about having children. Shane spirals and starts on a journey that takes him to some unexpected revelations and carries him through the worst few weeks of his life. Even worse than being outed involuntarily.

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    02 Apr 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 77

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    “We don't have to do this. You don't. . . " Shane tried to say. Ilya held a finger to his lips.

    “We should talk about these things, no? You shouldn't be afraid to ask me questions that you want to know the answers to,”

    “Question six,” Ilya said, voice gravelly and accent thicker than usual, “If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the mind or the body of a 30 year old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you want?”

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    Shane and Ilya ask each other the 36 questions to fall in love.

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    14 Feb 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 10

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    Eddie Diaz is a 16 year old ballroom dancer with an immense amount of pressure put on him by his parents. When he meets Evan, younger brother of fellow dancer Maddie Buckley, his life takes a turn for the better, and becomes a lot more complicated.

     

    Neither boy says anything as they walk, but when Eddie stops in front of a door with “Buckley” posted on the front, Eddie realises something. 

    “Wait, Buckley?” He asks. 

    The boy nods, looking a bit confused. “Why?” 

    “Are you Maddie’s brother?” 

    The boy’s confusion morphs into surprise. “Uh, yeah. You- you know Maddie?” 

    Eddie nods. “We met a few years ago. She basically adopted all the younger kids as her siblings and we’ve been to a lot of the same comps.” 

    The boy smiles softly. “Yeah, that sounds like her.” 

    “She talks about you a lot.” Eddie says. “Though I’ve somehow missed your name.” 

    “Oh.” The boy says, then adjusts his crutches so he can hold out his hand for Eddie. “Evan.” 

    Eddie takes his hand and tries to ignore the butterflies that erupt in his stomach at the contact. “Eddie. Diaz.” 

    “It’s nice to meet you.” 

    “You too.” 

     

    CURRENTLY BEING RE-WRITTEN!!!

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    16 Jan 2026