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all that i lacked so long and loved so well by nightrose
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
11 Jun 2026
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Because it's good news, right? That no one has told him that Ilya is— There probably would have been headlines. Or a press release. A photo of him in his jersey, smiling, two dates only twenty-eight years apart, a few lines about his career, and no listed survivors. Supportive tweets from a bunch of people in the league. Shane's team would put out a press release about the foundation and probably get a flood of donations. There would be something, if he were—
But there's nothing. There's just this void. Nothing, nothing, no sign of him. It's like Ilya has disappeared off the face of the earth.
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Shane's point of view on the events of lonely i came, and i depart alone
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- Part 2 of a strange door
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13 Aug 2026
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Beneficiaries by 409_conflict
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
16 Aug 2026
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Following an afternoon of sex and tuna melts, Shane goes searching for the explicit rules of what being 'friends with benefits' entails. In his humble opinion, they're nailing it.
Once friendship is on the table, Shane reconsiders the usefulness and immutability of the public rivalry narrative. Surely the NHL can make just as much money from a bromance as it can from a rivalry?
A missed call from J.J., a dinner at All-Stars, and an ill-considered mad dash to the airport send Shane's season in a very different direction to the disciplined three-peat he'd been planning back in October.
"This rivalry thing: it was everyone else who said we hated each other off the ice. There’s no rule that says we have to keep doing that forever.” Shane stared outside, past the blinding billboards and down at the streets below. “It was nice. Hanging out, last time.”
He knew what it looked like when Rozanov shut down, when he closed himself off and pushed the world away. He’d finish the conversation abruptly, curt, clipped, and retreat. So Shane knew he’d won when Rozanov finally answered with: “Are we six years old, Hollander? Asking if I want to play in sandbox with you?"
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13 Aug 2026
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The Long Way Home by fingerstokeyboard
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Heated Rivalry (TV) RPF, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Aug 2026
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The Boxing Day argument changes everything.
This time: there is no emergency Centaur plane landing. No moment of clarity. No grand realization waiting around the corner.
Instead, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov come to terms with the fact that they are not on the same page about their relationship. Ilya, the physical touch king, is ready to stop hiding. Shane, the reserved, this-needs-a-15-step-plan king, still needs more time.
So they break up.
Ilya throws himself into therapy, starts taking antidepressants, adopts a dog, befriends a very attractive new reporter, and develops a newfound commitment to living authentically. Shane is left wondering: what happens when hockey, the thing that’s always defined him, no longer feels like enough?
A canon-divergent story beginning after the Boxing Day argument in The Long Game.
OR: because my daddy Ilya deserved more than a plane-crash induced panicked proposal & my baby Shane deserved more than a social media outing.
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11 Aug 2026
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Isn’t it messed up (how I’m just dying to be him?) by l8vies
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Mar 2026
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“If he’s internally decapitated, he’s dead,” Shane huffs, tossing his arm out at the television. “Why are they saying they can save him?”
Ilya chuckles. “Doctor Hollander, huh?”
“I’d be a great doctor, thank you,” Shane quips back.
“Not one of these doctors. You would be a great ear doctor, or something. Whatever doctor is most boring.”
“Oh, fuck you!” Shane mock-gasps at him, kicking a pillow into his side. Ilya cracks up, smacking Shane’s thigh lightly.
This is fine, Shane thinks. It was a one-time thing. We’re okay.
But later, when he’s in bed, that feeling, the one he had when he first saw Ilya kissing Sasha, comes back.
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Shane thinks he’s homophobic because he hates Ilya’s male hookup.
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04 Aug 2026
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The Long Change by danielosbourne
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Aug 2026
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Shane ended the most significant relationship of his life because he believed the truth would destroy them both.
Months later, Ilya comes out anyway.
The catastrophe Shane spent years running from never arrives.
The league moves on.
Teammates rally around Ilya.
Sponsors call.
He falls in love again.
He begins building a life defined not by secrecy, but by ordinary joys: a home, a future, arguments about adopting a dog.Left behind by a future he never thought possible, Shane is forced to confront an unsettling question: if the world didn't end for Ilya, what has all of his fear really been protecting?
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31 Jul 2026