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  1. Public Bookmark 90

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    After locking up, the question bubbles out of Benson’s chest like a belch, bleach flavored. The store key’s still in the lock and for once the exhaustion in his bones has beaten out the shrieking air raid sirens that've been howling in Benson's skull since his childhood. So Benson just does, no forethought or deeper examination involved. Allows himself the mercy of not looking too closely at why he’d ever think getting Bradley liquor loose and pliable would end up well for either of them.

    “You wanna go get a beer?” A pause, the store key halfway turned into the locking position. He flicks it over the rest of the way to avoid having to go back inside and rearm the security system. “You old enough to even fuckin’ drink?”

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    17 Apr 2026

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    "Please, Rozanov, just tell me what's going on." It is so earnest, so gentle, and Ilya does not deserve it. "Don't leave without—"

    "Hollander," Ilya pleads for him to stop, puts out his hand as a peace offering.

    "Ilya.

    or; ilya has a bad day. shane helps.

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    19 Mar 2026

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    devastating and so hopeful

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    Shane Hollander is worried about everyone and everything.

    Ilya is mostly just sick of air travel.

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    Shane and Ilya are having trouble balancing their very private relationship and their very public lives.

    A slice of life.

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    19 Jan 2026

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    “I get kind of–” Shane makes a little whining noise in the back of his throat, tips his head toward the ceiling for a moment before looking back at Ilya. “I hate those fucking press conferences. I hate them, Roz, and sometimes it just feels like too much and I can’t–” One hand goes up to run through his hair, already a little mussed, and Shane gives it a slight tug, making a frustrated noise that Ilya hasn’t heard before.

    And Ilya decides that’s enough.

    - or, a post-game press conference makes shane hit his breaking point. ilya goes after him. 

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    27 Dec 2025

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    Shane could not catch a breath to speak. Suffocating waves of fear and dread crashed down onto him. Rosanov only drew closer, cautiously, as if Shane was about to bolt in the opposite direction.

    “Breathe,” Rosanov’s voice commanded. Shane was not sure if he would ever breathe again.

    Shane has a panic attack before the playoff finals. Who else finds him but Rosanov? Months later, Ilya is unable to shake the encounter and tries to get Hollander to let him in again. Both struggle with the unexpected vulnerability of it all. Set some time after Vegas, when both are falling hard but still stuck in denial.

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    27 Dec 2025