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    Dresden's a wizard. Marcone's a mob boss. They live in Chicago. After that the story changes.

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    John Reese is a man willing to do anything for the people he loves. There's no such thing as too far.

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    There’s definitely something wrong with my threat assessment module, because I know this is a stupid decision but I’m making it anyway. “Okay, no way around it. I’m going to have to go talk to this White Wolf person. I don’t suppose you have a map to where he lives?”

    I’m not letting a Rim corporation take over this fucking mudpit without at least trying to stop it.

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    01 Sep 2026

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    “I am sorry,” he says. “I am not trying to fight. I just don’t like the idea of you not being okay and me not knowing, even when I am in the same place as you.”

    That Shane can understand. He wouldn’t like it if their positions were reversed, after all, if he thought Ilya was potentially in danger and he was in the next room over drinking champagne and making smalltalk. He sees Ilya go somewhere in his head sometimes, sees him retreat inwards, sees him check out even if his body is still there, going so deep inside that he doesn’t even catch Shane’s eye for a bit even when something funny happens, too far away for Shane to reach him.

    But it’s also not like he can just go up and grab Ilya by the arm and pull him away from the party, not without inviting speculation and a whisper storm. He doesn’t have that right, doesn’t have that privilege, to potentially need Ilya or be needed by Ilya and be able to just pull him away.

    It’s moments like these that Shane feels the weight of their secret like a physical thing.

    (5 times shane and ilya couldn't be openly together and 1 time they could)

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    20 Aug 2026

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    All told he got into a couple scraps a year, but nothing to write home about – he didn’t instigate, he didn’t go too far. He kept his head level and focused on what it needed to be focused on: winning the game. Sure, one time he almost punched Scott Hunter’s lights out after a game, but whatever – he was emotionally compromised then, sue him. Mostly everyone assumed that was a weird blip and let it go, and he and Scott maintained enough professional friendliness at league events that everyone figured it wasn’t personal, which it wasn’t.

    All of that to say that the more and more the media went on about Hockey’s Golden Boy, the more people forgot that Shane was, at the end of the day, just like any other professional hockey player. He knew how to throw a fucking punch. He just chose not to, most times, for strategic reasons.

    It became apparent that people had forgotten this very key fact almost immediately after he joined the Centaurs.

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    Or: Shane Hollander: full-time lover, part-time fighter.

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    04 Aug 2026

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    The Raiders have known for years that Rozanov was seeing a Montreal girl

    They decide to text her

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    01 Aug 2026

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    Ilya was glowing, and wild, and so bright he was almost blinding. Beautiful, Shane had known, even back then, when he was still too young to know much of anything at all.

    Ilya Rozanov belongs to the summer, and the summer belongs to them.

    (Or, two childhood best friends spend a summer by the lake, before the rest of their lives begin.)

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    01 Aug 2026