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    Ilya refuses to cancel dinner with Shane's parents, terrified that showing weakness will make them think he is lazy, broken, or a disappointment. But when a severe depressive episode causes his hands to shake, he accidentally drops a crystal water glass.

    The sound of the shattering glass triggers a violent childhood trauma, sending Ilya into a full-blown, terrifying panic attack on the dining room floor as he frantically tries to clean up the mess before he gets hit.

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    21 Jul 2026

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    Bottom Ilya and Top Shane:

    1. Because Ilya deserves to come so hard he cries (and Shane will talk him through it)
    2. Because, maybe more importantly, the experience is healing for Shane, whose only experiences with “topping” were in situations where his body didn’t want it.

    This fic is a love letter to my younger self, and a love letter to people who have had sexual experiences just because they thought they had to. I see you.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    “You’re cheating,” Buck accuses.

    “I’m winning,” Eddie pants, looking far too smug.

    “I’m—” Buck tries to tug his arms free from Eddie’s hold to no avail. How is Eddie so damn strong? “I’m letting you.”

    “You’re letting me pin you down? Do you like getting your ass handed to you, Buck?”

    Heat floods Buck’s gut. He does like getting his ass handed to him. Or—no, well… he likes being pinned, or thrown against walls, or–or floors. But that’s different. That’s a sex thing. This is definitely not a sex thing. This is a bro thing. They’re bro-wrestling. Bro-housing. This is the most platonic thing Buck’s done in his entire life. He doesn’t know why he’s sweating.

    Channelling his inner carpet python, he gives a determined wriggle, but Eddie’s hands tighten around his wrists. The feeling sends a shock through Buck’s spinal column.

    Oh no.

    Eddie, breathless and beautiful above him, repeats, “Say uncle.”

    Breath stuttering out of him, Buck freezes.

    Use your head, Buck thinks. His dick twitches. Then, panicked, the big one.

    Or: Buck and Eddie wrestle over the remote. They forget the remote.

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    16 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, get loved.

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    10 May 2026

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    The first blow lands softly, just enough to hear the clap of skin on skin. Shane sees Ilya stifle a laugh and feels a wave of embarrassment rush through him, but he steels himself before he can get lost in his head about it. Not before Ilya gets a shot in, though.

    “Am I supposed to be scared, Hollander? I guess you don’t just have a weak backhand — Ow!”

    The second blow lands harder than the first, properly sounding like a smack. Shane’s palm tingles slightly with the force of it.

    “I’ll show you a weak backhand,” Shane retorts.

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    Or: Ilya acts like a brat at dinner with Hayden and his wife. Shane spanks him about it.

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    07 Mar 2026