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    Shane bit back a groan as Comeau slammed him into the boards for the dozenth time. Fuck. His ribs were aching as he pushed off the boards and chased after the puck, having lost it in the altercation.

    Ilya skated over to him. "You okay?" he asked, catching his breath.

    Shane nodded, not able to say anything without letting out a moan. Fuck. It was their first game against Montreal since Shane had left and joined Ottawa. Everyone was angry.

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    Shane is injured during a hockey game, but Ilya doesn't know how badly until things take a turn.

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    "No! Do not tell me to sit down. Why aren't you going to him? There's no way someone doesn't love you, Shane. Come on. Please. God, please, Shane, stand up, and we'll go." It was Hayden's turn to sob now, and Shane just shook his head.

     

    "He doesn't want me. He told me, and that's when I started coughing these fucking flowers up. Even if I hunt him down and he says he loves me, it won't work if it isn't true. It'll just make it kill me faster. This is it, Hayd, this is all the time I have left." Shane stood up and walked around to his two best friends. He had tried to be strong during this conversation, tried to keep his fear in check, but there's only so much one can do when telling their family they're on borrowed time.

     

    Or, Shane Hollander contracts Hanahaki when Ilya turns him down in Tampa. To make sure Ilya doesn't feel responsible Shane writes a letter for him, meant to be read after his death. Ilya gets his hands on it early.

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    02 Sep 2026

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    Ilya wished he hadn’t chosen Shane. He said it himself. It may have been in Russian, but Shane understood him. And now, Shane had to fix it. He could make Ilya happy again. He could.

    After the almost-plane crash, Shane comes to the gut-wrenching realization that if he wants Ilya to be happy, he'll have to do the most painful thing imaginable.

    He'll have to let Ilya go.

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    28 Aug 2026

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    Ilya smiled down at Shane and his eyes gleamed with mischief. 

    "You know, Troy is just a few doors down. We could call him over, make it a little party." 

    Shane's eyes snapped open only to narrow again as he glared up at Ilya.

    “Would you like that?”

    “No, I wouldn’t,” Shane snarled. 

    But his face was screwed up in frustrated pleasure. Ilya hummed thoughtfully and pretended to consider. 

    “Perhaps we could make it a competition then.” 

    Shane made an irritated noise and turned his face away. Ilya leaned closer and let his teeth drag down the length of Shane's clenched jaw.

    "You want Troy to see how well you take it, or do you want to see if he's better at riding my cock than you are?" 

    He had been teasing him, pushing at the jealousy that usually made Shane squirm and glare and tell him to shut the fuck up while his traitorous cock twitched and throbbed at how much he secretly liked it. 

    So when Shane did squirm away from him, Ilya followed automatically, pressing their chests flush together. He thought Shane was playing.

    “Get the fuck off me,” Shane spat.
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    Shane safewords out of Ilya's teasing about Troy.

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    27 Aug 2026

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    Shane Hollander has been running himself into the ground for weeks.

    Then, during morning practice, his body finally gives out.

    Ilya can handle a lot of things. Watching Shane fight for his life on the ice isn't one of them.

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    24 Aug 2026