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Jean paints golden rays shining through the blue-gray clouds and the visions haunting him in his sleep. Jeremy knits words around the hole in his heart. They try not to set themselves on fire.
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I'm gonna say what's on my mind (then I'll walk out, then I'll feel fine) by neffervi
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
09 Nov 2025
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“Warren says she wants to see me, before… y’know,” Jeremy says. Jean quietly curses under his breath. He can’t tell Jeremy not to go, he can’t, even though seeing Jeremy and Mathilda in the same room again is going to make him sick. It’s going to make Jeremy sick. She kicked him out, she disowned him, and now she wants to see him before she goes.
What a wicked, vicious thing a family can be.
Jeremy goes to see his dying mother for the last time.
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and you'll know your life is one to share by neffervi
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
24 Sep 2025
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Jeremy gets transported to a parallel universe. Jean deals with the consequences.
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Jean comes home to find Jeremy crying in his bed.
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He remembers the terror his family’s put him through. He remembers Warren’s disgust, Bryson’s hatred, Annalise’s indifference. He remembers rehab, the control, the checks, the punches, the texts, and suddenly, he can’t take it anymore.
Jean’s voice whispers in his head. You deserve to be happy.
Jeremy looks at his mother, and the feelings swirling inside him spill over.
Jeremy spirals, confronts his family, and falls in love. Not necessarily in that order.
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It’s been almost three years since the last time they played against each other. Not an exhibition, not a ceremonial puck drop or a smiling photo op. A real game, with real skates and real contact. Shane could swear, right now, that if he closes his eyes he’d remember the crack of sticks, the echo of blades against ice, the roar of the crowd rising and falling like a living thing. He won’t even have to try hard. It’s always there in the back of his mind. The way Ilya skated across the rink, visor fogged slightly, mouthguard half out of his mouth in that familiar, infuriating way.
Three years is nothing in the grand scheme of things. Three years is also an eternity. Long enough for routines to change and for habits to calcify like bone. For absence to become a kind of presence all on its own.
--- In which Shane and Ilya break up in 2017, after Florida. It's 2029, and both have retired and put the game behind them. An invitation to a charity event sets things in motion. Or, another alternate take on what happens after Episode 4.
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23 Dec 2025
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Their waitress is kind enough to let Shane practice his clumsy Spanish with her. He pointedly does not look at Ilya after ordering, but he's known him long enough to know when he's laughing at Shane's expense.
“I hate you,” he says.
“No,” Ilya says. He looks unfairly handsome in a linen beach shirt and his flamingo-patterned board shorts Shane bought him last summer. “You do not.”
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(it's the honeymoon fic)
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- Part 1 of like a bright new dream
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22 Dec 2025
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The road to the Stanley Cup is fraught with expectations, injuries, and worst of all, conversations about feelings.
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- Part 3 of like a bright new dream
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22 Dec 2025
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it’s so hard to believe (but it’s all coming back to me now) by placebythering
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
14 Dec 2025
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“My apartment,” he says, keeping his tone deliberately even. Casual. “I mean… it’s close by, right? You could stay there instead of dealing with the hotel nonsense.”
The words hang in the air between them, fragile and irrevocable. Rozanov goes very still.
Shane feels a flash of panic—wonders if he’s misjudged, if he’s pushed too hard and too fast. He rushes to fill the silence, almost tripping over the words, trying to frame it the way he rehearsed in his head.
“It’s more practical, right?” He adds. “Less media. No teammates. You’d have your own space. And it’s only until flights start up again. You can leave first thing when they resume.”
--- After Rose, after Florida, but having barely reconciled since, Shane and Ilya are stuck in Montreal during a snow storm. Shane offers for Ilya to stay in his apartment, and offers up the rest of his heart with it. Or, an alternate take on what happens after Episode 4.
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19 Dec 2025
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Our Captain, Their Problem by Bruja_oscura
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Dec 2025
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Ilya Rozanov has a "tiny car accident" (his words). Shane Hollander has a full-scale, system-shutdown panic attack about it. Meanwhile, a horrified Hayden is praying for someone to throw him in a lake and tell him that this is all just a big joke, or maybe for a meteor strike; he is really not picky. J.J., on the other hand, is trying to bleach the image of his sweet captain making out with Ilya fucking Rozanov from his brain.
It's a very normal day for the Montreal Canadiens.
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19 Dec 2025