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    Mello, who he remembered best through sun-kissed skin and fresh grass and the smell of old clothes and the gentle English air. Mello, who he remembered in an array of emotions, in childish banter that went nowhere, in existential talks under the blanket at bedtime. Mello, who used to pray every night, voice low and steady as it lulled Matt to sleep. 

    A car sped past him and Matt inhaled the smoke. That certainly took him out of it. He was far from England.

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    Some wounds only take one scratch to freshen up again. Matt's wound is Wammy's, and the thought of Mello, of spending his childhood with him — and the scratch feels more like a stab in the heart when Mello calls him; and at this point, it'd be a mercy to just shatter the memory Matt had of him instead of letting him think, and think, and think about him.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    Drake is probably around eleven years old when he realizes and comes to terms with the fleeting nature of his friendship with Liam.

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    10 May 2026

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    “I think I’m falling for someone else.” These words would haunt them for the rest of their days, plunging them both in daydreams and fantasies of ‘what if’s and ‘what-will-never-be’s.

    A retelling of chapter 13 where one Eliza Wong tries to confess her feelings for one Maxwell Beaumont.

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    10 May 2026

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    “Am I a bad friend?”

    Hayden has always been the guy Shane joked with, the guy he trusted to feed him without mocking him, the guy he roomed with on the road, and Shane is the only man who has ever seen Hayden cry, and Hayden loves Shane. He fucking loves him. They are like brothers, and they have been for almost ten fucking years. He’s always been Shane’s guy, Shane’s best friend.

    Except all along, maybe that wasn’t true. Ilya Rozanov, apparently, had been the guy. Before Hayden had ever met Shane, Ilya Rozanov had been there. And Hayden had never even noticed.

    Shane is all over every inch of Hayden’s life. Hayden thought that was reciprocal.
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    “You know I think about you all the time,
    And my deep misunderstanding of your life,
    And how bad it must have been for you back then,
    And how hard it was to keep it all inside.”

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    06 May 2026

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    Ilya was used to hazing. He had been subjected to it, he had participated in it, and, as a captain, he had stood guard over the rookies and protected them from anything truly harmful. But if he had been asked, Ilya would have approved of this prank. He would have authorized it, given Cliff and Vicky his seal of approval, perhaps even helped orchestrate it.

    Any other day, Ilya might have been happy to play along.

    But, in perfect dramatic irony, it had not happened any other day. It had happened today. And, cherry on top, of course the rookie had to walk in when Shane was already freaking out about Ilya saying his name.

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    A prank-gone-wrong leads to the Boston Bears finding out about Shane and Ilya’s relationship in 2016. The day Ilya first invited Shane into his house. Right after they say each other’s names for the first time. Fuck his life, honestly.

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    05 May 2026