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    in sickness and in health (the unofficial version) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    05 Apr 2026

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    Shane tears his rotator cuff badly enough to need surgery. His parents help at first, but Ilya comes as soon as he can. Shane needs help with everything: dressing, eating, using the bathroom, etc. He's mortified. Ilya is gentle and matter-of-fact and makes sure Shane knows he's still wanted, still desired, even when he can't do anything for himself.

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    11 Sep 2026

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    The Secrets that Keep Us by

    Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    28 Apr 2026

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    He didn’t know why his husband had just used his safe word. Ilya didn’t know what he did wrong. But his priority right now was Shane. Shane who at the moment still hadn’t moved but was struggling to take a breath and was shaking his head side to side without stopping. Had he hurt him? Ilya would never forgive himself.

    OR: Ilya accidentally triggers Shane to remember an encounter he never told Ilya about that wasn't consensual. And Ilya comforts Shane as he has to tell him about the one guy he never told Ilya about.

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    10 Sep 2026

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    Hurt You by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    12 Dec 2025

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    “Shane- Hey. Hey.” His voice cracks. A tremor runs through his hands as he turns Shane carefully onto his side, supporting his head so it doesn’t flop. The warmth of Shane’s skin is still there, but it feels wrong now, like a warning instead of an invitation.

    Fuck. What the hell just happened?

    He tries to steady himself, but his hands are trembling so badly that they fumble over Shane’s body, checking for any sign that he’s okay. A pulse. Anything. His head is racing, his chest tight with panic.

    When he finds the pulse, fast, irregular, but there, Ilya exhales shakily. But it doesn’t help the wave of dread crashing over him.

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    Shane passes out during sex, and it freaks Ilya out.

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    10 Sep 2026

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    bad case of lovin' you by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    26 May 2026

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    “Okay, give me five minutes. This patient will not take long.”

    Luca nods in thanks and scurries off to busy himself in the meantime. Ilya huffs another sigh, shaking his head as he finally pulls up the digital chart.

    Shane Hollander
    Age: 27
    Height: 177.8cm
    Weight: 88.5Kg
    Temp: 36.6
    BP: 118/75

    -Patient presented with syncope, nausea and vertigo.

     

    -shane hollander comes into ilya rozanov's ER, two months after they had a wild one-night stand)

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    08 Sep 2026

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    onenightstandwithDocIRandhockeystarSH--becomingparents--fallinginluv😍

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    think twice (and come back for a third time) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    10 May 2026

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    Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.

    A stranger, and the love of his life.

     

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    or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.

    OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!

    Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.

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    08 Sep 2026

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    whatasecondchancestory
    SHdatesanAsiansnobbylawyer -- IRdevelopsfriendshipwithYuna