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    After Vegas, Shane begins to give up on Ilya and looks for a new way to feel wanted.

    Ilya, of course, finds out about this and locks in.

    A small dose of jealousy and a bigger dose of communication add up to change the trajectory of their affair from 2014 onward.

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    02 Aug 2026

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    The first time they hooked up, Rozanov had kissed him before Shane got on his knees. They kissed when Scott Hunter was in the room next-door. And they kissed slowly and sweetly, on his apartment stairway, after Rozanov had taken his world apart and put him back together again. Hell, even in that bathroom, where he felt as if the Russian was trampling on his bared soul, Rozanov had kissed him.

    So why was it different this time? What did he do wrong?

    Shane aches with how much he wants—needs the other man. There is a hollow numbness in his chest every time he thinks about those golden curls and ocean eyes, and he hates himself for wishing he could have more.

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    Wanting Hollander is dangerous, because Ilya is wanting more than he’s allowed to have. But Ilya keeps wanting more and more, because he is vain, selfish, undisciplined. He wants to have Hollander in his arms, sweet, warm, and gorgeous.

    And he will always regret it later, in the quiet moments that come in the aftermath, in the small and lingering ache that follows him once they are apart.

    Or: Shane spirals and avoids Ilya post-Vegas. Ilya chases after him, and they talk.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    In this universe, when someone meets their soulmate, they both compulsively start calling each other pet names. It's a rare phenomenon. The world is obsessed with it. There's lots of fanfare around it.

    Shane Hollander doesn't want to ever find his soulmate. So much so he gains a reputation for being antisocial. He doesn't care, staying quiet means he'll less likely be outed as gay and his goal of having a professional hockey career can be achieved.

    Ilya Rozanov desperately wants to find his soulmate. So much so, he wants to become a professional hockey player, move to the states, just so he can travel the world and talk to as many people as possible. Because doing so means he could find certain love in his life.
     

    They make this way harder on themselves than it needs to be.

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    21 Jul 2026

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    Sabrina Hollander is 13 years old when she puts her brother’s dream in front of her own and promises herself that she’ll never tell a soul about what she’s done.

    Or: How Shane having a little sister he can count on would have changed his story for the rest of his life.

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    “Rozanov, Ilya-- can you hear me? Fuck! Are you okay?” He asked, frantic. There was so much blood, people were running towards them. He could hear phones being dialled, could feel the presence of others around them.

    Ilya’s eyes were open, but it was as if he were looking past him, up towards the sky above. He coughed once and blood sputtered out, dribbling down his face "Mama." He said softly.

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    Since Shane was a young boy he has been able to rewind time. He had never done it for anything huge, just small things here and there.

    Then Ilya Rozanov died in front of him.

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