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Buck has been struggling with this breakup.
He’s never felt this way before. With his other relationships— each felt terrible when they ended but this one just feels stronger.
He thinks it’s because it was his first relationship with a man— like the way it felt when Abby left and ended things.
She was his first love— well, the first time he’s ever felt like he was in love. Tommy was his first boyfriend but when Josh asked him if he loved him, Buck didn’t respond.
Josh kept asking questions so he got away with not really replying to that one but it stuck out to Buck.
Everything else Josh asked, he feels like he answered honestly. He does care for Tommy, he thinks about his needs, he does think about him when he’s not around.
He thought that was enough to take that next step and ask him to move on. He was wrong and he’s starting to see why.
Six months of dating and he wasn’t in love with the guy. He has love for Tommy and cares for him. He’s grateful for what this experience has brought him but he doesn’t think he’s in love.
Stress baking so he doesn’t call Tommy— that’s Buck being upset that someone else he cares for abandons him. He’s channeling that feeling— those abandonment issues directly into a healthy coping mechanism.
He looks around his kitchen— a complete mess— and sees that he’s out of flour and basically everything else. Any ingredient mixture to make some kind of baked good.
Buck has made two banana cakes— one with chocolate chips and one without— scones, and there is a lemon loaf in the oven. As it cooks, he cleans the kitchen. He then packages his baked goods to bring with him. He’s going to Eddie’s.
*
Since Buck showed up at Eddie’s house the night Tommy broke up with him with a case of beers, Eddie’s been thinking about him— in a new way.
Being told that he doesn’t choose joy by a priest— something switched inside of Eddie’s brain.
Shaving the mustache, dancing to Risky Business, letting loose— it felt good. He did feel joy. He lay there thinking how good this feels— this feels like joy.
Then Buck showed up.
Seeing him, sitting with him in silence— just being there for each other without needing to say a word.
Oh.
This is joy.
Buck is joy.
That really fucked with his head. It’s all Eddie can think about— and how he could bring his son back.
The things the priest said to him— it was really eye opening. It didn’t occur to Eddie that the way he lives his life,— always putting his son first and never thinking about himself— denying himself things that would make him happy and fulfilled because it’s not what he was taught.
His dad always told him to be the man of the house— marry a nice Latina girl— have children and raise them right.
Ramon wasn’t even that— the man of the house— someone who raised him. He was never there, that’s why Eddie had to be the man of the house. A ten year old boy trying to figure out who he is and not being able to.
Without Christopher here, all Eddie has been doing is trying to give Chris space but also trying to find a way to get him to want to come back.
He misses his son and wants him where he belongs— at home in LA with him.
It’s just that now is the first time since he was nineteen, that he’s actually able to figure out who he is and what he wants.
Christopher still has a huge spot in his mind but he’s going to start opening himself up to new things— choose joy .
Eddie’s been having a lot of feelings start to push their way quickly to the surface— feelings for his best friend.
He’s never had feelings like this towards men before. It’s only been Buck.
Eddie has found some male celebrities very attractive but he just figured every man has a man crush on some male celebrities.
These feelings towards Buck— someone he knows really well and that he cares for the most in this world. After Christopher, it’s Buck. He’ll always be the person he could lean on the most— trust the most.
He’s seeing him in a light he never shone on him before and it’s very distracting.
It’s his day off and he’s spending it at home and he’s choosing joy today.
Eddie went to a dispensary yesterday after his shift and bought himself a joint. He bought a one gram pre rolled joint so that on his day off he could smoke a bit of weed for the first time since he was eighteen.
He’s never really been into drugs but when he was younger he tried it a couple of times. The first time he didn’t feel anything but the second time— oh he felt something. It was a weird mix of paranoia, happiness, and insatiable hunger.
Eddie has on dark jeans and a long sleeve dark blue Henley. He gets the tube that holds the joint and a lighter from his dresser and heads out the back door.
Eddie sits at the small table he has in his small yard and takes the joint out. He brings it to his lips and lights the other end.
Like old times— he inhales the weed and pulls the joint away from his mouth. He leans back in his chair and blows the smoke out.
He coughs a little, as one does, then takes another hit. He takes about six hits before he feels high.
Eddie puts it back in the tube since he barely smoked half of it and leans back in his chair again.
He feels good— relaxed.
Eddie hears his phone vibrate on the table so he reaches for it.
Just some dumb ad email.
He opens Instagram and starts scrolling mindlessly. He only really has this app to see what Buck and Chris are posting. He doesn’t care about social media.
Eddie sees this model— a man— wearing a dark button down shirt and dark pants, his jacket undone and he’s posing in all these different ways. He looks good.
“I have a shirt similar to that,” he mutters to himself.
High and choosing to be silly and lean into it— Eddie gets up, puts his phone in his pocket then grabs the joint and lighter and heads back inside.
He goes to his bedroom, putting the tube and lighter back on the dresser, he takes his shirt off and tosses it to the bed.
Eddie goes to his closet and sees the shirt he had in his mind. He puts it on, does up the buttons and looks at himself in the mirror.
“Not bad,” he says to himself, checking himself out.
He runs his hand through his hair and does different poses.
He smiles, giggles starting to bubble up. He leans into the silliness and laughs.
Eddie makes his way out of the room and to the kitchen. He’s so thirsty.
After noticing the tablet on the table, Eddie sits at the table and puts his glass of water down. He picks up the tablet and starts looking through what’s on there.
He Instagram back up and goes back to that models page— looking through his posts. Eddie starts to feel a bit warm— a buzzing feeling starts to spread through him.
He’s horny.
Eddie opens up porn hub which brings him to the main page. He sees the search bar so he clicks on it but he stalls— he doesn’t know what to look up.
He knows what he wants to look up but doesn’t show if he should.
“What am I thinking?” Eddie says to himself, shaking his head. “I’m choosing joy— things that I want.”
He nods to himself and types in the search bar.
Screenshots from the videos show up in a row and Eddie starts to browse through.
He sits with his legs a bit spread open angling away from the table, his arms are leaning on the table as he holds the tablet which he also leans on the table.
“That’s nice,” he says out loud, noticing two men and it didn’t look to be too much.
“Whoa,” he says instantly as he scrolls right under that one. “That’s way too much for me to handle,” he adds, shaking his head slightly.
He continues to scroll before he hears a knock at the door.
He puts the tablet down as he looks up. “Coming,” he yells out.
Who the hell is here right now?
He gets up to go answer the door when Buck appears in front of him on his way through the kitchen to the dining room.
“Buck— uh, hey,” he says, caught off guard. “What are you doing here?”
Buck immediately starts talking, “I almost relapsed— I almost called Tommy so I baked every spec of flour I had in the house but I was still jonesing for it. Here, have a scone.” He hands Eddie a scone before walking past him to the kitchen.
“Come on in,” he says before turning around to follow him. He takes a bite of the scone. Fuck, that’s good, he thinks.
“I uh— figured I could make us some snicker-doodles if you had stuff,” he stutters out as he starts to go through Eddie’s cabinet.
“This is actually pretty good, Buck,” Eddie tells him, ignoring his mini breakdown over Tommy— ugh.
Buck smiles softly, shying away from the compliment.
Eddie watches Buck go around to other cabinets closer to the table.
Oh fuck.
“But seriously— uh, what’s your secret?” Eddie asks to distract him as he flips the tablet screen face down.
“I’ve been softening the butter instead of melting it—,” he stutters out as he turns to face Eddie. “—it makes everything fluffy,” he finishes.
Eddie’s got his head in the basket Buck had put on the table, humming along to what Buck’s saying, when he hears Buck ask, “What was that?”
He looks up at him and sees his face.
Busted.
He wipes his hands together and plays dumb, “What?”
“You flipped the tablet,” Buck says. He is not gonna let this go.
Eddie looks down at it then back at Buck, “did I?” He asks, continuing with this strategy because he’s too high right now for this.
Buck leans on the counter behind him and tilts his head, “Whattaya lookin’ at, Eddie?” he teases— flirts?
Before he can say anything, Buck lifts his hands up and says, “No, wait— none of my business, uh—“ he waves his hands around, “— privacy of your own home and— I respect that.”
There’s a beat before Buck reaches for the tablet as he says, “But— just a quick,” as he looks at the screen.
Fuck.
Well there’s no hiding this.
He’s watching Buck look at his porn history from just ten minutes ago.
This is not happening.
*
Oh. That’s not—
“Uh— sorry,” Buck says quickly. He just picked up Eddie’s tablet and he’s on porn hub looking up gay sex.
Since when does Eddie look at gay porn????
He skims it fast before putting the tablet back down— face down. “That was not meant for me to see,” he mutters. “Uh— why are you in a button down?” He asks instead, trying to change the subject.
Eddie looks at him confused before he laughs.
A full body laugh comes out of Eddie and Buck can’t seem to stop the grin from spreading on his face. “What?” He asks after a moment, wanting to know what’s so funny.
“I’m— uh, kinda high,” Eddie admits. Buck can’t believe he didn’t clock that.
“Oh my God,” he chuckles. “And you didn’t invite me?”
Eddie rubs at the back of his neck as he half shrugs. “My bad?” He chuckles nervously.
“What brought this on? Have you ever smoked before?” Buck asks, curious.
Eddie rolls his eyes, “Like fifteen years ago but yes, I have,” he tells him. “I don’t know— been realizing some shit,” he shrugs.
Buck looks at him like please tell me more.
Eddie sighs, “Like— I don’t really allow myself joy or put myself first,” he confesses.
Oh, Eddie.
He’s noticed this about him— how could he not?
Eddie doesn’t do anything without thinking of his son first and everyone else before himself. Buck wishes he did more so hearing that this is what is happening— he’s all for it.
“So,” he continues. “Thought I’d have a chill day and do this for me.”
“I’m proud of you,” Buck says with a smile.
“For getting high?” Eddie asks, a teasing smile on his face.
Buck huffs out a chuckle, “You know what I mean.”
Eddie smiles softly and Buck just wants to kiss him. Fuck.
Before he can stop himself he asks, “Got any more?”
Eddie smiles at him smugly like he knew he was going to ask. “Yeah, I’ll be back,” he tells him, waving him off.
Buck waits for him in the kitchen and his mind is running a hundred miles per hour.
Eddie was searching up gay porn on his tablet in the kitchen high before Buck let himself in with his key.
Was Eddie looking that up because he’s high and is just testing something or has he been realizing some other things about himself?
Buck wants to know so much but he doesn’t want to overstep. If Eddie wanted to tell him, he would— right?
He hears Eddie coming back with the goods and in a new shirt.
“You changed,” he comments, noticing that Eddie is now in a long sleeve dark blue Henley.
“More comfortable,” Eddie shrugs, smiling. “Let’s go outside,” he nods towards the door.
Buck heads outside with Eddie behind him. They take a seat and Eddie hands Buck the almost half smoked joint to him with the lighter.
“You start it, I’m still a bit buzzed,” he tells him with a soft smile.
Buck chuckles, he’s so cute when he’s high.
He lights the joint and inhales— it burns so good.
“So what did you bake today?” Eddie asks him as he blows the smoke out.
He coughs once, “Uh—,” he says, clearing his throat. He can’t even remember right now with everything that’s happened since he got here. He shakes his head— clearing his mind. He says, “Two banana breads, scones, and a lemon loaf.”
He takes another puff of the joint before handing it to Eddie. His fingers brush his as he hands it to him and— Eddie’s touch will never not do it for him. But he shouldn’t feel that way about his friend— best friend— he could end up ruining their friendship and that’s the last thing Buck wants.
Buck sits back turning his head to the left and looking at Eddie. He takes a hit from the joint— his perfect plump lips wrapped around the filter. Fuck.
“That sounds good,” Eddie tells him after exhaling. “Does the banana breads you made have chocolate chips?”
Buck smiles softly, “One does,” he tells him.
Eddie hums, “Mmm, definitely want a slice after.”
Buck chuckles. He takes the joint back from Eddie and takes a few more hits. The smoke in silence until it’s done then head back inside.
Eddie puts the tube and the lighter on the table as he takes a look through Buck's gift basket of goodies.
Buck really wants to ask but doesn’t think he should. He feels like he needs to know— but he refrains.
Instead he finds himself picking the tablet up and opening it back up.
“What are you doing?” Eddie asks him, eyeing him.
“Need to see what kinda porn you’re into,” Buck teases, scrolling through.
Eddie stands there nervously. “I don’t—” he sighs. “I don’t actually know,” he tells him.
Buck looks at him and sees that he’s kind of nervous. He needs to fix that. “Okay, let’s move this party to the couch,” he says, as he starts walking to the living room.
He sits on the couch with the tablet in hand and looks back to the kitchen where Eddie is still sitting. Eddie huffs out a chuckle before saying, “Okay,” and walking over to sit next to him.
There’s space between them but they’re still sitting pretty close together.
“Is this the first time you searched for this?” Buck asks him.
Eddie clears his throat, “Uh— yeah.”
Buck smiles softly. “Okay, so we gotta figure out what you’re into then,” he tells him.
“We?” Eddie asks, eyebrow raised.
“Yeah— I now have experience with men—”
“One man,” Eddie interrupts.
“One more than you,” Buck teases. “So I’m going to help you.”
Buck starts scrolling through the tablet but everything seems to be a bit too much for Eddie who hasn’t ever done anything with a man or ever searched for this before.
Buck edits the search and a new list pops up when he hits enter. This looks better for a beginner.
“I found something that looks interesting,” Buck tells him. “Let’s watch it.”
“You wanna watch porn together?” Eddie asks, his voice breaking slightly on the word porn. He’s nervous and God, Buck just wants to kiss him so badly.
He doesn’t know what he’s actually doing but he can’t stop it.
“Why not?” Buck says casually with a shrug. He hits play and props the tablet up on the coffee table in front of them.
The video starts with one man who has dirty blonde hair and quite muscular making his way into the home of another man with dark brown hair. They strike up a conversation— the acting stuff in porn is always so weird and cringy but whatever, this is part of the experience.
He glances over at Eddie who’s watching the tablet intently like he’s trying not to look over at him, which kind of turns Buck on.
Buck looks back at the screen and the two guys— who are supposedly good friends— start making out. The two guys on screen are moaning into their kisses as they start touching each other.
Buck shifts slightly in his seat— this might not have been the best idea as he’s starting to get hard watching this.
He glances over at Eddie again who also shifts in his seat, adjusting himself through his jeans. Fuck.
The two guys on screen get completely naked and the lighter haired guy starts sucking the other guy's dick. He’s moaning loudly around it and the volume isn’t that low so they can hear everything.
He hears Eddie mutter something under his breath and Buck can’t take it. He undoes his jeans and lowers them enough for him to take his aching cock out.
“Fuck,” he moans out softly as he takes his dick in his hand and starts stroking it.
He glances over at Eddie who is watching him— watching his big cock get stroked by his big hand, up and down, twisting at the head.
Eddie looks up at him and meets his eye so Buck nods, letting him know it’s okay for him to enjoy this. He bites his bottom lip and he can see Eddie’s gaze fall to his lips.
Eddie does as Buck did— undoes his jeans, pulls them down enough to take his hard, leaking cock out. Jesus, it’s perfect.
Eddie moans as he starts touching himself, looking back at the screen to see the dark haired guy lining himself up with the other man’s hole and pushing inside of him. “Jesus,” Eddie moans as he watches the screen.
Buck moans as he watches Eddie watch the porn as he strokes himself. He wants him so badly. “Fuck, you look so good, Eddie,” he finds himself saying, unable to take his eyes off of him.
Eddie looks at him and starts to stroke himself faster watching him stroke himself. They don’t look away from each other again.
Buck moves his hand faster, matching Eddie’s pace. Eddie bites his bottom lip as his eyes scan Buck from his lips down his body to his leaking cock moving in his hand.
“You like what you see?” Buck flirts, teasingly. “Want me to fill you up like he’s doing on the screen?”
“Fuck,” Eddie moans at Buck’s dirty talk. He’s definitely picturing Buck pounding his big cock in and out of him.
“Or do you want me to feel that perfect cock inside of me, hard and deep, filling me up so good?” Buck continues. His cock is leaking and he feels close to the edge but he doesn’t want this to end, not before he sees Eddie cum.
“Fuck, yes, want that,” he moans again. He leans his head back looking at Buck as he bucks his hips up into his hand— fucking into his hand.
“Jesus, Eddie,” Buck moans out, watching him fuck into his hand— harder, faster. “Want you to fuck me just like that, don’t stop,” he says, watching as Eddie continues, moaning, and his eyes on him the whole time.
“Gonna cum,” Eddie moans out before stroking himself through his orgasm, a loud moan ripping out of him, which pushes Buck over the edge too.
They’re both looking at each other as they cum into their own hands sitting side by side on the couch while a porno continues to play on the tablet on the coffee table.
When they both come down from it all, Buck can’t help but start giggling. Eddie starts laughing too which helps ease the tension in the room.
Buck leans over to grab some tissue out of the kleenex box on the end table next to the couch and hands some over to Eddie as well.
They clean themselves up before doing their pants back up. Eddie grabs the tablet and turns it off, engulfing them in silence. They don’t say anything for a moment before Buck can’t take it anymore.
“Can we talk about this?”
Eddie looks at him nervously again, “Uh— sure,” he says, hesitantly.
“So when did you realize— I mean— do you—“ he stutters over what he wants to say and how to say it.
“I went to a priest—“ he starts and then closes his eyes, cringing slightly. “That sounds— okay so—“ Eddie struggles.
He smiles at him, trying not to laugh. He’s just so cute.
He turns so that he can face Eddie properly— Eddie does the same. Their knees touch on the couch.
Eddie notices and smiles, seeming to gather his words.
“I went to confession— I don’t really know why but I did and it— well, it went the way I expected— not good,” Eddie starts to explain. “What was weird was that I went for a run and then stopped at this juice bar and I wanted to order juice but then something inside me told me to take the water so I put the juice back down and grabbed a water bottle. I went to sit outside and drink the water when some guy came up to me and asked to sit at my table. He started talking to me and I thought he was hitting on me but— well— he was the priest I had confessed to a few days prior. Anyway, he basically psychoanalyzed me from my confession and apparently my drink order— he saw me swap the juice for water.”
Buck listens, taking it all in. Not what he was expecting at all. “Wow,” he says, simply.
“Yeah,” Eddie chuckles. “So like I said earlier— he pointed out how it doesn’t seem like I choose joy and I punish myself for wanting it.”
“Oh, Eddie,” Buck says softly. He just wants to hold him.
“It’s—“ he shrugs. “So anyway— that,” he nods towards the closed tablet, “— was me trying to choose joy.”
“That’s great, Eddie,” Buck smiles softly. “I’m proud of you.”
Eddie waves it off. Buck can’t help himself from asking.
“Uh— so what did it for you?” Buck asks, raising his eyebrows. Eddie looks confused. “You know— made you realize you’re into dudes too?”
Eddie rubs at the back of his neck, his nerves back— Buck can sense it. “Just dudes, I think— well, one dude,” Eddie tells him finally.
Oh?
Buck clears his throat, “Oh? Who?”
“Buck…” Eddie trails off like he should know who he’s talking about.
Buck wants him to say it’s him but he doesn’t want to assume it is and then be disappointed— heartbroken. “I need you to say the name, I can’t just assume—” Buck tells him, looking down at his hands, now he’s the nervous one.
“Look at me,” Eddie tells him. Buck looks up instantly, looking into Eddie’s deep brown eyes— he has these soft but big doe eyes that Buck can get lost in forever. He moves closer to him on the couch, their legs fully touching now, pressed up against each other.
Eddie puts his hand on both of Buck’s where he’s still nervously playing with his fingers in his lap. Buck stills his hands, allowing Eddie to hold them.
Eddie’s face is close to his— closer than it’s ever been before. He can feel his breath on his face.
With Eddie’s free hand, he lifts it to Buck’s face, his thumb caressing his cheek. Buck leans into the touch, keeping his eyes on Eddie the whole time. Eddie tells him in his sweet and soft voice that he’s heard before when Eddie really needed Buck to know he was being genuine, “It’s you, Buck.”
That’s all he needs to hear before leaning forward and kissing Eddie on the lips. Eddie’s fingers run through Buck’s hair at the back of his head, holding him close as Buck tries to hold onto any part of Eddie that he can grab as he deepens the kiss.
Eddie allows Buck’s tongue into his mouth— their tongues teasing and tasting each other. Buck pulls at Eddie’s shirt and Eddie moves quickly, climbing onto Buck’s lap.
He straddles him as he wraps his arms around Buck’s neck. Buck runs his hands up and down Eddie’s back and to his ass, grabbing onto him. He pulls back slightly— leaning his head back on the couch and looking up into Eddie’s eyes.
“I’ve wanted this for so long,” Buck tells him as he grabs his ass harder.
Eddie bucks his hips, grinding on him as he watches Buck’s eyes dilate. “I think I’ve wanted this since the day we met and you were being such a little shit— deserved a fucking spanking,” Eddie teases, pulling at Buck’s hair making his head move back even more.
Eddie leans in and kisses Buck’s neck— leaving wet open mouthed kisses all over his neck. Buck grinds his hips against Eddie moaning, needing more. “I want you to fuck me, Eddie,” he says before moaning again at the pressure of Eddie’s ass grinding against his growing erection.
Eddie pulls back to look at Buck, his eyes searching his. “Are you sure this is what you want?” he asks him.
Buck knows he means is he what Buck wants. “Eddie, I love you so much. I’m very sure I want this— I want you— all of you. I think we’re past being just friends the second I found the porn on your tablet,” he chuckles softly.
Eddie giggles and Buck can’t help but kiss him softly.
Eddie looks into his eyes and says, “I love you too and I want this— us.”
“Good, so do I— for as long as you want me,” Buck teases.
Eddie leans in, kissing him softly just as he did right before. “Forever,” he tells him softly between kisses.
Buck smiles into the kiss, wrapping Eddie up in his arms and holding him close. He kisses his lips then moves to his cheek and neck until he hears Eddie start giggling.
Eddie pulls back slightly and says, “So we were about to move this party into the bedroom if I’m not mistaken.”
“Don’t gotta tell me twice,” Buck says, tightening his arms around Eddie as he stands, holding him in his arms.
Eddie’s legs wrap around him, laughing as he gets carried into his bedroom.
*
Eddie has never been carried like this before— it feels good.
Buck drops him onto the bed and immediately gets on top of him. They get back to making out and grinding on each other before their clothes become too offensive.
“Take this off,” Eddie tells him, pulling at his shirt. “All of it,” he adds as Buck pulls his shirt over his head and tosses it to the floor.
They quickly strip down until they’re both naked on the bed. “Do you have any—” Buck starts to ask.
“Uh— yeah,” Eddie says, leaning over the bed to the bedside table and rummaging inside of it. He finds a condom and a small tube of lube, putting them on the mattress beside them. He got the lube to start experimenting but hasn’t actually used it yet.
Buck lies down so Eddie moves to get between his legs. He leans forward— kissing him again as he grinds against him. “You’re gonna need to walk me through this, baby,” he tells Buck, pulling back slightly to look at him.
“Oh, I like that,” Buck blushes. “Baby.”
Eddie smirks but he also blushes, his cheeks immediately turning red.
“You’re gonna have to prep me so put a generous amount of lube on your fingers and just finger me open— I’ll tell you what feels good,” Buck reassures him.
Eddie nods, taking the instructions. He opens the lube and squeezes some onto his fingers.
Buck plants his feet on the mattress, giving Eddie better access. Buck pulls him into him, kissing him. Eddie moans into the kiss— God, he can kiss Buck forever.
Eddie reaches between them and moves his fingers down until he can feel Buck’s hole. He circles it with his index finger— seeing how it feels.
Buck moans into their kiss as Eddie pushes his finger against his rim. “Feels good, baby,” he tells him. “You can push that finger inside me,” he instructs.
Eddie does as he’s told, pushing his finger inside of Buck and watching as Buck moans, his eyes closing. He moves his finger around inside of him, teasing him by moving it in and out of him slowly.
“Another one,” Buck tells him, looking up at him, his lips parted and bruised from all the kissing.
Eddie pulls his finger almost all the way out before pushing back in with two fingers this time.
Buck moans, “Fuck, baby, yes— just like that.” His back arching off the bed.
“You’re so beautiful,” Eddie tells him.
Buck pulls him down to him, kissing him hard on the lips as Eddie fucks him open with his fingers, twisting and turning them until he hits a spot inside of him that makes Buck moan even louder, pulling away from the kiss.
“Fuck, that’s it, Eddie,” he tells him. “Need you now, please.”
Eddie’s cock is leaking between them, he can feel his orgasm close already just from fingering Buck and watching how much pleasure he can give him.
He slowly pulls his fingers out and grabs the condom. He quickly puts it on and decides to put a bit more lube so he squeezes some into his hand and strokes himself, moaning softly at the touch.
Buck eagerly pulls Eddie into him, his lips immediately on his.
Eddie can feels the tip of his cock press against Buck so he pulls back from the kiss wanting to see this happen for the first time.
He lines his dick up with Buck’s hole and looks into Buck’s eyes, “Ready?” he asks him softly.
Buck nods, “Please.”
“Fuck, you’re hot when you beg for it,” Eddie tells him.
Buck moans as Eddie pushes his head of his cock against his hole but not going inside yet. “Need you so bad, Eddie, please, baby,” he begs again.
“You’re such a cockslut,” Eddie says.
“Only for you— want your cock so bad— wanna feel you deep inside of me, please,” Buck continues to beg.
Eddie’s dick is leaking like crazy now so he stops the teasing and watches as he pushes his dick inside of Buck until it’s completely out of view.
They both moan at the feeling before Eddie leans down and devours Buck’s mouth. He slowly pulls out and starts to fuck him.
“Harder— you can go harder, baby, wanna feel you deep,” Buck says into his ear.
Eddie moans into his neck as he starts to fuck him harder— deeper.
He finds that spot inside of Buck again because he moans so loudly, his nails digging into Eddie’s back. “Right there, oh my God, don’t stop baby,” he moans out, his head thrown back into the pillow.
“You look so good, baby,” Eddie tells him, watching Buck get fucked hard by him. “You take my cock so good— you feel so good, better than anything I’ve ever felt before.”
Buck pulls his head down to his, kissing him hard on the lips. “I love you so much. You’re perfect. Don’t stop, baby,” he says between kisses.
Eddie doesn’t stop— fucks him hard, fast, deep, wanting Buck to have the best sex of his life with him.
He reaches between them and takes Buck’s big cock in his hand. Buck moans at the touch— his cock is leaking and Eddie knows he’s close.
Eddie strokes Buck’s cock, matching his pace with his hips.
Buck’s hands move down Eddie’s body and grabs onto his ass, pulling him deeper into him. “I’m so close,” he says into his ear.
“Come on, baby, come for me,” Eddie tells him before kissing him again.
Buck moans into the kiss before arching his back and his head into the pillow as he comes hard in between them and in Eddie’s hand.
Seeing Buck come for him like this is and how he tightens around him has Eddie coming hard inside of him, his mouth on Buck’s neck.
Buck strokes his back through his orgasm and doesn’t make him move until he’s completely done.
Eddie pulls out of him slowly and plops down onto the mattress next to him. He carefully removes the condom and ties it off before he says, “Don’t move,” to Buck and gets up.
He heads to the washroom to toss the condom and grabs a washcloth, soaking it in warm water before removing all the water and bringing that to Buck in bed.
Buck’s smiling at him when he returns and he can’t help but feel like the luckiest man in the world.
He climbs over him, making Buck giggle before he cleans him off with the cloth. When they’re both relatively clean, Buck curls up against him— his head on his chest. Eddie wraps his arm around him and kisses the top of Buck’s head.
“So that was—” Buck trails off.
“Amazing,” Eddie finishes. “Was it for you?”
Buck looks up at him and says, “Of course it was— Eddie, that was— the best sex of my life, and we’re only just getting started.”
He sees the smirk on Buck’s face and chuckles. “It was the best for me too. Can’t wait to see how we top that,” he teases.
Buck hums as he leans up to kiss him softly on the lips. “How about I show you?” he says before pulling him back onto him.
Eddie has never felt so giggly and happy like this in bed with someone before. He’s never felt this much love for someone before.
Buck is his joy and Eddie is going to continue to choose him forever.