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My chest felt tight and my stomach was doing flips. It's kind of funny, but I actually don't think I had ever said that to anyone. Sex seemed much less intimate than this conversation did. Husks eyes stared into mine as if searching for answers. He was quiet, his hand clammy in mine.
"Angel..."His voice cut off, but his face spoke for him.
"Husk. I kissed you because I wanted to kiss you... When I'm with you-" I let go of Husk and shuffled away from him. Everything felt awkward and my words felt like they wouldn't do my feelings justice. I just wanted him to be with me. And I wanted to touch him, or rather, I wanted him to touch me.
"I feel like I don't have to pretend with you. When I'm with you, I feel like I'm me" I felt vulnerable. I didn't like putting my feelings out there. Being vulnerable and honest with people, didn't usually go well for me. The last time I felt like this, I ended up on the receiving end of the most toxic and abusive person I could have imaged. My body buzzed with anxiety. Husk didn't say anything more. He simply grabbed me and pulled me into an embrace. I rested my head on top of his, burying my face in his hair. He didn't say anything, he didn't need to.
"When you didn't come right back, I was so worried that something had happened to you." Husk ran his hands down my back.
"I'm sorry-" I cut Husk off, pressing my forehead against his.
"Please just don't leave again." Husk nuzzled his nose against mine.
"Okay." He said in a voice that was soft and low. My entire being wanted to kiss him, to consume him. Instead I stood there with him. Our bodies pressed together. Even though Husk didn't say it out loud, I know he understood what I was saying. We snuggled our faces into each other. I could feel Husks breath on my collar bone. My mind began to grow fuzzy, my body reacting despite me ignoring my own desires.
"Want to watch that movie?" Husk broke the silence. He pulled away from me, and suddenly I felt lonely.
"Uh what's the movie?" I said sitting on the couch, hiding my disappointment. He rummaged through a bag, pulling out a large bottle of wine and a film reel.
"I was thinking we could watch 'Gone with the Wind' its a hell remake. Alastor said it was just as iconic as the original only with a lot more uncensored sex and violence." I sat on the couch near Husk.
"Okay, now you have my attention Husky. I heard 70 actors died during the filming of that and that the lead actress was addicted to meth. Even Valentino said it was a classic." My body reacted to just the thought of Valentino. As if I was being ripped out of a fantasy, I was reminded of why I was here. My body was completely disconnected from my mind. Valentino would no so easily let me go. Even his memory would haunt me.
"Hey Legs" I snapped back to reality as Husk handed me a large glass of wine.
"Lets get wine drunk and watch this okay?" He messed with the projector facing it towards one of the large curtained windows. I stared down at the glass of wine. My body and mind in two separate places. I felt Fat Nuggets tiny wet nose rub against my hand. I picked him up and snuggled him in close to me. The projector whirred to life. Husk stood by proudly then came over and sat down next to me. He poured himself a glass at wine giving me a little side eye.
"I feel like there is something else bothering you." Husk scooted himself closer to me then set his hand on my thigh.
"Just the thought of Valentino makes me sick. I don't know if I can face him." I placed my hand on top of his and linked my fingers in between his.
"Don't think of him. We will deal with him eventually, but right now?" He close an space between us and his leg pressed against mine on the couch. He tightened his grip on my hand.
"Right now you are safe." I nodded, I held out my glass of wine to Husk.
"Cheers, to living in the moment." Husk clinked his glass against mine.
"Cheers to you, Angel." We both downed out glasses of wine then giggled like idiots.
"Can we cuddle?" I look over to Husk who immediately leaned back and opened his arms out wide, welcoming me in.