ALightIntheDark8811
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Evan Buckley grew up with one understanding; he wasn’t of value unless he was hurt. That belief fueled all his actions, and turned him into the reckless firefighter he is today. But it had also been festering into something more, turning into this ugly monster deep inside him.
When that belief system begins to feed Bucks low self esteem, and lead to mental health issues he is not equipped to deal with, he doesn’t know what to do. But he’s definitely not going to tell anyone.
He can’t be another thing for people to worry about.
But the team begins to suspect anyways, despite how hard he tried to keep them away. And Buck has no clue how to handle it when they begin to break down the walls he worked so hard to put up.
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21 Dec 2025
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"Let's go do something fun," Eddie says. "Let's— That was nice, that was great, being with you and Chris in any capacity is enough for me, but—"
And Buck thought he stumbled over his words.
Eddie takes a breath. "Shaving my face and dancing around in my underwear wasn’t enough."
Buck doesn't know what to say. He has no idea what he means. He's just glad the but wasn't the kind he was afraid of.
"Uh, is that a euphemism?"
While visiting his parents in Pennsylvania for the weekend, Buck accidentally sends Eddie a text telling him that he loves him. Eddie, reacting as any normal and sane person would, flies across the country to say it back.
Featuring good food, great company, bad bits, late-night psychics, East Coast gay bars, ghost towns, minor car accidents, and the Buckley parents being the Buckley parents.
or, Eddie has his juice and drinks it too.
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03 Dec 2025
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why do i fear becoming a river. (which mountain gave me such shame.) by downintheflames
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“Fuck it,” Eddie mumbled before unlocking the phone again and opening his text thread with Buck. They hadn’t texted since Buck asked him if he wanted a scone or a danish from their favorite coffee shop before their last shift. Eddie sighed and pressed the corner of the phone against his forehead.
He didn’t want to ask for help. He could spend another hour circling around the city. But he didn’t want to. He wanted this awful horrible day to be done. He wanted to hold his child and pretend for a little bit that everything was still whole. He sighed again before pressing call and pressing the phone to his ear.
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Eddie finally asks for what he needs in the aftermath of the sudden loss of his Abuela. Buck finally stops running from his grief. And then Eddie’s parents show up.
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“You don’t have to do that,” Eddie says.
Buck shrugs. “You also don’t have to smile at every person who says ‘she’s in a better place’ like that helps, but here we are.”
The joke is soft, an opening. Eddie almost steps into it. “You’ve already done a lot,” Eddie says instead, faster than he means. “Go sit. Or eat. It’s—”
He hears it lining up and can’t stop it.
“—this is family stuff. I’ve got it.” The words are wrong the second they’re out; he hears them like Buck must. Buck’s hands still on the plate.
Or, Eddie is taking things day by day. Buck has a bit of a breakdown, then a bit of a breakthrough. Chris sees dead people.
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“Did you know if you put a frog in water and slowly bring it to boiling, it won’t hop out?” Chris is chattering as Buck makes a quick dinner while Eddie argues with his gas company on the phone. He can hear the occasional swear word in Spanish as his voice raises. Eddie doesn’t like to raise his voice around Christopher – the very thought makes Buck want to kiss him full on the mouth – so he decided to take it to the living room while Chris sits with his homework in the kitchen and Buck cooks.
“Hmm?” Buck asks, unable to fully pull himself out of Bobby’s baked mac and cheese recipe. It took him years, but he finally convinced the man to write it down. Bobby’s handwriting was juvenile at best on a good day, but this was nearly unreadable. Buck wonders if he did that on purpose. “Frogs?”
“Yeah!” Chris states. “My teacher said that if you put a frog in a pot, you have to make sure it’s not immediately boiling. You put them in water and then slowly raise the temperature and they won’t realize what’s happening. Then once they realize, they have no place to go. They can’t jump out.”
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S6 Spec: Buck decides he doesn’t need therapy, reverts to some bad habits, and explodes. Or, the Breakdown Fic.
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