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    Best Possible Situation by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    12 Sep 2026

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    He'd made it halfway through writing the first note before it felt suddenly far too pathetic. Was this seriously the legacy he wanted to leave behind? No one would talk about any of his wins if he killed himself now. He would be the failed Russian team captain of the 2014 Olympics who couldn't handle the job and offed himself about it. His father would probably follow him in death just to yell at him for embarrassing the family, and Russia, and everyone who had ever rooted for him.

    And when he had been made captain in Boston, he had promised his Bears he would get them a cup. He couldn't just leave without doing that. Didn't want to leave and let people think he was a liar, or that he just gave up when things got hard, lazy, useless, stupid boy.

    He tore up the note he'd begun, and began his second plan instead.

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    13 Sep 2026

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    Best Possible Situation
    EtoileGarden

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    He'd made it halfway through writing the first note before it felt suddenly far too pathetic. Was this seriously the legacy he wanted to leave behind? No one would talk about any of his wins if he killed himself now. He would be the failed Russian team captain of the 2014 Olympics who couldn't handle the job and offed himself about it. His father would probably follow him in death just to yell at him for embarrassing the family, and Russia, and everyone who had ever rooted for him.

    And when he had been made captain in Boston, he had promised his Bears he would get them a cup. He couldn't just leave without doing that. Didn't want to leave and let people think he was a liar, or that he just gave up when things got hard, lazy, useless, stupid boy.

    He tore up the note he'd begun, and began his second plan instead.

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    here at the end of all things by

    Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    08 Sep 2026

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    A knee injury ends Shane Hollander's nineteen-year NHL career.

    Ilya Rozanov keeps checking in.

    Shane pencils in "big gay midlife crisis" between physiotherapy sessions.

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    09 Sep 2026

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    here at the end of all things
    nomadsland

    Summary:

    A knee injury ends Shane Hollander's nineteen-year NHL career.

    Ilya Rozanov keeps checking in.

    Shane pencils in "big gay midlife crisis" between physiotherapy sessions.

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    Seaswept by for AaliyahSparrow (ThePirateStorm)

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    31 Aug 2026

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    His quick hookup should have ended with a casual goodbye. But Shane Hollander turns out to be possibly the most dangerous thing Ilya has ever done, and there's something intoxicating about the way Shane melts underneath him.

    He can't have anything Shane represents, and he isn't supposed to ask, "Can I stay?" but he does anyway.

    ~*~

    Half of his team has creature-heritage of some kind, but Shane's could end his career. It doesn't matter that he's no more likely than anyone else to lose control and hurt someone. It doesn't matter that the law says he can't be fired for his heritage, or that he's not what anyone would think.

    This thing with Ilya is dangerous for him in more ways than one, but Shane can't stop himself from pushing his luck every time Ilya offers him something he's not supposed to have.

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    01 Sep 2026

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    Seaswept
    ladyshadowdrake

    Summary:

    His quick hookup should have ended with a casual goodbye. But Shane Hollander turns out to be possibly the most dangerous thing Ilya has ever done, and there's something intoxicating about the way Shane melts underneath him.

    He can't have anything Shane represents, and he isn't supposed to ask, "Can I stay?" but he does anyway.

    ~*~
    Half of his team has creature-heritage of some kind, but Shane's could end his career. It doesn't matter that he's no more likely than anyone else to lose control and hurt someone. It doesn't matter that the law says he can't be fired for his heritage, or that he's not what anyone would think.

    This thing with Ilya is dangerous for him in more ways than one, but Shane can't stop himself from pushing his luck every time Ilya offers him something he's not supposed to have.

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    tell every last boy that you're my man by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    19 Aug 2026

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    "Sometimes I really don't understand you two," Scott says. And Ilya thinks, well, of course not. No one ever does. 

    During Ilya and Shane's second season together in Ottawa, Shane stays home with a separated shoulder and Ilya goes on a road trip. There's a misunderstanding about Medusa, the stripper that Ilya put through nursing school, a lifetime contract with gay and a rookie with a secret. All that, plus Scott Hunter wants relationship advice.

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    19 Aug 2026

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    tell every last boy that you're my man
    throughadoor

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    "Sometimes I really don't understand you two," Scott says. And Ilya thinks, well, of course not. No one ever does.

    During Ilya and Shane's second season together in Ottawa, Shane stays home with a separated shoulder and Ilya goes on a road trip. There's a misunderstanding about Medusa, the stripper that Ilya put through nursing school, a lifetime contract with gay and a rookie with a secret. All that, plus Scott Hunter wants relationship advice.

     

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    Biblically accurate characterization- A+

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    good on my own accord by

    Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    13 May 2026

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    No serious hockey fan or sports commentator worth their salt would have considered record-breaking Boston superstar Ilya Rozanov to be Shane Hollander’s rival exactly, but sleeping with a man who had a specific offense-related vendetta against him and a wrist shot like a jet engine to back it up was probably ill-advised just the same.

    Or, Shane is a goalie. Ilya can’t score.

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    10 Aug 2026

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    good on my own accord
    impetuous

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    No serious hockey fan or sports commentator worth their salt would have considered record-breaking Boston superstar Ilya Rozanov to be Shane Hollander’s rival exactly, but sleeping with a man who had a specific offense-related vendetta against him and a wrist shot like a jet engine to back it up was probably ill-advised just the same.
    Or, Shane is a goalie. Ilya can’t score.

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    your famous golden touch by Anonymous

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    21 Jul 2026

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    “Well, Rozanov can’t afford the rehab he needs to get back to the league,” Shane said. “So I’ll pay for it.”
    “And—” Ilya began.
    “And whatever else he needs to get by until he gets himself another contract,” Shane said. As Shane spoke, Ilya largely kept his eyes on the money manager. He’d never gotten to watch someone realize Shane was insane before.

    The reigning NHL MVP can't cover the costs of his recovery after getting in an off-season car wreck. Shane adds Ilya Rozanov to his investment portfolio.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    your famous golden touch
    Anonymous

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    “What?” Shane’s lip twitched slightly, the most antagonistic expression he could ever muster. “You thought I was just gonna start handing over wads of cash?”
    "Maybe leave it on the nightstand," Ilya said, shrugging. Shane’s jaw clenched and Ilya held his hands at his sides instead of touching the tight muscle.
    “We’re going to do this the right way,” Shane said. Ilya sucked back laughter. There was no right way to do something this crazy, no standard procedure to follow, but he was curious what Shane would come up with.

    The reigning NHL MVP can't afford the rehab he needs after getting in an off-season car wreck. Shane adds Ilya Rozanov to his investment portfolio.

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    It’s Kind of a Funny Story by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    17 Jul 2026

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    His stomach takes a sharp, screeching left. His heart stalls and then shifts into gear, zero to 180, every tired tract of him seizing and squealing to go, run, leave.

    “Hey, I found him,” Tony says, finishing a conversation Ilya wasn’t in, easy like all conversations without Ilya are. Easy like the world isn’t ending. Like Ilya isn’t standing there, wishing every time he tried to self-destruct or kill himself had worked.

    Greasy black hair. Sallow freckled skin. A turned head and horror-widened eyes taking in the big bad monster who finally arrived onscreen.

    “Shane, Ilya; Ilya, Shane,” Tony says, totally oblivious. “You both like hockey, right? So that’s something in common. I’ve got to take lunch, but I’ll check in on you both before my shift is over.”

    Nobody knows if Ilya Rozanov tried to kill himself before the draft. Nobody sane goes first overall. And nobody knows if Shane Hollander is going to survive another mediocre season with the Boston Raiders.

    Isn’t it funny how a single nick in the ice can change the entire game?

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    18 Jul 2026

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    It’s Kind of a Funny Story
    flawlessassholes

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    His stomach takes a sharp, screeching left. His heart stalls and then shifts into gear, zero to 180, every tired tract of him seizing and squealing to go, run, leave.

    “Hey, I found him,” Tony says, finishing a conversation Ilya wasn’t in, easy like all conversations without Ilya are. Easy like the world isn’t ending. Like Ilya isn’t standing there, wishing every time he tried to self-destruct or kill himself had worked.

    Greasy black hair. Sallow freckled skin. A turned head and horror-widened eyes taking in the big bad monster who finally arrived onscreen.

    “Shane, Ilya; Ilya, Shane,” Tony says, totally oblivious. “You both like hockey, right? So that’s something in common. I’ve got to take lunch, but I’ll check in on you both before my shift is over.”
    Nobody knows if Ilya Rozanov tried to kill himself before the draft. Nobody sane goes first overall. And nobody knows if Shane Hollander is going to survive another mediocre season with the Boston Raiders.

    Isn’t it funny how a single nick in the ice can change the entire game?

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    Shipping up in Boston by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    12 Jul 2026

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    Shane is traded to Boston during the hookup era, and his attempts to act normal and professional around Rozanov are a little too successful: fans start shipping him with Marleau, instead.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    Shipping up in Boston
    angel_deux

    Summary:

    Shane is traded to Boston during the hookup era, and his attempts to act normal and professional around Rozanov are a little too successful: fans start shipping him with Marleau, instead.

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    The chips are set to fall by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    10 Jul 2026

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    At the 2017 All Star Weekend, Ilya takes fate into his own hands to produce at least one out MLH player by the end of the season. Thus begins his part-time side hustle as community organizer, mastermind, and Commander-in-Chief of the Gay Hockey Army.

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    10 Jul 2026

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    The chips are set to fall
    icopythefax

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    At the 2017 All Star Weekend, Ilya takes fate into his own hands to produce at least one out MLH player by the end of the season. Thus begins his part-time side hustle as community organizer, mastermind, and Commander-in-Chief of the Gay Hockey Army.

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    Alligator Bites Never Heal by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    15 Mar 2026

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    His outstretched glove hangs there, frozen, as the noise of the arena mutates into a ringing buzz. Then he’s moving, pushed away by Marlow, and then Boston’s goalie. There’s a flurry of movement, a trainer with a towel, more blood dripping onto the ice, and he just. Stands there. Staring.

    Ilya is helped off the ice. Shane doesn’t even tap his stick.

    Remember when Sidney Crosby caught a puck with his jaw? That doesn't happen to Shane. That happens to Ilya.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Alligator Bites Never Heal
    flawlessassholes

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    His outstretched glove hangs there, frozen, as the noise of the arena mutates into a ringing buzz. Then he’s moving, pushed away by Marlow, and then Boston’s goalie. There’s a flurry of movement, a trainer with a towel, more blood dripping onto the ice, and he just. Stands there. Staring.

    Ilya is helped off the ice. Shane doesn’t even tap his stick.
    Remember when Sidney Crosby caught a puck with his jaw? That doesn't happen to Shane. That happens to Ilya.

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    Expert in a Dying Field by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    29 Apr 2026

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    Today is Tuesday, but it might as well be Wednesday or Thursday for all it matters. It’s a real Groundhog Day situation, Shane thinks, only Ilya isn’t aware and Shane doesn’t care about breaking the time loop, too content with their life to make any changes.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    Expert in a Dying Field
    medric

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    Today is Tuesday, but it might as well be Wednesday or Thursday for all it matters. It’s a real Groundhog Day situation, Shane thinks, only Ilya isn’t aware and Shane doesn’t care about breaking the time loop, too content with their life to make any changes.

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    With aging parents this one HITS like a truck. So good.

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    Into the Woods by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    04 Jun 2026

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    When Shane reluctantly agreed to kick off his MLH career with a photoshoot, he imagined, somewhat vaguely, a hockey uniform and some dramatic lighting on the rink. Shoot a few pucks. Pose intensely. That kind of thing.

    The marketing agency, apparently, had other ideas.

    A plane flight gone wrong, a desperate crash landing, and suddenly hockey’s two brightest young stars find themselves stranded in the heart of the Canadian wilderness. With no way home and no rescue coming, they only have one hope for survival -- each other.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Into the Woods
    whyyesindeed

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    When Shane reluctantly agreed to kick off his MLH career with a photoshoot, he imagined, somewhat vaguely, a hockey uniform and some dramatic lighting on the rink. Shoot a few pucks. Pose intensely. That kind of thing.

    The marketing agency, apparently, had other ideas.
    A plane flight gone wrong, a desperate crash landing, and suddenly hockey’s two brightest young stars find themselves stranded in the heart of the Canadian wilderness. With no way home and no rescue coming, they only have one hope for survival -- each other.

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    oh well, I guess we're gonna find out! by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    10 May 2026

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    Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.

    Except, well. Then there are zombies.

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    17 May 2026

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    oh well, I guess we're gonna find out!
    angel_deux

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    Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.

    Except, well. Then there are zombies.

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    Sinking While Swimming by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    09 Feb 2026

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    “Maybe you don't have to-”

    “Uh-uh. No backtracking now.” Hayden pointed a finger at him. “If you tell Shane, fantastic. Would love that, quite frankly, but until you do, I want those goddamn pictures, Rozanov. Am I clear?” Ilya wanted to make some quip about Pike trying to get a different kind of picture out of him, but given the circumstances... He just nodded. “Good. My kids tragically love the fuck out of you, so figure this out.” Ilya nodded again. “Alright then.”

    Silence followed. Ilya eventually got up, and Hayden awkwardly walked him to the door.

    “Ilya,” he said, surprising him with the first name. “I know what I say doesn’t particularly matter, and I am mainly just a fail-safe for this situation, but…” He opened the front door and clicked his tongue. “For what it’s worth, you’re a good guy and don’t deserve the shit your brain apparently puts you through.”

    "I'm a married man, Pike."

    Or

    Ilya’s depression shifts into some self-harming tendencies, despite how well he can justify most of it. An unexpected cavalry comes together.

    (AKA I found a story filled with sex and decided to hone in on my other favorite things: mental health and complex family dynamics)

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    14 May 2026

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    Sinking While Swimming
    CaffeinatedFlumadiddle

    Summary:

    “Maybe you don't have to-”

    “Uh-uh. No backtracking now.” Hayden pointed a finger at him. “If you tell Shane, fantastic. Would love that, quite frankly, but until you do, I want those goddamn pictures, Rozanov. Am I clear?” Ilya wanted to make some quip about Pike trying to get a different kind of picture out of him, but given the circumstances... He just nodded. “Good. My kids tragically love the fuck out of you, so figure this out.” Ilya nodded again. “Alright then.”

    Silence followed. Ilya eventually got up, and Hayden awkwardly walked him to the door.

    “Ilya,” he said, surprising him with the first name. “I know what I say doesn’t particularly matter, and I am mainly just a fail-safe for this situation, but…” He opened the front door and clicked his tongue. “For what it’s worth, you’re a good guy and don’t deserve the shit your brain apparently puts you through.”

    "I'm a married man, Pike."

    Or

    Ilya’s depression shifts into some self-harming tendencies, despite how well he can justify most of it. An unexpected cavalry comes together.

    (AKA I found a story filled with sex and decided to hone in on my other favorite things: mental health and complex family dynamics)

     

    Incredible.

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    Keptin Canada by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    26 Apr 2026

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    “...you don't think they want you to captain Team Canada?"

    Shane was wearing a nervous little smile, like he thought maybe everyone’s confusion was a prank, like he hadn’t handed the reporters a solid gold brick when they’d expected two cents.

    “Well. If the C goes to one of us, of course Ilya will be captain.”

    There was a moment of silence before half the cameras turned towards Ilya and the sound of shutters struck like a tsunami.

    Ilya Rozanov, not just in a red Canada jersey, but with a “C” on the front—?

    The MLH, the media, and apparently the entirety of Canada reacted Very Normally to this.

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    14 May 2026

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    Keptin Canada
    hoosierbitch

    Summary:

    “...you don't think they want you to captain Team Canada?"

    Shane was wearing a nervous little smile, like he thought maybe everyone’s confusion was a prank, like he hadn’t handed the reporters a solid gold brick when they’d expected two cents.

    “Well. If the C goes to one of us, of course Ilya will be captain.”

    There was a moment of silence before half the cameras turned towards Ilya and the sound of shutters struck like a tsunami.

    Ilya Rozanov, not just in a red Canada jersey, but with a “C” on the front—?

    The MLH, the media, and apparently the entirety of Canada reacted Very Normally to this.

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    I'm Just Happy You Still Call by for poppyseedheart

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    29 Apr 2026

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    Yuna Hollander knows that it is normal for children to distance themselves from their parents as they approach adulthood. She expected it when Shane was a teenager, when he moved to Kingston for juniors, even later, when he moved to Montreal. When they stayed close, when he seemed happy to see them at his games, to have her managing his career, when he seemed not only to love them, but to still like having them around… When he invited her for dinner with his boyfriend and the four of them laughed until the summer sun dropped below the lake, she thought maybe this was one challenge of parenthood she would be spared. Which makes the day it finally happens all the harder to bear.

    Or, Yuna Hollander and the joy and anguish of growing up.

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    14 May 2026

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    I'm Just Happy You Still Call
    Distractivate

    Summary:

    Yuna Hollander knows that it is normal for children to distance themselves from their parents as they approach adulthood. She expected it when Shane was a teenager, when he moved to Kingston for juniors, even later, when he moved to Montreal. When they stayed close, when he seemed happy to see them at his games, to have her managing his career, when he seemed not only to love them, but to still like having them around… When he invited her for dinner with his boyfriend and the four of them laughed until the summer sun dropped below the lake, she thought maybe this was one challenge of parenthood she would be spared. Which makes the day it finally happens all the harder to bear.

    Or, Yuna Hollander and the joy and anguish of growing up.

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    let the bird of loudest lay by Anonymous

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

    19 May 2026

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    ”It’s not bad” says his mom, carefully. “Very Canadian, sponsors are happy about that.” That, and not much else, he can tell. A loon is neither masculine nor impressive. A disappointment, to those who hoped he’d have something like a wolf, himself included. His dad tries to bake him the traditional settling cake, in the shape of the new adults’ daemon, but his cake decorating skills aren’t great, so it mostly looks like a grey football. And Shanes’ strict diet doesn’t allow for cake.

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    Shane Hollander, the soul he didn't choose to have, the boy he didn't choose to love, and the life that, despite all odds, might just end up worth living.

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    14 May 2026

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    let the bird of loudest lay
    ghoulien

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    ”It’s not bad” says his mom, carefully. “Very Canadian, sponsors are happy about that.” That, and not much else, he can tell. A loon is neither masculine nor impressive. A disappointment, to those who hoped he’d have something like a wolf, himself included. His dad tries to bake him the traditional settling cake, in the shape of the new adults’ daemon, but his cake decorating skills aren’t great, so it mostly looks like a grey football. And Shanes’ strict diet doesn’t allow for cake.

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    Shane Hollander, the soul he didn't choose to have, the boy he didn't choose to love, and the life that, despite all odds, might just end up worth living.

     

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    Incredible daemon fic, exploring how denial and self hatred and internalized homophobia would show up in that context. Really beautiful.

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    Electric Fan (Feel It Motherfuckers) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)  

    13 Apr 2026

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    Here are some facts:

    Six months ago, Ilya and Shane sat on Ilyas’ couch, in Boston, and said, we want to be more, even if it has to be in secret.

    Four months ago, Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander bought new houses. If asked, they would both say it was a complete coincidence. They were not asked, because most people do not browse Zillow for fun in their free time (Shane-) and the real estate of hockey players was of very limited interest to even the most hardcore fan.

    Two hours ago, Shane Hollander was bleeding out on the ice.

    Yuna and David Hollander were at least three hours away, at the exact moment their son hit the ice. Yuna Hollander is a perceptive woman. If she enters the house, she will know her son does not live alone.

    Here is the most important fact Ilya knows right now: Shane would not want to come out to his parents like this.

    Ilya has one hour to wipe his existence from his boyfriends’ house.

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    12 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Electric Fan (Feel It Motherfuckers)
    ghoulien

    Summary:

    Here are some facts:

    Six months ago, Ilya and Shane sat on Ilyas’ couch, in Boston, and said, we want to be more, even if it has to be in secret.

    Four months ago, Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander bought new houses. If asked, they would both say it was a complete coincidence. They were not asked, because most people do not browse Zillow for fun in their free time (Shane-) and the real estate of hockey players was of very limited interest to even the most hardcore fan.

    Two hours ago, Shane Hollander was bleeding out on the ice.

    Yuna and David Hollander were at least three hours away, at the exact moment their son hit the ice. Yuna Hollander is a perceptive woman. If she enters the house, she will know her son does not live alone.

    Here is the most important fact Ilya knows right now: Shane would not want to come out to his parents like this.

    Ilya has one hour to wipe his existence from his boyfriends’ house.

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    Fourteen ten by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    19 Jan 2026

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    In which Ilya comes back to room fourteen ten.

     

    Canon divergent from, and following directly after, s01e01 when Ilya leaves Shane's hotel room. Contains Ilya being a provocative dick, Shane being unable to resist rising (ha) to it, too much discussion of chicken, some David Attenborough, Shane negotiating his feelings and interpersonal relationships with all his classic suavity and skill, and as much sex as two nineteen year old professional athletes can fit into one evening.

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    10 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Fourteen ten
    delagauchetiere

    Summary:

    In which Ilya comes back to room fourteen ten.

     

    Canon divergent from, and following directly after, s01e01 when Ilya leaves Shane's hotel room. Contains Ilya being a provocative dick, Shane being unable to resist rising (ha) to it, too much discussion of chicken, some David Attenborough, Shane negotiating his feelings and interpersonal relationships with all his classic suavity and skill, and as much sex as two nineteen year old professional athletes can fit into one evening.

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    2.0 by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    07 Apr 2026

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    Look at that. Another white guy with his little Asian sugar baby.

    Twenty-seven years, and not once has a stranger looked at David Hollander and his son and seen a father. Then Ilya Rozanov sits beside him in a restaurant and a server says, "Can I get anything else for you and your son?" David does not correct him.`

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    10 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    2.0
    orangememory

    Summary:

    Look at that. Another white guy with his little Asian sugar baby.

    Twenty-seven years, and not once has a stranger looked at David Hollander and his son and seen a father. Then Ilya Rozanov sits beside him in a restaurant and a server says, "Can I get anything else for you and your son?" David does not correct him.`

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