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It was two rings and then his thick accent and smooth voice washed over Shane like a slow molasses. “Hollander,” Rozanov sighed. “It is late. I thought you had date, no?”
“I fucked up,” Shane whispered biting back a sob.
Shane drops after he sleeps with someone that's not Ilya, so naturally he calls Ilya to take care of him.
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25 Dec 2025
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It had been a few years since he’d felt like this after fucking someone, but it wasn’t the first time. It was the first time he’d felt like this after fucking Hollander, though. At first, it was always like this – a feeling of disgust and humiliation curling inside of him when whoever he’d been with left the moment they were done. He was naive back then, dumbly wishing that he could hold his hookups afterwards for just a moment so he felt like he was more than just a body; Hollander had always seemed to cling to him, had always sought out Ilya’s touch like he needed it to breathe. This time, though, Hollander hadn’t reached out for him once, hadn’t brushed his hand across Ilya’s arm or pouted his way into a kiss. He hadn’t even wanted to show off at first, and the thought that he’d hurt Hollander was swirling in his gut and Ilya felt like he was going to puke.
or ilya's ep2 domdrop we all saw happen
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25 Dec 2025
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Shane drops. Ilya isn't there to catch him.
Or: an alternate ending to s01e02 aka the famous We didn't even kiss moment. Kinda.
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25 Dec 2025
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what happens in vegas stays with me by ificouldwrite
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Dec 2025
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Shane doesn't send the "We didn't even kiss" text, but he's still hurt by it by the next game he has to play against Boston and more importantly, Rozanov.
Ilya notices him playing like a robot, and wonders if there's something that needs to be fixed.
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24 Dec 2025
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Drop by NotEvenCloseToStraight
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 Dec 2025
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June 2014, Las Vegas
Post the Las Vegas Scene, sub!Shane drops hard and Dom!Ilya races to save him.
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From Jane: We didn't even kiss
Shane didn't mean to send the text. He was so dizzy and cold and unsteady after leaving Ilya's room, he didn't even remember if he HAD sent the text. His fingers were too numb to undo his shirt buttons, he felt like the floor was dropping out from beneath him, he was nauseous and exhausted and didn't know why he couldn't stop shaking, why couldn't he stop shaking...?
From Jane: ww dnt v ks
The text came through as gibberish, and “Fuck.” Ilya threw his clothes back on and ran to get to Shane's hotel room. He'd been too far in his head to pay attention to Shane being quiet and shivering after they were done. Shane had stumbled getting out of bed, bumped into furniture, struggled with the door and Ilya had heard it but he'd been too much of a coward to get out of bed and check and now his submissive was sending gibberish texts and that wasn't good.
“Sorry sorry sorry.” Ilya muttered as he ran. “I’m coming. I’m coming, hold on.”
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- Part 2 of Heated Rivalry
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24 Dec 2025
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He sends a message without fully thinking it through, are you disappointed in me?
No. Comes through immediately. I told you, good game to watch. It makes me happy to see you lose once in a while. I think you need to be brought down a notch.
Shane’s face crumples with confusion. His heart flutters but his nostrils still flare with annoyance. Rozanov isn’t disappointed with him. He’ll ignore the last two sentences of that text. Although he thinks he knows what's coming after them.
I can take you down a notch. Send address. Rozanov texts back.
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24 Dec 2025
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After his time with Rozanov in the penthouse, Shane feels a little off. Regret was never something he'd felt after a rendezvous with Rozanov, but this time was different. Rozanov didn't even kiss him and for some reason his body was having a visceral reaction to that glaring omission. Was he nothing but some fuck toy for Rozanov to play with?
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24 Dec 2025
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Shane leaves Ilya's apartment, not knowing he's dropped.
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the infamous "we didnt even kiss" alternate ending
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24 Dec 2025
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“Game is over,” he says. “You won. I lost. I was annoying. Normal.”
“That’s not—” Shane starts, then stops, because he actually doesn't know how to finish that thought without sounding like an idiot. His jaw works, teeth grinding together.
That's not what I meant. That's not the point. You said I was boring and you were right and I need you to say it again so I know where I stand, so I know what you think of me, so I can stop waiting for the other shoe to drop.
He settles for: “You were kind of an asshole.”
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24 Dec 2025
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kiss it better (don’t leave me uncovered) by Wurmblau
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 Dec 2025
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Too caught up in their own heads, both Shane and Ilya don't realize that Shane has dropped until he has already left the suite. Rozanov fixes it whilst also discovering a thing or two.
Or: Shane gets the kiss.
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24 Dec 2025
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yeshche odin by EverythingsAvengers
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Dec 2025
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Jane: Did I do something wrong?
Please, Shane thinks, blinking rapidly. Tell me so I won’t do it again.
(Or: the one where Shane drops and Ilya does something about it.)
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24 Dec 2025
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mine all mine by beyondearths
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Dec 2025
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It was during this hysterical lament that Ilya realized what was wrong, what was off. The initial softness, the confusion, the vulnerability. It was out of character — Shane was so often in control of himself, of what he said, even when emotions were high . . . with one exception.
If Ilya fucked him particularly . . . intensely, if he got Shane feeling a lot, he'd get soft afterwards. Quiet, a little ditzy, emotional. The first time it'd happened — or the first time he'd recognized it — was years ago in Las Vegas after winning MVP. He remembered the look on Hollander's face when he left — wide and tear-eyed, lip trembling, tripping over himself.
Since then, with a little trial and error, Ilya had learned how to manage it. Had grown to love it. If he treated him right, he could buff away all of Shane's sharp edges and be left with the soft, gooey inside. Floating and tethering himself to Ilya.
Now, Shane was out there, floating, without anyone to tether himself to. Falling. And suddenly Ilya was panicking, too.
or: shane, trying to get over rozanov, has sex with someone else and and falls into subdrop. scared and confused, he calls ilya.
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24 Dec 2025
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and nothing's wrong when nothing's true by 2_infinity
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Dec 2025
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The game had been long, and Shane Hollander had been a pain in the ass as usual. Not only because of his skill but also because he was distractingly pretty on the ice. These years somehow more so than when they had been Rookies. Or Ilya had just learned how to appreciate it, whatever that was supposed to mean. This newfound appreciation however didn’t help when he had to face off with Shane and he darted out his tongue to wet his lips. Distracting Ilya immensely, his mind wandering off to what Shane could do with that tongue. Or the times when Ilya shoved Shane against the barricade and felt his rival’s body underneath his. Only to be reminded of all the times Ilya had gotten Shane underneath him without all that protective gear.
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They had been doing this for years by now. And by now they had a routine they stuck to. There was a city where their teams would play each other, there was a text and a suggestion for a place. Then they played the game and riled each other up. Afterwards, they met up in secret to fuck. That was what they did and what Ilya was used to.
Until Ilya received a text after their hook up that disrupted their routine for the first time after years.
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22 Dec 2025
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i clutched your arms (like stairway railings). by Joooceee
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Dec 2025
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He was alone because Ilya had left because Ilya always had to leave. [...] He felt horrible. Ilya had left. Maybe Shane hadn’t been good enough? No, he would’ve left anyway. He always left.
But maybe he would’ve stayed a little longer if Shane had been better? Maybe if he’d been better, used more of those tricks he’d been trying to learn, he wouldn’t have left so soon. Maybe he would’ve wanted to stay like Shane wanted him to stay. Would’ve wanted to hold him like Shane wanted to ask him to do. Maybe Shane wouldn’t be trapped in this cavernous space between worlds, feeling like he was free-falling, searching for the path out of this emptiness.
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Shane experiences sub-drop for the first time. Ilya holds him through it.
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20 Dec 2025
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in the murky deep by boxysmiles
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Dec 2025
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Shane rests his head against the window. Breathes in, out. Clenches his hands into fists on his lap, then slowly uncurls them.
Nothing between his fingers now. No bedsheets, no shirt, no Ilya. No proper goodbye.
No kiss.
"Fuck," he breathes out. Fuck.
This isn't the same as all those years ago. It isn't, and he knows it. But there's a strange, hollow feeling that's starting to expand in his chest. Making his ribs feel brittle, his lungs made paper-thin.
Shane drops. It's unfortunate timing.
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20 Dec 2025
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back to shore by gingerale_days (y2beans)
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
16 Dec 2025
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"He needed to leave. He needed Ilya.
Shane walked towards the sitting room, making his way to where his shoes were positioned by the door, Ilya will stop him. Ilya will help him. Ilya will make him better."Shane drops after the infamous Vegas Hotel scene. Left to crash and burn alone, who will bring him back to shore?
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20 Dec 2025
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Elevator in Need of Repair by TermitesForMinecraft
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Dec 2025
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Shane never sent the “We didn’t even kiss” message, but what he did do was call Ilya while he sat slumped and shivering in that damn elevator.
Ilya comes. He fixes it and along the way Ilya communicates, also explains what happened to Shane since he seems to really not get it.
He’s surprised Shane has never heard of a Subdrop.
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20 Dec 2025
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i'm grateful to you for letting me lose by bluerosebouquet
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Dec 2025
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He wanted to bury his face in the juncture between his neck and shoulder, to breathe in the smell of him, to touch his skin and give him everything that he could. He wanted to give to him until there was nothing left, until Shane had disappeared into him forever.
“Look at me,” Ilya’s voice was quiet, but Shane obeyed immediately, his eyes fuzzy at the corners, “How are you feeling?”
Shane intended to lie. There was no reason to complicate things with hard truths that not even he understood. Instead, his lip wobbled, and he found that he couldn’t say anything at all.
“Ah,” Ilya made a noise that sounded nearly as devastated as Shane felt, and put a hand on the back of his neck, pulling him forward. Shane went easily, his forehead pressing into Ilya’s shoulder, and breathing deeply through his nose, trying not to cry.
Or, Shane drops after leaving Ilya's house.
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18 Dec 2025
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Tender Parts by mcshrug
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Dec 2025
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Shane isn't used to people touching him. Then he meets Ilya Rozanov.
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18 Dec 2025
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Ilya’s hand wraps around his bare wrist and squeezes. Shane barely stops himself from collapsing to his knees.
The pressure lights up every receptor of his touch-starved nervous system, wrenching a small, pained noise from the back of his throat. Every muted sensation comes flooding back so intensely that it almost hurts. He needs Ilya to hold him down until there’s nothing inside him but quiet. He wants to sink into him and disappear.
It takes Shane an entire beat to remember where they are. Fighting against the fog in his mind, he manages to drag his gaze up to meet Ilya’s.
There’s a slow-dawning horror and understanding on Ilya’s face.
Or: Shane is in subdrop after their encounter in Vegas. Ilya fixes it.
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