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    Dean and Cas, happy and ALIVE, after s15e20 Carry On.

    Basically, how it should have ended.

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    AU cannon divergent after 15x08 "Our Father, Who Aren't in Heaven"

    Destiel slowbuild. Angst up the wahzoo. Lots of trauma processing. Dean-centric. Hurt/comfort on the whump side.

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  1. Public Bookmark 44

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    After being saved from the Empty, Cas is stuck in that eternal sleep, only awake for one hour each day. Dean doesn’t know how to save the guy, but he does know Cas, for some reason, is still insisting that he’s in love with him. So Dean decides, hell, he might as well make Cas’s one hour worth being awake for.

    In other words: Cas is Sleeping Beauty, Dean’s got a solid plan to pretend to be gay to boost Cas’s morale, and Sam’s so fucking over these assholes.

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    10 Aug 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    The best way Dean knows to make someone stop giving a shit about him is to just… Be around.

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    "I'm sorry. "

    “I hate when you say that. You gotta stop saying that," Dean rages. The anger is easy, the weakness is not.

    “I know.” A twitch of kind sadness moves into Cas’ face, in the corners of his mouth. Dean wants to kiss him quiet on his frown lines. “I don’t see a future for us where I won’t have to.”

    Grief beats its fists against his chest, a mouth, he gives power to it like an overturned cup. He is a child again alone in a dark room and his best friend is never going to stop breaking his heart. There exists only a world where they stand side by side to watch children die. With numb hands his strength abandons him. Cas is a rigid temple, always out of reach. “Cas. Castiel…”
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    There’s an archangel in Dean’s head and Hell in his past and strangers from another universe in his house. His kid is sick, his mother is young and aloof, and to make matters worse, his best friend is keeping secrets. Again. Only this time, Dean finds out about Castiel's deal with the Empty, and he's got a pretty solid idea about what (or who) might trigger it. Knowing full well Cas must stay miserable to stay alive, Dean makes his move. This is the way they can have each other.

    No matter how much it hurts.

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    07 Aug 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    There was a kid in him once who didn’t hurt people.

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    Dean has had bad hangovers before, has woken up in a dicey situation or two, but waking up inside the corpse of his dead best friend is a new one.

    Written for the PCRF fic drive.

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    23 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    A man’s private business is meant to be—private. Manfully not crying while you beat off and beg for your best friend back is, like… that’s between him and his hand.
    ...
    “Dean, you have always been a home for me.”

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    Dean is lonely since Castiel became human.

    It’s been six months of throwing himself into cases, pining around the bunker, and radio silence ever since they parted ways. Charlie takes matters into her own hands, signing him up for a hunter’s networking website where he meets new hunter Steven.

    They start a friendship, Dean enjoys his online companionship and Steven seems to understand what he needs without ever having met him.

    When things heat up between the screens, Castiel is brought back into his life, and Dean soons finds himself face-to-face with secrets and sin.

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    17 Jul 2026

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    [Dean] Yeah? And what if I wanna suck you off in my panties? How would you feel then?

    There’s a thud from Cas’ room and Dean is brought back to reality quicker than he wants. Is he really gonna do, whatever this is, when Cas is here? Needing his help? He’s meant to be taking care of him, not getting his rocks off in pink panties.

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    "I can help with other things, too. I've been told I'm good with my hands." Dean winks, watching to see how the quip lands.
    There isn't really a height difference between them, but the older man is thicker, heavier with age and muscle and time. He's broader and probably stronger, if not for the injury. Dean could outrun him, if he had to, but to where? His own front door?
    He reaches out a hand to touch Mr. Novak's belt, presses a finger to the silver buckle there.
    "Been told I'm good with my mouth, too."
     
    It's Summer in Sugar Run, Florida. John has disappeared to God knows where, and Dean is doing whatever he can to make ends meet and keep food on the table. He's used to doing all sorts of odd jobs–but working for the taciturn and slightly strange older man on the other side of the park presents a new set of challenges...and a new set of rewards.

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    12 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    He wants Cas to kiss him, tries to look, like, kissable, or something.