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  1. Public Bookmark 45

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    Tiktok might be the most annoying app on earth. But even a stopped clock is right twice a day, and Shane can't help but admit that Ilya would do a much better job crushing a watermelon with his thighs than some stupid fitness influencer.

    Or, Shane wants to be crushed like a watermelon.

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    Day Eight of Kinktober: Face-sitting + Switching

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    09 Oct 2026

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    “I was afraid this might be what you were hiding.”

    Ilya swallows hard. “Afraid?”

    “I knew it wouldn’t be something bad,” Shane says. “But I was starting to get scared it was something really, really sad instead.”

    Or: Ilya survives a suicide attempt as a teenager and spends the rest of his life hiding the scars. Everyone assumes, incorrectly, they know what he’s hiding. Until Shane.

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    07 Oct 2026

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    Ilya is not going to steal Shane Hollander's dog. That would be illegal. And wrong. And someone would probably find out and make Ilya give him back.

    So. Not stealing.

    But there is nothing wrong with giving Chernysh all the pats and treats that he deserves, is there?

    Nothing wrong with encouraging Chernysh to spend more and more time at Ilya's house until he doesn't even remember who Hollander is.

    Because Hollander is stupid and boring and does not deserve a dog as good as Chernysh. No, he doesn't, does he? Because Chernysh is the best boy in the whole world, yes he is.

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    30 Sep 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 30

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    Summer, 2022: Ilya and Shane go to a baseball game. Ilya and Shane go to brunch. Ilya and Shane go to a wedding.

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    25 Sep 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 83

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    "Hi," Shane says, beaming at him. The vowel is drawn out long and loud in a way he only does after the cocktail phase of drinking. "It opens soon."

    "What opens soon, Hollander," he demands.

    "You know, the place," Shane tells him as he walks. They've already made it down one block, and are quickly reaching the end of the other. Ilya will find whatever god let his husband be this fast well drunk and put a curse of them. He has already suffered enough.

    Or Ilya gets to experience an early morning (late night) fish auction with his wasted husband for the first time.

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    25 Sep 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, celebrated hockey star, gets perilously lost in the wilderness.

    Shane Hollander, wilderness expert and #1 Rozanov hater, finds him.

    They're stuck in the woods. Completely alone. Together.

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    24 Sep 2026

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    There is something from an Ottawa Centaurs email, titled 'conversation.'

    For a moment, he strongly considers deleting it. Shane no longer owes a single part of the MLH a damn thing, nor does he expect anything from it. His exit from the league is -- well. People aren't motivated to bring it up.

    The sender is listed as Wiebe, B.

    Shane clicks on the message.

    Ten years ago Shane lost everything but Ilya. He has to decide what, if anything, he wants back.

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    14 Sep 2026

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    This is a bittersweet and beautiful canon divergent look at returning to the league that devastated Shane and Ilya. Ten years on from a universe in which no team signs Shane after they're outed, Shane is considering returning to coaching for Ottawa.

    In all the deluge of fic I've read in this fandom, this is somehow the first story I've read in which being outed ends their hockey careers but not their relationship. It's a great concept, meaningfully explored here. The shape of Shane and Ilya's relationship is well depicted, first in happy days and then as they weather conflict.

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    I feel like he truly only likes me for my ass, Shane thinks. But thankfully, there’s just enough of his brain-to-mouth filter still working well enough to translate that to, “I feel like she truly only likes me for my dick. But maybe I wanna cuddle after or some shit. Is that a crime?”

    “Absolutely not, Hollander. You should get all the cuddles you want after a good fuck.” Cliff raises his glass and winks.

    He can't believe he's really just talking to Rozanov’s teammate and friend about him. Not that he knows it’s about Rozanov, but still. 

    Shane's never having vodka ever again. But for now, he’ll let it lower his inhibitions—if only to get all of this off his chest. Maybe then it’d stop fucking aching.

    shane strikes up an unlikely friendship with cliff marleau after he walks out of ilya’s penthouse suite in vegas feeling worthless. it’s all fairly innocent at first, until a threesome with shane and a woman awakens something in cliff that he’s never even thought about before. he confides in ilya without revealing who his secret gay awakening was, but ilya connects the dots anyway and goes on a jealous rampage before finally confronting his feelings for shane.

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    14 Sep 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    This is a fun and sweet story with some fabulous Shane/Ilya pining and a delightful Cliff. I like the fact that Shane sleeping with Cliff provides them with a common friend once the angst is settled. I like that the pining takes a different shape here but the end game stays the same. I like Shane having the chance for some satisfying, non-fraught sex before he and Ilya go exclusive. Good stuff.

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    Following an afternoon of sex and tuna melts, Shane goes searching for the explicit rules of what being 'friends with benefits' entails. In his humble opinion, they're nailing it.

    Once friendship is on the table, Shane reconsiders the usefulness and immutability of the public rivalry narrative. Surely the NHL can make just as much money from a bromance as it can from a rivalry?

    A missed call from J.J., a dinner at All-Stars, and an ill-considered mad dash to the airport send Shane's season in a very different direction to the disciplined three-peat he'd been planning back in October.


    "This rivalry thing: it was everyone else who said we hated each other off the ice. There’s no rule that says we have to keep doing that forever.” Shane stared outside, past the blinding billboards and down at the streets below. “It was nice. Hanging out, last time.”

    He knew what it looked like when Rozanov shut down, when he closed himself off and pushed the world away. He’d finish the conversation abruptly, curt, clipped, and retreat. So Shane knew he’d won when Rozanov finally answered with: “Are we six years old, Hollander? Asking if I want to play in sandbox with you?"

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    12 Sep 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Lots of interesting ideas about self-perception and grief all wrapped in a sweet story wherein Shane and Ilya take their friendship public to very little pushback, and then lots of other things happen.

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    Yuna Hollander has always loved hockey, from the first time her father sat her in front of a television screen to watch a game after dinner. It was the one thing she most looked forward to passing on to her own children, and she’s grateful that Shane took to it the way he did. She’s proud of everything he’s accomplished and will accomplish, and of the man he’s becoming. So, when Shane tells her, the summer before his rookie season, that he’s gay, she’s determined to do everything she can to ensure that his identity won’t keep him from what matters most to him: hockey.
    Over the course of his rookie season, Yuna helps Shane navigate the politics of the MLH and make plans for his future, a future she becomes increasingly certain is going to feature Ilya Rozanov in a starring role.

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    10 Sep 2026

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    With the first overall selection of the 2010 NHL draft, the New York Admirals are proud to select Shane Hollander.
     

    “Ah, New York! New York is nice, yes?”

    “Uh, yeah, I guess. I haven’t really spent much time there. Yet, I guess.”

    “I am also moving to New York.”

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    On the night of the NHL draft, Shane Hollander goes to the gym. Ilya Rozanov may not be a hockey player, but somehow he is there, in Shane’s orbit, in New York, under his skin.

    Or, how more proximity can turn a fuck buddy into a best friend, but falling in love is always hard.

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    30 Aug 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Thoughtfully designed AU that keeps the boys in character. Because they spend so much more time together than the canon characters, there's a bit of a "seven YEARS of misunderstandings" hurdle to explain keeping them in a much more intimate situationship but having that be salvageable. This story does that well, though. It's stressful, but also fun and sweet and enjoyable to read.

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    “I cannot talk about this anymore,” Ilya says. Hiccups. “Unless you have read somewhere there’s a magical sex position that cures hiccups, I—”

    Shane makes an interesting sound. Ilya’s head snaps up. Shane is making intense eye contact with the wall next to them, and he’s pink - pinker than he would usually be from being pressed against a door and kissed. And, crucially, he’s gone rock hard against Ilya’s thigh. Ilya is fucking delighted.

    “Hollander,” he says. Thrilled. “There is a sex position that cures hiccups?”

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    Ilya Rozanov gets fingered.

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    28 Aug 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    I love the premise of this story, and it's very hot and thoughtfully characterized

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    Of course, Shane wished that he was the one still playing right now. Obviously, he would shove his own mother out of the way to trade places with Ilya on the ice, and Mom would dust herself off and tell Shane to go get 'em. But of all the ways that everything could have ended up, this wasn't so bad.

    After getting eliminated in the first round by Ottawa, Shane goes to Centaurs/Admirals Game 3. But first he has to contend with sorting through his baseball cap collection, ignoring Hayden's thoughts on WAG jackets and the part where Tanner Dillon doesn't know how to get pucks in the net.

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    27 Aug 2026

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    Shane has a scar on his left shoulder. It’s small, barely an inch of raised skin. It isn’t recent. In fact, it is very old – Shane has had it as long as Ilya has known him.

    Ilya can't help but wonder how Shane got this scar. And why it haunts him so deeply that he can't talk about it. Not even to Ilya.

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    25 Aug 2026

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    “I can’t tell you anything.”

    ”Oh, come on!” She whined and Shane couldn’t help but laugh. “When have you ever been able to talk to a friend about the hot guy you’re seeing?”

    ”We’re not see—“

    ”Or not seeing.” He could practically hear her eyes rolling. “Semantics. Answer the question.”

    ”Never. Obviously.”

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    Ilya is finally at the cottage. He’s beautiful in the mornings. He scratches his tummy when he’s sleepy. Shane is so enamored and he needs someone to know. So what if that text message Shane received from Rose wasn’t the only one?

    Moments at the cottage you missed, the text messages Shane sends about a mystery guy to the only other person who knows he’s gay, and the one text he sends to the wrong person by accident.

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    23 Aug 2026

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    Ilya and Shane host a party for the start of this year’s Irina Foundation camp.

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    “The man doesn’t have any shame, that’s the thing." Marly grins, arm draped over Roz’s shoulders. “Therefore, it can’t be done. Rozy can’t be embarrassed. My money is safe.”

    “Nobody has ever won? Really?” Shane asks, smiling.

    Roz stares across at his husband then shrugs. “You are bluffing. Is fine, go ahead. There is nothing anyway, you can’t win.”

    “Well, I was just thinking,” Hollander says, “that the guys might be interested to hear that you...have a type?” Marly could swear Shane’s eyes glanced in the direction of Scott Hunter. Could swear too that Roz tracked the movement.

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    Shane gets competitive. Scott Hunter learns more than he bargained for. Marly is determined to be a really fucking good bro.

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    21 Aug 2026

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    Very entertaining

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    Ilya does not plan to warn Shane because as much as this is about providing a weird, but thoughtful, gesture, he is also doing this to mess with Shane.

    No heads up, just a box showing up at his door addressed to Jane [NoLastName] from Lily <3.

    Ilya waits, follows his routine and Shane's calendar, and tries not to give anything away. The date of delivery was listed as five days after purchase, but Ilya gets a text three days after that sends him into a fit of giggles.

    My Jane: What the hell is this?
     

    or a 5+1 crack fic

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    19 Aug 2026

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    Very fun

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    "Sometimes I really don't understand you two," Scott says. And Ilya thinks, well, of course not. No one ever does. 

    During Ilya and Shane's second season together in Ottawa, Shane stays home with a separated shoulder and Ilya goes on a road trip. There's a misunderstanding about Medusa, the stripper that Ilya put through nursing school, a lifetime contract with gay and a rookie with a secret. All that, plus Scott Hunter wants relationship advice.

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    19 Aug 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Thoughtful and entertaining and fun with just a tinge of bittersweet Ilya introspection.

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    It starts—like most things in his life, apparently—with Rose Landry. More specifically, it starts with Rose Landry drunkenly informing him that Shane was actually, really, really good in bed (for a gay ex-boyfriend, that is).

    This is information Ilya did not expect to receive from her of all people. Unfortunately, now he can't stop thinking about it.

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    Or, Five Times Ilya Rozanov Thinks About Getting Railed and One Time Shane Put Him Through a Mattress

    IT'S BOTTOM ILYA, FOLKS.

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    17 Aug 2026

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    An instant favorite in the bottom!Ilya genre. I don't need convincing, but for bottom!Ilya/top!Shane skeptics, I feel like the switch is really well earned in this story. Also it's very hot and fun and thoughtful.

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    to celebrate their first wedding anniversary, Shane gives Ilya the most dangerous gift imaginable: for the next twenty-four hours, Shane's answer to every request will be...

    YES.

    the first few requests are exactly what Shane expected.

    the others...

    not so much.

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    16 Aug 2026

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