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And the longer burn, the sweeter that you smell. You caramel, you're caramel by MoNsTeRsAmOnGMeN
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types
18 Aug 2025
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5 times Alec needed help relaxing, and the one time he beat Magnus to it.
Featuring: Subspace, Praise, Angst, Pain, Love, and much, much more.
Title from Caramel by Conan Gray because WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT ALBUM
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Whoa, say you won't; let me drown in troubled waters alone by MoNsTeRsAmOnGMeN
Fandoms: The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types
07 Aug 2025
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“Yes,” Magnus said, gentle but immovable. “You do. You need someone to take the weight. Someone to give you rules. Structure. Safety.”
“I’m not a child.”
“No, but you’re exhausted. Worn out from being strong for everyone else. You don’t want power. You want permission.”
That was… too close.
Alec shook his head, trying to laugh. “You’re talking about, what, like kink stuff? Whips and collars? That’s not—”
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The Kidnapping of Alec Lightwood: My Wounded Angel. by Insomniac_Coffeebean
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV)
01 Jul 2025
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It was August 1st when the head of the New York institute was reported as a missing person, and he wasn't found for over a month, a lot of things happened in those 32 days, Magnus and Jace learned to tolerate each other, Izzy temporarily took over the Institute and a lot of general chaos ensued.
But all Magnus could ever find himself wondering is…
Where the hell is my husband?
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Valentine kidnaps Alec because of his progress of uniting the Downworld and creating peace between Shadowhunters and Downworlders.
Or so Alec thinks...
AKA
Alec has a bad time getting kidnapped by one of the worst guys to ever live.
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Things weren’t supposed to end like this.
That was the thought Alec couldn’t quite banish. It clung to him as he was dragged out of his own Institute with the cuffs around his wrists and his people watching on with looks that ranged from shock to horror, with a few here and there of glee. It repeated over and over in Alec’s mind through the night he spent in the Silent City with nothing but the dark and his memories to cling to.
And it was the thought he had now as he stared at Imogen Herondale and the Silent Brother who held the deruning device so calmly in his hands.
Faced with the end of his life and everything he'd ever been a part of, everything he'd ever known, Alec finds that maybe things aren't as over as he thought. They won't be the same, not ever again, but maybe with the help of someone he'd convinced himself he could never have, he can take what was done to him and make it into something even better. Something that, for the first time in his life, he can be proud of.
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- Part 18 of Tumblr Prompts - Make it Dragons
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Midnight Rain by angelsmalec
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types, The Shadowhunter Chronicles - Cassandra Clare, The Mortal Instruments Series - Cassandra Clare, The Mortal Instruments (Movies)
06 Jun 2025
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Following "Would've, Could've, Should've".
Magnus comes back home in the middle of the night, because Alec calls him for the first time in almost two weeks.
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- Part 9 of Painful Love
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Meow and Forever by Kasper_TAG
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types
04 Apr 2025
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When Alec returns home from a week-long work trip, Magnus is nowhere to be found. The doors are locked, there's a horrible, lingering smell in the loft, and a big black cat shows up out of nowhere. Alec tries his best to solve the surreal mystery he's faced with while questioning his sanity. Where did this weird cat come from, and where the hell is his husband?
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- Part 1 of A Love That Knows No Bounds
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Please, Don't Leave Me by Fantasy_Fanatic03
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Mortal Instruments Series - Cassandra Clare
18 Aug 2024
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Magnus was immortal. He was supposed to outlive Alec. Alec was supposed to die before him.
But instead, Alec was watching uselessly as Magnus took his last breaths.
Alec’s chest hurt so bad, heart pounding in ferocious agony. Alec’s stomach churned and his chest ached so bad he thought he was dying too.
He wanted to die too. A life without Magnus was a life he didn’t want to lead.
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Alec has a fucked up life he’d known that since he was kids but now he’s moved in with his mom, her boyfriend and his younger siblings he release just how messed up in the head he really is. Can a Magnus and his friends bring him back from the edge? Or are they going to have to watch Alec fall.
Or Alec lived with Robert after his parents got divorced. Robert abused him before the divorce but after it became much worse. After Robert said he didn’t want Alec any more he move back in with Maryse but no one knows what’s really going on with the him.
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"On every mission I've ever been on, I've never felt that type of fear. Ever. Not knowing if you were alive or dead... I was terrified."
What happened in the hours after this declaration?
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You're On Your Own, Kid by angelsmalec for DAkuCintaKamuM
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types, The Shadowhunter Chronicles - Cassandra Clare, The Mortal Instruments Series - Cassandra Clare, The Mortal Instruments (Movies)
30 Nov 2022
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Caleb dragged Alec to a party. Alec isn't a people person, so he's not at his best there. After a couple of small incidents with some strangers, someone helps him. Magnus Bane, who would later on become the love of his life.
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- Part 13 of Painful Love
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Last First Kiss by angelsmalec for DAkuCintaKamuM
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types, The Shadowhunter Chronicles - Cassandra Clare, The Mortal Instruments Series - Cassandra Clare, The Mortal Instruments (Movies)
06 Oct 2022
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Six months living with Magnus have gone by, since he found Alec in the streets. Anyone would say things are going great, because there isn't abuse in Alec life anymore. That's not true, because recovery can sometimes be worse than the actual abuse and Alec knows that well.
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A neighbor who Alec had stolen from a couple of times, while being homeless, recognizes him and beats him up. Thankfully, Magnus is there to stop him from hurting Alec too much, however, the damage is already done.Series
- Part 4 of Painful Love
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Love Lessons by angelsmalec
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types, The Shadowhunter Chronicles - Cassandra Clare, The Mortal Instruments Series - Cassandra Clare, The Mortal Instruments (Movies)
13 Jul 2022
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Magnus Bane is an English teacher, working in a school. He's worried about someone, his student Alec Lightwood. He has been worried about him for a while now and it's not until Alec doesn't show up at school that he doesn't act up on his suspicions, about what's truly going on in Alec's life.
**This used to be My Hot Teacher - The author has changed the title!**
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Invisible String by angelsmalec for DAkuCintaKamuM
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types, The Shadowhunter Chronicles - Cassandra Clare, The Mortal Instruments Series - Cassandra Clare, The Mortal Instruments (Movies)
28 May 2022
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Magnus’ lips trailed kisses up his jaw, his body moving against Alec’s, as Alec closed his blue eyes. It hurt. Did it, or was he just so scared he had convinced himself it did hurt? Why was he scared? Why-…
It felt like it had with Caleb.
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- Part 4 of Folklore - Taylor Swift
- Part 20 of Painful Love
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I Don’t Deserve You, You Deserve The World by Babybuckleydiaz
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Mortal Instruments Series - Cassandra Clare
21 Mar 2022
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“The only thing holding me back from doing that is you.”
With one final swing towards the punching bag, Alec is stumbling a few steps back as he pants through aching lungs. He stands there for a moment, eyes looking forward but unseeing as he finds himself once again trapped in the confines of his own troubling thoughts; whispered words taunting him since he had gotten back together with Magnus. He pulls himself out of his clouded mind and blinks a few times, in attempt to ground himself or will away tears he can’t be too sure.
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His beloved Shadowhunter is so used to being second best, feeling as though he’s a walking second place metal, that he doesn’t see how brightly he shines and how much he has effected those around him. He’s a loving and protective big brother to siblings who would do anything for him, and he’s a caring and supportive friend to whose that would have his back without a moment’s hesitation. And he’s one of the best things Magnus has ever had in his long and lonely life; Alec doesn’t see that he’s the reason Magnus is now excited to wake up in the morning.
aka: Alec has a panic attack plus people who love him
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Before 2 Became 3 by Theomegamalec
Fandoms: The Shadowhunter Chronicles - Cassandra Clare, Tales from the Shadowhunter Academy - Cassandra Clare, The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types
06 Feb 2022
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Characters belong to Cassandra Clare
This story takes place during Tales from the Shadowhunters Academy Born to Endless Night. It’s Magnus and Alec last morning together before they get Max (but they don’t know that) and this is what happens before during and after Simon walks in on them. -
Just One More by Kasper_TAG
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types
30 Oct 2021
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What did Alec mean when he said they "didn't do much sleeping?" This is my imagining of what took place between 1.06 and the flashback in 2.18, from Magnus' POV.
From chapter ten:
Alec had attempted to describe his panic attacks before, but he struggled with what to say. The kind he was currently experiencing was the worst type of all. He felt like he was actually drowning in place, unable to inhale any satiating breaths, gulping at the air like a fish out of water. He was immobilized, once he finally settled down, his limbs feeling chained together and his body numb. The worst facets of this type were the darkness, isolation, and trapped sensations. He likened those to being caught under the ice of a lake at night, confined to an invisible cage only large enough for his arms to move up and down. The world outside was dark and deafening, any lights or sounds reaching him through a filter of thickened ice and deep water. The only thing his mind could comprehend was pure doom, the feeling of the certainty of oncoming death. He knew he wasn't going to die, but his brain sure made it feel like it.Series
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It was only a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kissSeries
- Part 3 of Ily
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Goodbye Max by ScreamingMother
Fandoms: The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types, The Mortal Instruments Series - Cassandra Clare, Shadowhunters (TV), Tales from the Shadowhunter Academy - Cassandra Clare, The Eldest Curses Series - Cassandra Clare
29 Nov 2020
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After the death of his youngest brother, Alec Lightwood is left drowning in grief and regret. He has been trying to keep it together for his family but being a Shadow Hunter, he never really learned how to cope with loss, especially not such a significant one.
Basically, Alec is a mess and Isabelle and Magnus try to be there for him.
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Two Of A Kind by Nadja_Lee
Fandoms: Shadowhunters (TV), The Shadowhunter Chronicles - All Media Types
29 Nov 2020
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A story of key moments in Alec’s life, from his childhood till he marries Magnus, as seen through Jace’s eyes, told as a series of "missing scenes" from the TV show, relating to the parabatai bond and brotherhood between Jace and Alec.
Jace is almost 10 years old when he arrives to live with the Lightwoods. At first Jace thinks he has arrived in Paradise; everyone quickly worships him and thinks he’s amazing. Life is easy. However, Jace starts to discover the darkness behind the facade as he get to know Alec better. Despite his father’s lessons about the dangers of love Jace begins to truly care for Alec and start to find ways to help him, only to discover the bond he shares with Alec will save him too.
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Bleeding Heart by Sivan325, SivanShemesh (Sivan325)
Fandoms: The Mortal Instruments Series - Cassandra Clare, Shadowhunters (TV)
25 Oct 2020
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“Are you sure? Maybe there is some other alpha out there for you?” Jace asked.
“What other alpha?” Alec asked as he stared at the beta, and added, “I don’t have a choice in that anymore, I’m without an Alpha, I’m more like pack less, someone that does not belong anywhere.”
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- Part 9 of Alpha Magnus/Omega Alec
- Part 4 of Bang Bang/Reverse Bang [Multifandom]