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  1. Rec 39

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    "I will tell Mama about you, Shane Hollander. I will tell her how you brought back my brother's smile."

    A glimpse into Alexei's mind after his father's death and Ilya's departure from Russia.

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    01 Sep 2026

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    Five times Shane Hollander doesn't ask for help (but gets it anyway) and once when he does.

    Or: A collection of incredibly gratuitous soft moments between your two favorite hockey players.

    Sister work to "The Only Exception."

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    01 Sep 2026

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    Ilya had told Shane to leave because they needed space - they needed some room to catch their breath so they could talk about things properly. So they could say sorry and fix the mess they had made. But one day apart stretched into two, into three, into a week, and suddenly Shane was on the other end of the phone, saying, ”Maybe this isn’t going to work, Ilya.”

    At least Ilya is good at that part; he’s an expert in being left behind.

     

    (Or, Ilya and Shane breakup. Then the Centaurs’ plane almost crashes.)

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    23 Aug 2026

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    Entering an actual relationship near the very beginning of when they first meet, Shane is still paranoid about pictures of them getting shared so Ilya buys him a Polaroid camera instead to document their relationship all the way back from 2012. The only problem is that he never intended for Yuna to find the album.
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    “I know we can’t have pictures of each other, but I still want them,” he confessed, still fiddling with Shane’s hair for his own comfort. “And I thought maybe...if they were just ours, you might be okay with it.”  

    Shane stayed silent, eyes glancing between his tense expression and the bag as he pulled out a Polaroid camera. His thumb was gripping it so hard he thought it might crack, his anxiety manifesting physically.  

    “Ilya...” He paused, finally sitting up a bit more. Enough that Ilya had no choice but to let his hand fall away from his hair or else, it would seem too clingy.  

    “Is fine, if you don’t like idea,” he clarified, even though the thought of being rejected terrified him more than he could possibly express. “Was just a thought—” 

    “I like it,” Shane interjected before he could spin himself into a tizzy he would deny ever feeling in the first place.  

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    21 Aug 2026

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    Ilya has always known Shane could do better than him. It shouldn’t come as a surprise that he’s finally found it.

    Found someone else.

    Because that’s what this is, isn’t it?

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    21 Aug 2026

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    “I can’t tell you anything.”

    ”Oh, come on!” She whined and Shane couldn’t help but laugh. “When have you ever been able to talk to a friend about the hot guy you’re seeing?”

    ”We’re not see—“

    ”Or not seeing.” He could practically hear her eyes rolling. “Semantics. Answer the question.”

    ”Never. Obviously.”

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    Ilya is finally at the cottage. He’s beautiful in the mornings. He scratches his tummy when he’s sleepy. Shane is so enamored and he needs someone to know. So what if that text message Shane received from Rose wasn’t the only one?

    Moments at the cottage you missed, the text messages Shane sends about a mystery guy to the only other person who knows he’s gay, and the one text he sends to the wrong person by accident.

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    20 Aug 2026

  7. Rec 42

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    “I think you should check your socials.”

    “Anything in particular?” He hated checking the socials. He hated the socials period. He could safely live without any of them in his life forever and not be sad.

    His mom sighed tightly. “Your alerts for Ilya.”

    He instantly pulled out his phone. “What did he do?”

    She looked sympathetic, at least. “I think you should take a look yourself.”

    Checking Twitter first, he saw a photo of Ilya at his usual coffee stop after therapy. But he looked like hell. He looked like he’d lost a damed war. His t-shirt had tiny tears and dirty, his hair was a mess, and his face was red and there were cuts. “He did NOT leave the house like that this morning,” he assured his mother.

    “There’re other photos. They actually look worse.”

    **

    Ilya encounters a great terror.

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    20 Aug 2026

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    [Two men in suits sit behind a sports desk in the Canadian Tire Centre. The arena behind them is full as players begin to circle on the ice for warmups.]

    Johnny: Good evening, everyone, and welcome to the Canadian Tire Centre for the home opener of the Ottawa Centaurs. I'm Johnny Bernard.

    Martin: And I'm Martin Thomas. We're glad you're here with us for what appears is already shaping up to be interesting evening.

    Johnny: Yes, it's been a wild few months in the hockey world with the outing of Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov and then Shane Hollander signing with Ottawa. And here tonight, the players took to the ice a few moments ago, and it appears Ilya Rozanov is wearing a jersey that says 'Hollander' on the back.

    Martin: He was also announced as Ilya Hollander. There's been no comment or announcement from the team regarding the name and there doesn't seem to be anyone else who's name is different, so we're not really sure what's going on with that.

    Johnny: Is Rozanov just showing support? Did they get married? Was he adopted? We're really in the dark here.

    Martin: We really are, and I can't imagine the League will be thrilled about this however it shakes out.

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    19 Aug 2026

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    Hollander didn’t like him.

    That was new and literally made no sense. Cliff was sure Hollander never had problems with him before. He didn’t think Hollander even knew his name. The only possible reason for this new development was that Hollander was a homophobe and the video of him and Roz had disgusted him.

    or,

    Cliff Marlow kisses Ilya Rozanov as a joke. Shane Hollander does not find it funny. Thus begins the stupidest love triangle in hockey history.

    Spoiler alert: not a triangle, just pure Cliff-abuse.

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    17 Aug 2026

  10. Rec 29

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    “Can I do something for you?” David asked when Bryce didn’t state his intention.

    “So, was that like… for real? It wasn’t some kind of deep fake or something?”

    David sighed and lowered his laptop lid just a bit. “It was real.”

    “I heard they’re gonna be investigated.”

    That was the rumor. He was neither confirming nor denying it. “I can’t say anything about that.”

    Bryce seemed to be thinking awfully hard about something. “WERE they throwing games for each other?”

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    The Monday after The Video is released, David has to go into work. There are a lot of questions from a lot of people.

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    17 Aug 2026

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    Ilya is tired of being called stupid. Tired of reporters blinking at him like he’s buffering. Tired of social media deciding that an accent equals ignorance. So he decides to fix it.

    Shane lets it be a joke — until he hears Ilya sanding down the edges of himself under bright arena lights. He doesn’t interrupt interviews. Until he does.

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    17 Aug 2026

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    Shane and Ilya's secret relationship had just been outed via Hayden's FanMail video. Except, to the players and coaches far and wide, it's not much of a secret...

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    16 Aug 2026

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    16 Aug 2026

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    [Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander sit together in a sterile interrogation room. There’s a height chart on the wall behind them, and a harsh light hangs overhead. Next to them on the table is a polygraph machine.]

    Producer: Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander. 

    Shane: Yes.

    Ilya: Yes, those are our names. See how truthful I’m already being?

    Shane: You’re not even hooked up to anything yet. 

    Ilya: I’m just establishing how honest I am before we start. 

    Producer: Well, that’s good because you’re both here to take a lie detector test. The way this works is that one of you will be hooked up to the machine while the other asks questions, and then you’ll switch. Judd [the camera switches to show a man with glasses and stark white hair sitting at the polygraph machine] will be reading your results in real time. Shane, you’ll go first.

    Shane: Goody. 

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    11 Aug 2026

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    10 Aug 2026

  16. Rec 71

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    The first time Wyatt Hayes knew he wanted to be a goalie, he was six years old. He watched Sergei Vetrov of the Boston Raiders skate out onto the ice and begin a complicated dance of warm ups and ice-prepping and stretching and his uncle shook his head and rolled his eyes.

    ‘Goalies are so fuckin’ weird,’ he’d said.

    ‘Glenn, don’t teach the boy swears before he’s graduated from Timbits, or I’ll catch hell from my old lady,’ his dad had chastised his uncle.

    Wyatt sat there, butt on the floor, legs crossed, in front of the tv, transfixed. He thought all the best people were weird. Spider-Man was weird. Scarlett Witch was weird. His older sister Kristy was weird. All the adults said so. So Wyatt Hayes was going to be weird, too. And that meant he was going to be a goalie.

    Or: Wyatt Hayes does not sit idly by when there's homophobia.

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    08 Aug 2026

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    Shane is the steady ground he stands upon, the hand that guides him, the very air that he breathes. They’re so entwined now, that Ilya is certain he would cease to exist if ever they were separated.

    It’s maybe becoming a problem.

    Or, 5 times Ilya and Shane try (and fail) not to be codependent, and 1 time they just give into it.

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    07 Aug 2026

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    shane and his sex life from the outside

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    05 Aug 2026

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    "I noticed that you repeat things I say."
    For a moment, Shane simply stared at him. Then he blinked.
    "Oh."
    The response wasn't defensive. He didn’t sound annoyed - if anything, Shane looked caught off guard, almost embarrassed even. It made Ilya feel slightly bad that he had brought this up.
    "It happens a lot," Ilya said carefully.
    "I mean, I guess, yeah,” the tips of Shane's ears turned pink, and his voice got unexpectedly quiet.
    Ilya hesitated before forcing himself to continue, realising there was no going back now.
    "Are you making fun of me?"

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    03 Aug 2026

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    “If a crystal ball could tell you the truth about yourself, your life, the future or anything else, what would you want to know?” Quickly, Ilya adds, “Don’t say that you want to know if you win the Cup.”

    “Why not? What if that’s my answer?”

    “Is so boring, Hollander. Of course you want to know this. But Ilya Rozanov and Boston Raiders exist in this world, so crystal ball says, so sad, but no.”

    “Fuck off. What are these questions even for, anyway? Are you interviewing me for something? Wouldn’t you have to, like, tell me if you were?”

    Ilya is quick to assure Hollander before his paranoia takes him right out of this phone call. “It is not for interview, Hollander. I am just wondering. Answer the question.”

    “And I can’t say that I would want to know whether I win the Cup.”

    “Yes, other than that.”

    “I guess… I guess I would want to know, like, am I happy?”

     


     
    Ilya reads an article about 36 questions that are supposed to make people fall in love. He decides to ask Shane.

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    30 Jul 2026

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